False Impressions
By Izanami Hime
"…" spoken out loud
*...* thoughts
*sob* crying
If you're weird, and absolutely need to see the disclaimer look at any of the previous parts.
Part 5
The next few days passed by pretty quickly. Duo and Tanoshi weren't speaking to each other, and seemed to be avoiding each other as well. Tanoshi continued to go out with Taro, even though she hated him more than ever.
Then one day in homeroom Mr. Kansaki had the bright idea to assign a class project. "Class today I will be assigning a project. I will be pairing you up in groups of twos." The class groaned. "Yes, I will be assigning your groups. Your assignment is to interview a member of the faculty or staff." He assigned everyone's partners. Yujin was working with a girl named Sumire, and Azuki was working a boy named Hajime. As luck would have it Duo and Tanoshi were paired together. Mr. Kansaki must not have known about their break-up.
*Aw man, why'd he have to do that. Now I'm gonna have to spend time with Duo to work on this. He really hates me, and I'm not sure things are gonna work out between us. I really miss him, but… I just don't know what to do.* "Tanoshi. Earth to Tanoshi." She looked up to find Azuki looking down at her with a frown. "Are you okay Tanoshi? You know, with being paired up with Duo." Tanoshi gave a small smile and nodded. "Yeah I'll be alright. I have to talk to him sometime right?" Azuki didn't look convinced at all. "I guess... Oh well, we have the period to get started. Good luck."
Tanoshi decided that Duo wasn't going to come to her to discuss the project. He'd just as much do it himself, so she would have to go to him. She hesitated when she got to his desk. "Uh… hi Duo." She pulled up a chair next to him. He didn't even say 'hello', he just sat in his desk like she hadn't said a thing. "So who do you want to interview?" Tanoshi asked glad that she hadn't started to stutter. For the first time in weeks he looked at her, but his gaze held no warmth. His gaze was so cold. *His heart must be pretty frozen if he can look at me that way. After all we've been through together.*
Duo did have someone in mind for their assignment. "I was thinking we should interview the Headmaster Ikegami." Tanoshi frowned confused. "Why would you want to interview him?" If possible Duo's gaze became colder. "If we interview the headmaster we'll kinda killing two birds with one stone. Interviewing him, and finding out where he hangs out. You do remember why we're here don't you?" Now Tanoshi was angry.
"Listen Duo, I know you're pissed at me right now, but you don't have to be such a jerk! You have no clue what's really happened to me here. You have absolutely no idea, so stop treating me like this. Yes I remember why we're here. That's what got me into this whole mess in the first place. Do you really hate me so much?"
Just then the bell rang. Duo got out of his seat, and without another word or even a glance back, he left.
"Damnitdamnitdamnitdamnitdamnit. What did I do to deserve this?" She started kicking her locker. "WhywhywhywhyWHY! This isn't fucking fair." Just then she felt a tap on her shoulder. She turned around ready to pound whoever had disturbed her. "Oh Ms. Yagami hehehe… how nice to see you?"
"Tanoshi don't you ever behave?" Tanoshi calmed herself down. She didn't want another detention. "Uh… sorry Ms. Y. I know it's no excuse but I'm just having a really bad day." Ms. Yagami was genuinely concerned. Tanoshi was usually cheerful, not destructive. "Tanoshi if you want to talk about what's bothering you I'm here for you. I know I'm a teacher and probably the last person you want to tell, but I'd like to help if you'll let me.
Tanoshi felt like banging her head against her locker. *Just great, now I've got Ms. Y. feeling bad for me too. I better feed her some crap to make her feel better.* She put on a smile, and hoped it didn't look as fake as it felt. "It's ok Ms. Y. I'm fine really. But if I need someone to talk to you'll be the first person I go to." Ms. Yagami seemed to be buying what Tanoshi said. "Ok then, I'll see you in class tomorrow."
"Phew, I thought she'd never leave." Tanoshi closed her locker and headed to her room.
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Tanoshi was three feet from her door, when Taro popped up. "Hey Tanoshi. I was thinking we could go out tonight. What do you think?" Tanoshi really didn't feel like spending time with Taro at the moment, so she decided to make something up. "Ya know Taro, I'm not feeling too good today. I wouldn't want to get sick during our date, so I think I'll take a rain check on that. I'll talk to you later." She walked into her room without waiting for a response.
Once inside her room, Tanoshi turned on her CD player. She popped in a CD duo had burned for her. They were all sad and depressing songs that Tanoshi usually made fun of. But today she felt like she understood what the songs meant. She pressed play, then went to lie down on her bed. She didn't even need to hear the words to start crying. All she had to do was think of the way Duo had treated her earlier that day, and tears flowed out.
*What am I going to do? He really hates me. Is it even worth trying? By the way he looked at me today you'd never guess we were in love. You'd never even think we were friends. I hate this. If we would've just refused the mission, then none of this would have ever happened and we could be at the safe house right now playing a joke on Meiyo and Wufei. Duo…*
Sometime during her thoughts Tanoshi fell asleep. When she woke up it was 9:45pm, and she was all rested up, so she decided to go for a walk.
She crept silently through the halls until she reached the school's garden. Tanoshi walked as quietly as possible. She didn't want anyone to know she was there. She found a big tree, climbed onto one of its branches, and just sat there thinking, silent tears streaming down her face. She'd been doing a lot of both of those lately.
A few minutes later someone sat down under the same tree. It was a kid her age. This person just sat there for a while before starting to cry. It was then that Tanoshi realized it was a boy. She was about to go down next to him. She figured they could cry together, but the words he was crying made her change her mind. *Duo? *
The words were choked out between sobs, and Tanoshi was straining to hear what this boy had to say. "Tanoshi *sob* why'd you *sob* do this to *sob* me. I *sob* love you. I thought *sob* you loved *sob* me too." After that he broke down into an uncontrollable fit of weeping.
Tanoshi felt horrible. *How could I do this to him. even if this was done for him, he still thinks I've betrayed him. I've been feeling bad for myself, while he's been feeling ten times worse than me. *
Tanoshi decided that she would things straight now. She climbed down the tree silently and sat down next to Duo. "T *sob* noshi what are you doing here? I thought I was alone?" he quickly dried his tears and cleared his throat. Then he noticed Tanoshi's tear stained face. "Why are you crying?" Tanoshi realized her face was still wet, and wiped her tears away. "Because of you. And everything that's been going on." Duo nodded. "Well I'll leave you alone." He got up to leave, but Tanoshi grabbed the edge of his shirt to stop him. "Wait please don't go. I need to talk to you." She looked into his eyes. "Please?" Duo never could refuse Tanoshi anything when she did that. "Okay." He sat down next to her again. She held onto his hand to make sure he couldn't leave.
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"Duo I need to tell you why I'm really dating Taro." Duo winced at the boy's name. "What's there to know. You liked him better than me so you started dating him." Tanoshi looked horrified. "Do you really have such little faith in me Duo. That's not it at all." Duo didn't look convinced.
"I met Taro the same way I met you. I ran into him in the hallway on my way to class. I've hated him from the start, and when he said he'd make me his girlfriend I just laughed. But he found a way to make it happen." She checked to make sure Duo was paying attention. "Somehow Taro found out that you're a gundam pilot, more specifically pilot 02. He was going to tell everyone, and I couldn't let that happen. The only way I could stop him from letting out your secret was to be his girlfriend." Duo nodded. "Ok, but why didn't you tell me about it?" "I wanted to tell you Duo. I really did, but Taro said the deal was off if I did."
All of a sudden Tanoshi started crying again. She fell against Duo's chest, and he held her close, just like he used to. "Oh Duo *sob* I'm so sorry. *sob* I never meant to hurt you. *sob* You've gotta believe me. I love you so much. I'd never *sob* do anything to hurt you. Please forgive me." Her sobs grew louder as she prayed that Duo would forgive her.
Duo stroked her back while trying to calm her down. "Ssshhh Tanoshi it's ok. Calm down. Ssshhh." Nothing seemed to be working, Tanoshi was in hysterics, so he did the only thing he thought might work. He kissed her.
For a moment it seemed like even this wouldn't work, but suddenly Tanoshi started kissing him back passionately. When the kiss ended they stayed in each other's arms. Neither of them wanted to let go afraid that if they did, they'd find out none of this was true, that this was just another dream.
"Does this mean you forgive me?" Tanoshi asked. "Of course. Ai Shiteru Tanoshi, kore kara zutto... itsumademo." Tanoshi was so happy that she started crying again. "Oh Duo, I'm so happy. Are you sure I'm not dreaming? I've missed you so much." This time she kissed him.
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By the time Duo and Tanoshi were finished making up and making out, it was 11:30pm. Because it was a school night they figured they better get to their rooms. "Duo even though you know he truth now, you still have to pretend you don't. And I have to keep dating Taro. We'll figure out what to do with him later." Duo agreed. "I know, but that doesn't mean I can't see you when he's not around right?" Tanoshi grinned. "Of course. Now we better go. G'night, I love you."
They said 'goodnight', then went to bed, happy for the first time in days.
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Was that too sappy? I'm not good with emotions, so they seem to come out bad in writing. Oh well, I couldn't keep them apart any longer. I was running out of ideas for that. If you've got an idea for the title please tell me. I'm really at a loss for one. Anyways, thanks for reading. The next part'll be out before ya know it. Oh ya, kore kara zutto... itsumademo means For always and forever.
By Izanami Hime
"…" spoken out loud
*...* thoughts
*sob* crying
If you're weird, and absolutely need to see the disclaimer look at any of the previous parts.
Part 5
The next few days passed by pretty quickly. Duo and Tanoshi weren't speaking to each other, and seemed to be avoiding each other as well. Tanoshi continued to go out with Taro, even though she hated him more than ever.
Then one day in homeroom Mr. Kansaki had the bright idea to assign a class project. "Class today I will be assigning a project. I will be pairing you up in groups of twos." The class groaned. "Yes, I will be assigning your groups. Your assignment is to interview a member of the faculty or staff." He assigned everyone's partners. Yujin was working with a girl named Sumire, and Azuki was working a boy named Hajime. As luck would have it Duo and Tanoshi were paired together. Mr. Kansaki must not have known about their break-up.
*Aw man, why'd he have to do that. Now I'm gonna have to spend time with Duo to work on this. He really hates me, and I'm not sure things are gonna work out between us. I really miss him, but… I just don't know what to do.* "Tanoshi. Earth to Tanoshi." She looked up to find Azuki looking down at her with a frown. "Are you okay Tanoshi? You know, with being paired up with Duo." Tanoshi gave a small smile and nodded. "Yeah I'll be alright. I have to talk to him sometime right?" Azuki didn't look convinced at all. "I guess... Oh well, we have the period to get started. Good luck."
Tanoshi decided that Duo wasn't going to come to her to discuss the project. He'd just as much do it himself, so she would have to go to him. She hesitated when she got to his desk. "Uh… hi Duo." She pulled up a chair next to him. He didn't even say 'hello', he just sat in his desk like she hadn't said a thing. "So who do you want to interview?" Tanoshi asked glad that she hadn't started to stutter. For the first time in weeks he looked at her, but his gaze held no warmth. His gaze was so cold. *His heart must be pretty frozen if he can look at me that way. After all we've been through together.*
Duo did have someone in mind for their assignment. "I was thinking we should interview the Headmaster Ikegami." Tanoshi frowned confused. "Why would you want to interview him?" If possible Duo's gaze became colder. "If we interview the headmaster we'll kinda killing two birds with one stone. Interviewing him, and finding out where he hangs out. You do remember why we're here don't you?" Now Tanoshi was angry.
"Listen Duo, I know you're pissed at me right now, but you don't have to be such a jerk! You have no clue what's really happened to me here. You have absolutely no idea, so stop treating me like this. Yes I remember why we're here. That's what got me into this whole mess in the first place. Do you really hate me so much?"
Just then the bell rang. Duo got out of his seat, and without another word or even a glance back, he left.
"Damnitdamnitdamnitdamnitdamnit. What did I do to deserve this?" She started kicking her locker. "WhywhywhywhyWHY! This isn't fucking fair." Just then she felt a tap on her shoulder. She turned around ready to pound whoever had disturbed her. "Oh Ms. Yagami hehehe… how nice to see you?"
"Tanoshi don't you ever behave?" Tanoshi calmed herself down. She didn't want another detention. "Uh… sorry Ms. Y. I know it's no excuse but I'm just having a really bad day." Ms. Yagami was genuinely concerned. Tanoshi was usually cheerful, not destructive. "Tanoshi if you want to talk about what's bothering you I'm here for you. I know I'm a teacher and probably the last person you want to tell, but I'd like to help if you'll let me.
Tanoshi felt like banging her head against her locker. *Just great, now I've got Ms. Y. feeling bad for me too. I better feed her some crap to make her feel better.* She put on a smile, and hoped it didn't look as fake as it felt. "It's ok Ms. Y. I'm fine really. But if I need someone to talk to you'll be the first person I go to." Ms. Yagami seemed to be buying what Tanoshi said. "Ok then, I'll see you in class tomorrow."
"Phew, I thought she'd never leave." Tanoshi closed her locker and headed to her room.
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Tanoshi was three feet from her door, when Taro popped up. "Hey Tanoshi. I was thinking we could go out tonight. What do you think?" Tanoshi really didn't feel like spending time with Taro at the moment, so she decided to make something up. "Ya know Taro, I'm not feeling too good today. I wouldn't want to get sick during our date, so I think I'll take a rain check on that. I'll talk to you later." She walked into her room without waiting for a response.
Once inside her room, Tanoshi turned on her CD player. She popped in a CD duo had burned for her. They were all sad and depressing songs that Tanoshi usually made fun of. But today she felt like she understood what the songs meant. She pressed play, then went to lie down on her bed. She didn't even need to hear the words to start crying. All she had to do was think of the way Duo had treated her earlier that day, and tears flowed out.
*What am I going to do? He really hates me. Is it even worth trying? By the way he looked at me today you'd never guess we were in love. You'd never even think we were friends. I hate this. If we would've just refused the mission, then none of this would have ever happened and we could be at the safe house right now playing a joke on Meiyo and Wufei. Duo…*
Sometime during her thoughts Tanoshi fell asleep. When she woke up it was 9:45pm, and she was all rested up, so she decided to go for a walk.
She crept silently through the halls until she reached the school's garden. Tanoshi walked as quietly as possible. She didn't want anyone to know she was there. She found a big tree, climbed onto one of its branches, and just sat there thinking, silent tears streaming down her face. She'd been doing a lot of both of those lately.
A few minutes later someone sat down under the same tree. It was a kid her age. This person just sat there for a while before starting to cry. It was then that Tanoshi realized it was a boy. She was about to go down next to him. She figured they could cry together, but the words he was crying made her change her mind. *Duo? *
The words were choked out between sobs, and Tanoshi was straining to hear what this boy had to say. "Tanoshi *sob* why'd you *sob* do this to *sob* me. I *sob* love you. I thought *sob* you loved *sob* me too." After that he broke down into an uncontrollable fit of weeping.
Tanoshi felt horrible. *How could I do this to him. even if this was done for him, he still thinks I've betrayed him. I've been feeling bad for myself, while he's been feeling ten times worse than me. *
Tanoshi decided that she would things straight now. She climbed down the tree silently and sat down next to Duo. "T *sob* noshi what are you doing here? I thought I was alone?" he quickly dried his tears and cleared his throat. Then he noticed Tanoshi's tear stained face. "Why are you crying?" Tanoshi realized her face was still wet, and wiped her tears away. "Because of you. And everything that's been going on." Duo nodded. "Well I'll leave you alone." He got up to leave, but Tanoshi grabbed the edge of his shirt to stop him. "Wait please don't go. I need to talk to you." She looked into his eyes. "Please?" Duo never could refuse Tanoshi anything when she did that. "Okay." He sat down next to her again. She held onto his hand to make sure he couldn't leave.
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"Duo I need to tell you why I'm really dating Taro." Duo winced at the boy's name. "What's there to know. You liked him better than me so you started dating him." Tanoshi looked horrified. "Do you really have such little faith in me Duo. That's not it at all." Duo didn't look convinced.
"I met Taro the same way I met you. I ran into him in the hallway on my way to class. I've hated him from the start, and when he said he'd make me his girlfriend I just laughed. But he found a way to make it happen." She checked to make sure Duo was paying attention. "Somehow Taro found out that you're a gundam pilot, more specifically pilot 02. He was going to tell everyone, and I couldn't let that happen. The only way I could stop him from letting out your secret was to be his girlfriend." Duo nodded. "Ok, but why didn't you tell me about it?" "I wanted to tell you Duo. I really did, but Taro said the deal was off if I did."
All of a sudden Tanoshi started crying again. She fell against Duo's chest, and he held her close, just like he used to. "Oh Duo *sob* I'm so sorry. *sob* I never meant to hurt you. *sob* You've gotta believe me. I love you so much. I'd never *sob* do anything to hurt you. Please forgive me." Her sobs grew louder as she prayed that Duo would forgive her.
Duo stroked her back while trying to calm her down. "Ssshhh Tanoshi it's ok. Calm down. Ssshhh." Nothing seemed to be working, Tanoshi was in hysterics, so he did the only thing he thought might work. He kissed her.
For a moment it seemed like even this wouldn't work, but suddenly Tanoshi started kissing him back passionately. When the kiss ended they stayed in each other's arms. Neither of them wanted to let go afraid that if they did, they'd find out none of this was true, that this was just another dream.
"Does this mean you forgive me?" Tanoshi asked. "Of course. Ai Shiteru Tanoshi, kore kara zutto... itsumademo." Tanoshi was so happy that she started crying again. "Oh Duo, I'm so happy. Are you sure I'm not dreaming? I've missed you so much." This time she kissed him.
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By the time Duo and Tanoshi were finished making up and making out, it was 11:30pm. Because it was a school night they figured they better get to their rooms. "Duo even though you know he truth now, you still have to pretend you don't. And I have to keep dating Taro. We'll figure out what to do with him later." Duo agreed. "I know, but that doesn't mean I can't see you when he's not around right?" Tanoshi grinned. "Of course. Now we better go. G'night, I love you."
They said 'goodnight', then went to bed, happy for the first time in days.
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Was that too sappy? I'm not good with emotions, so they seem to come out bad in writing. Oh well, I couldn't keep them apart any longer. I was running out of ideas for that. If you've got an idea for the title please tell me. I'm really at a loss for one. Anyways, thanks for reading. The next part'll be out before ya know it. Oh ya, kore kara zutto... itsumademo means For always and forever.