My latest...the first entry in Barbara Rayne's Diary! Like any diary it will be added to, but unlike any other I may go into the past and write from when she was younger and come back to the present, so the order of these may change. Which is why I'm Dati
Rated: Fiction K - English - Drama - Chapters: 11 - Words: 3,830 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: Jun 23, 2001 - Published: Jun 11, 2001 - id: 314436
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august_23_2001
August 23, 2000
Dear, dear friend,
She is out now, again for the third time today. I only wish I knew where she was going, she comes in and out never telling me where she's been or who she talks too. Perhaps its because she sees and talks to no one, that putting distance between her and myself is the only way she can live with me. Oh dear. Tell me what am I doing wrong? I thought that by telling Jacqi who I really was her attitude towards me would change. However, I forgot or perhaps suppressed the truth...she is too much like her father to truly forgive so soon. Derek, remember he was like this too...he would allow you to think he had forgiven you but never really did until he felt he could trust. If there were anything I would change about him, this would be it. Derek, my dear son if you could only help me...dear God if he had known about her. All of this would be different, but no this is the way it is and nothing can change that.
