Taichi wiped the sweat from his brow and smiled proudly. Hands were clapping on his back, but he couldn't feel them. He had touched heaven for a few seconds there, as he made that beautiful goal that had won his team the game. He had to come back to earth though, before his teammates thought he went into shock or something. He laughed happily and tackled some guy into the ground, rolling around in the mud, joyfully.

"Good game, Yagami." Taichi froze, the world moving in slow motion as he turned around to see Yamato,standing there with that cocky smirk on his lips.

"Yama-chan..." Yamato's eyes narrowed slightly,seeming a little displeased at the nickname, and he turned to walk away. Taichi panicked and scrambled to his feet, crying out Yamato's name again. Yamato stopped and look back at Taichi over his shoulder.

"I need to talk to you."

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It hadn't taken long to find Taichi, he stuck out of a crowd. At least to Yamato he did. He knew the brown-eyed boy better then he knew himself. It had taken a lot of courage to walk up to Taichi, take the final step to end their friendship. The hopeful look in Taichi's eyes had hardened his resolve, he had to do this for Taichi. He had to help Taichi get on with his life.

Stupid. that is a lie and you know it. COWARD!!!

Yamato pointly ignored his inner-voice as he pulled Taichi to one side.

"Taichi. There is something I need to tell you."

Taichi's face brightened slightly, even though you could see that he was trying to wash his hope down,and failing. Yamato closed his eyes and sighed. Where was the bastard that was able to handle Taichi? The one who was able to punch him for no reason. He needed that part of himself again.

"You need to leave me and Sora alone. Our friendship is over." Taichi blinked, looking like Yamato had slapped him in the face. He recovered quickly, glaring at Yamato with a stubborn frown on his face.

"You can't mean that. You can't. I won't let you kick me out of your life. " Taichi shook his head and grabbed Yamato's hand, pressing it to his chest,right over his beating heart. Yamato gulped softly as Taichi's lips came closer to his. He is going to kiss me... he can't. Please don't do this to me, Taichi. Taichi's face stopped scant inches from Yamato's, brown eyes staring into blue.

"You're lying Yama-chan. I can see it in your eyes." Taichi whispered softly as he leaned in and pressed his lips to Yamato's.

Yamato froze as Taichi moved his mouth against his.His mind screamed at him to do something, RESPOND!!But his lips never moved, he just stood there,letting Taichi kiss him. Taichi... Yamato felt like crying now. None of the kisses that Sora gave him made him feel like this, like he was on fire. Only Taichi.Only Taichi had ever made him feel alive, made him see things that he had never seen before. Without Taichi, he was dead to the world...

No!!! Sora. He loved Sora. He was not gay! He did not love Taichi!!

Yamato snarled softly and pushed Taichi off of him and onto the ground. Taichi looked up at him, chocolate eyes filling with hurt tears.

"No..." Taichi shook his head, hand reaching out to pluck at Yamato's coat. Yamato growled and slapped Taichi's hand away.

"Look you fucking faggot. I don't ever want to see your face again. I love Sora. Not you. Get it through your thick head."

Lies. All of it. I can't lie to myself anymore. I love you and I don't want to hurt you... but I have to. I have to! Please don't look at me like that...understand, Taichi!! I don't want to lose my family.My father looks me in the eyes again... Mother lets me see Takeru... I need them… because of my engagement to Sora, they see me again. I am not just some fly on the wall that needs to be swatted.

"You actually thought I loved you? Sex is sex, Taichi, no matter where it comes from. You were a good fuck though."

Only with you.

It never felt that way before you. With you it wasn't just sex. it was making love, it meant something to me.

But I can't let you know that. You won't let me be unhappy, you won't let me choose Sora. I love that about you, you never give up, no matter how it hurts.But please. Please. Just get over us. Not everyone canbe happy...

"Oh. Is the poor little boy crying? Awww..." Yamato sneered and turned to walk away, "I tried to let you down easy at first. This is your own fault, you should have left us alone. The truth hurts, ne?"

I hope some day you can forgive me, Tai-chan. I love you. But I can't be with you. I am not strong enough,not like you. I am weak, so weak, Taichi. I don't deserve you. Ja ne, Taichi.

"Ja ne Taichi." Yamato walked off, not looking back. He knew he would break down if he looked back. He couldn't afford to turn back. Forward was the only direction. How black it looked. Empty, and alone. He welcomed it.

He needed a beer.

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Daisuke sank to his knees, watching Yamato walk away from Taichi. How could he?!! Daisuke felt a rage burning up inside of him. Taichi was like a big brother to Daisuke. How could... why would...

Even his thoughts were upset. Fuck.

Daisuke got up off the ground and ran over to Taichi,touching the older boy on the shoulder.

"Tai-kun?" Taichi looked up at him with haunted eyes. Daisuke flinched at the lack of life in the normally warm brown eyes.

"Come on. Lets get you home."