Title: Dear Diary, Part 6/?
Author: Debi
Email: IanFan9@aol.com
Feeback: Please! It's inspiring and helps me write better.
Rating: PG-13 (for now)
Category: Jake and Hamilton
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters. I only get to own Hamilton in my wildest fantasies!
Summary: What if Jake had kept a journal of her adventure at Rawley?
Spoilers: This part takes us through "Gone".
Thanks: To everyone who provided me with such great feedback from Parts 1 & 2.
Tuesday, August 22, 2000
I'm still thinking about Mom. I'm really confused here, part of me is really happy she didn't catch on to my little charade this past weekend, but another part of me is furious that she didn't. How screwed up is that? I certainly don't want to leave Hamilton, but the whole purpose of my being here was to get my mother to notice and realize how little she really knows me. Sure it was nice that she liked my hair cut short and that she remembered the pink dress I had when I was 6 and that she wanted to know about Hamilton, but somehow I still feel like she missed the point. I was basically lying to her the entire weekend and she had no clue. If we had a real mother/daughter relationship I wouldn't have been able to deceive her so completely. Of course, if we had a real mother/daughter relationship, I probably wouldn't be sitting here wearing boxer shorts instead of silk panties in the first place! I guess seeing her just opened up the old wounds and I'm having more trouble than usual closing them back up.
Hamilton resumed his habit of coming by first thing in the morning. He came by yesterday and today. I love starting my day that way. I can't get enough of those amazing blue eyes... I think he and I are the only two students on campus who get up real early - for different reasons, though. I get up before everyone else so I can get a shower without all the guys around. Showering and going to the bathroom are the hardest parts of this charade and the most risky. Hamilton gets up early to take his dogs for a run around the campus and then he goes to the gym. I knew he had to put some effort into that incredible body of his; I'm just surprised that he gets up early to do it. Most of the gym rats around here work out after classes are over. They prefer to sleep in and hit the gym in the afternoon. It's kinda fun though; knowing he and I are awake while everyone else is still snoring away. I was even thinking about joining him on his run, but I have to figure out how and where I would take a shower afterwards. I'd be pushing my luck taking a shower that late here in the dorm. It would be nice to get in some exercise again. I haven't really worked out since coming to Rawley and I'm starting to feel fat. I don't get any exercise as the coxswain of the crew team and Jake would look funny if he went on a diet... I get enough strange looks from the other guys around here.
Oh, Hamilton and I decided we're going to try to hang out with Will and Scout more. They seem pretty cool and we see them at the diner a lot. We thought that the four of us hanging out together would look less suspicious to the other guys, like Ryder. And maybe if we got to be better friends with Will and Scout they might be less inclined to spread rumors about us.
Ryder, have I mentioned him before? Well, he's this royal pain in the butt import that seems to live for the sole purpose of tormenting other people. One of his favorite targets is Hamilton. Just our luck, the school jerk watching our every move is the last thing we need. I asked Hamilton why Ryder dislikes him so much. He said he really doesn't know, just that ever since Ryder started school here, Ryder's been especially nasty to him. I can't imagine why anyone would hate Hamilton. From what I can tell, he spent most of the last few years keeping to himself, so why hate him?
Then again, I do have a somewhat biased opinion of Hamilton Fleming.... :)
Wednesday, August 23, 2000
Mentioning showers and going to the bathroom last night made me realize something important. My period is going to start soon. Last month was hard to hide, but this month is going to be harder. Last month Hamilton was avoiding me half the time, so it was easy to get away from school and go shopping in another town. One quick stop in the bathroom of a gas station and I'm a girl again. I can shop for whatever I need without it looking funny. This month Hamilton is going to ask why I'm leaving campus and he'll probably want to come with me. I REALLY don't want to explain this to him. I know he'd understand, but things with him are still new, so it's kind of embarrassing. I've had to come up with some rather interesting ways of keeping all the "girl stuff" hidden. Not the least of which was modifying my backpack so I could hide things under the hard insert at the bottom of the pack. I used Velcro to keep everything in place in case the pack ever got upended in front of other people. I try to carry it around a lot so it won't look as strange when I carry it for 3 or 4 days straight every month. It's going to be very interesting this month....
I should go shopping soon and get what I need before it starts. Maybe I'll pick up some girl clothes, too. It would be nice to dress up occasionally, even if it's just in my room for Hamilton.
Thursday, August 24, 2000
I went shopping today! And I was right about Hamilton asking why I was leaving campus. As soon as classes were over, he asked me what I wanted to do. I said I needed to take my bike and do some shopping. He asked what I was shopping for and if he could come with me. I dodged the all girly stuff by saying I wanted to surprise him. Since he was pretty happy with the "surprise" dresses from Parent's Weekend, he let it go. I found all the necessities easy enough, but the dress and shoes were harder to find. There isn't really a big mall near New Rawley, so you have to settle for smaller ones and individual stores. It's really easy to find jeans and gym shoes, but more of a challenge to find fancier clothes. Not a big problem if you're used to it, but I'm from New York City. I'm used to some of the best shopping in North America all right in front of you! I did manage to find something simple yet sexy, but they only had it in brown. Again, not my favorite color, but it's way better than pink. I managed to find shoes, too. The dress is tight and the shoes have high heels, so Hamilton should love it. Now I just have to find an excuse to wear it for him.
It was fun to shop as a girl again and be myself for a few hours. I forget how much I miss these things until I do them again. Then I get totally depressed that I have to keep up this charade, but after I spend a few minutes alone with Hamilton - I remember why it's worth it. I was enjoying being a girl again so much that it took a lot longer than I planned. By the time I got back to school, I had missed getting to see Hamilton tonight. He had to get home early. There was a note under my door saying he had to develop some pictures he took for his Mom and that he would miss me tonight. He also said he can't wait to see my surprises. I'll bet he'd be surprised if he got a look in the bag from the drugstore!
Friday, August 25, 2000
After classes were over Hamilton and I came back here to hang out. He kept trying to find the bags from my shopping trip to see what I bought, so I suggested we go for ice cream. Two things always distract Hamilton - food is one of them! Will and Scout were both working, although the place was empty while we were there. We hung out, ate ice cream and talked with Will and Scout. Scout went over to invite Bella to join us, but came back alone and looking pretty weird. It looks to me like Scout has a major thing for Bella. It's weird though, because he doesn't seem to have done anything about it. And I could have sworn I heard Will whisper something about incest to Scout before Scout walked across to the gas station. Definitely something strange there...but then, who am I to judge anyone else's "strangeness" these days?
Hamilton proved again just how thoughtful he is, too. Whenever we're around other people he always tries to find a way to say something sweet that only I'll understand. I love it when he does that, it makes me feel so special. Anyway, he did it again tonight and I just wanted to jump into his lap and kiss him right then and there. Of course, I didn't. Will and Scout look at us funny already, but I made up for it when we got back here. Now I'm going to bed to have sweet Hamilton dreams!
Saturday, August 26, 2000
Another totally crazy day at Rawley Academy! I swear sometimes this feels more like a roller coaster ride. One minute, things are great and the next - plunging over the edge screaming....
Let's see, the day started out rather well. Taking the chance that the Rawley boys would rather sleep in on Saturday than go to the gym, I joined Hamilton on his morning run with the dogs. We went to the gym afterwards and while he worked that oh-so-stunning body of his into even more stunning shape; I took my shower in the gym locker room. Hamilton was around to "guard" me should anyone have come in, but my guess was correct. Not a soul was to be seen that early on a Saturday morning. After he had showered we headed for breakfast and talked about how much fun it was to run together. I was surprised I could keep up with him. It's been so long since I worked out and running with the corset on was most uncomfortable. But shortly after we started, Hamilton took off his shirt and I stopped thinking about my chest and started thinking about his. The rest of the run went rather well!
After breakfast we stopped in the Common Room and started talking to Will and Scout. Scout looked as though he had just gotten some exercise as well. But Will, geez, that doofus had just lost $500 to Ryder playing poker! What kind of fool is he anyway? The guy is here on scholarship and he gets suckered into gambling with Ryder? While he and Scout pondered how Will was going to pay off the debt, Hamilton and I decided we were "starved" and made a break for my room. We were trying to convince ourselves that Will and Scout don't suspect that we're a couple, a male/male couple, that is, when Hamilton commented that they couldn't possibly doubt HIS masculinity! I couldn't help it - I just HAD to mess with him! I told him he knew he liked boys; that's why he liked me. He looked like I had knocked the wind out of him. Then he said this whole situation was messing with his head. Inspiration struck and the opportunity to wear my new dress presented itself. I suggested that we go on a real date. Seemed like a great idea at the time...little did I know it would be mostly a disaster!
I gathered my clothes and makeup and we headed for the bike. I remembered a nice looking restaurant from my shopping trip and decided that it was far enough away to be safe. We were just about to leave when Ryder caught us. So now the school jerk knows that we were leaving together and that I have an illegal motorcycle on campus. Great. Just great.
Anyway, we get past that and head out of New Rawley. We stopped at the docks so I could change. While I was inside, the Big Bad Male Ego Monster was outside taking control of Hamilton's mind! My sweet, thoughtful, loving boyfriend was turned into a male chauvinist. First, he insisted on driving the rest of the way to the restaurant. Ok, fine. It's only MY bike, but since I was wearing a very short skirt and heels - I let that one slide. Hammy can drive for once. We got to the place and it was nice at first. We held hands and he kissed me. That felt wonderful, people everywhere and we got to hold hands and kiss. Then the monster returned - he called me "foxy". Who the hell says "foxy" in this decade? Anyway, I laughed. I mean, come on, it was funny and made me uncomfortable; so I laughed. And he got all offended - and called me a cross dressing she-man! That stung, but again, I was willing to let it slide. However, Hamilton decided to sit there and be angry. I tried to apologize for laughing, but even that turned into a mistake. He somehow turned my apology into an excuse to order lunch "for the lady". That did it. I've been ordering my own meals since I was about 6! Why on earth would he figure I couldn't handle it now? Plus, he ordered salmon! If he knew me as well as I thought he did, he'd realize I don't even like salmon. We eat together at least once a day, every day! You'd think he'd have a clue what I like to eat. Anyway, I know what HE likes to eat (and doesn't) so when he suggested that "Jake" order for us both since I was out of practice at being a girl, I nailed him. I ordered scallops, knowing full well that Hamilton Fleming does not like scallops. To his credit, he sucked it up and ate them anyway. By desert things were slowing getting back on track. Then the check came and the Ego Monster returned. I wanted to pay for lunch and that must have assaulted his male ego, because he didn't like it. This was the final straw, I let him have it and he dished it right back. We didn't speak much as we left the restaurant and the ride back to the docks was completely silent.
While I was inside changing back into Jake and pouting over what a huge mess this date had become, I decided to try to lighten the mood again. When I walked back to the bike, I made a comment about what my mother would do if she knew I had used such a dirty bathroom. Instead of going with the joke, he used it send another little zinger my way about me being strange. I decided it was time for the truth, no more verbal sparring. I asked him flat out if he thought I was a freak for doing this. I swear my heart stopped beating until he answered. To my great relief, he said no. He admitted that he was just confused by the totally weird situation we're in and not sure how he's supposed to act. As if there is some sort of standard behavior manual for falling for your best guy friend only to find out he is a she who is cross-dressing for parental attention! Yeah, there's a manual out there for that one... Anyway, the moment was saved and the roller coaster eased out of its plunge when he said he's just confused because I'm his best guy friend at school and yet I'm his girlfriend that he's "totally in love with"! That last part sort of slipped out and at first I wasn't entirely sure I had heard him right. So, I made him repeat it. And he did. Hamilton said that he loved me. I thought my heart would burst with the pure joy those 3 little words brought to it. I told him that I was in love with him, too. It was such a wonderful moment, I've played it over and over in my mind and I break out into a huge smile every time. He loves me!
Then we headed back to New Rawley - I drove. When we got into town we noticed Will, Scout and Bella at the diner and decided to join them. I know who Bella is, but hadn't ever been formally introduced. After we were introduced, I made a tactical error. A fairly big one. I told Bella she had a cute coat. The three of them gave me strange looks and Hamilton shot me a fierce warning look. Bella looked at me funny for the rest of the night. It was unsettling to say the least, but we enjoyed hanging out with them. The diner was empty again (I'm amazed they stay in business, there's hardly ever anyone there) so we got to goof around, make jokes and have some fun.
We got back to campus, stashed the bike and went to my room to say goodnight. We both apologized for the disaster that was our date, but agreed that the day had been salvaged. I hated to see him leave, but I know I'll have really sweet Hamilton dreams tonight! After all, he said he loves me...
End Part 6
Author: Debi
Email: IanFan9@aol.com
Feeback: Please! It's inspiring and helps me write better.
Rating: PG-13 (for now)
Category: Jake and Hamilton
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters. I only get to own Hamilton in my wildest fantasies!
Summary: What if Jake had kept a journal of her adventure at Rawley?
Spoilers: This part takes us through "Gone".
Thanks: To everyone who provided me with such great feedback from Parts 1 & 2.
Tuesday, August 22, 2000
I'm still thinking about Mom. I'm really confused here, part of me is really happy she didn't catch on to my little charade this past weekend, but another part of me is furious that she didn't. How screwed up is that? I certainly don't want to leave Hamilton, but the whole purpose of my being here was to get my mother to notice and realize how little she really knows me. Sure it was nice that she liked my hair cut short and that she remembered the pink dress I had when I was 6 and that she wanted to know about Hamilton, but somehow I still feel like she missed the point. I was basically lying to her the entire weekend and she had no clue. If we had a real mother/daughter relationship I wouldn't have been able to deceive her so completely. Of course, if we had a real mother/daughter relationship, I probably wouldn't be sitting here wearing boxer shorts instead of silk panties in the first place! I guess seeing her just opened up the old wounds and I'm having more trouble than usual closing them back up.
Hamilton resumed his habit of coming by first thing in the morning. He came by yesterday and today. I love starting my day that way. I can't get enough of those amazing blue eyes... I think he and I are the only two students on campus who get up real early - for different reasons, though. I get up before everyone else so I can get a shower without all the guys around. Showering and going to the bathroom are the hardest parts of this charade and the most risky. Hamilton gets up early to take his dogs for a run around the campus and then he goes to the gym. I knew he had to put some effort into that incredible body of his; I'm just surprised that he gets up early to do it. Most of the gym rats around here work out after classes are over. They prefer to sleep in and hit the gym in the afternoon. It's kinda fun though; knowing he and I are awake while everyone else is still snoring away. I was even thinking about joining him on his run, but I have to figure out how and where I would take a shower afterwards. I'd be pushing my luck taking a shower that late here in the dorm. It would be nice to get in some exercise again. I haven't really worked out since coming to Rawley and I'm starting to feel fat. I don't get any exercise as the coxswain of the crew team and Jake would look funny if he went on a diet... I get enough strange looks from the other guys around here.
Oh, Hamilton and I decided we're going to try to hang out with Will and Scout more. They seem pretty cool and we see them at the diner a lot. We thought that the four of us hanging out together would look less suspicious to the other guys, like Ryder. And maybe if we got to be better friends with Will and Scout they might be less inclined to spread rumors about us.
Ryder, have I mentioned him before? Well, he's this royal pain in the butt import that seems to live for the sole purpose of tormenting other people. One of his favorite targets is Hamilton. Just our luck, the school jerk watching our every move is the last thing we need. I asked Hamilton why Ryder dislikes him so much. He said he really doesn't know, just that ever since Ryder started school here, Ryder's been especially nasty to him. I can't imagine why anyone would hate Hamilton. From what I can tell, he spent most of the last few years keeping to himself, so why hate him?
Then again, I do have a somewhat biased opinion of Hamilton Fleming.... :)
Wednesday, August 23, 2000
Mentioning showers and going to the bathroom last night made me realize something important. My period is going to start soon. Last month was hard to hide, but this month is going to be harder. Last month Hamilton was avoiding me half the time, so it was easy to get away from school and go shopping in another town. One quick stop in the bathroom of a gas station and I'm a girl again. I can shop for whatever I need without it looking funny. This month Hamilton is going to ask why I'm leaving campus and he'll probably want to come with me. I REALLY don't want to explain this to him. I know he'd understand, but things with him are still new, so it's kind of embarrassing. I've had to come up with some rather interesting ways of keeping all the "girl stuff" hidden. Not the least of which was modifying my backpack so I could hide things under the hard insert at the bottom of the pack. I used Velcro to keep everything in place in case the pack ever got upended in front of other people. I try to carry it around a lot so it won't look as strange when I carry it for 3 or 4 days straight every month. It's going to be very interesting this month....
I should go shopping soon and get what I need before it starts. Maybe I'll pick up some girl clothes, too. It would be nice to dress up occasionally, even if it's just in my room for Hamilton.
Thursday, August 24, 2000
I went shopping today! And I was right about Hamilton asking why I was leaving campus. As soon as classes were over, he asked me what I wanted to do. I said I needed to take my bike and do some shopping. He asked what I was shopping for and if he could come with me. I dodged the all girly stuff by saying I wanted to surprise him. Since he was pretty happy with the "surprise" dresses from Parent's Weekend, he let it go. I found all the necessities easy enough, but the dress and shoes were harder to find. There isn't really a big mall near New Rawley, so you have to settle for smaller ones and individual stores. It's really easy to find jeans and gym shoes, but more of a challenge to find fancier clothes. Not a big problem if you're used to it, but I'm from New York City. I'm used to some of the best shopping in North America all right in front of you! I did manage to find something simple yet sexy, but they only had it in brown. Again, not my favorite color, but it's way better than pink. I managed to find shoes, too. The dress is tight and the shoes have high heels, so Hamilton should love it. Now I just have to find an excuse to wear it for him.
It was fun to shop as a girl again and be myself for a few hours. I forget how much I miss these things until I do them again. Then I get totally depressed that I have to keep up this charade, but after I spend a few minutes alone with Hamilton - I remember why it's worth it. I was enjoying being a girl again so much that it took a lot longer than I planned. By the time I got back to school, I had missed getting to see Hamilton tonight. He had to get home early. There was a note under my door saying he had to develop some pictures he took for his Mom and that he would miss me tonight. He also said he can't wait to see my surprises. I'll bet he'd be surprised if he got a look in the bag from the drugstore!
Friday, August 25, 2000
After classes were over Hamilton and I came back here to hang out. He kept trying to find the bags from my shopping trip to see what I bought, so I suggested we go for ice cream. Two things always distract Hamilton - food is one of them! Will and Scout were both working, although the place was empty while we were there. We hung out, ate ice cream and talked with Will and Scout. Scout went over to invite Bella to join us, but came back alone and looking pretty weird. It looks to me like Scout has a major thing for Bella. It's weird though, because he doesn't seem to have done anything about it. And I could have sworn I heard Will whisper something about incest to Scout before Scout walked across to the gas station. Definitely something strange there...but then, who am I to judge anyone else's "strangeness" these days?
Hamilton proved again just how thoughtful he is, too. Whenever we're around other people he always tries to find a way to say something sweet that only I'll understand. I love it when he does that, it makes me feel so special. Anyway, he did it again tonight and I just wanted to jump into his lap and kiss him right then and there. Of course, I didn't. Will and Scout look at us funny already, but I made up for it when we got back here. Now I'm going to bed to have sweet Hamilton dreams!
Saturday, August 26, 2000
Another totally crazy day at Rawley Academy! I swear sometimes this feels more like a roller coaster ride. One minute, things are great and the next - plunging over the edge screaming....
Let's see, the day started out rather well. Taking the chance that the Rawley boys would rather sleep in on Saturday than go to the gym, I joined Hamilton on his morning run with the dogs. We went to the gym afterwards and while he worked that oh-so-stunning body of his into even more stunning shape; I took my shower in the gym locker room. Hamilton was around to "guard" me should anyone have come in, but my guess was correct. Not a soul was to be seen that early on a Saturday morning. After he had showered we headed for breakfast and talked about how much fun it was to run together. I was surprised I could keep up with him. It's been so long since I worked out and running with the corset on was most uncomfortable. But shortly after we started, Hamilton took off his shirt and I stopped thinking about my chest and started thinking about his. The rest of the run went rather well!
After breakfast we stopped in the Common Room and started talking to Will and Scout. Scout looked as though he had just gotten some exercise as well. But Will, geez, that doofus had just lost $500 to Ryder playing poker! What kind of fool is he anyway? The guy is here on scholarship and he gets suckered into gambling with Ryder? While he and Scout pondered how Will was going to pay off the debt, Hamilton and I decided we were "starved" and made a break for my room. We were trying to convince ourselves that Will and Scout don't suspect that we're a couple, a male/male couple, that is, when Hamilton commented that they couldn't possibly doubt HIS masculinity! I couldn't help it - I just HAD to mess with him! I told him he knew he liked boys; that's why he liked me. He looked like I had knocked the wind out of him. Then he said this whole situation was messing with his head. Inspiration struck and the opportunity to wear my new dress presented itself. I suggested that we go on a real date. Seemed like a great idea at the time...little did I know it would be mostly a disaster!
I gathered my clothes and makeup and we headed for the bike. I remembered a nice looking restaurant from my shopping trip and decided that it was far enough away to be safe. We were just about to leave when Ryder caught us. So now the school jerk knows that we were leaving together and that I have an illegal motorcycle on campus. Great. Just great.
Anyway, we get past that and head out of New Rawley. We stopped at the docks so I could change. While I was inside, the Big Bad Male Ego Monster was outside taking control of Hamilton's mind! My sweet, thoughtful, loving boyfriend was turned into a male chauvinist. First, he insisted on driving the rest of the way to the restaurant. Ok, fine. It's only MY bike, but since I was wearing a very short skirt and heels - I let that one slide. Hammy can drive for once. We got to the place and it was nice at first. We held hands and he kissed me. That felt wonderful, people everywhere and we got to hold hands and kiss. Then the monster returned - he called me "foxy". Who the hell says "foxy" in this decade? Anyway, I laughed. I mean, come on, it was funny and made me uncomfortable; so I laughed. And he got all offended - and called me a cross dressing she-man! That stung, but again, I was willing to let it slide. However, Hamilton decided to sit there and be angry. I tried to apologize for laughing, but even that turned into a mistake. He somehow turned my apology into an excuse to order lunch "for the lady". That did it. I've been ordering my own meals since I was about 6! Why on earth would he figure I couldn't handle it now? Plus, he ordered salmon! If he knew me as well as I thought he did, he'd realize I don't even like salmon. We eat together at least once a day, every day! You'd think he'd have a clue what I like to eat. Anyway, I know what HE likes to eat (and doesn't) so when he suggested that "Jake" order for us both since I was out of practice at being a girl, I nailed him. I ordered scallops, knowing full well that Hamilton Fleming does not like scallops. To his credit, he sucked it up and ate them anyway. By desert things were slowing getting back on track. Then the check came and the Ego Monster returned. I wanted to pay for lunch and that must have assaulted his male ego, because he didn't like it. This was the final straw, I let him have it and he dished it right back. We didn't speak much as we left the restaurant and the ride back to the docks was completely silent.
While I was inside changing back into Jake and pouting over what a huge mess this date had become, I decided to try to lighten the mood again. When I walked back to the bike, I made a comment about what my mother would do if she knew I had used such a dirty bathroom. Instead of going with the joke, he used it send another little zinger my way about me being strange. I decided it was time for the truth, no more verbal sparring. I asked him flat out if he thought I was a freak for doing this. I swear my heart stopped beating until he answered. To my great relief, he said no. He admitted that he was just confused by the totally weird situation we're in and not sure how he's supposed to act. As if there is some sort of standard behavior manual for falling for your best guy friend only to find out he is a she who is cross-dressing for parental attention! Yeah, there's a manual out there for that one... Anyway, the moment was saved and the roller coaster eased out of its plunge when he said he's just confused because I'm his best guy friend at school and yet I'm his girlfriend that he's "totally in love with"! That last part sort of slipped out and at first I wasn't entirely sure I had heard him right. So, I made him repeat it. And he did. Hamilton said that he loved me. I thought my heart would burst with the pure joy those 3 little words brought to it. I told him that I was in love with him, too. It was such a wonderful moment, I've played it over and over in my mind and I break out into a huge smile every time. He loves me!
Then we headed back to New Rawley - I drove. When we got into town we noticed Will, Scout and Bella at the diner and decided to join them. I know who Bella is, but hadn't ever been formally introduced. After we were introduced, I made a tactical error. A fairly big one. I told Bella she had a cute coat. The three of them gave me strange looks and Hamilton shot me a fierce warning look. Bella looked at me funny for the rest of the night. It was unsettling to say the least, but we enjoyed hanging out with them. The diner was empty again (I'm amazed they stay in business, there's hardly ever anyone there) so we got to goof around, make jokes and have some fun.
We got back to campus, stashed the bike and went to my room to say goodnight. We both apologized for the disaster that was our date, but agreed that the day had been salvaged. I hated to see him leave, but I know I'll have really sweet Hamilton dreams tonight! After all, he said he loves me...
End Part 6