Confessions III: Resolution
Part 5
R
Yaoi/Angst
Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing, Duo, Heero, or the
others.
Warnings: Um... What can I say so I don't spoil anything for
you guys?? I guess I will repeat my self, Yaoi, Angst, and lots
language.
Author's Note: Please respond to this one too. Arigatou.
Okay, this part has a conversation with Wufei and Heero and you
might or might not like how I portray Wufei, or even Heero, but
this is how I see the two. So don't flame at me if you think
it is wrong. Buuut you can give me suggestions! And like always,
enjoy!
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A banging came at Heero's door. Heero just looked up at
it, wishing it were Duo coming home late and forgot his key. But
no, the voice that was behind it was Wufei's, Yuy,
Open up!
Heero didn't feel like dealing with any body. So he still
stayed sitting on his couch staring at a blank lap top screen on
the coffee table.
Damn it Yuy, I'm gonna break it down and I don't
care about the fucking bill!
Heero had never heard Wufei sound so mad and Heero knew Wufei
would go through with his threat. So he got up weakly and walked
to the bolted door and opened it. As soon as he did this Wufei
knocked him in the jaw with his fist. Heero just left his face
tilted from the blow as he looked at Wufei behind a 50 foot wall.
You selfish bastard! How could you dishonor Duo?!
Heero still didn't say anything, he didn't even
respond. How can you just stand there and feel sorry for
your self?! Duo's gone! Get on with your life! He would want
you to do that. You putting your damned wall up is hurting him!
He tried so hard to get you to open up! And you just stand there
and ignore the fact! Duo would want you to cry!
Don't you think I know that? he said softly.
Don't you think I've tried? I sit here and try
and try to cry, telling my self it's okay to cry! I try and
I try. Nothing comes out! Don't you think I don't worry
that Duo will see and I'm not crying for him and he will
think I don't love him?! I can't cry Wufei. I
can't cry! still no tears appeared on his face. No
matter how upset and angry he was, he couldn't cry.
Stop feeling sorry for your self. he didn't know
what else to say. He didn't know how to handle Heero like
this. So he just did what his guts told him to do,
That's no excuse to not coming to the funeral.
I don't like being seen like this Wufei. I don't
want them to think I don't love Duo. Lord knows they already
do.
Fuck them! All of them! It was you you where suppose to be
there for, not to show your devotion to Duo. It was your time!
Yours to say your good bye, to see him one more time! Duo would
have wanted you there.
What to hear people talk about how well they knew him. How
he always had a smile on his face, a joke to tell? How good his
life was, what a good friend he was? They don't know him, he
was sad, always sad! It was a stupid mask! Don't you think I
tried to get him to open up? To act his self? To hear all those
people tell how well off in life he was, would make me sick. If
they only knew of the nightmares he had! How he would always cry
himself to sleep! How many times I had to cradle him in my arms
to get him to calm down from one of his fits, to stop cursing at
him self. if only they could see the scares he created for him
self all over his body, hidden beneath the layer of black. I
wouldn't be able to handle all their jokes. How he would
never shut up. It was to quiet all his memories. He even talked
in his sleep constantly. He was torturing him self and I saw it.
I tried to get him to open up, to be him self. He was almost
there! Damn it he was almost Duo! he punched the door frame
with all his rage.
Is that all you care about?
Heero looked surprised.
About what others thought about him? Duo put that mask on
for them to show, one: that things *can* be okay, and two: so
they didn't see him suffer. I hate to admit this, but I
learned a lot from Duo. How to handle things. He wasn't
superficial like you say. Duo was Duo. No one could have changed
him. You could have helped deal with his problems. Duo wanted to
liven up people's lives. And he has! There where so many
people who came. They all know how much you love him. Everyone
who showed up signed a card for you. Relena bought it, but so
many people came we had to attach three other sheets of paper.
Here, he handed the card and papers to him which had been
hidden in his pocket. Good luck and good bye. a small
smile crept on his face and then he turned and walked away.
Heero stood there and thought about what Wufei had said,
Had I been wrong? To get him to act how he was around
me?' he shut the door and returned to the couch, and just
starred at the front of the card. It had been a simple card with
the words You have my condolences' and the image on
the front was a serene scene of the moon in space. He opened it
up and was over powered with names and small messages. He started
reading it from the left space to the right:
Relena- You have my love and prayers always, Good
luck.'
Quatre and Trowa- You always have friends and you'll
never be alone.'
Wufei- Knock down hesitation'
Hilde- You're a good man Yuy, live your life to the
fullest!'
Sally- I am greatly sorry for your loss and I am working my
hardest to find who is at fault. Good luck'
Noin and Milliardo- You have a place to stay amongst
friends in the Sanq Kingdom Palace!'
Une- Smile, Duo will always be with you. I know what you
are going through, so if you ever need to talk I am here'
Howard- Unlike a Gundam I can't repair your heart, but
remember that Duo will always be there in spirit for you!'
And many other names Heero didn't know had written him
condolences, good lucks and best wishes. But one name stuck out
in his mind, something Duo would have said:
With death, brings hope and re-birth.'
The words struck true to Heero's heart, he herd Duo
whispering in his ears, You are not alone,'
I am here with you.
Though were far apart.'
You're always in my heart.'
Heero, now, was able to cry. Not a sad cry for him self, not a
happy cry for Duo, it was a cry for the world. He wished that
everyone out there had a Duo. One who always knew what to say,
even if you didn't want to hear it, and even if he
didn't know when not to talk. He still knew what to say.
These words mixed in his ears over again and he cried now for him
self. He knew that his future wouldn't be what he thought it
was, but he knew God had something in mind for him. Duo was still
with him. His next batch of tears where for his child. His and
Duo's prematurely reaped of life, child. Heero had found a
name for her. Tenshi, his angel.
Epilogue:
In the end Heero had moved into the Sanq Kingdom with Hilde,
Relena, Milliardo, and Noin. He grew closer to Relena as the
years went by but not as close as he ever was with Duo. Relena
became quite fond of Hilde and the opposite was true. They never
married, or even told anyone. It was a secret love. Milliardo and
Noin had two children, a boy and a girl. The boy they named Duo,
and the girl they named Angelic. They both looked up to their
Uncle' Heero and he took them under his wing. Trowa
and Quatre lived together and visited the palace often, but also
had a life of there own away from the Palace. Wufei and Sally,
well, they where always Wufei and Sally. They never married or
had kids, but they where inseparable. As for the Preventors, they
where always busy but they never, ever, had a serious incident.
And as for the bombers, they where never found. They had shown up
to Duo's funeral and had learned a very valuable lesson:
*Every* thing is right if it is for love. Period. And I hope you
all learned a lesson too, if not a lesson just a thought.