Title: Doubts
Author: Milly-chan
Series: Zetsuai/Bronze
Rating: G
............. =Thoughts
Koji kissed him softly and slowly began to unbutton his shirt.
Why? Why do I let him touch me?
He gently brushed over his chest.
Why do I let him do that to me? Do I love him? Yes! But why am I doing this? It isn't right.
he could sense Koji's burning look, wandering over his body. Their eyes met and he looked away quickly and buried his face in a pillow.
Why can't I return his look? Am I afraid the longing in those eyes swallows me?
He winced unnoticed, as he felt Koji's lips on his skin. But he instantly gave in to the warmth that was coming from the light touch.
But I can sense it inside myself. I just hide it better, because for me it is a forbidden longing.
Koji stripped his shirt off his shoulders and wrapped his arms around him.
But then... I feel sheltered in his embrace. I don't want him to ever let me go again. Want to feel his body against mine.
He turned around and began to unbutton Koji's shirt in return.
"I want to feel you Koji... Your body, your breath on my skin."
He had said those words aloud before he realised what he had been doing.
No! What am I saying? Is it the truth? Yes! But it is not right!
He wanted to push Koji away but...
It's too late, I can't go back now. It would hurt him too much.
Koji's lips had found their way down his hip and gently touched the scar.
The scar... He tore it open, he hurt me. But he same time he comforted me, shared my misery and brought me joy. The only happy moments in my life were with him... I want him to be happy.
He stroked Koji's head and played with a lock of hair.
know it's you who can make me happy, and I want to return you some of this happiness. I love you Koji and tonight I want you to feel it...
And for the first time he didn't only give him his body, but presented him with his heart.