Neon Genesis Evangelion – Living in Chaos
R.J. Shino
Rated R
DISCLAIMER: I know I don't own EVA, you know I don't own EVA, GAINAX knows they own EVA, as do their lawyers.
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Author's Notes: If you haven't read the prologue, you are screwed. This takes place about a year after the prologue. It ignores the movies.
WARNING: This fic is NOT going to revolve around Shinji losing a friend and seeking Asuka/Rei/Hikari's comfort. I don't want to spoil any thing, but this sorta says 'Fuck all' to the traditional coupling. A little note. Shinji never really got over Kaoru's death, he was indirectly responsible for Toji's, and by now he's on the razor edge of insanity. So expect violence, language, and cruel action from our favorite spineless baka. By the end, Rei/Shinji fans will probably dislike me, Shinji/Asuka fans will probably have a shit fit, and Toji/Hikari fanatics will be after my blood. Hell, Asuka/Insert Random Person fans will despise me.
Special Thanks and Notes: Thanks to Cap Gun Boy, Jon Cook, and John Kun for being the first three people to review my story on Fanfiction.net.
To Jon Cook: Yeah, kinda sad. But it gets better and slightly more depressing too.
To John Kun: Toji died too suddenly! But that was half the fun! Plus it really set up Shinji for his big mental fall. Plus my little brother was bitching at me to make Toji an important character, so I did. I just killed him off in the process.
To NanuNanu: Thanks for becoming my pre-reader or Beta Reader, and inspiring me to continue this fic and repost it
To the Three who flamed me to the point of me taking this down: Shinji has a right to be angry, or OCC (NanuNanu 3:16) Most of your assumptions were wrong, and 'Mana sucks' is not worthy material for a review! Damn you all to hell (need I say 'bitch')
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[Living in Chaos Theme: Offspring – Living in Chaos]
Got a singsong, man it goes like this
So when the time was right
Could've been calling down
This world is hard to fight
Beating your ways hit it again
You know the way it feels
Everyone gets knocked down
When you get up it's real
Taking it back, turn it around
CHORUS:
Get on it, up on it, get on it
Wouldn't wanna be you
Get on it, up on it, get on it
Never gonna be you
You know when you're keeping it slow
Better where you're gonna go
Wouldn't wanna be you
Get on it, up on it
It's over when you're living in chaos
Somewhere along the line
Things get chipped away
This place keeps going down
Getting worse every day
I see the hate and greed
This world's messed up town
Release the pain and see
Taking in back, turn it around
CHORUS:
Get on it, up on it, get on it
Wouldn't wanna be you
Get on it, up on it, get on it
Never gonna be you
You know when you're keeping it slow
Better where you wanna go
Wouldn't wanna be you
Get on it, up on it
It's over
Falling
Falling
Falling
Falling
Ya ya ya
Ya ya ya
Ya ya ya
Ya ya ya
Got a sing song and it goes like this
So when the time was right
Could've been calling down
This world is hard to fight
Beating your ways hit it again
But you know the way it feels
Everyone gets knocked down
When you get up it's real
Falling
Falling
Falling
Falling
(Ya ya ya)
Get on it, up on it, get on it
(Ya ya ya)
Get on it, up on it, get on it
Never gonna be you
Get on it, up on it, get on it
(Ya ya ya)
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EPISODE 1: Arrivals and Revelations
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Ikari Shinji was in his entry plug, about to be inserted for routine harmonics tests. He felt the EVA connect with him...and then nothing. An abrupt disconnection in the plug. He looked through the viewing screen. All he saw was black, but the floor was a NERV logo.
"God's in his Heaven, and all is right in the world." A faint chanting filled the plug.
"WHO ARE YOU! SHUT UP! ALL OF YOU SHUT UP!" Shinji felt himself reconnect to Unit 01. Swinging his arms madly, he tried to crush anyone within range.
"DIE YOU BASTARDS! DIE! DIE! DIE!" He swung at a building, and it crumbled under his fist. It was then that he saw the bodies. Asuka, Rei, and Kensuke, all lying in pools of blood.
FLASH
He was on the ground, staring at the rubble of Tokyo-3. And there she was. Beautiful. Hikari. He stumbled towards her, only to see the swift Progressive Knife.
SLASH
Hikari's head dropped into a sea of LCL. Shinji raised his head to see the murderer...
"NOOOOOOOOOO!" Kaoru Nagisa stood there, grinning evilly.
"Just like me, Shinji-kun, just like me." Kaoru lunged at him with the Prog Knife, still grinning. He slashed at Shinji, but Shinji narrowly avoided it. Kaoru landed and charged again, and Shinji did the first thing that came to mind.
The knife clattered to the floor, once again the black emptiness with the NERV logo. Shinji was screaming, his hands clutching Kaoru's throat violently. Kaoru tried to scream, but he could not gather the air. Shinji could feel the life ebbing away from the Angel. But then he changed. Now thick red hair cascaded over Shinji's fingers. He looked deep into Asuka's eyes. They were filled with sadness and fear. She touched his face. Shinji finally realized what he was doing and his sorrow deepened. He made his decision. Shinji felt as Asuka's windpipe caved in, killing her instantly. He let her body drop and crumple on the floor as he screamed at the window above the scene. On the observation deck, something horrible had taken place.
And Gendo Ikari smiled.
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Shinji awakened in a cold sweat. No, it had to be a dream. It had to be. After all, it had been a little less than a year since he had moved to Osaka-2. It was where most of the Tokyo-3 refugees had relocated, including Kensuke and Hikari. But that wasn't the only reason he had moved there. One of the other reasons was to get away from Gendo Ikari, his father. He had adopted Rei after subsequently disowning him. Another reason was to get away from Asuka. That redheaded bitch had made his life a living hell in the month after Toji died before she finally moved away to Old Tokyo, Nermia Ward with Misato and Kaji. Those two had gotten married sometime after the big fight...But he wasn't prepared to talk about that, not yet. He looked at the clock. 12:00 a.m. Damn, it was early. Well, no sense in going back to sleep...
He got out of bed and went to his small kitchen. It was smaller than Misato's, but he didn't need much space. The phone began to ring and he picked it up.
"Hello, Ikari residence."
"Shinji-kun?"
"Hikari-chan, why are you calling at this ungodly hour?"
"It's...it's my dad." In the eleven months that Shinji had lived in Osaka-2, he, Hikari, and Kensuke had all become very close friends, but Shinji still couldn't decipher all her signals.
"What happened to your dad?" Hikari sobbed.
"He...he shot himself in the head at work!" Shinji gasped. Damn, not now...this soon after Toji's death!
"Hikari, if you need any help...I promised Toji I'd take care of you." Hikari cried some more.
"Shinji, would you mind if I stayed with you tonight? Kodama and Nozomi are real wreaks right now, and I really can't take it." Shinji thought about it for a second. A girl, who was a friend, coming to his home, where he lived alone, by herself, to sleep. A certain friend was perky about the idea, but ultimately the bonds of friendship (not hampered by his libido) encouraged him to let her stay with him.
"Okay, I'll be over in ten minutes."
Ten minutes later, the doorbell rang and Shinji let a red-eyed Hikari into his home.
"Look, Hikari are you okay?" She barely nodded and stepped across the threshold. She looked up at him, straight into his eyes. She moved towards his lips, but Shinji gently pressed her away.
"Hikari...I just don't like you like that...please don't force me into that situation again." Hikari collapsed in Shinji's arms, sobbing. Slowly he laid her on his bed, and was ready to turn in himself when the phone rang. He answered reluctantly.
"Hello, Ikari residence."
"Hello Shinji." Shinji shivered,
"Who is this?" The man on the other end chuckled, a hideous sound.
"Shinji, this is your father, Rokunbungi Gendo."
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NEON GENESIS EVANGELION – LIVING IN CHAOS
LIVING IN CHAOS
EPISODE 1
HIS MESSAGE BRINGS NOTHING BUT DEATH AND PAIN
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"You fucking piece of shit."
"How dare you speak that way to your father and commanding officer!" Shinji growled,
"You are not my commanding officer anymore. And the disowning notice I received proves that you are indeed NOT my father."
"I still do not wish to be referred to in such a manner."
"Oh, I'm sorry you cocksucking assfucking whore."
"NERV has been reinstated in Osaka-2, we will receive the Sixth Child early tomorrow afternoon. Major Kaji, if I have the name change correct, and Pilot Asuka Kaji will be relocating there tomorrow, along with myself and Rokunbungi Rei."
"So, Kaji adopted the she-demon and you had Rei change her name to your name before you married Mom. Very clever, cocksucker."
"Goodbye, Shinji. You will begin testing again the following Monday." The line went dead.
"Damn...dirty bastard." Shinji hung up and turned in on the couch.
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The next morning, Hikari, who was dressed in a pair of his shorts and one of his shirts, shook Shinji out of a weary sleep.
"Hey, Shinji-kun, get up, it's ten in the morning. I borrowed some of your clothes, okay?" Shinji nodded sleepily and got up to make breakfast. He quickly whipped up some rice and curry, living with Misato had taken its toll on him, and they quickly ate it. Hikari left soon after, leaving Shinji to think about the call from last night.
'I wonder what time they will be arriving?' As if an answer to his question, the answering machine popped in.
"Shinji, I know you're listening. Go out to the street corner right outside your apartment. There will be a black Suburban across the street. Go up to it. Get in the car. The driver will take you to the airport to meet us." Shinji walked outside.
Shinji walked to the street corner, and sure enough there was a black Suburban across the street. He walked up to it and got in. The driver was a plump bald man in his mid-forties. He shifted the car out of parking and sped off to the airport.
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When Shinji arrived at the airport the man took him to gate G-17, where Gendo, Rei, Asuka, Misato and Kaji were all waiting.
"Hello." Suddenly, he was bombarded with a legion of statements.
"Shinji, how have you been!" Kaji.
"Shinji, you bastard! How dare you show your face to me!" Asuka.
"Shinji, you fool! How could you go and leave us like that!" Misato.
"Hello, Ikari-kun." Rei. Only Gendo did not speak.
"What's the matter? Can't talk to the son you left behind?"
"I do not wish to speak to you. The Sixth will arrive in three minutes." And to no one's surprise, Gendo was right. Three minutes later, the plane pulled up to the gate. Soon enough, a girl of about Shinji's age stepped out of the gate. She was tall, but a little shorter than Shinji, with reddish-brown hair. She was quite well built, especially for a sixteen-year-old. She wore a red T-shirt with a gray vest and some loose black pants. She strutted up to the group and stuck out her hand.
"Hi, I'm Kirashima Mana! Pleased to meet ya!" Gendo nodded.
"Yes. You are the Sixth Child, no?" She nodded.
"Yeah, that's me. Look, I don't know where I'll be staying, but this is all I've got right now." She indicated a large duffel bag.
"Good. We will arrange a place for you later. I am Commander Rokunbungi Gendo. This is my daughter, Rokunbungi Rei." She looked at him quizzically.
"But the briefing I read last year said you were an Ikari and that was Ayanami Rei, and you had a son, Ikari Shinji."
"Enough. Let us continue. This is Kaji Misato, Asuka, and Ryoji." She nodded, but gestured to Shinji.
"Who's he, Asuka or Rei's boyfriend?" Asuka looked furious.
"You bitch! Assuming that this...this FREAK is my boyfriend—"
"Shut the fuck up Asuka!" Shinji took a breath and turned to Mana. "I am Ikari Shinji. You may not have read about my...psychological status, but I can assure you, I'm not quite normal." Mana gave a half smile.
"Y'know, you're kinda cute!" With that she thrust herself forward, pressing her lips upon Shinji's. Shinji nearly jumped back, but something willed him to stand. In fact this was kind of nice...Shinji felt a certain friend rise to the occasion, and he blushed. Mana thrust her tongue forward to part his lips, but before he could react she broke off the kiss. Shinji gasped for air.
"Whoa!"
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END OF EPISODE ONE
[Living in Chaos Ending Theme – Neon Genesis Evangelion - Shinji] (Yes, that is a song name.)
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Ending Notes: So, how'd ya like that ending! So, be honest, how many of you thought that this would be a Shinji/Hikari fic? How many thought it would be a Shinji/Asuka, or a Shinji/Rei? Tell me at RJR007@worldnet.att.net or put it in your review at fanfiction.net. In case you want to be absolutely sure what Mana looks like, go to the Girlfriend of Steel website, it's at