Unbreakable
chapter 4
Disclaimer: so I stole the g-boys. SO BITE ME!!! their mine now! all mine !! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
but I promise I'll give them back once I'm finished (torturing them!)
Warnings....Shounen-ai, very light citrus...and um language as per usual.
Author notes: well, here ya go, ch 4! um tell me what ya think. Oh yeah, and flashbacks in this chapter are marked with a ***flashback***
UNBREAKABLE
CHAPTER 4
~~~~~~~~~HEERO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(again sorry I had to start off with him, but I mean duo's unconscious sooo I cant really do a POV for him can I! woops did I just admit that he's not dead???)
I clutch desperately onto his limp hand. cradling it in my own.
"Duo...please be okay, please you've gotta be okay!!!" remember how I said I'm supposed to be emotionless, well no ones looking... and a tear slips slowly down my cheek to fall into his open palm. I place my thumb on his wrist again....Is it? YES, its a pulse. He's alive. I laugh silently in relief. I really thought he'd given up on me for a second there.
I reach down into my jacket pocket and pull out the small communicator quatre gave me
*** "Just in case Heero, I know you think nothing ever goes wrong with you around because you're the perfect soldier and all, but I don't want to see my friends in trouble, and I don't want to worry about you. Promise me you'll take it heero, please?***
I loathe to do this, admit failure, admit I can't do it all alone, but It's for Duo, and I'd do much more to save his life than damage my pride slightly.
---Quatre, you there? come in Quatre---
---Heero?---
---Quatre! The truck thing didn't work exactly as we planned---
---What happened are you okay?---
---Yes, I'm fine, but Duo's unconscious---
---Oh no.....what happened---
--- I'll fill you in later, right now I need you to pick us up, were about 2ks away from the main gate to the school, its on route 87---
---Right, I'll be there as soon as I can, contact me if anything happens---
---Will do, thanks Quatre, over and out---
Now we just had to wait for Quatre.
I checked Duo's pulse again, Still steady. Shifting slightly I lifted his head and cradled it in my lap. "It's gonna be okay Duo, you just need to pull through. Please Duo. Quatre's coming to pick us up, and its gonna be okay. You have to be okay Duo please, I need you, I love you"
Thats when duo stirred and opened his eyes. And I was drowning in a violet ocean.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~DUO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"It's gonna be okay Duo you just need to pull through" That voice....so warm, comforting. "Please Duo, Quatre's coming to pick us up, and it's gonna be okay." Laden with raw emotion
"You have to be okay Duo please, I need you" Heero? was it Heero?
"I love you" !!!! Heero!!!! I open my eyes, and find myself staring straight up into his face, cobalt blue eyes full of unshed tears. "heero....?" I whisper, unable to believe what I'm hearing.
"Duo!" he says "You're okay!"
"yea..."
"ahhhh" he shifts looking uncomfortable. I raise my head and pull myself up so I'm sitting on the ground in front of him. I can't believe this is happening to me, I must be dreaming, again!.
"how..., how much did you ahh hear?" he stutters, looking unsure of himself. Jesus, today I'm sure I've seen heero use more emotion than he has his whole life.
"everything" I whisper, and he looks away "ahhh...look, I'm ahhhh sorry bout that I ahh just got a little carried away" Oh my god, OH MY GOD. Heero Yuy loves me! but I thought he hated me. I lean forward, struggling with tears threatening to spill
"then by all means heero, carry me away." and then my world dissolves into nothingness as Heero's lips descend on mine. And I know nothing else.
~~~~~~~~~~~HEERO~~~~~~~~~~~
"Duo, you're okay!" ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod! did he hear me?
"yea" man his eyes...so intense. He sits up never taking his eyes of me. What if he did hear, he's gonna hate me even more now! I have to know how much damage I've done.
"how...,how much did you ahhh hear?" This is it. His answer is whats going to decide how he looks at me for the rest of our lives. Somehow I know he heard, but a part of me hopes that he hasn't or that if he has he'll lie, and say he didn't. Just to save my pride. But even then he'd still know. Damn how could I be so stupid, to let my emotions get the better of me like that.
"everything" He whispers and I feel my world shatter. And those amethyst orbs, their so strong, wide and innocent. Boring into my soul, finding, absorbing everything that I have worked so hard to hide, to keep secret. He knows. Now he's going to hate me even more. He's gonna think I'm sick. I'm a soldier for gods sake, I'm supposed to be macho macho man. Now he knows I'm gay, nothing but a pansy.
"ahhhh look, I'm ahhh really sorry, I just got a little carried away" Please don't hate, please don't hate me, please don't hate me, I chant mentally.
"then by all means Heero, carry me away" something snaps. Oh my god, did he just? does he mean? He does, he wants me? Oh my god! Those violet depths sucking me in. And then my I'm kissing him, passionately. Letting all my emotions flow through my mouth. Just carrying him away.
"I love you heero" he whispers when we finally part. I hold him close to my chest. I nod. I still feel like this is a dream. How long have I dreamt just to hear him utter those words.
"I'm so sorry I mucked the mission up" What? he didn't do anything wrong.
"You didn't muck it up!" I say, perhaps a little too forcefully, he flinches slightly in my arms.
"Yes I did, I got injured, I didn't follow the plan. I'm not perfect like you" How can he talk like this.
"Duo, I'm not perfect"
"Yes you are, you're the perfect soldier, remember"
"The title is misleading," How can I help him. I don't want to have him feeling like a failure. The only way I can comfort him is to tell him about my first time I had to do something like this. But what about my pride. What about my perfect image? Telling him I'm not perfect is one thing. But proving it is another.
But Duo's hurting. How can I be so selfish. To hell with my pride. And so I tell him.
"Duo, the first time I had to do something like this, I broke my arm under the wheel of a petrol tanker. I was unconscious for a week because my arms couldn't' take the strain of holding my body up. You have no idea how well you did for you're first time."
"Oh my god Heero, why didn't you tell me?"
"Are you kidding, you were freaked out about the whole thing without me adding my bit. Besides..." here I paused, I didn't want to open up to him like this but those violet eyes, so innocent, just silently commanding me to tell him the whole truth. "I didn't want to show myself as less than perfect to you"
"I love you no matter what. But I don't understand why you don't hate me?" I choked. Me, hate him!!! I could only shake my head.
"I'm always in the way, doing stupid stuff, and I mucked up the mission"
"NO YOU DIDN'T BAKA!!! we still achieved the objective didn't we, to change the data on the computer system."
"yes, but I didn't do anything useful, I just hindered you. I mucked up the mission, again" I couldn't believe he was talking like this. In such a self destructive way. I looked hard into his eyes, and all I could see was fatherless depths of self hate. God Duo don't you see, your my baby, you're my angel. You're my one reason for living.
"TO HELL WITH THE MISSION DAMMIT!!!!" I yelled. Feeling him shake in my grip I softened my tone a little. Trying desperately to express what I had kept surpressed for so long.
I'm not good with words, never have been, they always seem to come out wrong, or sound different than I ment. But still I have to try.
"All I care about is that you're okay. Dammit duo I thought I'd lost you there!" my voice cracked with emotion. "I thought you'd gone and left me, It felt like my world had shattered." I couldn't believe I was managing to get the words out
"Duo you are my life, my world. My love"
And just for once Duo didn't say a word, just stared at me, and pulled me close to him.
~~~~~~~~~~DUO~~~~~~~~~~~
When we finally pulled apart, I nearly fainted. My entire world was swimming before my eyes. lights flashed everywhere. I was in heaven.
"Heero, I love you" I say, these four words meaning more to me than anything I've ever said in my entire life. All I ever say is bullshit nonsense anyhow. This is really the first meaningful thing I've ever said. The first thing that really mattered.
I can never do anything right, I never say the right thing, and I'm always mucking up missions. Like this one now, I completely stuffed it up. Why doesn't he hate me for it, isn't the mission all he really cares about? Isn't that how he manages to stay so strong. Shouldn't he hate me for getting in the way.
"I'm sorry I stuffed up the mission" I tell him. He deserves an apology. He's so perfect, and here am I silly old Duo, can't do anything right, kissing him. I don't deserve him.
"You didn't muck it up!" he doesn't yell or anything, but his whole body is shaking from the guttural force behind it. Oh god I didn't want to make him angry at me! please don't be mad at me Heero. Why can't he see that I did ruin the whole thing. I argue back.
"Yes I did. I didn't follow the plan. I got myself injured, I'm not perfect like you" And it's true. He's so perfect, and what am I, street scum that's what.
He tells me he's not perfect! How can he say that, just look at yourself heero, everything you do is a mirror of perfection. He's the perfect soldier for Gods sake! I tell him so.
"The title is misleading" Bullshit!!! I feel like yelling in his face, but I don't have the strength. How does he expect me to believe him, when everything he does is perfect? Then he opens his mouth again. I swear, today he's breached the whole years word limit. He tells me about the first time he'd done this stunt. He failed. I couldn't believe it, not that he failed. I mean after all, no matter what he claims, he's only human. But the fact that he managed to tell me this, with his pride and everything. God how does he do it.
I know how much he tries to be perfect, in everything he does. So this...failure must have eaten away at him from inside for years!
"God Heero, why didn't you tell me?" He tells me that he didn't want to freak me out anymore than I was, and that he didn't want me to see him as less than perfect. Can't he see? Doesn't he realize that in my eyes he is the essence of perfection, no matter what! I tell him that I love him, "but why don't you hate me?" he just shakes his head. As if for some reason, he can't believe it.
I have to make him see, see what a bad person I am. "I'm always in the way, doing stupid stuff. I mucked up the mission," I pause thinking of all the other times missions haven't gone to plan because of me. "again" I mutter, looking down. I'm unable to look into his eyes for so long.
"TO HELL WITH THE MISSION DAMNIT!!!!!" he yells. I've never heard him talk like this before...to hell with the mission? since when did he ever say anything against the missions? I must have made him really mad. Everything I ever do goes wrong...
"All I care about is that you're okay!" He cares about me....more than the mission?
"Dammit Duo I thought I'd lost you there!" He thought I was going to die? And he cared?
"I thought you'd gone and left me" I would never leave you Heero!
"It felt like my world had shattered" Oh my god! Heero.....
"You're my life" God heero, you are my life too....I can't believe I'm hearing you say this
"You're my world" Please tell me this isn't a dream!
"You're my Love" HE LOVES ME!!!!!!
I'm blown away, I can't say anything, I just want to burst into tears. How can he love me like this so passionately. Just accepting me for me. God I love him. I pull him close and Bury my face in his neck.
We stay like that forever it seems. I start to shiver...It's cold and I'm feeling faint. He looks down at me.
"Here Koi, you're cold" and he takes of his jacket offering it to me. I shake my head,
"Heero you'll freeze, you've only got a tank top on!"
"I'll be all right,"
" you're injured, I won't have you catch hypothermia and dying on me!"
"I'm death ya can't kill death man!" but still I let him drape the jacket over my shoulders. I snuggled into him, and fell asleep.
The sound of wheels scraping along the road woke me. Heero got to his feet just as Quatre drew up in a bright red jeep.
"Need a ride?" I grin as the blond Arab jumps out.
"Heero, Duo you're okay!"
"hn" heero nodded. back to his normal stoic self I see.
"Q-man! hey, where ya been bro?"
"Oh praise Allah you're okay. Heero help me get him into the car" They help me to my feet and attempt to walk the few steps to the vehicle, but I can't do it. My legs collapse under me in fatigue. Heero saves me and quick as a flash scoops me up and deposits me gently in the back seat. Quatre opens the front passenger seat door for Heero. He shakes his head. Huh? what? Oh! I smile, as he gets in beside me. I watch Quatre's face carefully. His eyes widen, and then a knowing smile spreads across his face like sunshine. He doesn't say anything just hops in the front and starts up the car.
Heero reaches down under the seat and pulls out a blanket, which he wraps around me. God he really does love me!
We drive off into the night, safe. He never lets go of my hand the whole way.
okay thats all for now folks, this chapter was a bit longer than the rest. so ahhh tell me what ya think...sorry if people are OOC, I can't help it.