Why? / The Healing Process
Well 25 reviewers can't be wrong, nor can they be denied when they say that they want more. Here's the next part of the story, a.k.a the continuation to "You only hurt the ones you love". I can only warn you of OOC and some bad behavior. Now onto the fic.
Why.
"SMACK!" The sound echoed in his ears, as the horrible event played out in his mind again and again. Why did he do it, he knew. "Pride", it was something all people suffered from and he was no exception, only to a more extreme level. He was a descendent of Clow Reed, the man who created the cards that he and that girl were trying to capture. Her, the girl was in his mind unworthy of capturing the fabled magical cards, and that friend of hers had made a game out of all of this by making ridiculous outfits to where when she came to capture the cards.
He had finally had enough of her childlike nature and ignorance in capturing the cards. At first he tried to distance himself from her by capturing the cards on his own. But every time he tried he found himself at odds with her, and she always walking away from the battle the victor, and he the fool. It was as if she was silently laughing at him for his failures. In his mind he felt like he had done nothing but let the whole Li Clan down by failing.
Yet every time he had done something wrong she extended her hand in friendship to him as if they were a team. "A, team", it just didn't work like that for him, he worked alone. "Alone", a word he felt would forever haunt him for he was now no longer blessed by her presence, he had instead physically chased her off, and out of his life forever.
He looked around and saw that he was as alone as he felt. His nose had stopped bleeding, its blood had stained his emerald robe. It was a reminder of his mistake. He slowly made his way back home and climbed his way up into his window of the large estate that he had lived in since he had arrived here from Hong Kong. He removed his robes and placed them in a basket to be cleaned. He cleaned the blood from his face and climbed into a pair of silk pajamas and climbed into bed. Silently he had hoped that he would be free from the hell he had inadvertently banished himself to. But in a way he knew better.
The Healing Process
Sakura turned in her sleep again, the incident had once again played itself in her mind again. She looked in his eyes again, she saw pain, hurt and anger in his eyes. She can only find sorrow in her own soul for what she saw, she begged Sayaoran to accept her apology but he only turned away.
She awoke and looked around in her dark and silent room and silently she spoke: "so Li are you sorry for what happened, are you going to apologize to me as well, will I accept it or not?" she fell back and saw Kero close to where she slept, he had been a great help in getting calmed down and to sleep, he almost was what Li had called him, a stuffed animal, there for her to hug and help her when she needed him to hold. "Sleep well Li, I love you no matter what, but I don't know if I can be near you again" she said as she laid back down again to continue her rest. Sakura awoke the next morning to prepare for another day of school. After eating her breakfast, Sakura put on her safety gear and roller blades and was off to school.
It was a quiet trip to school, Yukito and Touya had probably gone ahead of time, it was good that he wasn't there to torment her but she missed his company. Sakura was however so lost in her thoughts that she neglected to notice a large stone in the way and tripped over it.
Sakura found herself tumbling down on her side and on her back. She slowly got up, rubbing her sides, as they throbbed with pain. She was unaware of a presence that had come up to her just now. She looked up and saw Li looking down at her.
When she saw him he didn't have that cold and uncaring look in his eyes, he instead had a look of pure honesty and one of, guilt. He extended his hand towards her. "Can I help you up?" he asked, unsure of wether or not he would even be allowed to touch her ever again. She slowly extended her hand towards his and let it fall into his palm. It wasn't a rough squeeze but a gentle, yet forceful one that got her up on her roller blade covered feet. She looked at him as best as she could, with the blades on she was at least an inch taller than him.
Li looked at her eyes just as she did his and he could still see the hurt in them, and wasn't surprised. Painful situations like the one that had happened the other night don't just resolve themselves that quickly. So he lowered his head and his eyelids and said the words that he had wanted to say to her for so long. "I'm sorry", he said them quietly, almost as if it were a whisper.
Not wanting to cause any more damage to the already unstable situation. Li turned and walked to the school leaving Sakura there with a sad expression on her face. "Li, I understand, and I accept". She said it as silently as he had said his apology. She had said it herself, no matter what, she would still love him, but it would still be awhile before she could trust him.
They soon arrived at school and both had taken their seats, neither uttering a word.
The day was long and offered no remorse to the two broken hearts as they both silently cried tears of their remorse to each other.
The last bell of the day had finally rung and both had finally left the building. They both felt like it was necessary to get out as soon as possible. For Sakura, it was so she could get away from the hurt look in Li's eyes, and the guilt that she felt through him. For Li, it was to escape from Sakura, just being around him made him feel as if he was being looked down on by Kami himself.
Sakura had finished locking up her roller blades so she could wheel her way home. She had barely gotten within an few feet from the school entrance when an eerie silence crept over the entire area, it was almost as silent as a crypt, a thought that chilled her to the bone.
She stopped and looked around and saw what looked like ghosts coming at her, she froze at the sight of the spirits who were flying at her and began to surround her and circle her, making eerie sounds and wailing noises as they began to circle her. Her last movement was that of curling up into a ball to escape the noise and fear they brought with them. "No please stop, go away" she pleaded as the wailing increased around the terrified young girl.
She waited for it to stop but at the worst of it she felt a pair of strong arms wrap around her, comforting her when she needed it the most. She felt her fear slowly leave her mind and she relaxed. She opened her eyes, and saw that the specters had left and had disappeared from all around her.
She looked around and saw no other presence near by, not even the one who had held her during the ghost attack. She wasn't totally precise, but she knew who it was who had held her when she needed it. "Thank you Li" she said almost in a whisper. She then wheeled her way home to ask Kero about what had happened, she was sure about what it was, as it had to be a clow card.
Li looked down at Sakura from a tree that he had jumped to once the spirits had cleared away, as he watched her leave, it felt as though she took a piece of his heart with him. "Don't worry sakura, I won't let a thing happen to you, I owe you that much" he said. He looked on until he turned to go off to get his robes to capture the clow card. While at the same time, he felt warm tears fall from his eyes, it had been a long time since he had cried, had promised that he would never cry again, but he no control over his emotions at the moment.
Author's notes
R&R. I tried to make it seem more dramatic but I don't think I came off the right way. I was originally going to have Sakura be mad at li for most of the fic, but I just couldn't bring myself to. I hope you like what I've done, and don't worry there will be more, as I've got two more parts to go