I slammed the door in Tai's face and threw myself on the bed, trying to keep my temper from exploding.
How dare he. How dare he! Doesn't he believe me when I say I'll tell Mom? Doesn't he trust me?!
"Matt!" Tai's muffled voice came from outside. "Matt, c'mon!! Let me in!!"
"Why should I!" I bawled back.
"Because...because I'm sorry, okay? I made a mistake!"
"Don't you trust me, Tai?"
"Of course I do! But I'm also worried about you!"
"Hmph." Oh, fantastic comeback there. I could have kicked myself.
On the other side of the door, Tai started giggling. I bristled.
"And just what's so funny?"
Tai kept giggling. "I'm talking to a door."
I felt slightly silly.
"Uh..."
"Matt, let me in, you weirdo."
Sheepishly, I opened the door. Tai grinned and pulled me close, whispering in my ear.
"'M sorry," he said. "But...I was worried about you..."
I pushed him away, hiding a smile. "Taichi."
"Eh?"
"Engage brain before putting mouth into gear."
He cracked up. "Point taken. Hey, what'd your mom say?"
I sighed. "She wants to talk to me tomorrow..."
"Oh?"
"Yeah. Thanks to the Yagami Motor Mouth, she knows something's up."
"That could be for the better, though."
I sank down onto the bed. "Yeah...she knows I've been depressed..."
Tai sat next to me. "Mhhmmm."
"Oh, and I'm grounded for not calling her," I said with a weak smile. My joke fell flat.
"Matt, you've gotta tell her what you feel when she and your dad fight."
I closed my eyes miserably. "I can't. I can't, Tai, she's my mom. I don't wanna hurt her."
"But she's hurting you," he said gently.
I opened my eyes and sighed. "I know, I know."
There was a moment of silence, then Tai edged, "Uhm...you gonna tell her about...us?"
I froze. "I don't know..."
Tai laughed without humor. "You know, you don't know," he leaned over and kissed my cheek softly. "Matt, look, just tell her what you feel."
"I will," I said, not looking at him.
Easy for you to say, wonder boy. Have you ever frozen when you tried to speak your heart? Ever felt the tears and feelings just disappear the moment before you need to cry? No, you haven't. You've got such an open, warm heart, Tai. Telling people how you feel is second nature to you...you never fear a thing...
"Matt?" he asked, his voice concerned once again. He touched his hand to my face and made me look at him.
"I'm so tired, Tai," I said pathetically. "I'm so tired of everything. I want to just end it all. I don't think I can fight anymore--mmff!!"
My complaint was muffled by a deep kiss from him. His mouth covered mine and he hungrily plunged his tongue between my lips. The kiss was electrifying, but altogether too rough. I pulled away from him, leaving saliva trickling down my chin.
"Tai?" I asked, wide eyed, wiping my chin.
"Don't ever talk like that again, Matt!" Tai said, taking me by the shoulders and shaking me. "Not ever! Understand me?! Don't you ever talk like that again!!" He let go of me and turned away, shoulders heaving.
"Tai..." I said, numb with horror. "Tai...?"
He turned around to face me again, and his eyes were sparkling with tears in the dim light that his lamp was giving off. I started. He reached out to touch take my hand.
"Matt...it scares me when you talk like that...please...stop being..." he clenched his teeth, squeezing his eyes shut.
I scare you?
I'm the one who makes you fear.
The thought hit me like a tonne of bricks. Me...being suicidal and threatening to run away, shook Tai to the very core. This boy, who lead us through the Digital World and got us through the battles time and time again, was brought to his knees by the thought of losing me?
"I'm...not worth it..." I whispered.
"You are worth it!" Tai said, hugging me fiercely. "You know me, Matt! I don't waste my time with things that aren't worth it, and you are!"
I smiled sadly, melting into his arms. "Tai..."
"What?" he asked, still cradling me close to him.
"Nothing," I said, tilting my head towards his as he reached down and locked me into a beautiful kiss, his arms sliding around my hips and pulling them closer to his. I blushed a terrible shade of red, feeling my ears burn and my heart leap into my mouth. Tai pressed closer to me, the kiss becoming deeper. One of his hands left my hip and travelled up behind my head, and he lowered me backwards onto the bed, lying on top of me.
I can't believe this...I thought, my heart pounding. I could feel Tai's heart beating just as hard as mine was.
I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and slowly relaxed beneath his warm body. Almost unconciously, I ran my tongue over his lips and slipped it into his mouth. He moaned almost imperceptively and pressed his mouth to mine hungrily, his tongue exploring every inch of my mouth.
He gave me absolutely no clue that the kiss would end anytime soon...and strangely...I didn't care.
[author's notes]
Okay, okay! ::giggles:: Thankyou, everyone...I promise I'll
continue this story! ^_~ Thankyou, so much!