Chapter 4 – Wufei
"Hello, Wufei." I said to him. "Go ahead and kill me, Yuy." Wufei told me. "I don't have anything left to live for. Merian…Nataku…Duo…Trowa…Quatre…" "What makes you think I want to kill you?" I asked with a smile. "Aren't I the same Heero you always knew?" "That's not funny." he said. "But before you do…tell me this. Why are you killing us off?" "Why?!" I asked him. "You want to know why?! The hell do you care for?! But you still want to know why? All right, I'll tell you. I despise every one of you. I loathe at the very thought of you. I was eventually going to move out and live my life in peace, until…Duo. Duo made me lose it. If he wasn't the horny bastard he was, none of this would have happened!" "What?!" Wufei shouted. "That's what this is about?! You're fucking kidding me, right? Duo needed money, and for a good laugh, we all decided to pay him twenty bucks to do that!" Reality then hit me hard. Why the hell didn't I think of that? I was too shocked that Duo wanted to seduce me. I dropped my gun and fell to my knees. Everything then came back to me. The ability to feel emotions returned so fast it hurt. I could feel the emotions of regret, sadness, hatred (toward myself), and many other things that I wasn't sure of at the time. "Duo…" I said quietly. "Trowa…Quatre…why did I do this? I can never be forgiven…ever. Wufei…please…kill me." "What…?" he asked. "Heero…you crying?" "Tears…?" I asked, touching my face. Yes, it was true. I got up and grabbed Wufei by the collar. "Just fucking kill me!" I yelled at him. "I could do that…" he said. "I should do that…but I'm not going to kill you. I know I may sound like Quatre, but, there's no point in killing you, Heero." "Fuck you, then!" I shouted. "I'll just have to kill myself! …Then I'll be able to burn in hell like I'm supposed to! Because I'm too fucked up to make it anywhere else! Not in another life, not in heaven, not anywhere but burning the dark abyss I've created for myself!" Wufei then slapped me across the face…hard. So hard my cheek started bleeding. "Don't you say shit like that around me again, Yuy!" he yelled at me. "You're not going to burn! If Duo's the real Shinigami, he'll do everything within his power to see to it that you're happy! Know why? Because he fucking loved you!" "Like hell he did!" I shouted back. "Do you know how many fucking times he took me out to bars, looking for a good girl for me?" "Because he was worried about you!" he said to me. "He wanted you to have a good life! …And he thought that you'd kill him if you found out about his secret…" "You're lying!" I yelled. "Don't you fucking lie to me!" "Fine…but if you're going to kill yourself, kill me first." Wufei said to me. He handed me his katana. "I will die happily with the noble katana that I've used throughout the years." he said indignantly. "I now realize that it doesn't matter if I die from age, or am killed by you now. Now that everyone's gone, who will remember me? Who will mourn or avenge my death? I never had a child. I never really had a family. If you're just going to commit suicide anyway, what's the point of my life or death?" For a few seconds, I think I admired him. I drew the katana and held it up to Wufei's chest. "Rest in peace, Wufei." I said to him. He smiled proudly at me. I pushed the katana though his chest.