My December
By Magelet (and Linkin Park)
Saphron suggested this song to me and I absolutely love it. It's perfect. Thanx Saph!
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
"Neal, I need to take to you." They were in the library studying as usual with the study group, and Kel called Neal over by a
far away book shelf. Neal lumbered over grinning.
"I know you don't need help reaching a book, so do you need my scholarly advice on which book you need, or what?" He
joked.
"Neal, why have you been acting so odd lately?" she demanded
He gave her a funny look, "What're you talking about?"
"Fine." She threw up her hands and left. If he was going to play ignorant here, she could yell at him later.
This is my December
This is my snow-covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
"You're so much sweeter than I ever thought you'd be. I've known you for years, and I never saw this side of you."
Neal said later. He had his strong arms wrapped around her waist, pulling her back against his chest. "I love you." He
whispered in her ear. His voice was softer than earlier. It was softer, warmer, and...deeper?
"I love you too, Neal, but why do you only act like you love me here? Everywhere else you're so... odd. You seem so
ignorant, and leave Joren to give me the creeps every time he's within my sight." She touched his soft hair.
"I've noticed that you seem to look at him enough, or make a discreet point of looking at him to see if he's looking
at you. Maybe he's not so bad, Kel." She gave him a 'look'. "Or maybe he's trying to figure the size of noose he'd need to
hang you."
Kel giggled, "I don't know. But it's just so pretty and perfect out here. Let's just enjoy this." Inwardly, Kel
frowned. Something wasn't right about the way he was acting.
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
"Tomorrow is the fencing competition for squires. And we're not using practice swords." Kel said later to her friends
right before bedtime "It'll be great, but now I'm going to bed because I'm really tired." Her friends watched worriedly as
she turned and headed back to her rooms, then exchanged a glance. Not one of them wasn't worried about her.
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
Kel was exhausted but couldn't sleep. She needed to talk to someone, and she had this strange notion that the person
she needed was Joren. That thought scared her. Why would she want to talk to him? He gave her the creeps recently. She shook
off that thought. 'Maybe Neal's right. Maybe he has changed. Any way, let's hope I don't get paired with anyone like Vinson
who would gladly run me through if I missed the block. Well, on that soul bearing little note, I really should try to sleep.'
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
"Joren!" Kel yelled, wanting to cry. "He'll kill me. This is what he knew about. I don't know how, but somehow he
knew. Oh Goddess help me," Kel raved as Cleon, who was right beside her stared. "He's just been waiting for his chance to get
back at me and what could be more perfect than this." Kel was staring at the wall in paranoia. Cleon shook his head and
steered her towards her rooms.
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
"Look, Kel. You've, like, just snapped. If there's something wrong that you need to tell someone about or something
that's bugging you, you can tell me. You may be sick of me, but I still love you and will do anything for you, especially
keep a secret. That's easy. Come on Kel, tell me." Cleon coaxed
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
"I'm fine Cleon, and I won't tell you. I can't tell anyone. Now let me go, I need to warm up, we're up first." Kel
snapped, shoving past him out of her rooms and into the hall, storming towards the fencing arena in which she would fight her
nightmare. 'That's what he is, with his piercing blue eyes and white-blonde hair. It's enough to cut any girl to pieces until
they see what he is inside.' She thought.
This is my December
These are my snow-covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
A bell sounded to cue the fencers. Joren and Kel took off like a tornado whipping their swords around. No martial
arts were allowed, so no punches or kicks would be thrown. Kel was almost shaking, but she could hear her friends encouraging
her from the sides. She shut them out. She and Joren were the only two in the world. And only their swords mattered other
than that. The foils that they were fencing with were sharper than anything so that the merest pick would draw blood and the
victor was the first to do so.
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
At first each thrust or attempt to strike was easily blocked by the opponent. Then it got harder. Suddenly Joren spun
around and went for her tummy, she had thought that he was going for her head, so she reacted so. Joren struck her across the
belly. She heard her clothes rip and felt a sting. She saw bright red blood on Joren's sword. Looking slowly around, Kel saw
all the faces or the shocked on-lookers, then the shock and horror on Joren's paled face. Ever so slowly, Kel looked at her
stomach and saw a thick line of blood, her blood across her ripped shirt. She looked up at Joren once more and collapsed.
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
Kel saw white. A bright, white light. She shut her eyes and reached automatically for her bared stomach, which felt
heavy for some reason, like there was a slight pressure. Using her other arm to cover her eyes, she gently touched what was
on top of her. Her fingers fluttered over a familiar face and she smiled. "I'm glad you came."
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
Kel realized that the bottom part of her shirt had been cut off and she was in the infirmary, in Duke Baird's domain.
"Kel, I can't stay long," whispered Neal's voice. They'll be coming back soon to check with you, this is the only time that I
can have alone with you." He brushed his lips across the scar she had gained from her experience. Meet me in our special spot
as soon as you can. He kissed her on the lips softly and said "Get some rest so that you'll be better than ever soon. I need
you." Kel kissed him on the cheek then opened her eyes.
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
Her jaw dropped. It wasn't Neal. She gasped and started to say something only to find she was at a loss for words. He
smiled. "Well, now you know it's me and not Neal. That's why he's been acting so funny to you. He has no clue what you're
talking about. So, do you love Neal or me? I can be both thanks to a spell Numair gave me. It's amazing what a Gift can make.
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
"I... I can't believe it's actually you. You were so nice so sweet. I never knew anyone could act like that,
especially you and especially to me. I don't know how I feel. And having this scar throbbing lightly doesn't help any at all."
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
"We all thought that you'd see what was happening and block it. You're usually so good at noticing the hidden attack.
It's one of your charms." He said, making Kel actually smile. How did she feel about him? She wasn't quite sure. She did like
him. That went without saying, she knew that, but did she love him like she did him as Neal?
This is my December
This is my time of the year
"Kel, all the stuff, except when I was explaining Neal's behavior, I said was true. I love you more than anything in
the world - more than life itself. Neal doesn't. He's a worried big brother. All the others are, well, some are worried little
brothers, actually, but you get the point."
This is my December
This is all so clear
"This was all perfect. It's winter, we had a wonderful special place, I had you, even though I didn't know that it
was you, and it was perfect. Nothing could go wrong, but now everything has." A few unwanted tears leaked from her hazel eyes,
now looking bright teal with emotion.
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
"Oh I like you. I know that. I really like you a lot, but I need more time to figure out if I actually love you." She
flung her arms around his neck. He smiled and held her close, kissing her cheek gently.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
"Kel, I've got to go now. Let go of me love." He unwound he arms from his after removing his own. They're here. Don't
tell anyone about this, please. Unless it will make life easier for you to confide in someone, but please try not to tell
anyone. Can you imagine the reactions that this would bring up?" he opened the door.
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
"Good day, Duke Baird, Your majesties, Lord Wyldon, Lioness..." he left with a wink, a hidden blown kiss, and a
mouthed 'I love you Kel.' Kel snapped her eyes shut savoring the words and flinching at the thought of the Lioness seeing her
like this.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
Then she knew. She knew for sure how she felt. "I love you," she whispered, "I love you... (A/N: finished in the next chapter)
Author note: Oh, and FYI, I'm not telling you who it is until the next chapter. All you know is that it's NOT Neal, and probably
not Cleon. ~Magelet~
By Magelet (and Linkin Park)
Saphron suggested this song to me and I absolutely love it. It's perfect. Thanx Saph!
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
"Neal, I need to take to you." They were in the library studying as usual with the study group, and Kel called Neal over by a
far away book shelf. Neal lumbered over grinning.
"I know you don't need help reaching a book, so do you need my scholarly advice on which book you need, or what?" He
joked.
"Neal, why have you been acting so odd lately?" she demanded
He gave her a funny look, "What're you talking about?"
"Fine." She threw up her hands and left. If he was going to play ignorant here, she could yell at him later.
This is my December
This is my snow-covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
"You're so much sweeter than I ever thought you'd be. I've known you for years, and I never saw this side of you."
Neal said later. He had his strong arms wrapped around her waist, pulling her back against his chest. "I love you." He
whispered in her ear. His voice was softer than earlier. It was softer, warmer, and...deeper?
"I love you too, Neal, but why do you only act like you love me here? Everywhere else you're so... odd. You seem so
ignorant, and leave Joren to give me the creeps every time he's within my sight." She touched his soft hair.
"I've noticed that you seem to look at him enough, or make a discreet point of looking at him to see if he's looking
at you. Maybe he's not so bad, Kel." She gave him a 'look'. "Or maybe he's trying to figure the size of noose he'd need to
hang you."
Kel giggled, "I don't know. But it's just so pretty and perfect out here. Let's just enjoy this." Inwardly, Kel
frowned. Something wasn't right about the way he was acting.
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
"Tomorrow is the fencing competition for squires. And we're not using practice swords." Kel said later to her friends
right before bedtime "It'll be great, but now I'm going to bed because I'm really tired." Her friends watched worriedly as
she turned and headed back to her rooms, then exchanged a glance. Not one of them wasn't worried about her.
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
Kel was exhausted but couldn't sleep. She needed to talk to someone, and she had this strange notion that the person
she needed was Joren. That thought scared her. Why would she want to talk to him? He gave her the creeps recently. She shook
off that thought. 'Maybe Neal's right. Maybe he has changed. Any way, let's hope I don't get paired with anyone like Vinson
who would gladly run me through if I missed the block. Well, on that soul bearing little note, I really should try to sleep.'
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
"Joren!" Kel yelled, wanting to cry. "He'll kill me. This is what he knew about. I don't know how, but somehow he
knew. Oh Goddess help me," Kel raved as Cleon, who was right beside her stared. "He's just been waiting for his chance to get
back at me and what could be more perfect than this." Kel was staring at the wall in paranoia. Cleon shook his head and
steered her towards her rooms.
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
"Look, Kel. You've, like, just snapped. If there's something wrong that you need to tell someone about or something
that's bugging you, you can tell me. You may be sick of me, but I still love you and will do anything for you, especially
keep a secret. That's easy. Come on Kel, tell me." Cleon coaxed
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
"I'm fine Cleon, and I won't tell you. I can't tell anyone. Now let me go, I need to warm up, we're up first." Kel
snapped, shoving past him out of her rooms and into the hall, storming towards the fencing arena in which she would fight her
nightmare. 'That's what he is, with his piercing blue eyes and white-blonde hair. It's enough to cut any girl to pieces until
they see what he is inside.' She thought.
This is my December
These are my snow-covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
A bell sounded to cue the fencers. Joren and Kel took off like a tornado whipping their swords around. No martial
arts were allowed, so no punches or kicks would be thrown. Kel was almost shaking, but she could hear her friends encouraging
her from the sides. She shut them out. She and Joren were the only two in the world. And only their swords mattered other
than that. The foils that they were fencing with were sharper than anything so that the merest pick would draw blood and the
victor was the first to do so.
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
At first each thrust or attempt to strike was easily blocked by the opponent. Then it got harder. Suddenly Joren spun
around and went for her tummy, she had thought that he was going for her head, so she reacted so. Joren struck her across the
belly. She heard her clothes rip and felt a sting. She saw bright red blood on Joren's sword. Looking slowly around, Kel saw
all the faces or the shocked on-lookers, then the shock and horror on Joren's paled face. Ever so slowly, Kel looked at her
stomach and saw a thick line of blood, her blood across her ripped shirt. She looked up at Joren once more and collapsed.
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
Kel saw white. A bright, white light. She shut her eyes and reached automatically for her bared stomach, which felt
heavy for some reason, like there was a slight pressure. Using her other arm to cover her eyes, she gently touched what was
on top of her. Her fingers fluttered over a familiar face and she smiled. "I'm glad you came."
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
Kel realized that the bottom part of her shirt had been cut off and she was in the infirmary, in Duke Baird's domain.
"Kel, I can't stay long," whispered Neal's voice. They'll be coming back soon to check with you, this is the only time that I
can have alone with you." He brushed his lips across the scar she had gained from her experience. Meet me in our special spot
as soon as you can. He kissed her on the lips softly and said "Get some rest so that you'll be better than ever soon. I need
you." Kel kissed him on the cheek then opened her eyes.
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
Her jaw dropped. It wasn't Neal. She gasped and started to say something only to find she was at a loss for words. He
smiled. "Well, now you know it's me and not Neal. That's why he's been acting so funny to you. He has no clue what you're
talking about. So, do you love Neal or me? I can be both thanks to a spell Numair gave me. It's amazing what a Gift can make.
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
"I... I can't believe it's actually you. You were so nice so sweet. I never knew anyone could act like that,
especially you and especially to me. I don't know how I feel. And having this scar throbbing lightly doesn't help any at all."
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
"We all thought that you'd see what was happening and block it. You're usually so good at noticing the hidden attack.
It's one of your charms." He said, making Kel actually smile. How did she feel about him? She wasn't quite sure. She did like
him. That went without saying, she knew that, but did she love him like she did him as Neal?
This is my December
This is my time of the year
"Kel, all the stuff, except when I was explaining Neal's behavior, I said was true. I love you more than anything in
the world - more than life itself. Neal doesn't. He's a worried big brother. All the others are, well, some are worried little
brothers, actually, but you get the point."
This is my December
This is all so clear
"This was all perfect. It's winter, we had a wonderful special place, I had you, even though I didn't know that it
was you, and it was perfect. Nothing could go wrong, but now everything has." A few unwanted tears leaked from her hazel eyes,
now looking bright teal with emotion.
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
"Oh I like you. I know that. I really like you a lot, but I need more time to figure out if I actually love you." She
flung her arms around his neck. He smiled and held her close, kissing her cheek gently.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
"Kel, I've got to go now. Let go of me love." He unwound he arms from his after removing his own. They're here. Don't
tell anyone about this, please. Unless it will make life easier for you to confide in someone, but please try not to tell
anyone. Can you imagine the reactions that this would bring up?" he opened the door.
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
"Good day, Duke Baird, Your majesties, Lord Wyldon, Lioness..." he left with a wink, a hidden blown kiss, and a
mouthed 'I love you Kel.' Kel snapped her eyes shut savoring the words and flinching at the thought of the Lioness seeing her
like this.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
Then she knew. She knew for sure how she felt. "I love you," she whispered, "I love you... (A/N: finished in the next chapter)
Author note: Oh, and FYI, I'm not telling you who it is until the next chapter. All you know is that it's NOT Neal, and probably
not Cleon. ~Magelet~