~*~Part 1: John Carter ("Of Past Regret And Future Fear")~*~
It's amazing how fast things can change. One minute you're sharing a cookie, and the next...
She ran to him, ran away from me. She didn't come back, say goodbye...she just left, just like that. We've spent almost a year together, which means she's been away from him for that long. And she just ran to him, just like that.
I watched her go. I watched her hug him, him holding her in his arms...and then I took my cookie and I left. She ran to her ex, the one who had been on drugs, put her through hell. And all I could think to do was stand there and watch. And eat that stupid cookie.
I still like her. I still...even though she told me she's not over him, I still feel something between us.I was thinking of..asking her out. It sounds like such a high school thing, "asking her out". I'm 25, a month from my 26th birthday. This isn't how it's supposed to be. I'm not supposed to be getting nervous and jumpy around her. I'm not supposed ot be staring at her during work, totally speechless because of how beautiful and amazing she is. I was going to ask her out, risk total rejection because of how much I like her. I was going to give her some of my cookie and ask her if she wanted to get some coffee. Then he came.
One minute you're sharing a cookie, and the next...everything changes.