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CHAPTER 6
Disclaimers:
Everyone loves Robin Hood right? cos he's the ultimate good & righteous guy and stuff. Well, what was our man in green tights main purpose in life? To steal from the rich, and to give to the poor! When I take the gundam boys without asking first, I take them from the greedy rich companies that created them. I steal them and I give them (in the form of fanfiction) to the poor (namely you readers! You might not be poor but please just play along because otherwise my reasoning just WON'T work!). So technically I'm just carrying on Robin hood's wonderful work, Taking from the rich-and giving to the poor, Now who is to say that what I'm doing is wrong and unjust? because If you do...are you trying to tell me that Robin hood was an evil man? noooo I don't think so...With that in mind this poor outlaw wannabe/authoress is going to ask you very nicely : "PLEASE DON'T SUE ME!!!" get the picture? good!
Warnings:
This chapter.....Um..mention of self-mutilation, dark thoughts, tiny bit limey, quite a bit of nonsence and um...yea thats about it I think
A/N. Okay I'm really gonna try harder with paragraphing and punctuation....I'm sorry. I write straight from the heart- sometimes I just forget to process the words through my brain before I type them. Thank you for all the reviews people...and don't worry the reviewer that left that message about developing the plot now that Duo and Heero are together, don't worry, everything that has happened so far is entirely essential to the plot, and you will see what I'm talking about as it progresses. Just wait and see what I mean. Okay now you guys will be sick to death of my pointless stream of babbling so I'm gonna get on with the story already! here ya go *drumroll* ladies and gentlemen...presenting *more drumroll* ...
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CHAPTER 6
~~~~~~~~~DUO~~~~~~~~~~
Huh.....what woke me up? brrrrrrrrrr it's cold in bed all of a sudden. Where did the heat go? Oh it went with Heero! Damn it why does he have to get up so early! Maybe I can con him into getting back into the bed with me. I slip my arm round him, pulling him in for a kiss.
"Hello there sleepy" he murmurs into my neck. I love the feeling of his lips on my skin.
But hey! he's getting up again, NO "Heero, don't go, the bed is cold with out you"
"Duo" I love it when he says my name......
"We have our mission today, ya have to get up" Damn...how did I forget. Now we have to start at this school and find this Hitler fellow. Oh well at least I get to spend some time *alone* with Heero, But I don't want to get up!!! I chant the word no over and over again....just to make my point clear, Duo Maxwell ain't getting up!
"I just wana sleep! Stuff getting up, Stuff the mission" I snicker inwardly as I feel the shinigami in me taking over, and the fire of defiance in my veins.
"And stuff anything that tries to deprive Shinigami from his beauty sleep" I open my eyes and slide out of bed, driven by the burst of energy I get when I'm in "shinigami mode"
"and that means you! Heero.Yuy" I stalk closer while he stands rigid as a stick. I lean forward and his eye twitches, heh- I know you Heero, you want to react don't you
I lean forward and tweak his nose. Then I throw my arms in the air as I turn around and clamber back into my warm bed.
"Shinigami is going back to sleep, and pities the fool who tries to stop him!"
I close my eyes, feeling smug and wait for sleep to descend. I hear Heero sigh, and tell me I have fifteen minutes, that he'll bring breakfast up to me.....mmmmm breakfast. maybe waking up won't be so bad after all.
I hear him bustle about for a bit then go out through the door.....then images of big beautiful breakfasts fill my mind, and I know no more....well for 15 minutes at least!
~~~~~~~~~~HEERO~~~~~~~~~~~~
hmmmm breakfast, I need to do something special. Bacon, eggs, pancakes, fruit, cereal, toast,...tea? no he hates tea. coffee. & juice. Yup that should fill duo up. What about me? coffee and toast I think.
Quatre is already up, in the kitchen, cooking for Trowa who's sitting at the table. And Wufei is outside under a tree swiping at the air with a sword.
"Hi Heero" Quatre's smiling face greets me. "Want some breakfast?"
"I'll make my own thanks"
"Where's duo?"
"asleep"
"oh"
I dive into the fridge. It's not that I don't appreciate Quatre's attempts at conversation, because I do. It's just that talking ....well it aint my strong point.
"What time do you leave for the school?"
"eight" I grunt, he nods. I pull out a whole bunch of food from the fridge, piling it all up on the table.
"You can have the stove now, I'm done with it" Quatre calls over his shoulder then he turns around "Whoa!" His blue eyes look like their going to pop right out of his skull.
"hn?"
"I thought you don't eat much Heero?" Quatre stutters looking at the huge pile of food. Even Trowa looks mildly surprised.
"This is for Duo, that's my breakfast" I say gesturing to a piece of bread that I'm about to put in the toaster.
"Oh...." Quatre's eyebrows raise and his eyes get that knowing look. Damn! why is he so observant? Trowa frowned, and looked like he was going to say something, but Quatre gave him a look that said "DON'T ASK!"
Soon my toast was done, and I ate that and drank my coffee quickly. Then I started on Duo's breakfast. I suppose I'm spoiling him really...but I love pampering him. If he refuses to love himself, then I will love him instead.
Halfway through the 10th pancake, Wufei swaggers in. I continue cooking.
"You cant possibly eat all that Yuy!" he says
"I'm not going to"
"Oh, then what are you going to do with it Yuy? feed the birds?"
"Hn" I can't be bothered talking to him...he's in a bad mood. Well he's always in a bad mood so there's nothing new there!
I think Quatre must have sensed the tension, so as usual he intervened
"Wufei, do you want some breakfast?" he asked.
"I've already eaten, and I've got much better things to do than to make Idle conversation with you!" Quatre looked down, crushed by Wufei's harshness, and Trowa's eyes sparkled with rage.
I know how he feels, If anyone ever hurt my koi....I would kill them...No one hurts my baby.
Wufei looks at Trowa then I guess he takes a hint and walks out with his nose in the air. I turn back to the stove, and out of the corner of my eye I see Trowa reach out toward a tearful Quatre.
Duo's breakfast is done. Glancing up at the clock I see its 3 minutes to 7. 3 minutes....hmmm. I walk out to the garden and out into the Roses- carefully tended by Quatre. I pass through all colors and shades until I reach the brick wall at the back...and leaning against it is the bush I want. A black rose bush!
(A/N. I love black roses, I love black roses,I love black roses, I love black roses,I love black roses, I love black roses,I love black roses, I love black roses,I love black roses, I love black roses,I love black roses, I love black roses,I love black roses, I love black roses!!!!! sorry....I just really like black roses, you only have to look at my email to figure that out, and Dark rose is my Eke-name! if you're not pagan chances are you won't know what that means, so don't worry!
yea well I'll shut up with this nonsense and get on with the story!)
I pick one and take it inside through the kitchen door. Quatre giggles and quickly places his hand on the table, as if it had been somewhere where it shouldn't, and there's a definite spark in Trowa's eyes that wasn't there before.!
I place the rose on the tray and Quatre smiles warmly. Oh well I don't care what those two know. Trowa is to caught up in Quatre to care, and Quatre, well... all he wants is for everyone to be happy- and hey, being with Duo makes me happy! VERY happy!
Then I'm going toward our room, and sliding through the door. I place the tray on a table and turn to look at Duo. A stray piece of sunlight from the sunrise outside has fallen on his face, illuminating it and making my baby look like an angel fallen from heaven. I loath to wake him and spoil the vision, but we need to get moving. I bend down over his sleeping form and place two a kiss on each closed eye, then one more on those full red lips.
"Duo, Duo wake up koi"
"hmmmm" he smiles in his sleep
"Duo, Breakfast...."
"I LIKE THAT!!!" He blinks and sits up, staring wildly around for the food.
"hn" I chuckle
"AWWWWWW MAN!!!! thanks Hee-chan" He says enthusiastically "Ya really outdid yourself! not that I mind!" he pulls the tray over to himself, and that's when he catches sight of the black rose.
He smiles and looks up at me, all the thanks I need shining through those wide violet eyes.
"gee Hee-chan, as much as I love the food, this has got to be the best bit!" he closes his eyes and smells it. Then he reaches toward me, wraps those slender arms around my neck, still holding the rose and leans in for a passionate kiss. I swear, If I hadn't had all that training, I'd have melted down into a puddle on the floor by now.
He smiles at me again. "Now Hee-chan as much as I enjoy all this lovey-dovey stuff an' being pampered an' spoilt an' all that, my foods a waiting, and If you know anything at all you'll know that ya can't keep shinigami away from his food! Even kissing the most beautiful guy on the planet...food comes first."
"Hn" I chuckle. Me the most beautiful guy on the planet! surely not! That's duo!
I walk over to the desk, booting up my laptop. Duo places the rose on the bedside table and then tuks in to the massive breakfast in front of him.
~~~~~~~DUO~~~~~~~
"Duo? Duo?"A voice buts into my dreams......I block it out.
"Duo! Breakfast" Did he say Breakfast? Hey now that's alright!
"I LIKE THAT!!" where's the food, where's the food? I'm starving!!! Ohhhhh wow, that's a mountain! wow, did Hee-chan really make all this for me? I never saw so much food. Yum.
"Ya really outdid yourself Hee-chan," And I mean it "Not that I mind" I add quickly, just in case he takes that the wrong way and takes the food away! Feeling my mouth begin to water I grab the tray and yank it towards me. Hey is that a rose? a black rose? Wow, did Heero give me that. No ones ever given me flowers before, let alone black roses. It's so perfect, I would trade 1000 of these breakfasts for him to give me one of these. I want to cry... But I don't, boys don't cry. But this is the nicest thing someones ever done for me. I search for the right words...
"Gee Hee-chan, as much as I love the breakfast and all, this has got to be the best bit!" God that sooo didn't sound right. Damn I'm hopeless. I pick up the rose fighting back the stinging, wet sensation in my eyes. You better not cry duo, I tell myself, Because you know boys don't cry.
I close my eyes so the tears don't spill, and smell it.
It's this exotic, delicate scent. Like a normal rose but with something else, something deep and rich. It's the most wonderful smell ever.
So what can I do to show him how much this means to me if my words won't work? hmmm what does Heero do? He doesn't talk much, yet he still manages to portray emotions effectively. I know!
And so with my new form of communication in mind I lean forward and kiss him seductively, emotionally and passionately. Trying to convey through my body language exactly how perfect his gesture of affection was to me.
I think It worked.
I have to come up for air sometime other wise I'm gonna suffocate. Hn, I chuckle inwardly at the thought- can you really die when you're in heaven?
Pulling away I realize that my food is getting cold. I explain to Heero exactly why I really need to tuck into my food finishing with :
"even when I'm kissing the most beautiful guy in the world, Food still comes first"
Then I tuck in!
I gobble it all so fast. Part of me want's to slow down, and eat civilized so that I don't waste the taste by swallowing to quickly, but the instinctive way of eating as fast as possible that I picked up very young on the streets sets in. When you never know when your next meal will be you generally tuck in pretty quick, because there are many people out there, just as hungry as you that will be quite happy to oblige you of any food you have on you that stays there for more than a few seconds. When you have food on the street, you scurry of into the nearest nook or cranny and gobble it down quick as you can, before someone else does. Even now that I'm a member of society and everything, there are still the odd few habits that I just can't seem to kick.
Wow that went too fast. Now there's nothing but crumbs left- heh better not let them go to waste. I lick the plate clean! I sigh and lean back against the pillows...for a few seconds, then I start to fidget, I'm getting bored again! Maybe I'll go see what Hee-chan's doing on that god-be-damned laptop of his.
I struggle out of bed and limp over to him. My back still hurts from yesterday.
"Whatcha doin' Hee-chaaaaan?" I whine.
"Hn"
"Ohhhh that's real informative isn't it?"
"hn" okay I guess he has used up his word limit for today already. And he wasted it all on me...awww ain't that sweet!
"Okay then Hee-chan, we'll just have to play a guessing game!"
He raises one eyebrow
"IT LIVES, HEERO THE STATUE LIVES!!!" I cry dramatically
"Hn" still playing that game then eh heero? well two can play at that game!
"okay heero, I'm going to guess what youre doing on the computer. for yes say"Hn" for no say "hn" okay?"
"hn" he replies.
"No? I say in mock concern, Heeeeeero if you don't want to play then can't you just tell me
"hn"
"No, Why not?" I ask, "Well I'm going to play by myself then, You can join in if you like"
"Hn" okay dokey then...lets see
"Are you downloading porn?" If it were possible for expressionless, emotionless soldier to, I'm sure he would have face-vaulted!
"hn"
"Not porn then, Damn!...okay well lets see, are you writing fanfiction?"
"hn"
"No....well what else is there to do on a computer? okay lets see, are you writing reports....?"
"hn"
"No? well that's a first, Okay well umm....are you chatting to someone?"
"hn"
"Don't lie to me Heero" I say, faking tears "I know what you are doing, I know your'e having an online affair! I know you're cheating! How could you do this to me???"
"hn"
"Oh well okay.......maybe I went a little over the top there....um okay what else could you be doing, are you....um.... OHHHH I know, youre shopping online aren't you? Youre buying me a present...awww Hee-chan!!!"
"hn!"
"damn...well ya can't blame me for trying. Okay then are you emailing people?" this is my last resort!
"Hn"
"JACKPOT!!!, yes? you are? well okay now we're getting somewhere! okay are you sending out threatening emails because your'e really an Internet stalker?"
"hn"
"ooooh kay, well with that out of the way I bet its something really boring, um are you getting details on the mission?"
"Hn"
"You are, Great I got it, I GOT IT, I GOT IT!!!! YAHOO!" I jump around the room. I hear the sound of the chair being pushed back behind me.
"I'll fill you in on the details in the car koi, for now I suggest you start packing"
"Okay Hee-chan, say can I bring my bed......?"
~~~~~~~~HEERO~~~~~~~
The sound of the computer booting up has become engraved into my mind. It's like after living in the same street for years you know all the corners off by heart. It's become almost a comfort to me...Everyone else thinks I'm just a computer geek, maybe I am, But it's not like I really care anyway. If I was a normal fifteen year old I would be worried about it, I'd also be into sports, I'd be in school (well permanently anyhow), I'd be straight (or at least dating girls) and probably only concerned with me and my petty circle of friends. As you can see...I'm not exactly the average normal fifteen year old boy.
I've just got to check on the mission details. The sound of Duo stuffing food in his mouth at a rate of around 100 miles per hour is a little off putting though, but I suppose everything Duo does is off putting so It's nothing new. That's what makes him so lovable all these cute little quirks he has, there what makes Duo, Duo.
Now he's finished, Shit that was fast and coming over to me. As much as I love him I really don't need him bugging me right now, I have to focus and get these details. And he's a distraction. I really don't want to have to act cold and distant because I don't want to hurt him, but If he starts to whine I'm going to have to distance myself.
"Heeee-chan? whatcha doing?" What did I just tell you?
Ouch! his whining hurts my ears. I wouldn't mind so much if only he wouldn't whine!!! I don't want to be mean to him, but I really need to focus on getting this done, he's a distraction. I'll have to use the old "hn" technique, he's used to it now he shouldn't take much offense at it, He never did before. Mind you now that everything is different perhaps I'm supposed to treat him differently too... I wouldn't know-I've never been in love before. And before you even ask- Relena isn't anywhere in the picture. I respect her for all that she does for the colonies, and I respect her for her bravery. She is like a support system to me- but nothing more. Because if you haven't figured it out already- IM GAY!!!!
"Hn"
"Ohhhh that's real informative isn't it?" It's not ment to be
"hn" Damn I sound like a cold hearted bastard, maybe I am...
"Okay then Hee-chan, we'll just have to play a guessing game!" A guessing game? I raise and eyebrow and groan silently
"IT LIVES, HEERO THE STATUE LIVES!!!" damn he's funny! no focus on the computer heero...FOCUS!!!
"Hn"
"okay heero, I'm going to guess what youre doing on the computer. for yes say"Hn" for no say "hn" okay?" God he's crazy, I don't want to play a bloody GUESSING GAME!!!! what did he say was it 'hn" for no?
"hn" I reply
"No? Heeeeeero if you don't want to play then can't you just tell me"
"hn" maybe he'll shut up.
"No, Why not?" well duh duo, If you wana know all that bad try looking at the computer screen!!!
"Well I'm going to play by myself then, You can join in if you like"
"Hn"
"Are you downloading porn?" PORN!!!! why the fuck would I be downloading porn???
"hn"
"Not porn then, Damn!...okay well lets see, are you writing fanfiction?" Ha! that would be the day! ...I wouldn't mind writing a lemon or two for Duo and Me though (hehehe)
"hn"
"No....well what else is there to do on a computer? okay lets see, are you writing reports....?" well at least that one was sensible!
"hn"
"No? well that's a first, Okay well umm....are you chatting to someone?"
I'm not exactly a talker duo...!
"hn"
"Don't lie to me Heero, I know what you are doing, I know your'e having an online affair! I know you're cheating! How could you do this to me???" GODS!!!
Focus heero don't get distracted!
"hn"
"Oh well okay.......maybe I went a little over the top there....um okay what else could you be doing, are you....um.... OHHHH I know, youre shopping online aren't you? Youre buying me a present...awww Hee-chan!!!" Dream on Duo!
"hn!"
"damn...well ya can't blame me for trying. Okay then are you emailing people?" Finally, now perhaps he'll stop this torture. Can't he see that he's driving me crazy-damn it I just wana get up, throw the computer out the window and have a serious makeout session with him?
"Hn"
"JACKPOT!!!, yes? you are? well okay now we're getting somewhere! okay are you sending out threatening emails because your'e really an Internet stalker?" and since when did I get the time to waste on stalking people?
"hn"
"ooooh kay, well with that out of the way I bet its something really boring, um are you getting details on the mission?"
"Hn"
"You are, Great I got it, I GOT IT, I GOT IT!!!! YAHOO!" I jump around the room. I hear the sound of the chair being pushed back behind me.
"I'll fill you in on the details in the car koi, for now I suggest you start packing"
"Okay Hee-chan, say can I bring my bed......?"
"...!"
~~~~~~~~~~DUO~~~~~~~~
What I luv my bed....It's all black satin! well maybe not the bed then but I'm definitely taking my sheets!
I pull out a suitcase stored under a bed and quickly begin to load my things into it.
"man I'm gonna miss the guys and all - hell I might even miss Wufei's 'justice' rants!"
...ahh well maybe Heero won't respond to my incessant chatter- at least I know there's something to hear me. You have no idea what it's like trying to talk to yourself when no one else will. It's so lonely.
After Solo died, I was alone on the streets and I used to talk to myself. Just to make me believe that someone cared. I gave up in the end. That was when I realised that all I ever talked was bullshit. I realised that I had stopped talking to myself because I got on my own nerves!
I know that sounds really weird, but I only talk bullshit and I bored myself. I bored myself with my own talk. When I realised just how much I'm really worth.
That was when I started cutting.
I only ever cut my legs. The rest of my body is exposed to often. That's half the reason why I had to stop heero last night, before it went any further. I'm half scared to death of what heero will do if he finds out... It's just my own little secret...along with many more.
I continue chatting non-stop, supposedly to heero. I don't listen to what I'm saying what's the point. I'll just get bored and get the urge to cut again. This way I can talk supposedly 'to' heero, and talk bullshit without having to cut.
I'm almost packed now. Just my bedside table to clear. My brush, photo's of the gang, a few of my favourite manga's and...oh yea the rose. It's so beautiful I'm definitely taking it with me. but what can I do with it so it wont get crushed.
I know! I jump up and rummage in one of the cupboard up above our wardrobe. Here it is! I pull down the abandoned refuge of poor old tweets. Yup we had a budgie, It was Quatre's Idea of course.
This was the cage he was kept in before he died..of starvation! yup, really sad aint it? we all ended up going on separate missions and we forgot to get anyone to feed him. Normally one of us is home at all times. It's a small cage, he's a miniature budgie, so he didn't need much room. It's really only about the size of a large tin can (by this I mean quite large). With a domed top and an empty swing. It's perfect.
I tip out any last bits of ancient bird seed/poop and the like and gingerly place the black rose inside. fixing it to the swing so that it appears to stand upright. The dark flower swings a little. I take one last look at the beautiful plant before stowing it safely away in my backpack.
I zip it up and turn around to find a large hand on my shoulder and an intense blue gaze boring into my eyes.
Heero...