Don't own it!
I need you
I need a lot of
things,
Heero looked at Relena and frowned.
"How can she keep me here?" he thought. "She's just one person. I have needs
too."
I can get by
with nothing.
Heero looked away from Relena and
down the street. "Look at all that's waiting for you!" he thought. Just then
other thoughts came to his mind. "Are you kidding yourself? There's nothing
there but missions and more killing." Heero looked back at Relena. She waited
for him to say what she knew would come. The goodbye.
But I have all
I want when it comes to loving you.
"Why have you always come back to
her?" Heero asked himself. "What's so special about her anyway?" Heero knew what the answer was but he was
afraid to admit it.
You're my only
reason. You're my only truth.
"She's like your rock. She knows
things about you that only you thought you knew." Heero sighed. "Is that why
you can't ever kill her?" Relena still waited she knew some day she would have
to say goodbye. "Was this it?"
I need you like
water…
Heero watched as Relena's eyes
filled with tears. "She knows." Heero thought. "She knows I came to say
goodbye. But how?"
…like breath…
Heero opened his mouth trying to
find the words that wouldn't make the hurt of leaving so bad but none came. Instead
he searched Relena's eyes for an answer.
…like rain.
One tear fell and slowly slid down
Relena's cheek. Heero remembered when he had first seen Relena cry. And how had
he responded? "Like a jerk!" Heero thought.
I need you like
mercy from heavens gate.
"Couldn't you show her some mercy?"
Heero thought. "Just walk away and you'll never see her again. Don't say
goodbye. Let her think that there's a hope. It's what you've done so many times
before… and you hate yourself for it."
There's a
freedom in your arms that carries me through…
"Isn't that why you came? To be
free. If you just let her go you can go on."
…I need you.
"But do you want to?"
you're the hope
that moves me to courage again.
"I thought I was stronger that this." Heero thought angry with himself. "I
thought I could do this. In the past I have failed but why must I fail again?"
you're the love
that rescues me when the cold winter rages.
"You're weak." Heero told himself.
"you're were trained better. You've have lost all feeling. You shouldn't have
to say goodbye. If only you hadn't been so weak when you first met her. Now
you're just weaker than before." Heero
remembered to when he was trained. "He should be void of all feeling." He had
heard the doctor's say. "Retrain him." "and now your heart is as cold s ice…or
it used to be."
And its so
amazing cause that's just how you are.
Again Heero asked himself that
question. "What's so special about her anyway?" and again the answer came but
he didn't acknowledge it.
And I can't
turn back now cause you've brought me too far.
"No you've come too far. If you walk
away you'll just hurt her more. It will just be a bigger blow. A deeper cut
with the knife that you already have in front of her heart. The kind of cut you
will never be able to mend."
I need you like
water…
Heero felt some drops of water fall
on his head. And it reminded him of the tears that for years he had hid. "You
can't show any feeling. It would just weaken you for the next mission…the
mission that would only bring more tears to hide."
…like breath…
"Should you apologize? Breathe the
words "I'm sorry". That would still make you weak. No you can't apologize it's
too late."
…like rain.
The rain mixed with Relena's tears
and they ran slowly down her face kissing her cheek. "Something you would never
be able to do." Heero thought.
I need you like
mercy from heavens gate.
"it would just show her that you
care." Heero thought. But in the back of his mind a voice whispered, "But don't
you?"
There's a freedom
in your arms that carries me through…
That little voice so tiny and small
had brought a doubt, "How can you leave her. You know you do… do you?" Heero
couldn't bring himself to admit it. "why can't you say it?" Heero asked.
…I need you…
"…or could you? If you wanted you
could. But do you want to? Do you dare
say that you love her?"
I need you
Heero
lifted a hand to wipe a single tear off Relena's cheek as he had done when he
had first met her. But instead of promising to kill her he promised to love
her. "I love you…" he said so softly he feared she did not hear. But she heard,
she saw it in his eyes. "He loves me." Relena thought. Heero then turned and
walked down the street without looking back. Relena watched for a long moment
content to let things end the way they had, the last chapter in a beautiful
book. "But still I love you…Heero Yuy."
