Secrets Hidden
Chapter 2 - Memories
Yue sat by the fireplace inside his house, thinking about what Sakura told him. It brought back old, forgotten and painful memories.
*Flashback*
"What were you doing in the middle of the woods?" Turdaewen smiled as she aprothed Yue.
"Thinking..."
"You look anxious. Anything wrong?"
'Am I that trasparent? But I can't be!' "Nothing."
Turdaewen made an undestanding look and asked. "Where's your Master?"
"He's dead." Yue said making a big enfort to hide what was inside him.
"Since when?"
"A couple of years."
"Well, that's nothing. You must be very young then." "How old are you?"
"45 years old."
"Almost a baby..." She deared to reach out and caressed the side of his face, with a smile that could light the night more that her pale face. He trembled with the contact but didn't do anything to stop it. "But then, again, age or time don't care that much when you're immortal. 10 years and 100 years seems like the same time to me. With some excepions, of course." She laughted. "I could be the grandmother of your grandmother."
"???"
"I'm 1005."
Yue closed his eyes. They where hurting.
"You look so down. Should get some sleep." Turdaewen smiled again.
"You look too. If you want I have some place to sleep."
"I accept."
They start walking out of the forest. "So, who was your Master?"
"Clow Reed."
"I beg your pardon?"
"Yes, Master Clow Reed. You knew him?"
"Sure! Nice kid. He lived here in England for some time. But, if you are Clow's guardian, what are you doing here in Brittain? You should be in Japan."
"I came here after his death to finish some matters."
"It must be hard to you."
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Sure."
They were silent the rest of the way. Once and a while, Yue's eyes rested in the elf beside him. She walked so softly, that it woudn't make any noise in the dry leafs on the floor. He concentrated in her foot and in the part of her leg that her dress' cleft revealed, in the way the fabric moved as she walked. It made waves of dark green and brought chills to Yue spine. For a instant he even forgot that Clow was dead.
They stopped in front of a big old house. Yue opened the gate and let Turdaewen walk over. He turned the front door's knob and opened it.
"Yue is that you?" A voice sounded out of nowhere.
"It's alright, Keroberos. She won't scream or anything. You can come out."
Kero put his head out of a room looking curiously at Turdaewen. She smiled as he came near with a suspicious look at his face.
"This is Turdaewen. I met her by the lake and she'll spend the night with us."
"Is nice to meet you, Keroberos. Are you a guardian too?"
"Yes... and you are... an elf??" Kero was really confused. Yue? Talking to someone??? Bringing a woman home??? This trip to England had efected his head more then he had imagined.
"It's a long history..."
"We can talk later. I'll show you your room." Yue interrupted, obviously annoyed with the situation. And maybe a little tired.
"See you later, Keroberos! Good night."
*End of Flashback*
He got up and walked to the porch, overlooking the garden. He looked at the white lilys, the memories still flooded his head.
*Flashback*
"Dae-chaan!" Kero called from the kitchen.
"Yes, Kero-chan?" Turdaewen popped her head at the kitchen.
"Did you saw the chocolate that was in the cabinet?"
"It must be there somewhere..." Turdaewen started looking for it in all the cabinets. "Here!! Be sure you don't swallow it whole. You know how expensive and rare this are."
"Thanx!!!!!!"
Turdaewen walked throught one of the many corridors. As she passed a door, she saw Yue looking at something.
"Is there anything wrong, Yue-san?"
Yue turned his head at her as if to hide something. "Nothing, Turdaewen-sama." He turned back and started to enroll a paper.
"Is that Clow?" She said looking at the picture.
Yue nodded. "It was painted the year he died."
Turdaewen knelled beside him. "Yue-san, I knew Clow and I can tell that you love him. It's simple as that. But he's dead now. I know it's difficult to let go but he was a human and humans die. You'll have to accept it. We'll see thousands of lives begin and end. That's the immortals curse: if you love a mortal, you are fated to see him or her die. That's why the majority of us don't get near the humans. If you want to be with humans you'll have to be prepared. Either way, if you need help, I'm here." Turdaewen caressed the side of his face and got up and out of the room, resisting the temptation to reach out and kiss him.
Yue's eyes shinned from the tears in it. He shaked his head, refusing to let the tears spill into his face. He looked to his trambling hands and tried to get his composture back. Failling that, he opened the window and started flying out of it.
He only got home by down. He walked throught the gate asn saw Turdaewen picking flowers in the garden. He came behind her.
"I love white lilys. Some say that they're for dead people. For me, it means purity, something untouched, immaculated. They smell sweet and smooth..." She got up and turned fully to him. "You took long, Yue-san. Thinking of Clow?"
"It's hard not to think of him under this circunstances. Why did you..."
"Shiihhh..." Turdaewen put a finger over his mouth. "You don't need to know it now." She inched close.
"If you're going to stay here with us, I have the right to know why."
"Let's just say, for now, that I liked your way."
"That's not enough." "But I liked yours too." He took a step forward so now he stood with his face 5 inches away from hers ( but even Turdaewen been tall, she still was 4 inches lower then Yue).
"Don't say that." She closed her eyes.
He meant to lean forward and was going to do so. But something stopped him. He didn't know exatly what. He knew it wasn't nothing like conscious because every inch of him wanted to do it it. He was starting to be afraied of what she did to his sences. "I - I have to go in now. Keroberos must be waiting for me." And with that he reunited all his strenght to turn away and walk into the house.
"Right. Don't mind me." She kneeled to pick the flowers up and got into the house.
*End of Flashback*
He walked into the garden, sitting on a bench. His wings disappeared and he put one foot on top of the bench, supporting his head in his knee.
*Flashback*
'I shouldn't had left Turdaewen that way... What should I've done then? I don't even know what I'm feeling. Everytime I'm near her, my heart seems like it's going to jump out of my breast. My head begins to spin and my legs got weak. I want to be near her and I'm afraid of her at the same time. I should go talk to her. She seemed so upset when she came inside.'
He walked past the corridor and knoked at her door.
"It's open."
Yue opened the door, revealing Turdaewen in a black overcoat with a cowl. She was putting the lililys in a jar.
"Going somewhere?"
She turned to him. "Just going out for a while. Look at this beautiful night."
"I've never seen this mantle before."
"I love it. I have it since I was a little girl."
"Turdaewen-san, I need to talk to you."
"Come with me then. We shall talk out in the yard."
"I think I've waited long enouth so I'm going to be objective: Why are you with me and Keroberos?"
"First, because you invited me. But the main reason... I can't say. You wouldn't understand or you would hurt me."
"Why should I put my hands on you?"
She gigled. "It's not that way of hurting."
"Turdaewen, I'm going to honest with you. My reactions to you are something way above my normal manner. I don't know why that happens but I'm always nervous around you. Not a angry kind of nervous. Something else..." He said looking for the sky.
She put a hand on his shoulder and he turned around to face her.
"Yue-san. I like you. Very much indeed." She turned away, trying to hide her tears. "You don't seem to have this feeling. That's why you turned away from me this morning. If I leaved, you would fell better and confortable."
Yue tried to concentrate on his own fellings. "No. It's not that. Not that at all."
"You don't have to be sorry for me, Yue-san. I'll be alright."
Yue sighed, trying to speak and his voice came out low and hesitating. "I would be terrifyed if you walked away."
Turdaewen turned around with confusion in her eyes.
"You're the one that helped me to accept Clow's death. You're the one that teach me more than anyone could ever imagined. You made me fell things I've never felt before." This time, he couldn't supress the tears.
"God, you're crying!!" She reached over taking him into an abrace.
Yue felt a rush of feelings run over him. A heat ran up his cheaks. He draw back his face to look at her eyes. She also had cried. He loose himself in those gray eyes and managed to think that, this time, he wasn't going to get away. Most defenitly not. He lifted his hand and brushed her cheek with the back of it. She responded by colsing her eyes and putting a hand over his to make sure he didn't draw back.
Yue closed his eyes as he felt a cold chill run up his spine. He putted one arm around Turdaewen drawing her closer to him, leaning forward until he felt her lips brush against his. He trembled with the contact, feeling his legs get weak. This time, more than ever.
He felt her tongue brush his lips and opened his mouth seeing his breath become heavier and brushing his tongue in her lips.
His wings wrapped around her as he deepened into the kiss, entangling his tongue with hers.
*End of Flashback*
Yue trembled at the memory still feeling her taste in his mouth. He felt his knee get wet as his tears runned down his face. "Turdaewen, I thought you would never pass throught my mind again.
Chapter 2 - Memories
Yue sat by the fireplace inside his house, thinking about what Sakura told him. It brought back old, forgotten and painful memories.
*Flashback*
"What were you doing in the middle of the woods?" Turdaewen smiled as she aprothed Yue.
"Thinking..."
"You look anxious. Anything wrong?"
'Am I that trasparent? But I can't be!' "Nothing."
Turdaewen made an undestanding look and asked. "Where's your Master?"
"He's dead." Yue said making a big enfort to hide what was inside him.
"Since when?"
"A couple of years."
"Well, that's nothing. You must be very young then." "How old are you?"
"45 years old."
"Almost a baby..." She deared to reach out and caressed the side of his face, with a smile that could light the night more that her pale face. He trembled with the contact but didn't do anything to stop it. "But then, again, age or time don't care that much when you're immortal. 10 years and 100 years seems like the same time to me. With some excepions, of course." She laughted. "I could be the grandmother of your grandmother."
"???"
"I'm 1005."
Yue closed his eyes. They where hurting.
"You look so down. Should get some sleep." Turdaewen smiled again.
"You look too. If you want I have some place to sleep."
"I accept."
They start walking out of the forest. "So, who was your Master?"
"Clow Reed."
"I beg your pardon?"
"Yes, Master Clow Reed. You knew him?"
"Sure! Nice kid. He lived here in England for some time. But, if you are Clow's guardian, what are you doing here in Brittain? You should be in Japan."
"I came here after his death to finish some matters."
"It must be hard to you."
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Sure."
They were silent the rest of the way. Once and a while, Yue's eyes rested in the elf beside him. She walked so softly, that it woudn't make any noise in the dry leafs on the floor. He concentrated in her foot and in the part of her leg that her dress' cleft revealed, in the way the fabric moved as she walked. It made waves of dark green and brought chills to Yue spine. For a instant he even forgot that Clow was dead.
They stopped in front of a big old house. Yue opened the gate and let Turdaewen walk over. He turned the front door's knob and opened it.
"Yue is that you?" A voice sounded out of nowhere.
"It's alright, Keroberos. She won't scream or anything. You can come out."
Kero put his head out of a room looking curiously at Turdaewen. She smiled as he came near with a suspicious look at his face.
"This is Turdaewen. I met her by the lake and she'll spend the night with us."
"Is nice to meet you, Keroberos. Are you a guardian too?"
"Yes... and you are... an elf??" Kero was really confused. Yue? Talking to someone??? Bringing a woman home??? This trip to England had efected his head more then he had imagined.
"It's a long history..."
"We can talk later. I'll show you your room." Yue interrupted, obviously annoyed with the situation. And maybe a little tired.
"See you later, Keroberos! Good night."
*End of Flashback*
He got up and walked to the porch, overlooking the garden. He looked at the white lilys, the memories still flooded his head.
*Flashback*
"Dae-chaan!" Kero called from the kitchen.
"Yes, Kero-chan?" Turdaewen popped her head at the kitchen.
"Did you saw the chocolate that was in the cabinet?"
"It must be there somewhere..." Turdaewen started looking for it in all the cabinets. "Here!! Be sure you don't swallow it whole. You know how expensive and rare this are."
"Thanx!!!!!!"
Turdaewen walked throught one of the many corridors. As she passed a door, she saw Yue looking at something.
"Is there anything wrong, Yue-san?"
Yue turned his head at her as if to hide something. "Nothing, Turdaewen-sama." He turned back and started to enroll a paper.
"Is that Clow?" She said looking at the picture.
Yue nodded. "It was painted the year he died."
Turdaewen knelled beside him. "Yue-san, I knew Clow and I can tell that you love him. It's simple as that. But he's dead now. I know it's difficult to let go but he was a human and humans die. You'll have to accept it. We'll see thousands of lives begin and end. That's the immortals curse: if you love a mortal, you are fated to see him or her die. That's why the majority of us don't get near the humans. If you want to be with humans you'll have to be prepared. Either way, if you need help, I'm here." Turdaewen caressed the side of his face and got up and out of the room, resisting the temptation to reach out and kiss him.
Yue's eyes shinned from the tears in it. He shaked his head, refusing to let the tears spill into his face. He looked to his trambling hands and tried to get his composture back. Failling that, he opened the window and started flying out of it.
He only got home by down. He walked throught the gate asn saw Turdaewen picking flowers in the garden. He came behind her.
"I love white lilys. Some say that they're for dead people. For me, it means purity, something untouched, immaculated. They smell sweet and smooth..." She got up and turned fully to him. "You took long, Yue-san. Thinking of Clow?"
"It's hard not to think of him under this circunstances. Why did you..."
"Shiihhh..." Turdaewen put a finger over his mouth. "You don't need to know it now." She inched close.
"If you're going to stay here with us, I have the right to know why."
"Let's just say, for now, that I liked your way."
"That's not enough." "But I liked yours too." He took a step forward so now he stood with his face 5 inches away from hers ( but even Turdaewen been tall, she still was 4 inches lower then Yue).
"Don't say that." She closed her eyes.
He meant to lean forward and was going to do so. But something stopped him. He didn't know exatly what. He knew it wasn't nothing like conscious because every inch of him wanted to do it it. He was starting to be afraied of what she did to his sences. "I - I have to go in now. Keroberos must be waiting for me." And with that he reunited all his strenght to turn away and walk into the house.
"Right. Don't mind me." She kneeled to pick the flowers up and got into the house.
*End of Flashback*
He walked into the garden, sitting on a bench. His wings disappeared and he put one foot on top of the bench, supporting his head in his knee.
*Flashback*
'I shouldn't had left Turdaewen that way... What should I've done then? I don't even know what I'm feeling. Everytime I'm near her, my heart seems like it's going to jump out of my breast. My head begins to spin and my legs got weak. I want to be near her and I'm afraid of her at the same time. I should go talk to her. She seemed so upset when she came inside.'
He walked past the corridor and knoked at her door.
"It's open."
Yue opened the door, revealing Turdaewen in a black overcoat with a cowl. She was putting the lililys in a jar.
"Going somewhere?"
She turned to him. "Just going out for a while. Look at this beautiful night."
"I've never seen this mantle before."
"I love it. I have it since I was a little girl."
"Turdaewen-san, I need to talk to you."
"Come with me then. We shall talk out in the yard."
"I think I've waited long enouth so I'm going to be objective: Why are you with me and Keroberos?"
"First, because you invited me. But the main reason... I can't say. You wouldn't understand or you would hurt me."
"Why should I put my hands on you?"
She gigled. "It's not that way of hurting."
"Turdaewen, I'm going to honest with you. My reactions to you are something way above my normal manner. I don't know why that happens but I'm always nervous around you. Not a angry kind of nervous. Something else..." He said looking for the sky.
She put a hand on his shoulder and he turned around to face her.
"Yue-san. I like you. Very much indeed." She turned away, trying to hide her tears. "You don't seem to have this feeling. That's why you turned away from me this morning. If I leaved, you would fell better and confortable."
Yue tried to concentrate on his own fellings. "No. It's not that. Not that at all."
"You don't have to be sorry for me, Yue-san. I'll be alright."
Yue sighed, trying to speak and his voice came out low and hesitating. "I would be terrifyed if you walked away."
Turdaewen turned around with confusion in her eyes.
"You're the one that helped me to accept Clow's death. You're the one that teach me more than anyone could ever imagined. You made me fell things I've never felt before." This time, he couldn't supress the tears.
"God, you're crying!!" She reached over taking him into an abrace.
Yue felt a rush of feelings run over him. A heat ran up his cheaks. He draw back his face to look at her eyes. She also had cried. He loose himself in those gray eyes and managed to think that, this time, he wasn't going to get away. Most defenitly not. He lifted his hand and brushed her cheek with the back of it. She responded by colsing her eyes and putting a hand over his to make sure he didn't draw back.
Yue closed his eyes as he felt a cold chill run up his spine. He putted one arm around Turdaewen drawing her closer to him, leaning forward until he felt her lips brush against his. He trembled with the contact, feeling his legs get weak. This time, more than ever.
He felt her tongue brush his lips and opened his mouth seeing his breath become heavier and brushing his tongue in her lips.
His wings wrapped around her as he deepened into the kiss, entangling his tongue with hers.
*End of Flashback*
Yue trembled at the memory still feeling her taste in his mouth. He felt his knee get wet as his tears runned down his face. "Turdaewen, I thought you would never pass throught my mind again.