First Child's Decision: I Am Not Your Doll



It is the day I have been waiting for.

It is the day I was made for.

My purpose will be fulfilled.

And at last I will be free.

Free for that which I desired.

Free to die, to return to nothingness.


"He" puts his hand in my chest, and I know,

All this time I've just been a doll

"He" never cared, no one did.

But wait...

One did.

The Third Child.


"He" cared for me as a tool.

The Third cared for me as a person.

"He" kept my alone, so I would not live.

The Third tried to know me,

"He" never did.

Only one has cared if I lived.


Suddenly I see who is worthy,

And who is not.

I push "Him" away,

"He" does not deserve the future.

I see his confusion, how could I turn?

"He" still believes I am his doll.



"I am not your doll"



Redundant authors notes: In case you couldn't guess "He" refers to Gendo. And
this was about Rei's rejecting him at the start of third impact.