A/N: sorry this took so long! I hope that you like it.....
"There cannot be a crisis today; my schedule is already full." -- Elmer Fudd
At around 7 o'clock Lily got up and went down to the common room. Sirius, who had been finishing up some last minute Charms homework, tentatively approached her.
" Hey Lil." He said. " How you doing this morning?"
" I'm all right Sirius." She sighed. " Really!" She said with a bit more vigor when he gave her a disbelieving look.
" Are you positive?" He asked, looking skeptical.
" Really Sirius, it's ok." She told him.
" Good...then give me a hug as a reassurance." He said winking at her and drawing her close to him.
" This is comfy." She murmured with her face in his chest.
" Mhmm." He said, happy to be holding her tight. James whistled at the two from a couch near by. They quickly broke apart and Lily blushed.
"Thanks again Padfoot," She said. And she darted for the portrait hole and off to the Great Hall for breakfast.
" Looks like you two make a good pair." Said James teasingly.
" Look I was just trying to cheer her up James." Said Sirius. "And," He added bitterly. "Need I remind you that it's YOUR fault she's so damn upset!" And with that he stormed out of the portrait hole in hopes of finding Lily for breakfast.
" What did I do?" Asked James dismayed. Peter merely shrugged, but Remus glared at James and stormed out after Sirius. He was gone for about 2 seconds before popping his head back in the whole to say, " Why don't you go hang out with Susan or something!" And he then stormed back out. James fumed for a couple of minutes.
" Great now they're all mad at me! Screw that I'm not going to worry about them." And he went to go see if he could find Susan for a morning stroll around the lake. Because it was Friday, the Gryffindor's didn't have they're first class until 10:30. When 10:30 finally rolled around James trudged slowly up the main staircase. No matter how confident he may have been before, the truth was he couldn't stand having his friends mad at him; least of all Lily.
There they were sitting together at a table near the middle of the class goofing around together. James didn't know whether to go sit with them or not. He decided against it and settled down to a table all my himself. Peter eventually came huffing over and sat with James. The next few days progressed similarly. Eventually on the following Tuesday James couldn't take it anymore and he slowly approached his friends in the common room.
" Look you guys..." He let his voice trail off as they looked up from Sirius and Remus' intense chess match that had been going on for an hour.
" Well..." prodded Sirius.
" No," said Lily firmly. They all looked up at her in amazement...James included. " This is between James and I." And with that she got up and pulled James away by his arm.
"Lily I'm.." James started until he was cut off by Lily.
" Save it James! I have been so upset and so hurt by you...how could you?" She continued on without waiting for the answer. "Better yet how could I?!" She asked flustered.
" How could you what?" He got up the nerve to ask.
" How could I let myself fall for one of your games. Am I just another one of 'your' girls James? I trusted you. You were my best friend...why did you do this?"
"Lily I didn't mean to hurt you it's just...Susan...and I didn't think that..." He said before being cut off my Lily for yet a third time.
" You stop right there James Potter. Think about what you just said...you DIDN'T THINK. I...o forget it, it doesn't matter anymore just go away." She broke out in sobs in the middle of the hallway that the two of them had somehow ended up in.
" Lil..." James said soothingly, " it's ok...shh..."
" I said forget it! I forgive you whatever now would you please go away?" And before waiting for an answer she ran back to the common room and up to her bed. From that point on everyone was friends again. The boys had forgiven James and apologized for their harshness previously. But although Lily was always pleasant to James the smile she had reserved just for him didn't quite reach her eyes. If you didn't know her better you may not notice it but James knew her better then that. He had screwed up and because of it he lost a friend. Lily and Sirius became close to inseparable. In the months that followed James and Susan broke up for a second, and final, time. He changed himself into a girl-of-the-week type of guy. Every girl in Hogwarts swooned over him. And Lily, well Lily was doing pretty good until THE LETTER arrived....
Lily woke up on January 12th very happy. She had just gotten back her charms essay and it had had a beautiful A+ on the top of it. She was still on a bit of a high from the holidays too. She had gotten to see her mother and spend lots of time with her. Even Petunia was civil to Lily. Upon entering the common room she found a very apprehensive James Potter approaching her.
" What's the matter James, run out of girls to date?" She teased.
" Uh Lily...there's been an owl for you." He said.
" At this time?" She asked as he handed her the letter. It was her fathers very familiar handwriting although it seemed a bit shakier then usual. She opened up the letter and looked up in utter disbelief. She just stared ahead with a blank look on her face. It didn't even dawn on her that James was hugging her and that he had known already she would be upset. She later learned that he too had received a similar letter from his parents telling him of the misfortune seeing as there families were very good friends. Lily's letter had read:
Dearest Lily,
I am sorry to have to tell you through the post, but your mother has peacefully moved on. She died this morning in her sleep and the doctors assured me she felt no pain. I know that you will want to come home right away when you receive this, but I ask that you sit tight and Mr. Potter will pick you up by floo powder. We though this would be quicker and seeing as he is a wizard he volunteered to do so. I'm am sorry my pumpkin that you couldn't be here but your mother loved you very much and she has left some things to you in her will which we will sort out when you come home. I have also written Professor Dumbledore and he has agreed to allow you to take two weeks off from school. I send all my love and cannot wait to have you in my arms again. Your support and courage is the only reason I dared to tell you like this. Remember that although it's alright to cry do not fret because your mother would not have wanted it that way.
All My Love,
Dad
Lily looked up at James and in a second she was enveloped in his arms. He was no longer just hugging her but he was holding her tightly. As soon as Sirius walked into the common room and saw Lily he rushed over to her.
"James what happened? Lily are you ok?" He asked his voice full of worry and concern. James handed Lily's letter to Sirius, who wordlessly switched positions with James. "Shh shh, it's okay baby it's ok." He said trying to comfort Lily.
" Oh Sirius...I (sob)....she.." Lily attempted speaking but failed miserably.
" It's okay, it's ok." Sirius assured her and he whispered a " Thanks," to James. James felt a bit left out. After all Lily's Mum had been very close to him and he was very upset as well. He couldn't believe that he had ever lost his chance with Lily. James quietly left the two of them sitting on a couch in the common room and went up to his room to consult the letter from his mother. His father was going to pick him and Lily up at 9 o'clock the next morning. He decided to pack a bag to take with him. He was going to miss one week or two depending on how much he was needed and when Lily felt ready to return to school, or if Lily wanted him around or not.
By the time James finished packing it was only 3 o'clock in the after noon. James trudged down to the dungeons for his last class of the day, double potions with the Slytherins. Lily was excused from the class and James wished that he were with her. It was like loosing an aunt that you were extremely close to. James wondered how much Lily had said about him to her mother, Rose, because he would not have wanted to disappoint her. She loved to see James and Lily together and as far as he could tell, she wasn't mad at him at Christmas so Lily must not have said anything. But he still felt guilty. And he didn't have anyone to talk to about it. Remus was currently "sick", Peter wouldn't understand, and Sirius was to busy worrying about Lil. James didn't know how he got through that class. As soon as class was over he went to dinner by himself.
" What's the matter James?" Asked Remus tentatively.
" Moony! I thought you were 'sick'" James exclaimed a bit taken aback.
" I was but it wore off this afternoon..." He trailed off. James should have known this.. something was obviously on his mind. Remus just stared at James.
" It's... well... you know about Lily's Mom..." James tried to say it but he couldn't.
" What happened James?!" Asked Remus concern peaking in his voice as realization dawned on his face. " O James I am so sorry. Where is Lil? Is she ok?"
" She's okay...she's with Sirius." Said James. " My father is picking us up tomorrow." James looked away and Remus knew he didn't want to talk. The two of them just sat in silence until the end of Dinner. James went up to bed afterwards and lied awake thinking. Tomorrow was never going to come....
A/N: Okay so there it is... chapter two. Poor Lily and James.....I hope you like this. Please give me some feedback feel free to flame or criticize cause I need to know what you really think of this!