My Romeo, his Juliet, Part 3 of 3
"I never knew
I never will
He's gone now
And my heart is still
The only way
Is the lonely way
Goodbye now
Good-bye"
Shocked. Stunned. Surprised. Willow felt all these emotions flood into her all at once.
Spike was dead. That was a fact now. He was gone and somehow Willow didn't have the heart to tell Buffy.
She knew how much Buffy really liked him...
December 2000
"What am I suppose to do? Why do I have to keep lying to him?" Buffy sighed heavily to Willow.
"I think you're confused, Buffy," Willow told her and she went back to revising for her Biology exam.
"Could you be more vague?" Buffy joked, but then she started to feel distressed again, "Willow, I just told him that I would rather milk cows than to tell him that I love him and..." Buffy paused. She was unsure whether she should continue to tell Willow.
"Stop hesitating. I've had enough of that off Xander. Continue" Willow ordered, "I'm still listening".
"Well, I was going to say that I would rather tell him I love him. God, I AM confused, Willow! Oh god!" Buffy panicked, "But- but, I think I'm in love with him. I wouldn't be able to live without seeing him, hearing him, touching him..." Buffy whispered, "I wouldn't be living at all"...
So how was Willow meant to tell her best friend that the man that she loves dearly had just died? How the hell was any best friend meant to say that? Willow felt absolute torture thrown onto her. It was killing her and hurting her. She wanted it to stop, but she knew that she had to tell Buffy someday and today was the day...
"Buffy" Willow whispered down the phone, "Buffy, I- I have something to tell you".
Buffy knew that it wasn't good news. She could tell in the way that Willow spoke. She didn't need to see any expressions at all to know that she wasn't going to like what Willow had to say.
There was a long silence. Willow couldn't speak. She couldn't open her mouth, but she finally did.
"Spike's dead".
Buffy froze. Was that really what she had just heard?
"What?" Buffy asked. She was determined for Willow to say that she didn't mean that.
Willow didn't like that question at all. She didn't want to repeat the words again, but she did and when she did, Willow heard Buffy crying. Buffy was crying so silently, but Willow could still hear her. She wanted to comfort her, but how was she meant to? Her best friend had just found out that she had lost her true love. How could she imagine what Buffy was feeling right now? This girl had lost her mum and her 2 loves left town.... and now this....
"He told me to tell you that he loves you" Willow remembered and she remembered Spike's expression as well when he said it. She wished that Buffy saw it too. It was such a heart-rending look. Willow knew that he meant it.
"I love him too!" Buffy managed to choke out and Willow listened to Buffy's heart breaking. She listened for what seemed like infinity...
The days seemed to drag on. Buffy was still crying. She was lament for Spike. She was mourning for love. She did everything to get him back. She went to visit the spot where he died and hoped for a return of him- like Angel returned, but nothing happened at all. Finally, Buffy knew that the only way that she could ever be with him again was to die...
Buffy walked silently to the graveyard. She was hoping for her death to happen tonight. She wasn't scared and she was ready. This was the first time that Buffy felt absolutely sure and positive on something that she wanted to do.
Without a sound, Buffy ambled around the graveyard. She looked at certain graves and then she decided that it was time for her to go. A vampire had jumped out at her and she knew that her chance for death was here and she was going to take it, but something stopped her. Buffy didn't know whether she was imagining it or whether what she was seeing and hearing was really there.
"Don't," he whispered, "Don't do it. You know you'll regret it. I did".
Buffy knew that she was hearing Spike's voice.
"I regret dying, because I can't ever have a proper chance with you no more. You'll be sorry if you die tonight too, because you know, in your heart, that it's not worth it. I'm not".
Buffy shook her head as a no.
"In my heart, I know that you are worth it"
"You'll never get to be with me anyway. I'm in hell, Buffy. You'll go to heaven. I fought hard and tried to be good, but, somehow, I still got placed in hell" Spike started to walk towards her, "And if you're going to let this vampire kill you then do. You'll regret it, but if you don't want to die then kill him. Would you rather die for nothing or would you rather be alive and live a good life?" and then Spike vanished leaving Buffy to make her own decision.
Buffy didn't even have to think twice. She let the vampire take her and bite her.
"I would rather die if I can't be with you, Spike. I'd have no good life at all if I lived" Buffy whispered as she drifted off into a deep sleep. It was a sleep that was going to last for eternity.
It was like Romeo and Juliet. Spike and Buffy were two different people. One was a vampire. The other was a vampire slayer. It was an ironic love, but any love is still love. Their love is now lasting love...
THE END
"I never knew
I never will
He's gone now
And my heart is still
The only way
Is the lonely way
Goodbye now
Good-bye"
Shocked. Stunned. Surprised. Willow felt all these emotions flood into her all at once.
Spike was dead. That was a fact now. He was gone and somehow Willow didn't have the heart to tell Buffy.
She knew how much Buffy really liked him...
December 2000
"What am I suppose to do? Why do I have to keep lying to him?" Buffy sighed heavily to Willow.
"I think you're confused, Buffy," Willow told her and she went back to revising for her Biology exam.
"Could you be more vague?" Buffy joked, but then she started to feel distressed again, "Willow, I just told him that I would rather milk cows than to tell him that I love him and..." Buffy paused. She was unsure whether she should continue to tell Willow.
"Stop hesitating. I've had enough of that off Xander. Continue" Willow ordered, "I'm still listening".
"Well, I was going to say that I would rather tell him I love him. God, I AM confused, Willow! Oh god!" Buffy panicked, "But- but, I think I'm in love with him. I wouldn't be able to live without seeing him, hearing him, touching him..." Buffy whispered, "I wouldn't be living at all"...
So how was Willow meant to tell her best friend that the man that she loves dearly had just died? How the hell was any best friend meant to say that? Willow felt absolute torture thrown onto her. It was killing her and hurting her. She wanted it to stop, but she knew that she had to tell Buffy someday and today was the day...
"Buffy" Willow whispered down the phone, "Buffy, I- I have something to tell you".
Buffy knew that it wasn't good news. She could tell in the way that Willow spoke. She didn't need to see any expressions at all to know that she wasn't going to like what Willow had to say.
There was a long silence. Willow couldn't speak. She couldn't open her mouth, but she finally did.
"Spike's dead".
Buffy froze. Was that really what she had just heard?
"What?" Buffy asked. She was determined for Willow to say that she didn't mean that.
Willow didn't like that question at all. She didn't want to repeat the words again, but she did and when she did, Willow heard Buffy crying. Buffy was crying so silently, but Willow could still hear her. She wanted to comfort her, but how was she meant to? Her best friend had just found out that she had lost her true love. How could she imagine what Buffy was feeling right now? This girl had lost her mum and her 2 loves left town.... and now this....
"He told me to tell you that he loves you" Willow remembered and she remembered Spike's expression as well when he said it. She wished that Buffy saw it too. It was such a heart-rending look. Willow knew that he meant it.
"I love him too!" Buffy managed to choke out and Willow listened to Buffy's heart breaking. She listened for what seemed like infinity...
The days seemed to drag on. Buffy was still crying. She was lament for Spike. She was mourning for love. She did everything to get him back. She went to visit the spot where he died and hoped for a return of him- like Angel returned, but nothing happened at all. Finally, Buffy knew that the only way that she could ever be with him again was to die...
Buffy walked silently to the graveyard. She was hoping for her death to happen tonight. She wasn't scared and she was ready. This was the first time that Buffy felt absolutely sure and positive on something that she wanted to do.
Without a sound, Buffy ambled around the graveyard. She looked at certain graves and then she decided that it was time for her to go. A vampire had jumped out at her and she knew that her chance for death was here and she was going to take it, but something stopped her. Buffy didn't know whether she was imagining it or whether what she was seeing and hearing was really there.
"Don't," he whispered, "Don't do it. You know you'll regret it. I did".
Buffy knew that she was hearing Spike's voice.
"I regret dying, because I can't ever have a proper chance with you no more. You'll be sorry if you die tonight too, because you know, in your heart, that it's not worth it. I'm not".
Buffy shook her head as a no.
"In my heart, I know that you are worth it"
"You'll never get to be with me anyway. I'm in hell, Buffy. You'll go to heaven. I fought hard and tried to be good, but, somehow, I still got placed in hell" Spike started to walk towards her, "And if you're going to let this vampire kill you then do. You'll regret it, but if you don't want to die then kill him. Would you rather die for nothing or would you rather be alive and live a good life?" and then Spike vanished leaving Buffy to make her own decision.
Buffy didn't even have to think twice. She let the vampire take her and bite her.
"I would rather die if I can't be with you, Spike. I'd have no good life at all if I lived" Buffy whispered as she drifted off into a deep sleep. It was a sleep that was going to last for eternity.
It was like Romeo and Juliet. Spike and Buffy were two different people. One was a vampire. The other was a vampire slayer. It was an ironic love, but any love is still love. Their love is now lasting love...
THE END