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Starlight, Star bright, first star I see tonight, I wish I may I wish I might
own Gundam Wing for once in my life! (Like that'll ever happen!) I don't own
Gundam Wing or this song. Kevin Sharp sings the song.
Heero's Mistake
Part
3
Written By BrittanyRae
"Yuy this is all your fault!" Millardo
accused.
"Leave the poor guy alone." Sally said
firmly.
"Sally, this is my fault." Heero said.
His
voice was the normal monotone but there was pain in his eyes. He turned and
left the office. After driving away Heero boarded his gundam and flew off to
meet Duo and the other pilots at the mad-scientist headquarters. There they
would find out what information Duo had gathered on Relena's whereabouts.
Inside he cursed himself. This was his fault,
"If
I hadn't been so stupid, if I had just…."
If she only knew, what I knew but could not say
If she could just see that part of me I hid away
Heero
back to when he first received the letter…
{Mr.
Yuy: It's taken me 13 years to track
you down but I finally found you. I
will kill you boy and anyone who gets in my way. I'm sending you to join your parents boy and nothing will stop
me…}
"I was only trying to protect you
Relena, I'm sorry."
If I could just hold her in my arms again
And just say I love you
What can I say, maybe she'd stay, if she only knew
Heero
snapped back to reality in time to steer clear of some space debris but soon
drifted back to his thoughts again.
"Relena-I'm
such an idiot…"
If she could just feel, what I feel here in my heart
She'd know it was real, going true right from the start
But I'm just a man who didn't understand
What she was goin' through
She's gone away, maybe she'd stay, if she only knew
"If
she's dead…" Heero's grip tightened on the controls. Then he did something
un-Heerolike,
How?,
How did I let her get away?
"Please God, if you exist, please let her be
okay."
He'd
come so close to losing her so many times, he'd broken her heart so many more,
and it had taken him so long to admit his feelings he didn't know how he could
have been such a moron.
Love, love is so easy to feel, but the hardest word
to say
Heero landed at the hangar and stored his
gundam with the others' then he joined the others to find out what information
Duo had gotten hold of.
"Okay
Maxwell what'd you find?" Wufei asked skeptically.
"Well
Hilde's really good at spying so she's been hard at work. She remembered that
note Heero got so she did some research. First she talked with Dr. J to find
out Heero's real name. Apparently Heero here is a Yuy but Heero's not his true
first name- his real first name is Jade. Then Hilde found out who his parents
were, where they lived, when they died, ect." Duo paused.
"Go
ahead Duo, continue." Quatre told him.
"It
seems that On November 17 A.C. 182 in Tokyo, Japan the Yuy's were living at a
house at the intersection of Pa-kway Road and Sou-Chen Street. Anyhow that
night the house caught fire and Heero's parents and little sister died. The
police believed that Heero had died too but actually Heero must have escaped the
fire- or else he wouldn't be standing here right now. Anyways, the police said
it was an accident but the rest of the Yuy family tree thought it was murder.
They spent a good deal of time trying to prove this. Slowly all of the Yuy's
died and each time the police said it was an accident. When Mrs. Rosemary Yuy,
the "last" of the Yuy's, died she left behind proof that it had been murder and
who it was in her will. The man was arrested but they never found out his name.
The police decided the man was mentally incompetent and he was sent to a mental
institution. Five years late he was pronounced cured and set free. Now he's
back to finish off the last Yuy, Heero." Duo stopped again to make sure
everyone was listening and then continued,
"Relena
must've gotten in the way because otherwise this guy wouldn't have targeted
her. Hilde decided to investigate Relena's apartment again and sure enough
Relena had files in her desk about the Yuy Murders. Apparently this guy didn't
think anyone would figure him out. According to the records he was last living
in the high-class Bue'ford Area Residence on L3."
Flashbacks
of long forgotten events came flooding back to Heero: the fire, his sister-
he'd gotten her out of the house but she'd died in his arms shortly afterwards her
name was Virginia, his parents, Odin finding him on the streets covered in
smoke and ash, and most vividly he recalled a face that he'd seen hiding behind
the tree in his backyard. He was only two-years old then but he remembered the
face: its eyes had a pure evil look in them and it was grinning nefariously as
the house was reduced to cinders. Heero had barely noticed that Duo kept
stopping his story to see if he was all right. He didn't see the sympathetic,
understanding look Quatre gave him. Quatre could feel Heero's pain, both his
parents were dead- one in childbirth the other by assassination. Heero showed
no pain or turmoil but Quatre knew, ESP was more of a curse to Quatre than a
gift. Even Trowa and Wufei silently understood what it was like to have your
parents murdered. Trowa's had died when the carriage carrying him and his
family to safety exploded and Wufei's were executed along with the rest of his
clan shortly after the death of Marian, his wife. Duo too knew all too well
what it was like for your family to be murdered. His parents were killed in the
war, and the there was Solo and the Maxwell Church. Having loved ones die
seemed to be a trait among Gundam Pilots and of course Millardo Peacecraft was
no exception. It was, surprisingly, Trowa who finally broke the silence,
"Well
I suppose some of us should head for this man's home then how about you Heero?"
"Mission
Accepted." Heero replied and turned to leave. Quatre divvied up the rest of the
pilots,
"Wufei
and Duo you can take any battles that break out during all this confusion,
Trowa see if…"
Heero
climbed into his Gundam and took off for L3. First he was going to hide his
gundam and rent a car. Showing up in a gundam on a colony would just cause more
chaos. Five hours later Heero checked in to L3's Five Star Hotel for a good
night's rest before he tracked down the bastard who caused so much suffering.
Heero's eyes closed and he drifted into a light sleep. The first and only thing
he saw was Relena.
If she could just see, what I see when I close my
eyes
She's all that I dream, surely she would realize
"Relena,
I should have told you the truth- I should have told you about the note- by
trying to
protect you I put you in more danger," He
thought.
But
like a fool I waited much too long
To let her know the truth
She's gone away, maybe she'd stay, if she only knew
"If
only she knew..."
How?,
How did I let her get away?
Love, love is so easy to feel, but the hardest word to say
"I'm
sorry Relena, I'm sorry…" he said quietly.
If she only knew, what I knew but could not say
If she could just see that part of me that I hid away
If I could just hold her in my arms again
And just say I love you
She's gone away, maybe she'd stay, if she only knew
Heero
dropped to his knees and prayed,
"Please
God don't take Relena, please…"
Only knew
My world is gray, each night I pray, she only knew
"Take me instead if you must but please don't
take her- I'll give my life just don't take her's."
That she only knew
The price that I'll pay, what can I say?
"If
only you knew Relena, I'm sorry…"Heero whispered before finally collapsing onto
his bed and falling asleep.
If she only knew
If she only knew
If she only knew
Oh...yeah
Author's Note: Well I finally finished Part 3. Sorry it took so long I had trouble finding the lyrics to the song I wanted to use so I had to get a back up because Relena had her songfic so I wanted to give Heero his and it's really complicated. Anyhow, I'm sorry I didn't explain about that phone conversation from Part 2 but I will get to that in Part 4. I should have plenty of time over Easter Vacation so keep posted. As always make sure you Review! Remember:
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