Disclaimer: I own nothing...just like everyone says all the time.
Author`s Note: With`s Malice`s permission I decided to make songfics
from her fic "Eye of the Hawk" and maybe her other
stories only when I have strange ideas...Anyway this
song is "I`ts Been Awhile" from Staind.
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Seifer was sitting in his office doing some paper work until he needed
a break. He laid back on his chair and closed his eyes. He was really
tired and then opened his eyes. His hair was now in a tight braid and
he aged a little. He looked down at a picture he kept and it was in a
frame. He picked up the picture and he saw himself and his fiancee`, his
love, Quistis. In the picture he gave her flowers with a sheepish look
on his face.
"'Its been so long since I seen you...'" he said to himself.
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It`s been awhile, since I could
Hold my head up high
It`s been awhile since I first saw you
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***
Quistis was sitting on her bed combing her hair until she caught her eye
on a framed picture. She put the comb down on the bed and she reached to
get the picture. She saw herself and Seifer giving her a bouquet of flowers
with a sheepish look on his face. She remembered that day, she really felt
happy and deeply in love with him back then until that day he died in the
D-District....
"'Seifer....I miss you so much, even your own son Ian wants to see you too.
I...I still love you Seifer'" she said to herself as a single tear fell down
her cheek and she held the picture close to her.
***
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It`s been awhile since I could stand
On my own two feet again
It`s been awhile since I could call you
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Seifer slammed the picture on his desk. He felt hatred for her and everyone
else who abandoned him at the D-District prison that day 17 years ago...
Flashback...
The place was collapsing and Seifer was still fighting against that son of a
bitch Angustus Trepe. He heard Quistis trying to tell him to forget him and
get out. He didn`t listen and continued fighting. The next he knew was that
she was gone and he fell to the darkness along with Angustus Trepe.
End Flashback...
He left the picture on his desk, got up and left his office...
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But everything I can`t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I`ve rendered
I`ve stretched myself beyond my means
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***
Quistis got up from bed and walked over to the window still holding the
picture close to her. She leaned on the window and stared out to the dark
starry night and remembered the time she first kissed Seifer long ago...
Flashback...
Quistis was sitting next to Seifer. He looked out the window staring at the
sun. She gently put her hand on his shoulder and whispered "I`m sorry." to him.
Seifer looked at her and then he clenching and unclenching again and again.
"I hate it" he said.
She felt pity for him since he lost his memory. She looked at him depressed
and all left alone with no one to care about him at all. She then wrapped her
arms around his neck and hugged him tight. She then noticed for the first time
that Seifer had green eyes not blue eyes. Time looked like it stopped when
both of them looked into each other`s eyes and the next thing they knew was
when they fell in love and they kissed with passion..
End Flashback...
Quistis smiled at that peaceful moment together with him. She will never forget
that day...
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It`a been awhile since I could say
That I wasn`t addicted
It`s been awhile since I could say
I love myself as well
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***
Seifer was walking down the halls of the base and stopped and straight ahead
was a couple in love. He then remembered that day, it was New Year`s day and
Quistis was there with him. At that time he was happy and never felt alive
in years...
Flashback...
Everyone was at the quad waiting for midnight. The countdown started and
everyone was excited for the new year. He looked straight into her eyes and
pulled her close and kissed her passionately on her soft lips. She broke the
kiss and he whispered to her "Instructor, you can`t escape now."
She smiled "I know. And to answer your question from before,I liked it too."
He held Quistis tighter "I figured, Happy New Year."
"Same to you" she said as both of them enjoyed the evening together...
End Flashback...
He smiled at the couple outside. He wished that back then that he would never
go back to those horrible memories as a lap dog and keep on going with the
memories he had now at that time...
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It`s been awhile since I`ve gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
But all that shit seems to disappear
When I`m with you
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***
Quistis walked away from the window and she walked over to her bed. She layed
down and closed her eyes. She remembered the time when Seifer got his memory
back, she felt sad again until she noticed that he still loved her deeply. When
they were walking back to Garden he held out his hand to her and she took it.
He then kissed her which means that he never stopped loving her. Quistis felt
happy that he never forgot her. She closed her eyes and fell asleep...
***
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But everything I can`t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I`ve rendered
I`ve gone and fucked things up again
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Seifer was outside the base looking out into the desert. The wind was in his
hair and his trenchcoat was flapping in the air. He never felt this lonely in
years. He does miss Quisty but he knew that he can`t forgive her and his friends
because they all abandoned him, they treated him like shit, and they also hate
him since they were all little. So what`s the point of missing them. He just
can`t stop thinking about them.
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Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
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***
Quistis was sleeping soundly until she had a dream about the past when after
she was raped and Seifer proved her that she was beautiful and then they made
love through the night. She will never forget night when she and Seifer got
married in Deling City. She was so happy and filled with joy.
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It`s been awhile since I could
Look at myself straight
It`s been awhile since I said I`m sorry
It`s been awhile since I`ve seen the way
the candles light your face
But I can still remember
Just the way you taste
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***
Ian was in his room laying on his bed. He tried to sleep but he couldn`t at
all. He sat up and started thinking about how his father Seifer looked like.
He then got up and walked over to the mirror. He looked at himself. He had
blond faded hair, one blue eye and one green eye, and he knew that he had a
stubborn attitude. He wondered if his father sacrified his life to save his
mother in a tragic event.
"'Father...I want to see you so badly...I hope someday I could see you eye
to eye...'" he said to himself as he got back to bed.
"'I know its not my fault and not his...I love my father.'" he thought to
himself as he fell asleep.
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But everything I can`t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it`s me
I cannnot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
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***
Its was getting late and Seifer walked back through the halls of the base
and before he entered his office he thought to himself...
"'Perhaps we can see each other again someday my fire pixie...'" he walked
into his office."'Someday...'" he closed the door and back to the cold and
dark isolated room where he hides his loneliness...
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It`s been awhile, since I could
Hold my head up high
It`s been awhile since I`ve said I`m sorry
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~The End~
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Well I think that went well except that I think it kind of
feels like a plotless fic, but anyway that`s up to you. Later
I`ll think of another songfic maybe about Ian if the idea comes
to my mind...thanks for reading and review!