"It's war—where the losers die, and there
aren't any winners, just guys who turn into broken-down
wrecks like my father."
"I know, Danny. But I feel like it's my duty to
go."
"Don't preach to me about duty! I wear the same uniform
you do! If trouble wants me, I'm ready—but why go look
for it?"
Danny heard the echoes. Heard his own voice that wasn't, and
he heard Rafe so why didn't he listen to his own
advice?
The USS Arizona the one and only Pearl Harbor both
places of solitude and remembrance laid just over the horizon.
Trouble was just waiting for Danny. Waiting to attack and destroy
whatever grasp he had on reality left in him.
Deep in his gut he knew that visiting Pearl Harbor would shake up
the ghosts of his past but what past? Surely it wasn't
his own! At age eighteen, Danny Kawika hadn't truly begun to
live.
Two months ago, the dreams began. Dreams of a past he had not
really lived. Only living them through his dreams and when he
would shut his eyes. The images grew worst and more real with
each passing day and Danny knew that the climax would not
arrive until the sixty anniversary of that day that will live in
infamy.
Evelyn and Rafe. He knew who they were. Growing up,
Danny knew of them. They lived through the words of his
grandfather, Daniel Jr. Only through those dreams, those images
did Danny grew to love and truly respect them.
"My great grandparents." Danny sighed, reaching into
his back pocket to reveal a photograph of his great grandma
Evelyn and great grandpa Rafe.
There was one more soul that was a much bigger part of Danny than
he could ever realize. Pulling out another photo, Danny stared
into his very own eyes. Into the eyes of a ghost that could very
well be his twin. "Great grandpa Danny Walker. My true
our true, grandpa Danny, namesake."
The photo was old, yet the smiles on Rafe's and Danny's
face sparkled to life. The picture was taken when they were just
about to begin their military careers as Army pilots. Best
friends since their youthful days in Tennessee, Rafe McCawley and
Danny Walker not only served their country with pride, but they
respected and protected each other with brotherly honor and duty.
"I'm you now, aren't I, Danny?" He asked his
namesake, whose innocence was frozen in time. "That's
why I'm having these dreams dreams that feel like mere
memories. Your memories you're not dead anymore
because you're living in me."
"Danny! Hey there"
Danny spun around to meet eyes with that voice. He gave her a
small smile as Meghan joined his side. She stood by him in the
sand, watching him gaze into the setting sun.
Giving him a sly grin, "Y'know, you could get in a lot
of trouble if the chaperons found out that you snuck away from
the hotel and headed here to the beach. You're supposed to
be unpacking and getting ready for dinner at the hotel."
Indicating to his attire, "Don't I look ready,
Conner?" Danny was wearing a red and white aloha print shirt
with black slacks and his rubber Jordans. His hair was a bit
messed up due to the ocean breeze, yet in Meg's eyes, Danny
couldn't have been more gorgeous even if he tried. "So,
who sent you, Meg?"
"No one I didn't even need to visit your room to
know that you're not there." Her eyes focused on the
ocean, her voice soft, "If you're upset about how I
acted towards our near kiss, I—"
"I'm not upset, Meg." He gazed up at her, giving
her a reassuring smile. "I'm just a bit preoccupied
with something else, that's all."
Danny looked her over, his breath momentarily lost at the sight
of her. The closest thing to a dress ever worn by Meghan
Kahealani Conner was a mere knee high skirt and a semi-tight
blouse. Danny sat there, stunned by her beauty. Taking in her red
with white hibiscus print aloha designed dress that was about
knee high. Her hair was flowing softly on her shoulders, with a
delicate white plumeria flower on her right ear.
"Come here, Meg." He reached for her hand.
Shyly, she took it, allowing him to hold it with such love and
care. He brought her down, cradling her in his arms and placing
her on his lap.
"My namesake, Daniel Walker, died before he ever got the
chance to see his son. Probably in heaven, maybe Never saw
him grow up marry grandma Cindy Wallace be there for
the birth of his grand daughter, Samantha or the birth of
me, his own great grandson." Danny's voice was pensive
and unevenly somber than usual.
"Danny what's wrong? You've been acting
really strange lately." She turned her head to look into his
eyes, "Please tell me, Danny."
He looked away, then he turned back to gently place a kiss on her
forehead. Breathing deep her floral scent, he sighed and asked,
"Do you believe in reincarnation, Meg?"
"Reincarnation?" She wanted to laugh, hoping that maybe
Danny was leading up to a joke.
"I think that I'm Daniel Walker."
"Danny your great grandpa died, like, sixty years
ago"
"Fifty-nine died during the 1942 Dolittle raid."
He corrected her.
"Okay but, you're not him, Danny." Meg told
him straight in the eyes. However, she was startled to find that
as she was looking into his eyes, she was also looking into
someone else's eyes. "You're not
him." She said with more force in her voice, as if trying to
now convince herself more than him.
"Every dream that I've been having lately every
time I close my eyes I see these images, feel these
emotions, hear these voices that I know, yet don't, by
heart! My dreams Danny's memories all feel so
real to me, Meghan."
Danny could feel his whole body tremble with fear at the thought
of his life not being his very own. Meg felt his heart race,
knowing that her Danny was scared to death.
"And it's somehow connected to the anniversary of the
Pearl Harbor attack I know it is! These visions are
becoming more real to me now especially since I got
here and I'm scared, Meghan."
"Danny" She held him close, wanting to comfort
him so badly that it hurt. Meg could feel his sob wanting to
break loose, and she encouraged him to cry out all his fear.
"I'm terrified, Meg I've—I've
never been never been so scared"
"You're not him, Danny. You are only a part of
him but you are *not* Daniel Walker. You are Daniel Kawika
Walker James and I love you, not him"
"I think I'm falling for her"
"The only thing I'm scared of is that you might
love him more than me."
"Do you mean that, Meg? That you love me?" He needed to
hear her answer, needed some reassurance that he wasn't
losing his sanity, his soul, his life, his heart
"The only thing I'm scared of is that you
might love him more than me."
"I love you, Danny James. You're my best
friend and my soul mate. Not him you. And even
though what makes me love you is that you're a part of Danny
Walker it's you that I'm crazy about." With
that, Meg gave him a gentle, loving kiss that said even more than
mere words could say.
"Stay with me tomorrow, Meg." He said when they finally
pulled away from the kiss. Pleading, "I need you to stay by
my side tomorrow"
"Why?"
"Because I'm afraid that I'm going to lose
my soul to him I still can't close my eyes and not see
his past and I need you to keep me here I need to
know that if anything's worth fighting for to keep my soul,
is knowing that you're right here waiting for me."
"Then I'll be here waiting for you, Danny."
"I do love you, Danny. And I'll be here waiting for
you, when you come back."
He heard Evelyn's voice, but he forced it back into the past
where it belonged now focusing on his present and his
future with Meg.
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