I bet you counted all the tears I bet you've cried
I bet you swore you'd never let love back inside
Cause it hurt you way too bad to say goodbye
Now, there'll be times when I might put us to the test
And it's hard for broken hearts to just forget
But I'm driving blind, I'll lay it all on the line for you
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[Author's Notes: This is gonna be the last part out for a bit, spring break is here and I'm going to Japan! Yay! This should, if the previous one didn't.. confirm suspicions.. but in case you're not the suspicious type, I'm not going to say anything.. enjoy! Anyway, don't expect anything new within the next week or so.. I'll have little to no internet access. Feedback is still welcome though ^-^ Very welcome. Again, thank you to everyone who's put in their 2 cents about any of the chapters.. it's very appreciated! Yay for spring!]
If That's What It Takes - Why?
Panting, she slowly descended from the clouds, her energy spent. She'd been flying for hours, and she still had no idea where she was. Pan perched herself in a nearby tree and glanced at the radar. "Hmm.. it should be around here somewhere," she murmured, looking around, "but where?" Seeing nothing especially conspicuous, she drifted through the air, alert. A spot of orange caught her eye in a bird's nest nearby, and instantly, a smile found it's way back on her face. One down, six to go.
The sky was welcoming and the sun was warm, it was as if for once, the Gods were smiling at her. At least someone was. It was nice knowing that you wanted something in life, she decided. Nice to know that there was a little meaning beneath the chaos. More than anything, she wanted to be normal.. perfectly normal. And as different as it would be, she was convinced that it would make everything better. Give her time to heal her broken heart. Maybe life was beginning to look up for Son Pan after all.
~ if that's what it takes
He was in the air again, all too soon, and all too soon, the sun was in his eyes, the wind in his hair. He didn't know why he had the urge to catch her, to bring her back, and to tell her everything he'd figured out since the last time their eyes met.. but he did. And he didn't know why he had this sinking feeling in his heart.. a feeling that told him she was doing something she'd regret. It was confusing.. all these feelings, all these thoughts.. and lately, he'd been thinking being brain dead couldn't be that bad after all. At least he wouldn't have to worry about the constant confusion.
Trunks could feel her ki nearby, and his heart skipped a beat. It took all the courage he had to keep from stopping, and swallowing the lump in his throat, he sped forward at an even quicker pace. He wasn't going to lose her now.
~ if that's what it takes
Sighing, she finally decided to take a break, all this flying around had really exhausted her. Lining up the six dragonballs that she had collected, she sat down in the shade of a willow tree and closed her eyes. Her Grandfather's words still echoed through her mind, and every time, she felt a chill go down her spine. He was saying something more in those words.. something deeper than just making the right decision. And she hoped more than anything that she was doing the right thing. But it was so hard to tell.. so hard to see if what she was doing would make everything better again.
Pan stood, engrossed in her own thoughts, and treaded toward the peaceful lake that unfolded before her. The water glowed like a shimmering sheet of silver, and her own eyes looked back with the same giddy nervousness that she had been feeling all day. Kneeling at the shore, she looked into her own eyes and felt herself falling from the cloud she had been walking on all day. Falling fast, with no one to catch her.
When she finally surfaced from her thoughts, another figure had joined her in the reflection, and before she could say a word, she was falling..
~ if that's what it takes
Trunks saw her kneeling over the surface of the water and he felt an incredible temptation to do something evil. Why? He would never understand.. but the temptation was there.. and who was he to resist temptation? Sure, he was more "mature", more adult.. sure, he was the head of a large and important company.. that didn't mean he couldn't have a little fun here and there.
The look on her face when she rose from the water was priceless, and if looks could kill, he would've been on the road to King Kai's in five seconds flat. Luckily, today was not his day to die, or she would've been preparing her patented twin energy balls by now. Under his breath, he murmured a thank-you to Dende and smirked.
~ if that's what it takes
Glaring at Trunks all the way, she returned to her tree and picked up the madly flashing dragon radar. 'I'll ignore him.' She decided, 'I'll just ignore him because I'm a merciful person, and Bulma wouldn't be very happy if I killed her only son.' Quietly, she muttered her mantra, "I will not kill him, I will not kill him.."
Amidst her angry thoughts, she was unusually warm, and she could almost feel the blood rushing to her face. She could hear her heart pounding in her mind, could hear her own breath stopping her lungs. It was a feeling she wasn't unused to.. and feeling wasn't sure she liked. "Need help?" He questioned, breaking the silence and unsuccessfully trying to keep the laughter from his voice. Glaring, she quipped, "Might as well make yourself useful somehow."
Slowly ascending into the sky, she looked over the land, trying to concentrate on her search unsuccessfully. His face kept coming to her mind, and only his voice rang through her ears. Of all times, why in the world was she thinking about him now? Her whole life lay ahead, and even closer was the inevitable decision that she would face. She had no time to waste.. but why was the lump still stuck in her throat? Why wouldn't he leave her mind? Why?
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If that's what it takes, that's what I'd do
Tonight's the night, I'm gonna prove it to you
Do I have to break down, baby, just to break through
If that's what it takes, that's what I'd do
If that's what it takes..