Chapter two: What is the dream.
(What is the dream: Refrain, Evangelion Soundtrack)
Is 5:45 in
morning, Zero is already awaken, he dressed quickly and tied back his hair. He
walked out of his apartment headed to the nursery to meet with Life-Saver as
requested, though, Zero would never expect for an answer, merely a suggestion.
"I'm glad you
came in time, Zero, come in and take a seat." Said Life-Saver.
"OK, the
situation is this, it's been four months since our last fight with Sigma, and
one two moths since my nightmare started. I been not eating nor sleeping very
well since then. I'm losing weight and
my fighting skills are now shattered, I'm in a critical condition, in a manner
of speaking…"
"I see… but do
you have any suggestion?" Life-Saver inquired "Hmp, that's why I came to you, I
need some one to talk about this, someone who can give me a suggestion…" Zero
uttered calmly, yet tired tone "Maybe we can delete those memory banks." A
pause "I don't think so, this will not solve the problem, we need to take
another measures" Zero argued, "I see, so you think that although we delete
them you'll still being worried about their meaning? Am I right?".
Their talk keep
on for several minutes, trying for a solution. "Yet, you haven't told me about
your nightmares, I need to know how are they like?" Zero sighed and started "My
nightmares are sorta like dark anecdotes of the life of a little girl, I don't know who she is…however… I AM THE
GIRL!! So I see everything from her point of view… mostly pain and sorrow… maybe
I'm crazy… the worst… X…"
Life-Saver
raised an eyebrow and asked "What's wrong with him?" "Nothing's wrong with him…
is with me! Certainly, you have noticed it, I don't want him being closer to
me… that's the problem man!" Zero glared at his hands and tightened them into
fists.
"I think that's
the first problem, you need to talk to people who really knows you, and take
care of you, and in fact, ever since Dr. Cain died, X is the only one left,
think on it and come back to tell me your conclusion." Zero nodded, his
conversation was abruptly cut off by a pair of rookies one of whom where
seriously injured. "We will have to talk a little bit later" Life-Saver
whispered.
Zero strolled
out of the nursery and he got with Chibi in the corridors to the garden, the
girl smiled as Zero got closer to her. "Hello, Zero, hwo ya been?… Can I ask
you something?" Zero gave her a half-smile "I'm Okay, thanks, what do you
want?" Both wandered through the long corridors in silence, until she started.
"Zero… why… why you have been so distorted? Your very different…" Zero gazed at
her "Little girl, it's something you couldn't understand. Don't worry about me,
I'll be Okay" he said in a angst tone Chibi look angrily at him "No bastard,
I'm not worried about you, I'm worried about X, you have been acting like a
true jerk with him, you don't even gave him a smile!! What does he have done to
you?" her pink eyes burning with anger. "all's right with him… but…" He was
abruptly interrupted "No! Then why you keep on avoiding him?" They argued until
they get to the training hall, where they left to different ways.
Zero moved to
the next room, the cafeteria, there he saw X sat on a bench, his expression
blank, yet sad. Zero strolled toward X and aside him.
Not wanting to
push his luck, X ignored him for a moment, Zero remain silent "X I… I need to
talk to you" He articulated, X turned his head and blinked, but didn't respond,
Zero's narrowed-eye, tight-lipped expression, was a signal of his displeasure
at X's attitude. "I'm serious X, I need to talk to you…" X glanced at him his
polite face a mask of anger, "Hmp,
then why don't you talk to Life-Saver or Chibi?, better, why don't you talk to
Nissan?, it's sure they'll understand you! Anyways you told me to stay away
from you, ne? then get away from my sight!" The answer pressed hardly onto
Zero's taunt nerves and all of a sudden Zero slapped X, some rookies turned
their heads at them, waiting for something worse. X's wide open eyes revealed a
wounded expression, the stinging pain thick off X's nerves, and a tear came
from his right eye and faded just where X had been slapped moments ago. "Last
time I came to you for comfort… I'll go with Chibi then, she might be still a
kid, but at least she listens to people without quarrelling as you do" X stared
at Zero "Pardon me Zero, What's wrong?"
Several moments
of silence passed, X studied Zero's expression, a mask of sorrow and
displeasure, Zero's eyes focused in his hands, X frowned realizing why Zero was
that unpleasant, "Why are you depressed Zero?"
Zero didn't
respond, his tongue was locked on his mouth, he stared at some imaginary point,
he cleared his throat "I…" Zero lifted his gaze, "Nightmares? Isn't it?"
"Yes X,
nightmares… but this ones are totally different, horrible as the, this ones are
so vivid, and more horrible than last
ones"
"What are they
like?"
"You don't want
to know X, but I have no other choice."
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Zero told X
about his nightmares, X hardly could think evil of someone, but without doubt
Zero was bonkers He's totally nuts or what? Maybe he is suffering a
'Post Maverick State' seizures? "Sorry Zero, I dunna what's wrong with
you… why don't you try and forget?" Zero opened his eyes widely, "Yes... you're
right I may try to forget…" whispered Zero in a husky tone.