Chapter Nine- Back Where I Started
The next day I walk into the arena alone, and against my will. I didn't even want to come today, but Sean and Paul convinced me that I had to come today, because I had a Women's Championship match, even though I wasn't supposed to win. But even if I did come, I would have to have contact at some point with Edge, Christian, and the Hardy's, as much as I could live without it right now. "Charity, can you come here for a second, please?" I turn around and see Adam and Jason standing behind me. "What do you want?" I say coldly. "Can we talk to you for a minute?" "You can talk all you want; that doesn't mean I'm listening. Ya'll are crazy if you think I'm just comin right back into your little group thing, and lemme tell you something, you've got a hell of another thing coming after what you let Jeff do to me last night, which, by the way, you could have stopped!" "Charity, we're sorry, okay?! We were all in total shock when Jeff kissed you; I know you were, and he was, too! He said he didn't even realize what he was doing until he was already doing it. But from what the four of us saw, you enjoyed it just as much as he did, cause a second after it started, we sure as hell didn't see any fighting to get away from him!!" I glare at Christian harshly, and slam the door of my dressing room in his face. "Charity Danielle Nolan, open this damn door right now!!!" he says, banging his fists on it. To get him to stop, I take a small lamp from a vanity table and throw it at the door. "Stop your motherfuckin beating, I'm not opening the damn door, Cage!" I scream at the top of my lungs. When he finally stops, I hear Adam's calm, collected voice begin to speak. "Charity, Jeff is sorry. Will you please talk to him?" I stop mid-step in the center of the room as I hear him say those words. I had known and been enemies with Jeff for almost a year, and this is the first apology I had ever recieved from him. "He said what?" I say shakily. "Jeff Hardy said he was sorry for kissing you at the club yesterday. He wants to know if you forgive him." Suddenly, without warning, I burst into unexplainable tears, falling back against a wall and beginning to bawl uncontrollably. "I don't want to talk to him!" I manage to say, before crying harder. "Charity, what's wrong?" I hear Chyna say on the outside of the door. "Nothing! Leave me alone, okay?!" I snap. I hear a little commotion outside, then everyone gets quiet. "Charity, please, I beg you, forgive me." I hear Jeff outside the door, and the tears stop immediately. I presume that everyone in the WWF had made their way to the entrance of my dressing room. "What is there to forgive you for? I was just as stupid as you last night." "Charity, I know I've done some pretty stupid things in my life, but I was completely out of line last night. I wanna forget about that and go back to the way it was before." I think for a minute about all the awful pranks he had pulled on me in the past, and all the things he had said. "I won't forgive you..." I say quietly. "I can't hear you, Charity-" "I said I don't forgive you, damn it!" I scream, walking over to the door and yanking it open, pushing my way through everyone and turning a corner. I hear quick footsteps behind me, and I turn around to see Jeff. "I wasn't expecting you to forgive me. I was testing you," he says coldly. "Testing me?! For what?!" "To see if you actually had a heart. To see if you actually cared about anyone's feelings but your own. I thought it might be somewhere in there, but I guess I was wrong. As usual, right, Charity?" he says calmly. "Of course you were. You always are. Man," I laugh, "I knew you were low, but God, this is tops, Hardy. Playing with someone's feelings?! I'm beginning to wonder if you're the one who doesn't care about anyone but yourself!" "Me playing with people's feelings?! I think you must be mistaken, Nolan. What the hell are you talking about, saying I was playing with your feelings... you have no feelings for me whatsoever, except for pure hatred!" I turn my back and begin to walk. "Now see, that's where you're wrong again, as always..." I say to myself.
The next day I walk into the arena alone, and against my will. I didn't even want to come today, but Sean and Paul convinced me that I had to come today, because I had a Women's Championship match, even though I wasn't supposed to win. But even if I did come, I would have to have contact at some point with Edge, Christian, and the Hardy's, as much as I could live without it right now. "Charity, can you come here for a second, please?" I turn around and see Adam and Jason standing behind me. "What do you want?" I say coldly. "Can we talk to you for a minute?" "You can talk all you want; that doesn't mean I'm listening. Ya'll are crazy if you think I'm just comin right back into your little group thing, and lemme tell you something, you've got a hell of another thing coming after what you let Jeff do to me last night, which, by the way, you could have stopped!" "Charity, we're sorry, okay?! We were all in total shock when Jeff kissed you; I know you were, and he was, too! He said he didn't even realize what he was doing until he was already doing it. But from what the four of us saw, you enjoyed it just as much as he did, cause a second after it started, we sure as hell didn't see any fighting to get away from him!!" I glare at Christian harshly, and slam the door of my dressing room in his face. "Charity Danielle Nolan, open this damn door right now!!!" he says, banging his fists on it. To get him to stop, I take a small lamp from a vanity table and throw it at the door. "Stop your motherfuckin beating, I'm not opening the damn door, Cage!" I scream at the top of my lungs. When he finally stops, I hear Adam's calm, collected voice begin to speak. "Charity, Jeff is sorry. Will you please talk to him?" I stop mid-step in the center of the room as I hear him say those words. I had known and been enemies with Jeff for almost a year, and this is the first apology I had ever recieved from him. "He said what?" I say shakily. "Jeff Hardy said he was sorry for kissing you at the club yesterday. He wants to know if you forgive him." Suddenly, without warning, I burst into unexplainable tears, falling back against a wall and beginning to bawl uncontrollably. "I don't want to talk to him!" I manage to say, before crying harder. "Charity, what's wrong?" I hear Chyna say on the outside of the door. "Nothing! Leave me alone, okay?!" I snap. I hear a little commotion outside, then everyone gets quiet. "Charity, please, I beg you, forgive me." I hear Jeff outside the door, and the tears stop immediately. I presume that everyone in the WWF had made their way to the entrance of my dressing room. "What is there to forgive you for? I was just as stupid as you last night." "Charity, I know I've done some pretty stupid things in my life, but I was completely out of line last night. I wanna forget about that and go back to the way it was before." I think for a minute about all the awful pranks he had pulled on me in the past, and all the things he had said. "I won't forgive you..." I say quietly. "I can't hear you, Charity-" "I said I don't forgive you, damn it!" I scream, walking over to the door and yanking it open, pushing my way through everyone and turning a corner. I hear quick footsteps behind me, and I turn around to see Jeff. "I wasn't expecting you to forgive me. I was testing you," he says coldly. "Testing me?! For what?!" "To see if you actually had a heart. To see if you actually cared about anyone's feelings but your own. I thought it might be somewhere in there, but I guess I was wrong. As usual, right, Charity?" he says calmly. "Of course you were. You always are. Man," I laugh, "I knew you were low, but God, this is tops, Hardy. Playing with someone's feelings?! I'm beginning to wonder if you're the one who doesn't care about anyone but yourself!" "Me playing with people's feelings?! I think you must be mistaken, Nolan. What the hell are you talking about, saying I was playing with your feelings... you have no feelings for me whatsoever, except for pure hatred!" I turn my back and begin to walk. "Now see, that's where you're wrong again, as always..." I say to myself.