Mika and Bose remained quiet for most of the dinner and even after dinner. Mika felt relief when the O'Brien and De Silva families started getting their coats, meaning they were leaving. Chapa was trying to balance boxes and boxes of leftovers with Luke while Miles was complaining to his mom that if she let them take so much they wouldn't have enough to last themselves.
Celia gave Mika a big hug which she returned, however, she did ask Mika if everything was okay because she must have noticed she wasn't as enthusiastic this year. Other than the fact I've been having migraines, fatigue, increased urination, and throwing my guts up for the past five months, I'm great, Mika wanted to say. But instead, she responded with, "Of course, I'm just tired from today's festivities,". Bose waited for his mom to stop talking to Mika before he went to her. Bose gave her a quick peck on her lips and went in for another embrace.
"Leave your window open," He whispered in her ear. Mika nodded in understanding, giving him a little squeeze before she let go. The adults thanked the Macklin's for another great holiday and affectionally endorsed each other before leaving.
That night, Mika was glad to have time to herself again. After she threw her clothes in the laundry bin, she grabbed her towel. She needed a nice warm shower to cool her off. Before getting in she played some soft music to keep her company.
After her nice relaxing shower, she put on her pj's and decide to light some sage she stole from Miles's room earlier that week. When Mika got to her bed, she reached for her laptop which was on the nightstand and opened it. The screen immediately lit up and she saw that she had forgotten to close the recent tab.
Planned Parenthood
Mika anxiously started to bite her thumb nail. There was so much to consider and she was running out of time. A couple of days ago when Mika couldn't sleep, she got on the phone with a healthcare worker and started asking questions about abortions. Her heart was racing because she's been considering it for a while. The lady on the phone told her that since she was about to end her second trimester it would be difficult to have an abortion as an option and that she should talk to her doctor about it. Mika was looking for an easy way out but she doubted an abortion would be easy and it didn't feel right for her.
Mika sighed looking at her screen, was she really ready to be a Mom? How did i get here?
She heard movement from outside her window and when she looked up she saw Bose climbing in, also in his nightwear. "Hey," Mika awkwardly smiled closing her laptop. "Hi," Bose responded in the same way, dusting his pants. They looked at each from across the room, neither sure what to do next until Mika spread her arms out suggesting he take a seat on her bed. Mika moved over and Bose placed himself on the middle edge of the bed, one leg crossed on the mattress and the other on the floor facing her.
"How quiet do i have to be?" Bose half-joked. Mika laughed a little,"Don't worry, it's not thanksgiving if my whole family isn't knocked out cold from their meal,". Bose grinned, his own parents were the same way, he didn't even have to use the 'secret' door to sneak out, he walked right through the front door, and he doubted they heard him turn his car on.
Now, for what he was really here to talk about. Bose practiced what he wanted to say, he even thought to write it down but what he wanted to say kept changing. "So," Bose started, and Mika bit her lip nervously.
"How are you?" he asked, " Or should i say, how are you guys?" his head motioned to her stomach.
Mika actually found his revised question kind of cute, she placed her hand on her belly, "We're dealing," She nodded.
"Great," Bose's face lit up.
They knew this was gonna be fiddly but hoped that once they started talking about it, it would be smooth sailing. So Mika continued, "Bose I'm sorry i didn't tell you sooner, and that I've been the biggest bitch to you. I've been in denial ever since i found out. For half of it i tried to convince myself it was just a scare, and the other half i spent worrying about how this news could affect not just you but everyone in our lives, you were the first and last person i wanted to go about this," Mika apologized.
Bose gently rubbed her arm, "Hey don't worry about it, i know this has been complicated for you, it's natural to have felt like that, besides i can never think of you as a bitch," Bose insisted and gave her an assuring smile. Mika was grateful for how understanding Bose was, now that things were coming to the light, she wasn't sure why she was so afraid to tell him in the beginning.
"So tell me everything, when did you know, who knows," Bose encouraged.
"Actually no one knows but us," She revealed and Bose was relieved to hear that. No one else knew before him.
"I found out last month, i hadn't been feeling well for a really long time so i googled what might have been wrong with me. All my symptoms either meant I'd be in a coffin in three months' time..." She trailed off to chuckle and Bose pressed his lips together to resist a smile, "or that i was pregnant," she said more seriously.
"I took the test, turns out i was, i put the pieces together and realized i had actually been pregnant for a while, about five months now so-" "Five months?!" Bose interjected, startled. That meant she was basically halfway done. Mika gave him that, 'Yeah, i know' look.
It was quiet for a little bit.
"Well, we screwed up..." he added, "Major," Mika replied.
Bose had a lot to reflect on, he kept telling her 'We' but he couldn't help but think this was mostly his doing. Was he really ready to be a Dad? The thought scared him, either in a good way or a bad way but he also felt a little pride. Ever since he found out, the constant 'What if' was on his mind. However, this was about Mika, she was the one carrying the child after all, so to him it was only fair that her wishes were above his.
"Mika, I'm here for you, whatever you wanna do, I'll support you, i give you my word," Bose promised. I'll support you, that's all she wanted someone to tell her. She nearly started crying again hearing how sincere he sounded. "Have you looked into our options?" He questioned.
"Yes actually, i know i should have waited to talk to you first before thinking about any big decisions, but I've deliberated abortion," Mika admitted. Bose's heart palpitated, he didn't know how to respond. Yes, he said he wanted it to be her choice but that didn't mean he wasn't allowed to feel some type of way.
"But," Mika went on, "I'm too far along for one, However, i don't think i would have gone along with it anyways so there's that," she clarified.
"Oh," was the only thing Bose could think to say.
"Then i thought about putting them up for adoption," She revealed, somehow that option bothered him even more, however, he tried not to show it.
The idea of childbirth at her age scared her but she understood that it was something life-changing and it would affect how she saw the world. "But then i started thinking about what it would be like for me, us, if i knew i had a kid out there, a living breathing human being that belonged to me and i couldn't see them or i can, but they'll be with someone else, especially when i do become ready to be a Mother," Mika reconsolidation. That's exactly how Bose felt about that option, he wouldn't be able to bear not knowing his own kid, his own flesh and blood. Bose kindly nodded, "Yeah i hear you, I'm not sure I'll be able to get over it for a long time either,".'
Mika stopped to think, she noticed that Bose hadn't really mentioned what his thoughts were and how he was feeling about the whole thing. But she did notice some of his reactions to the options she gave him. "What about you? You don't seem as freak as i am, which I guess would make sense in a way," Mika asked.
Bose looked down at his fingers, his hands apparently resting on her knee. There was so much to say and think about, but it was hard for his mind not to go blank. "How exactly does one go about this, i mean this is happening...like i said I'll support whatever you choose,..." Bose trailed off. Mika waited for him to finish, she could tell that wasn't all. " If you do choose to have the baby, and want to keep them, i would be one hundred and ten percent okay with it because i would want that too. I know stuff is going to change but...i just think that- what I'm trying to say is," Bose blabbed but stop to take a breath and Mika reached her hand to him, letting him know it was okay to take his time.
"We make a good team, which is why believe we can do it, that we can keep the baby, that we should", Bose admitted. Mika sighed, "You really think so?". "I do," Bose gave her hand a squeeze. If he was willing to give it a try then so was she. One hundred and ten percent.
Mika smiled and when Bose saw it, he thought, i really hope this baby has your smile.
"So you know what this means," Bose went on, "That i have to buy a pair of mom jeans," Mika jested. Bose snorted, "No, that i have to get better at my dad jokes,". Mika laughed, then Bose brought her hand to his lips and settled a gentle kiss on it.
He let go of her hand and Mika rubbed her eyes in a tried motion. "You do realize that we have to tell our parents soon right?" Bose reminded. Mika moaned in distress, she was dreading it. But they did need to tell them soon, especially because she hadn't been to a doctor since she found out and she was late on her appointments. There was so much about her pregnancy that she didn't know. "Can we please tell your parents first?" Mika begged. She had a feeling Bose's folks would be more benevolent than hers. "Yeah, i think we should notify yours until after the baby gets here," Bose agreed.
Mika giggled and scooted in to give him a hug, glad they were on the same page. She pulled away and Bose placed a kiss on her lips, and another, and another, and another. Mika clung to his shoulders to deepen it. Bose held her hips and gently laid her down on the bed. Mika trailed her kisses down to his jawline. She ran her finger under his shirt and Bose got a hold of her lips again. Bose let his hands roam free, gently pushing up her right breast to gasp. He missed touching her, all of her. They've missed this.
Although Mika was desperate for him, she put her hand on the one he was using to caress her breasts and breathlessly said, "Should now really be the time to do this?". Iook where it's gotten them already. Besides her family was right down the hall. What if they became too loud?
"What? It's not like i can get you pregnant," He smirked. Mika gave him a frisky eye roll, well he was right. "Aside from that, i can feel you're still tense and i read somewhere that sex relieves stress,".
Mika bit her lip to contain a smile, that was probably the only time he read something. However, she mischievously smirked and surged up to kiss him again. What's done is done.
