November 1, 2000
Dear Friend,
Her nightmares have elevated into something I cannot help her in. I have been too afraid even to go to her, Anna suggested calling on Anthony but I fear that may bring back her anger towards the previously stated. I am just getting her to build up to me; I would not want to loose that. I have decided to call Alex instead, she'll be coming tomorrow sometime. I am not sure when exactly she had something's to take care of in New Orleans; she's staying there with her sister. She left the Legacy after Derek, I know she loved him it was always so present. I am sorry my son was never able to fully understand that, he loved her too I could tell. I should have said something to him, but I did not. Perhaps another thing I have failed at as a mother, my son was a grown man I know this. However, he was never capable of showing what he felt, I could have helped him. I could have guided him to do what I know in his heart he wanted to. I just hope that I will do a better job with my granddaughter than I did with my children. Anna says she will be different, but I see so much of Derek in her eyes, in her actions that I just do not know. Perhaps Alex will be able to help her, God I do hope she will.
Barbara C. Rayne