Squall was leaning against the front of the Garden Festival stage,staring out over the waves lapping the golden stripe of the coast.He was wearing his typical outfit,all black leather and studded belts,it made him look so……..his long,hazelnut bangs were ruffled by the cool,salty breeze wafting in from the cyan waters.
"Boo!" Zell whispered in his ear.
"Yaah!" Squall whipped round and gave him a sour look, "Don't do that again." He grumbled.
"Aww,did I scare big-ol'-Squally?" Zell asked him,bouncing on his heels and grinning wickedly.
"Do you want something?" Squall asked turning back to watching the ocean.
Zell frowned and folded his arms with annoyance, "I just came here to eat lucnch,but if you're gonna be so grumpy!" He began to walk off,but Squall's gloved hand caught the fabric of his jacket and he faced the morose SeeD again.
"I'm sorry,I'm just alittle……..preoccupied." Squall gave him a forced smile.
"Anything I can do?" Zell replied,hopping up onto the stage and tucking into his lunch.
"You wouldn't understand." Squall said blankly.
"Try me." Squall pulled his gloves off and ran a weary hand through his hair,he jumped up next to Zell, "I'm….no it doesn't matter." He averted his eyes,staring embarrasedly at his boots.Zell finished eating and put a comforting hand on his bestfriend's shoulder,Squall flinched,colour rising to his cheeks.
"What is it? You and Rinoa have a fight?" Zell's electric blue eyes filled with concern.
"She………she left me,for another man……I was too ashamed to tell everyone." Squall's voice was a hushed whisper and Zell could feel his shoulders beginning to quiver beneath his hand,he licked his lips nervously.
"No shit,I'm really sorry.You and Rinoa were-"
"The perfect couple,that's a lie and I knew it." His words were laced with bitterness.Zell sat there silently,not sure what he could say to reassure him.
"I guess she've found out eventually……." Squall said,trailing off.
"Found out what?" Zell's ears pricked up,this counselling thing wasn't so hard after all.
"I felt obliged to…….you know….go out with her after what we'd been through.don't get me wrong,I love here very much,but I gave my heart to someone else long before I met her."
Right then I should've just run away………oh diary,what a fucking mess…….
Zell's nose scrunched up and Squall looked at him,the crimson still blotting his cheeks.
"Who? Quistis??" Zel lasked curiously. Who could he love more than Rinoa?
Squall shook his head, "She's a lovely woman,but no."
"Selphie??"
(Irvine'll kill him!!)
"Wrong again,too crazy anyway." Squall smiled ruefully.
Zell frowned,he was running out of people.
"Erhm……….Xu?" He replied totally confused.
"No……think,blonde,good fighter,snappy dresser." Squall said with a small laugh,he was cheering up at least.
The penny suddenly dropped and zell's eyes went the size of dinnerplates.
(SQUALL'S GAY?????)
" Seifer……you can't be in love with that bastard!" Zell cried anxiously.
Squall clapped a frustrated hand to his forehead, "Do you have a brain cell in there?" He joked,tapping a finger against Zell's forehead lightly.
"Let me see…….blonde,well that rules out Irvine…….good fighter….can't be Nida…….snappy dresser…….definitely not Laguna…….that leaves……"
Zell's jaw dropped and he stared at Squall in disbelief, "You don't mean?" Squall nodded and gazed back at him,he wasn't sure how Zell would react to this confession.
"What…you…you gave your heart to me?" Zell could barely speak,his stable,abeit slightly tediuos,of late,life had just been dealt a hefty blow.
He barely registered as Squall leant forward and planted a genlte kiss on his moist lips,putting a hand on the the back of his neck and sending a tingle of electricity down his spine.
"MMPHHH!?!!?" Zell pushed him away roughly and leapt up,staggering back in shock.Squall stood up and put out a placating hand, "I'm sorry-oh shit Zell,I didn't mean to-"
"Just leave me alone! I need some time to think about this ALONE!?!?" Zell's expression was different now,no longer the concerned friend,he almost looked afraid as Squall stepped forward to apologise.
"Can't we talk about thi-?" Squall started,regretting the kiss more as every second passed.
"I said alone.Please,I need some space." Zell felt the anger of Squall's intrusion draining from him,leaving a sense of confusion and barely concealed panic.Squall nodded, "I understand.I'm so sorry." He repeated calmly.Zell shot him one last look as he ran from the garden.What the hell was going on?
So that was my day,diary.My bestfriend told me he loves me and I don't know what to do……….i need a vacation….(sigh)
From zell