Confessions IV: Resurrection
Part 5
PG-13
Yaoi
Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing, Duo, Heero, or the
others.
Warnings: My spell checker is still broke. Bare/bear with me.
Notes: I am soo sooo sorry minna-san!! This whole series has been
sooooo late!!! I guess that is what I get for getting a job... At
least i get good money for it... so I can get good stuff!! Like
my new CD-RW *_* that makes good Gundam CD's! And I can get
good T-Shirts!! I just got a nice $2 Mononoke (Wow... never
noticed how many no's there are... bananananana....) one at
Hot Topic! They also had a nice Duo T-Shirt and Wing T-Shirt
but... I need another anime to sport off. Tee hee on with the
story (looking down at her cheap T and smiles)
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...Duo... Duo... said a small voice in Saul's
head. A voice so very familiar. He decided he must be dreaming
because in his arms was his love. The love he left so long ago,
but... yet he hardly noticed the time. He smiled, not wanting the
dream to end, and he held on to him tightly.
he opened his eyes to see Heero on top of
him staring fondly down at him. Tell me it all was a dream.
Tell me we never separated. Tell me we live together with our
daughter Hisui. Tell me Hee-Chan, that everything will be
okay.
I have to leave Saul.
Saul knew his dream wouldn't come true. He had done such a
terrible crime to Heero. Saul knew he wouldn't stay. So he
losened his grip. I understand.
Heero stood up and looked down on Saul as Saul sat up, tears
threatening to fall. What would we tell Hisui?
Saul rested his elbows on his knees and shook his head. I
don't know Heero...
She would be to confused.
both not looking at the other.
I don't think you should be a Preventor.
the sun started rising and it played with the
shadows on the floor as the two stood in silence not wanting to
say goodbye.
This isn't a fairy tale where the couple lives happily
ever after.
I know, agreeing to everything as Heero argued with
himself outloud.
Not even if they both truely loved eachother.
Neither one could say it. Neither one wanted to.
Heero bent down and kissed Saul's forehead. Saul knew that
was his goodbye. He didn't even look up till he heard the
door click shut. He swung around to face the closed door with
tears of greif, tears of longing, tears of pain, and tears of
lonlyness fall from his amethest eyes.
Maybe it will turn out fine. Yeah, so I'm sure it wil
turn out fine. It's fine... it's sure to be okay! For
the dream never ends... Saul muttered just now thinking of
things he could have told Heero before he left.
There's nly one chance to try...
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Heero became more angry at Duo as he shut the door and
realized he wasn't stopping him. He leaned against the dor
waiting for him, If you're going to set me free, try
betting everything on it now... for today is the last
chance. he stood there for two more seconds till he walked
to the elevator, thinking of the time they confessed to each
other their love, that time at a hotel like this. It seemed the
elevator could read his mind because before he pushed the down
button the doors opened and he stepped in. Glancing at Duo's
door one last time. A singular tear fell to the carpeted floor as
the metal doors clanked together.
Saul opened his door just as the elevator doors shut.
hopping he would hear him. Taking a deep
breath he headed to the stairs. His heart skipped a few beats as
he jumped down half of the stairs on each flight. Please
don't leave... he huffed as he burst through the lobby
door and to find he had just missed him. He went to the parking
lot hopping to catch him there.
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Heero reached his car and pulled out his keys to unlock the
door but something pulled on his heart telling him to wait. No
that was an actual voice saying...
Matte Hee-Chan!! Matte onigai!! Saul reached Heero
standing behind him.
Why should I?
We've over come our mistakes before. We've
survived because of our love! I want to let you know how much I
love you! Before you go away...
I have to watch Duo and Angeline at nine. still not
turning to face Saul, but he could see his reflection on his side
window desparation blazing through.
It's six Hee-Chan-
Endevor alone can never acheive anything.
Hee-Chan I don't just want a life with you. I
don't want our love to end!
It ended when Duo died. he shut his eyes not wanting
to even see a fractored reflection of Saul's reaction.
You said it your self, Duo's not dead. I'm
here!
And you said it *your* self, Duo died! I only love
Duo!
What's in a name-
I can't love or live with a lie. he finnaly
faced Saul. It can't work. Saul and I can't
work.
Why Hee-Chan? Why? he threw his hands out to the side
in fustration.
Heero looked into Saul's quaking eyes. He fought with his
self, his endless war with his self. Silence echoed through the
parking lot, the wind even seemed to want to see the fued between
the two lovers.
It will be too hard Saul. he glanced at his feet but
Saul samped his own foot.
I know! Every love is hard. But our love will work! It will
work Hee-Chan! I believe our love will work. his clentched
fists trembled. He wouldn't let Heero go with out a fight, a
shadow clouded his eyes away from Heero.
Will it? I thought so once before but you ran. Will you run
again? Heero crossed his arms together, his own coldness
getting to him. I believe in your dream and I want to tell
you how much I want you, but you've hurt me so much
Duo...
I didn't run Hee-Chan... I-
You ran! his voice rumbled like angry thunder in the
wind. Saul's tears fell harder and he sniffed loudly.
Hee-Chan... I won't run this time... No matter what
happens. Till death do us part' please... Stay with
me... Saul crying so hard he hiccupped breaking the
silence. Stay with me and Hisui...
he cupped Saul's wet face in his hands
and wipped the tears from his eyes with his thumbs. I
can't stand these tears in your eyes. For the past ten years
all that I wanted to see was your smiling face. I see you like
this... It tears me apart!
Saul's chest heaved as he looked at the sorrow filled
colbalt eyes staring back at him. Hee-Chan, it took-all the
strength I had to-leave you. It have no strength left to smile...
I'm sorry. I'm so-sorry Hee-Chan! he embraced
Heero and cried on his chest. He squeezed his hands on the back
of Heero almost hurting him but Heero didn't mind. He
didn't mind at all. He had his love back in his arms. That
was all that mattered.
Can we make this work?
Saul opened his eyes, H-Hai... Hai! he separated from
Heero a little to look down on him slightly. It will work!
Love always finds a way. Always! Saul's tears were
comming to a stop and the remenence fell to the drenched cemtent
already speared by older tears.
Will it be allright for Hisui? completly letting go
of Saul and went back to holding his pounding chest.
Yes. She needs a father. A real father. I'm aftaid
I'm not as much as a man as I thought I was... He
smiled lightly.
I've always know that. Heero's eyes
brightened as he saw the startings fo a Duo smile'.
Hey! What's that supose to mean?! playfully
shuving Heero, his smile growing more.
That I like the feminine type. There's nothing wrong
with that now is there? he winked slightly showing he was
in a better mood.
his expression changed to shyness which
surprized Heero.
Could you love Hisui?
Heero's surprized expression became more outward then
inward. What sort of question is that?! The moment I was
her I loved her.
Oh, I thought you were paying more attention to me then to
notice Hisui. he smerked at how their relationship was
getting back to normal. At least conversation wise...
I was paying attention to Hisui before Relena took
her.
Saul got quiet as he heard her name.
What's wrong? seeing Saul's change of
emotion.
Heero glared at him.
He sighed. Did-did you and Relena have
a relationship after I left?
Iie!! She was, and still is, too involved with Hilde!
shaking with disgust at the thought of him and Relena together.
Hilde... Heh... Can't believe it... How did she take
it?
Your *death*? She took it extremly well... he looked
away, So I heard... I didn't go to the
funeral...
Saul smiled,
Heero turned to Saul, Wufei didn't think so...
curious about how Wufei reacted.
He punched me for disrespecting your spirit. Relena told me
later that he was the one who spoke the most about you.
Ah, so Wu-man does care.
You know he'd kill you when he finds out.
...Hai... and the others.
What will you do?
Tell that truth. Even *I* can't live a lie. No more
running. If you stay by my side.
Of course Saul- Duo put his finger on Heero's
lips.
saying his name as if he were a god. I
will alays be with you. You and our child Hisui.
Our child! he smiled his genuine Duo smile and flug
his arms around Heero tightly, I love you Hee-Chan!
was all Heero could get out before Duo had
pressed his lips to his. They stayed in that parking lot like
that till someone honked their horn and told them to get a room.
The End ^-^; Sniff Sniff
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