"I wish... I wish he'd just disappear!" My voice trailed ethereally away, soaking up sadness and mourning, echoing towards every space of darkness...
Pain. Guilt. These two emotions entwined with one another, these thick feelings penetrating my body, trying to escape through my mouth only to form a lump in my throat. A stinging sensation chilled my blood sending a shiver down my back. It was my fault. It will always be my fault.
Some people say, "Be careful what you wish for because it just might come true." Usually wishes are wonderful things full of happiness and joy -two emotions that I will never feel. I've made so many joyful wishes. Why couldn't I eat chocolate pudding for the rest of my life? Why couldn't I be smart or popular? Why couldn't I just live a normal life? It had to be this wish -this horrible, sick wish.