Lonesome without someone to hold onto...
There would be no more times when they would see each other again. No more times when they would fight side-by-side like the old comrades that they were.
There was no reason to.
And it was all their fault.
Was peace always this way? So lonesome? No one to call a comrade? A partner fighting for the same cause? Maybe he's finally settled down with Relena. Have some kids, start that family of theirs. Have a happy ending...
Or could fate have reversed everything?
No, it couldn't be like that. It shouldn't. Heero was alive, there was no way someone wouuld be able to kill the perfect soldier. No one... Not even Shinigami...
Shinigami could not claim him. Shinigami could not tell him. But how he tried! How Shinigami would try to tell the blind boy! But all he would do was hide inside that silent shell of his until one day he'd finally snap. Or die.
No. Shinigami would not let anyone take his life. That's why he was there. Trying to keep the soldier from killing himself. And he succeeded.
But where was the soldier now? Where was the one that he had been protecting?
Where was Heero?
Somewhere else. So far away. So long ago. Two long years of longing for the perfect soldier ever since the end of the wars. Ever since they left.
Ever since he became lonely. Ever since Heero left with Relena.
Damn Relena! It was all her fault that he left him! All his tears and lonesome nights... All of his suffering...
"Duo-kun... What's wrong?" It was Hilde. The woman in his life. The one that made his life tolerable. Maybe, without her, he would have beaten the suicidal Perfect soldier to his grave.
"... I miss him." She knows how much he means to me. But, she's still here with me. Providing the last bit of comfort that I can get from anyone. She loves me and I love her.
Only as my sister. The sister I never had.
"I know. I always did." I never knew how she would have taken this. Would she hate me if I told her how much I loved the mysterious boy? No, she didn't. She was hurt, it was in her eyes. But she understood how much I cared for Heero.
How much I loved him.
"It's been so long now, hasn't it? So long ago, I was with him everywhere. Now, it's nothing more than a memory. Is that all I'll ever get from him? Just memories? Will I ever be able to hold him in my arms like the love I always wanted to have? No... It's never going to happen isn't it? it's always going to be the same..."
"Nothing is ever the same. Life changes, and so do people."
"But what if he's changed? What if he doesn't care?" Did he? Did he really care? Was I really just an annoyance?
Was he gone because of me?
"I don't believe that he'll change because you want him to, Duo. He's always been the perfect soldier. Heero Yuy..." I know that I can't change him... I wasn't able to, I never will.
"But... Why won't he? Why won't he come to me when I need him? When my body craves for him? When my heart beats for him?" A pained silence, broken only by the soothing sound of a woman's voice.
"Who must come first? The loved, or the lover? It's hard to tell him... It's harder to forget." Hilde slowly made her way towards the melancholic Maxwell. He laid his head on her lap, and sighed as they both stared out at the deep black sea of stars.
Stars of white, surrounded by Mist's of Indigo.
"Will he come back?" Hilde only stroked the long, unbraided hair in response.
The end...?
Ramblings:
1) Will there be a part two? I dunno, you tell me! Will Maxwell get his man? Or will Shinigami cry out for an even longer time? MAIL ME AND TELL ME!
2) All comments and Constructive Criticisms will be appreciated! Email me @
Tru_blu_FY@angelfire.com
3) Thanks to Regina who's always supported my work! And thanks for asking me to do something for you! Mwah! ^.^