The Stars Don't Answer Back

By: Priscilla Violet Regina

Disclaimer: I own this really cool apple shaped ring case...it has a stem and leaf and everything! But, I don't own Relena...or Heero, despite repeated Christmas lists containing his name...There's always next year!

Warning: Angsty, depressing a bit...No Yaoi! *grins* Wow I'm just not writing Yaoi in a lot of my recent stories...especially my angsty ones...*sniffles* I'll have to write another Yaoi fic soon, or I'll go insane! ^_^;; Oh...and also...This fic has symbolism that I like! It's cool...~.รณ Oh...read the fic! Bye!

"Heero..." Don't you love me, Heero? Don't you care for me like I do you? Do you even know how many times I have sat by this window, looking out into the night, and sighed your name to the stars?

But stars don't answer back, Heero.

Their sparkling reminds me of your eyes...your beautiful, Prussian blue eyes...

They seem so innocent, but by looking deeper, you can see the burning intensity and fury they hide, the never-ending flame...

The first time I looked in your eyes...that was when I knew I loved you. That seems so long ago, yet I know it has only been...a month, has it? Already? You know what they say, Heero...time passes quickly when you're having fun.

But they forgot to mention one thing. It also passes slowly for those in pain...so horribly slow...That's why it seems it has been an eternity since I last saw you...

Since I last saw your eyes. How they capture me, draw me near, then push me away.

Much like stars...they seem enticing from a distance, friendly even, but...only upon approaching them do you see the mistake of coming near.

Their gravity pulls you closer and closer, and their white heat and anger destroys you, tears you to shreds...

Much like you've torn my heart to shreds. Or like you tore my party invitation.

How could you? In front of all my friends, you ripped it to pieces, along with my soul. Like you didn't care about and even flourished in my angst, knowing it was killing me.

Is it possible for someone to have such hatred towards life? I never thought it was...but, you changed my view of a lot of things, didn't you?

You made me aware of the fact that not everyone likes me, not everyone wants to know me and be my friend. You made me aware that life goes much deeper than slumber parties and knowing who is going out with who...

You opened my eyes, but, in doing so, tainted my thoughts and perceptions, and distinguished my happiness...

Much like the stars distinguish as the ultimate one, the Sun, rises and breaks over the horizon, rousing everyone to live another day in the life of hell...

Rouses me to live with the knowledge that you don't like me, don't want to know me, or be my friend...that you don't care that I sit here, night after night, hoping you'll come back to me.

Hoping you'll care.

I know that you don't, yet I still sit here, sighing your name to the stars.

But, the stars don't answer back, Heero.

The stars don't answer back.

-Owari

Sorry it's so short, but...well I think it gets the point across. I love the title, don't you? Thoughts, comments, criticism...(the constructive kind please!)...review! Yes, review! Arigato in advance to all those who express their thoughts to me!