Deserving of Love
AN: All right everyone here's Chapter 2. Thanks to all who reviewed. I love reviews, I NEED REVIEWS!!! Anyway
I failed to mention this in the first two chapters, but just in case you didn't know (WHICH I HIGHLY DOUBT) I don't
own any of the characters of Gundam Wing. Oh, but do I want to.
Ch. 2: The Truth Comes Out
Setting: Winner Corporation Headquarters
Quatre's POV
"I'm sorry Quatre. I have been unable to located Ms. Catalonia's whereabouts since she left L4 colony."
"And that was about two weeks ago wasn't it Iasha?" Quatre asked one of his many younger sisters. He had asked for
her assistance about a month ago in finding Dorothy's location.
"That's correct Quatre. I know that shortly before she left she contacted someone on earth to request assistance. But so
far I have been unable to determine that person's identity, nor where they could have transported Ms. Dorothy."
"Maybe it's time I called some of my old acquaintances on earth. They may be able to aid me in my endeavor." Quatre
told her, his mind had already begun to determine what contacts he had on earth, and trying to determine which would be
able to help him.
"I believe that my best option would be Ms. Relena. She has just as many resources available to her as I do if not more.
She may have some idea where Ms. Catalonia is staying."
Setting: Sance Kingdom
Dorothy's POV
I had been staying with Relena for about a week in the Sance Kingdom; she had done her best to fulfill her promise to
keep me safe from the Romafeller Foundation. I didn't know how much longer I would be able to remain here, but while
I could I was doing my best to form the first friendship of my life. Relena and I are as different as night and day. While I
have given up on my ideals concerning the glory and beauty of war, I am by no means the total pacifist Relena claims to be.
Still, I respected her ideas and she respected mine. Despite all our differences, there were some things we had in common,
and we were about to learn of another.
"Oh Dorothy. I'm so glad to be back from in town. Shopping is hard work. I do believe that I will retire early this evening.
After I fill my stomach with some of those pastries and soak in a hot bath. Filled with bubbles I think." Relena told her companion.
It sounded still but they had been wandering from one shopping center to the next since the early afternoon. It was well past
dinnertime and she was exhausted.
"That sounds delightful, however, I think I shall have to skip the pastries. The pasta and breadsticks we had at Chandlers was more
than enough to satisfy my appetite." I told the younger girl.
"Yes, but I cannot resist eating one more of those pastries. Oh! Look Dorothy someone called while we were out on our little
excursion. I wonder who it could be."
Relena was even more surprised to hear the soft baritone voice of the former Sandroc Pilot when she pushed the play button on
the answering machine.
"Relena, this is Quatre. I know you are probably surprised to hear from me after all this time. The reason I've called is because I
need to ask a favor of you. I have spent the last several months trying to locate Ms. Dorothy Catalonia. Unfortunately my efforts
have failed. Last I heard she was on the L4 colony. I believe she left there about two weeks ago after making a phone call to
request assistance from someone on earth. I have been unable to identify the person she called or where she went after she left L4.
If you have any information regarding this matter, please call me at once. Relena… I'm really worried about her. I just want to know
she's all right, and to offer my assistance should she require it. Anyway, please call me if you know anything that would help me in
my efforts. Thanks Relena. I hope you're doing well by the way. I will call again some time when you are at home, so that we can
become reacquainted. Bye Relena, and thanks again."
Relena turned towards me to comment on the message, but the look on my face must have cut her short. I knew that Quatre had been
keeping tabs on me during my tour of the world, but I had never expected him to be worried about my welfare.
"Dorothy are you all right?" Relena asked me. I could hear the note of concern in her voice.
"I don't know Relena. I'm just really surprised to hear from Quatre."
"Well I'll call him back to let him know that you're here and that you're safe." Relena told me, as she began reaching for the phone.
I quickly ran towards her and took the phone from her.
"NO!" I yelled at her. Even I could tell my words were laced with panic.
"Dorothy? Don't you want me to call Quatre!?"
"No Relena, you can't call Quatre. He can't know where I am!" I could tell by the look of confusion on her face, that I had surprised
her by my words. But she didn't understand. How could she, when I didn't understand myself?
"But Dorothy.." I interrupted her when I heard her tone of desperation.
"No buts Relena. I know you don't understand, but please Relena you have to promise me you won't tell Quatre where I am."
"Dorothy… He's worried. Why can't I tell him? What are you afraid of?" Relena asked me. Her words caused me to stop and
consider a moment the reason behind my actions. Why was I afraid? I didn't know.
"I am afraid Relena. But I don't know why. All I know is that during the war I hurt him, and I'm afraid he shall never forgive me for
that. But someday I will have to face him and implore his forgiveness. I hope that when this time comes I can make him understand
how much I regret my actions. I'm not the person I was back then. That day on Libra, he broke down all the walls I had constructed
around myself. I had built them up high enough so that I felt safe. I felt like I would no longer suffer from the pain that surrounded my
childhood. He scaled those walls and touched my soul in a way no one had ever done before." I had to stop at this point to try to
control the overwhelming emotions that were tugging at my heart. I had not spoken of this day to anyone, and I didn't realize how
painful it would be to relive those memories. Relena knew that I was trying to keep control, and remained silent until I was ready
to continue.
"Relena did you know that people used to call me the Ice Queen. I was so cold to everyone who came in contact with me. I believed that
if I kept everyone at arms length that they couldn't hurt me. I was so afraid of being hurt. Before that day the only person to ever show me
any kind of compassion or understanding was my father. But he died shortly before my fourth birthday, I barely remember him. But I do
remember that he loved me, and that I was special to him. After he died, my grandfather took custody of me and that's when my life went
to hell. He was as cold as a dead fish towards me. He wouldn't tolerate any kind of failure on my part. Nor would he accept any of my
feelings. I learned early on not to cry or to show any kind of vulnerability towards him because it infuriated him. I was a four-year old child
looking for love and understanding. But I found neither, so I buried my emotions deep within me and that's where they stayed till Quatre
unleashed them not so very long ago. He looked beyond the cold bitch that I portrayed to the world, and he saw how lost and alone I felt.
But instead of welcoming his friendship and kindness I attacked him. I think I was afraid, the last person to ever show me these things left
me. I was afraid to take the chance that if I accepted Quatre's gift of friendship I would loose him. So I lashed out at him and I hurt him."
The tears were freely running down my cheeks at this time. I could still remember the pain and hurt in his eyes as I ran my saber through
his shoulder.
"Relena I hurt him. One of the two people who had ever bothered to be kind to me. The pain and hurt in his eyes were my undoing.
Even then I couldn't shed the tears though my heart broke at the site. After I ran my saber through his shoulder Trowa came and got him.
He looked at me and said that I was a woman who couldn't cry, and that it was the saddest thing he'd ever seen. Before he left Quatre
looked back at me once more and that one glance was so full of understanding and kindness I almost died. It wasn't till weeks later that I
finally broke down." I swear at that moment you could hear a pin drop. I turned around to look at Relena and was shocked by the tears
running down her face.
"You're in love with him. You have been since that day."
"Yeah. I'm pretty sure he'll forgive me for the pain I inflicted upon him. But I want so much more than his forgiveness Relena. Yet I know
that's all I'll ever have. It's all I deserve." Her statement didn't surprise me. It would have been obvious to anyone who had just listened to
my sad little story.
"What do you mean you don't deserve his love?" Relena asked me. I sighed knowing that she would never agree with me on this idea.
"Relena… Quatre is about as close to being perfect as anyone can be. He doesn't deserve someone who's as tainted as I am." I could see
she was about to argue with me.
"Relena.. I know you don't agree with me. But that's the way I feel. It's been a long day and I'm really very tired. But I need you to
promise me that you won't tell him where I am. Please Relena." I begged her. I could see the hesitation in her eyes, but I knew she
would agree to my request. I had to face Quatre when I was ready, and not before.
"I really think you should tell him you're ok. But.. all right, I promise. But promise me that you will face him when you're ready."
"I will Relena. Thank you." I told her, as I exhaled the air I hadn't realized I had been holding.
Relena called up Quatre then and told him that she did not know where I was. I could see in her eyes that she didn't like lying to him.
But it was necessary. I couldn't face him yet. But one day, one day I would see Quatre again. The thought of it made me feel like hiding
under my bed, and also made me feel like jumping up and down on the bed. Yep I was confused.
AN: All right everyone here's Chapter 2. Thanks to all who reviewed. I love reviews, I NEED REVIEWS!!! Anyway
I failed to mention this in the first two chapters, but just in case you didn't know (WHICH I HIGHLY DOUBT) I don't
own any of the characters of Gundam Wing. Oh, but do I want to.
Ch. 2: The Truth Comes Out
Setting: Winner Corporation Headquarters
Quatre's POV
"I'm sorry Quatre. I have been unable to located Ms. Catalonia's whereabouts since she left L4 colony."
"And that was about two weeks ago wasn't it Iasha?" Quatre asked one of his many younger sisters. He had asked for
her assistance about a month ago in finding Dorothy's location.
"That's correct Quatre. I know that shortly before she left she contacted someone on earth to request assistance. But so
far I have been unable to determine that person's identity, nor where they could have transported Ms. Dorothy."
"Maybe it's time I called some of my old acquaintances on earth. They may be able to aid me in my endeavor." Quatre
told her, his mind had already begun to determine what contacts he had on earth, and trying to determine which would be
able to help him.
"I believe that my best option would be Ms. Relena. She has just as many resources available to her as I do if not more.
She may have some idea where Ms. Catalonia is staying."
Setting: Sance Kingdom
Dorothy's POV
I had been staying with Relena for about a week in the Sance Kingdom; she had done her best to fulfill her promise to
keep me safe from the Romafeller Foundation. I didn't know how much longer I would be able to remain here, but while
I could I was doing my best to form the first friendship of my life. Relena and I are as different as night and day. While I
have given up on my ideals concerning the glory and beauty of war, I am by no means the total pacifist Relena claims to be.
Still, I respected her ideas and she respected mine. Despite all our differences, there were some things we had in common,
and we were about to learn of another.
"Oh Dorothy. I'm so glad to be back from in town. Shopping is hard work. I do believe that I will retire early this evening.
After I fill my stomach with some of those pastries and soak in a hot bath. Filled with bubbles I think." Relena told her companion.
It sounded still but they had been wandering from one shopping center to the next since the early afternoon. It was well past
dinnertime and she was exhausted.
"That sounds delightful, however, I think I shall have to skip the pastries. The pasta and breadsticks we had at Chandlers was more
than enough to satisfy my appetite." I told the younger girl.
"Yes, but I cannot resist eating one more of those pastries. Oh! Look Dorothy someone called while we were out on our little
excursion. I wonder who it could be."
Relena was even more surprised to hear the soft baritone voice of the former Sandroc Pilot when she pushed the play button on
the answering machine.
"Relena, this is Quatre. I know you are probably surprised to hear from me after all this time. The reason I've called is because I
need to ask a favor of you. I have spent the last several months trying to locate Ms. Dorothy Catalonia. Unfortunately my efforts
have failed. Last I heard she was on the L4 colony. I believe she left there about two weeks ago after making a phone call to
request assistance from someone on earth. I have been unable to identify the person she called or where she went after she left L4.
If you have any information regarding this matter, please call me at once. Relena… I'm really worried about her. I just want to know
she's all right, and to offer my assistance should she require it. Anyway, please call me if you know anything that would help me in
my efforts. Thanks Relena. I hope you're doing well by the way. I will call again some time when you are at home, so that we can
become reacquainted. Bye Relena, and thanks again."
Relena turned towards me to comment on the message, but the look on my face must have cut her short. I knew that Quatre had been
keeping tabs on me during my tour of the world, but I had never expected him to be worried about my welfare.
"Dorothy are you all right?" Relena asked me. I could hear the note of concern in her voice.
"I don't know Relena. I'm just really surprised to hear from Quatre."
"Well I'll call him back to let him know that you're here and that you're safe." Relena told me, as she began reaching for the phone.
I quickly ran towards her and took the phone from her.
"NO!" I yelled at her. Even I could tell my words were laced with panic.
"Dorothy? Don't you want me to call Quatre!?"
"No Relena, you can't call Quatre. He can't know where I am!" I could tell by the look of confusion on her face, that I had surprised
her by my words. But she didn't understand. How could she, when I didn't understand myself?
"But Dorothy.." I interrupted her when I heard her tone of desperation.
"No buts Relena. I know you don't understand, but please Relena you have to promise me you won't tell Quatre where I am."
"Dorothy… He's worried. Why can't I tell him? What are you afraid of?" Relena asked me. Her words caused me to stop and
consider a moment the reason behind my actions. Why was I afraid? I didn't know.
"I am afraid Relena. But I don't know why. All I know is that during the war I hurt him, and I'm afraid he shall never forgive me for
that. But someday I will have to face him and implore his forgiveness. I hope that when this time comes I can make him understand
how much I regret my actions. I'm not the person I was back then. That day on Libra, he broke down all the walls I had constructed
around myself. I had built them up high enough so that I felt safe. I felt like I would no longer suffer from the pain that surrounded my
childhood. He scaled those walls and touched my soul in a way no one had ever done before." I had to stop at this point to try to
control the overwhelming emotions that were tugging at my heart. I had not spoken of this day to anyone, and I didn't realize how
painful it would be to relive those memories. Relena knew that I was trying to keep control, and remained silent until I was ready
to continue.
"Relena did you know that people used to call me the Ice Queen. I was so cold to everyone who came in contact with me. I believed that
if I kept everyone at arms length that they couldn't hurt me. I was so afraid of being hurt. Before that day the only person to ever show me
any kind of compassion or understanding was my father. But he died shortly before my fourth birthday, I barely remember him. But I do
remember that he loved me, and that I was special to him. After he died, my grandfather took custody of me and that's when my life went
to hell. He was as cold as a dead fish towards me. He wouldn't tolerate any kind of failure on my part. Nor would he accept any of my
feelings. I learned early on not to cry or to show any kind of vulnerability towards him because it infuriated him. I was a four-year old child
looking for love and understanding. But I found neither, so I buried my emotions deep within me and that's where they stayed till Quatre
unleashed them not so very long ago. He looked beyond the cold bitch that I portrayed to the world, and he saw how lost and alone I felt.
But instead of welcoming his friendship and kindness I attacked him. I think I was afraid, the last person to ever show me these things left
me. I was afraid to take the chance that if I accepted Quatre's gift of friendship I would loose him. So I lashed out at him and I hurt him."
The tears were freely running down my cheeks at this time. I could still remember the pain and hurt in his eyes as I ran my saber through
his shoulder.
"Relena I hurt him. One of the two people who had ever bothered to be kind to me. The pain and hurt in his eyes were my undoing.
Even then I couldn't shed the tears though my heart broke at the site. After I ran my saber through his shoulder Trowa came and got him.
He looked at me and said that I was a woman who couldn't cry, and that it was the saddest thing he'd ever seen. Before he left Quatre
looked back at me once more and that one glance was so full of understanding and kindness I almost died. It wasn't till weeks later that I
finally broke down." I swear at that moment you could hear a pin drop. I turned around to look at Relena and was shocked by the tears
running down her face.
"You're in love with him. You have been since that day."
"Yeah. I'm pretty sure he'll forgive me for the pain I inflicted upon him. But I want so much more than his forgiveness Relena. Yet I know
that's all I'll ever have. It's all I deserve." Her statement didn't surprise me. It would have been obvious to anyone who had just listened to
my sad little story.
"What do you mean you don't deserve his love?" Relena asked me. I sighed knowing that she would never agree with me on this idea.
"Relena… Quatre is about as close to being perfect as anyone can be. He doesn't deserve someone who's as tainted as I am." I could see
she was about to argue with me.
"Relena.. I know you don't agree with me. But that's the way I feel. It's been a long day and I'm really very tired. But I need you to
promise me that you won't tell him where I am. Please Relena." I begged her. I could see the hesitation in her eyes, but I knew she
would agree to my request. I had to face Quatre when I was ready, and not before.
"I really think you should tell him you're ok. But.. all right, I promise. But promise me that you will face him when you're ready."
"I will Relena. Thank you." I told her, as I exhaled the air I hadn't realized I had been holding.
Relena called up Quatre then and told him that she did not know where I was. I could see in her eyes that she didn't like lying to him.
But it was necessary. I couldn't face him yet. But one day, one day I would see Quatre again. The thought of it made me feel like hiding
under my bed, and also made me feel like jumping up and down on the bed. Yep I was confused.