Well I wrote this around 3 am because of insomnia, the best writing tool ever. FFVIII belongs to Squaresoft so if I get sued I'm filing a counter suite. Get ready because this chapter is intense and deep...Well in my 3am opinion.
Chapter4: Tormenting Sunrise
The scenery rushed by, he saw a beach with the sun on its horizon rising slowly. A flock of birds passed by in the orange sky never breaking their formation. He could hear the waves crashing onto the damp sand with, everything else non-existent.
His palm toughed the cold glass, he wish he could be there, not having to worry about anything. If only life could be simple, if only he could smell the sea again. No sea smelt like the one they were passing, you could smell the salt and even the sun. If only...
"The great battle will rage for hours upon hours, but in the end the sun will rise again bringing hope to those who s see it," it was all he could remember of his past those simple yet deep words. In the past Seifer pretended that his mother used to tell him that while watching the sunrise.
Alas, what is in the past stays in the past, time could never go back to those days, when he was a dreamer. Now he was a runner. He was too busy fighting for his life and his sanity to dream. Always having to run, always alone.
Quistis was still asleep, that was a good thing, she shouldn't have to be tormented by the beauty of the sunrise. That is if she saw the torment in it at all. It tormented him so much that he knew this place was special but he didn't know why. He didn't know why he wanted to cry at the sight of the ocean, the sunrise.
"No, I won't cry, I'm too strong and smart now. Crying doesn't help it doesn't do anything," he barely spoke the words but they were there even if they were in the slightest whisper.
Something had happened at this beach, he didn't know what but he knew it was what caused him to be the way he was today. A great attractor to anything evil and bad? Well that was Seifer's opinion about himself.
Nobody would believe him when he said that he was under mind control the whole time. Why should they? All he had ever been was a trouble maker, a no good piece of scum destined to be spat upon by the smallest of creatures.
"What are you doing awake?" Quistis spoke softy and sleepily and the sunlight hit her eyes and beamed off her hair.
"Nothing, go back to sleep," he didn't even look at her, he just clamped his hands together and continued staring at the endless sea. But he knew it wasn't endless, nothing was, everything eventually died and ended.
"What's wrong?" Quistis always was concerned for her students, but never really took the time to help them. Seifer was different, Seifer had once been her childhood friend.
"Its nothing."
"Your lying," she said quickly as if to know this for a fact.
"How do you know," he still didn't look at her.
"Because your crying."
"Shit," as much as Seifer had tried to stop it the tears escaped and slid down his cheek. "No, I won't cry...Crying is pain. If your smart you don't feel pain, you can always move on no matter what."
"That's not a good way to live," she stood up and took a seat next to him.
"And what is, always running away? Having people scream at your face. Going down in history as evil for something that you didn't even do?!" why was he breaking down like this he was fine a few hours ago...Until he saw that beach.
"It really wasn't you was it?"
"No, I couldn't do all those things if I wanted to, but nobody will believe me when I tell them it wasn't me," he paused and then looked at her. "Do you know what its like having these voices that sound like you and have your personality in your head but they aren't you?"
"That would be enough to drive somebody crazy," she looked into his sea green eyes that were bright against the redness. So intense, so many feelings but nowhere to sort them out.
"No kidding, it was defining, by the time I was at the parade I couldn't tell which were my thoughts so I gave up fighting I wasn't strong enough," he put his forehead on his palms as if he were going to pull back his hair.
"I had no idea," she whispered.
"That's because they didn't believe me. They didn't believe me in anyway so they never told my side of the story. I had to run again and again. I'm wanted dead or alive and frankly I've come this close to killing myself," he made a hand gesture.
"Please don't do that," she took his hand and held it with her hands. "You need to live, your so young you have so much life in you I know that because I've seen it!"
"I don't know if its enough anymore," he realized he was really complaining so he
looked back at the sea.
"Why are you closing yourself off again. Are you hiding from me?" she asked still holding his hand.
"I hide from the world, because it doesn't want me, nobody does," Quistis touched her hand to his cheek and he looked at her.
"I need you," she then reached in to kiss him. But why? Why was she doing this she didn't love him, it was Seifer! But of course he did wake her up, and she was kind of glad he took her away from Balamb and all the stresses of her life. He was also kind of cute in a lost puppy kind of way. Then she realized it, she was falling for Seifer. They broke the kiss and just stared into each others eyes as the sun continued to rise above the sea.
To Be Continued...
Chapter4: Tormenting Sunrise
The scenery rushed by, he saw a beach with the sun on its horizon rising slowly. A flock of birds passed by in the orange sky never breaking their formation. He could hear the waves crashing onto the damp sand with, everything else non-existent.
His palm toughed the cold glass, he wish he could be there, not having to worry about anything. If only life could be simple, if only he could smell the sea again. No sea smelt like the one they were passing, you could smell the salt and even the sun. If only...
"The great battle will rage for hours upon hours, but in the end the sun will rise again bringing hope to those who s see it," it was all he could remember of his past those simple yet deep words. In the past Seifer pretended that his mother used to tell him that while watching the sunrise.
Alas, what is in the past stays in the past, time could never go back to those days, when he was a dreamer. Now he was a runner. He was too busy fighting for his life and his sanity to dream. Always having to run, always alone.
Quistis was still asleep, that was a good thing, she shouldn't have to be tormented by the beauty of the sunrise. That is if she saw the torment in it at all. It tormented him so much that he knew this place was special but he didn't know why. He didn't know why he wanted to cry at the sight of the ocean, the sunrise.
"No, I won't cry, I'm too strong and smart now. Crying doesn't help it doesn't do anything," he barely spoke the words but they were there even if they were in the slightest whisper.
Something had happened at this beach, he didn't know what but he knew it was what caused him to be the way he was today. A great attractor to anything evil and bad? Well that was Seifer's opinion about himself.
Nobody would believe him when he said that he was under mind control the whole time. Why should they? All he had ever been was a trouble maker, a no good piece of scum destined to be spat upon by the smallest of creatures.
"What are you doing awake?" Quistis spoke softy and sleepily and the sunlight hit her eyes and beamed off her hair.
"Nothing, go back to sleep," he didn't even look at her, he just clamped his hands together and continued staring at the endless sea. But he knew it wasn't endless, nothing was, everything eventually died and ended.
"What's wrong?" Quistis always was concerned for her students, but never really took the time to help them. Seifer was different, Seifer had once been her childhood friend.
"Its nothing."
"Your lying," she said quickly as if to know this for a fact.
"How do you know," he still didn't look at her.
"Because your crying."
"Shit," as much as Seifer had tried to stop it the tears escaped and slid down his cheek. "No, I won't cry...Crying is pain. If your smart you don't feel pain, you can always move on no matter what."
"That's not a good way to live," she stood up and took a seat next to him.
"And what is, always running away? Having people scream at your face. Going down in history as evil for something that you didn't even do?!" why was he breaking down like this he was fine a few hours ago...Until he saw that beach.
"It really wasn't you was it?"
"No, I couldn't do all those things if I wanted to, but nobody will believe me when I tell them it wasn't me," he paused and then looked at her. "Do you know what its like having these voices that sound like you and have your personality in your head but they aren't you?"
"That would be enough to drive somebody crazy," she looked into his sea green eyes that were bright against the redness. So intense, so many feelings but nowhere to sort them out.
"No kidding, it was defining, by the time I was at the parade I couldn't tell which were my thoughts so I gave up fighting I wasn't strong enough," he put his forehead on his palms as if he were going to pull back his hair.
"I had no idea," she whispered.
"That's because they didn't believe me. They didn't believe me in anyway so they never told my side of the story. I had to run again and again. I'm wanted dead or alive and frankly I've come this close to killing myself," he made a hand gesture.
"Please don't do that," she took his hand and held it with her hands. "You need to live, your so young you have so much life in you I know that because I've seen it!"
"I don't know if its enough anymore," he realized he was really complaining so he
looked back at the sea.
"Why are you closing yourself off again. Are you hiding from me?" she asked still holding his hand.
"I hide from the world, because it doesn't want me, nobody does," Quistis touched her hand to his cheek and he looked at her.
"I need you," she then reached in to kiss him. But why? Why was she doing this she didn't love him, it was Seifer! But of course he did wake her up, and she was kind of glad he took her away from Balamb and all the stresses of her life. He was also kind of cute in a lost puppy kind of way. Then she realized it, she was falling for Seifer. They broke the kiss and just stared into each others eyes as the sun continued to rise above the sea.
To Be Continued...