by Belladonna
There are
decisions in life, that are able to change it forever.
But it is not
always us who are allowed to make these choices for ourselves.
Annika Hansen was just a normal girl
like all the other girls of her age. She was blond and had huge blue eyes, that
were looking towards the future with so much delight and innocence. For her,
there were all the possibilities open and she had big dreams. It were the
dreams of each small girl, of a career as a dancer, a famous doctor or maybe
even of a career as captain of a spaceship, that would go boldly where no other
ship had gone before. She was pretty smart and cheerful, a child like any other
at her age. She was so young and innocent, but all her dreams, all these
possibilities that had been given for her life or would be some day, she would
never reach or accomplish, she should never live up to live her dreams, for the
choice for this lay never in her own hands.
Annika Hansen never had a choice,
for her parents decided and chose for her.
They decided for a study of the
Borg, an new and strange species that was unknown at that time and nobody had ever
heard of. Because of their scientific urge for research they decided for a
mission during which they could study and examine this new species. In their
urge for science and research they made this choice for Annika, too. They chose
to take their little daughter with them into the unknown, on a journey for
which there would be no return, for none of them. Annikas future, all her plans
and hopes, all her childlike fantasies and dreams were shattered, destroyed in
the very same moment that the ship of her parents got caught in the wake of the
transwarp corridor of a Borg cube and was drawn with them into the Delta
Quadrant.
She never had a choice, never had a
chance for a normal future or life, for the Borg decided and chose now for her.
They made the decisions and choices
for her that moment they assimilated her parents and with them the little girl
Annika Hansen. From that moment on, Annika Hansen disappeared, for ever and
would never return; and with her disappeared all her dreams, all what Annika
Hansen had been and wanted for herself to be.
Seven of Nine, tertiary adjunct of
Unimatrix Zero One was Borg, she was part of the Collective and the plans of
the Collective mind had become hers, they were now hers. All that was relevant
or of any meaning, what was relevant or of meaning for Seven of Nine, were only
the interests of the Collective, all else was meaningless. All the personal
wishes and dreams of the single individual were irrelevant, for only the will
of the Collective mind was of means for every single drone, like Seven of Nine
was. There were no other wishes or goals beside those of the Collective, there
were no dreams of a single being, for there were none left. All of them were
one, a Collective, one voice and one mind. Dreams or wishes were irrelevant,
the single being was irrelevant, for they all together were the Collective that
was built from countless drones and Seven of Nine, tertiary adjunct of
Unimatrix Zero One was one of them. All the choices, all the decision that were
to make, were made by the Collective, for every single drone. The Collective
was her life now and she never had the choice to be anything else but a drone,
one of many that served the will of the Collective and she would never have the
choice to be anything else. She didn't want to.
Seven of Nine, tertiary adjunct of
Unimatrix Zero One never had a choice for Captain Katherine Janeway decided and
chose for her.
Captain Janeway decided for her the
moment she cut off the link to the Collective and by doing that severed her from
the Borg and the Collective for ever. Captain Janeway made the choice for her
and took the Collective from her; to make her an individual, to give her a live
back that others had taken from her, that others had chosen for her to live.
But it wasn't her who was allowed to make this choice for herself, for the
Captain decided for her. She made the decision for her, a decision that would
change her life forever again, and again it wasn't in her own hands to decide
for her own future.
~/~
Seven of Nine stood in the Captain's
ready room and waited for what she might have to say to her. Seven had put her
arms behind her back and watched the woman behind the desk. Captain Janeway on
the other hand sat behind her huge desk and studied the woman in front of her.
It wasn't for the first time that
they had been in a similar situation, that they'd had a similar talk and still
the Captain had the same friendly smile and look for Seven she'd had on the
first of these talks. And Seven still simply watched her, listened to her and
thought about her words, but said nothing.
"It is up to you, Seven and only up
to you", Janeway said, like she'd said so often before. "It is your own
decision, your choice, Seven."
A flicker of shadow ran over the
face of the former Borg and in her eyes there was a slight shade of sorrow.
"As you wish, Captain", she said and
simply nodded. Then she turned around to leave the room. As the doors closed
behind her, she cast her glare slightly down.
'It is your own decision, your own
choice.'
The words of the Captain still
echoed in her mind and thoughts.
"No, Captain, you are wrong", she
said silently and in her voice there was a slight touch of unbearable pain and
sadness.
"Because it was never my own
decision or my own choice."
~fin~
No choice
By: Belladonna