Mah Notes: Da story iz named after da song Breathe by Moist, N da title of dis chapter iz named after a song by Jewel. Um.. Yeah... SOOOO SORRY for the LOOONG delay..... Waah!! No! I still LOVE Digimon!! I'm still 150% mimato!! ^____^ But now, I'm sooo into Rurouni Kenshin (my love.. ^^x) !!!!! Kakkoi!!!! And I'm into Love Hina too!!! Kawaii (even if it is an ecchi)!!!!! Ok, I think I'm gonna start touching this unfinished piece first. N yeah, dis is getting sappier N sappier, I dunno wat's up w/ mah brain!!!!!!! >o Oh yeah, in my story, Matt smokes! I know I know... Save it for the reviews...
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*Ishida Tachikawa Mimi / Nane*
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Breathe 5 : I wonder as I wander
(Matt's P.O.V.)
I kept walking in search of Mimi. Where the hell could she be?
I couldn't help but think over what I've said to Sora. How easy I've
confessed. She probably knows. Duh. I slapped myself
in the head. Why the hell did I do that?! She'll probably tell
everyone about my feelings to Mimi too. Yet I kinda felt something
strange about her somehow. Like as if she wasn't really Sora.
I know she's worried about me, but there's just something strange in her
tone of voice..
Ah well, I shrugged it off. My goal is to find Mimi. I
walked on but my feet couldn't handle anymore. I sat myself down
and leaned back to the nearest tree. I couldn't help but think that
Mimi might be in a serious trouble, and I'm somehow afraid that I wouldn't
get the chance to see or speak to her again. Then I wouldn't be able to
live. I closed my eyes letting the tears run down my cheek.
If only she was here.. I swore I could hear someone crying.
It's probably me. I wiped the tears away and took a deep breath.
But I can still hear someone crying.
I jolted up. The first thing that crossed my mind was Mimi.
I looked around. How the hell was I suppossed to see in the dark?
"Mimi!!" I yelled.
The crying stopped.
"Mimi answer me!"
A soft voice answered. "Matt?.."
"Mimi where are you?!"
I searched my pocket hoping for some help. Just a pack of cigarettes
and nothing! Shit! Where the hell is my friggin lighter when
I need it?!!
"Matt?" she answered again.
I kept looking around. "Mimi stay where you are!"
I started walking and I could hear her footsteps starting to walk too.
"Mimi?!" I turned back and found her face in front of me.
Her face..
Her pale face. Her bloodshot eyes. Her red nose.
Her cracked lips.
I just stood there for a moment, feeling an ache in my chest.
She turned her face to the ground.
I put a hand over her forehead. She was cool, too cool..
I had a great urge to just hold her and never let her go right there and
then. But I couldn't. I reached out and held her hand.
"Let's go back.", I simply said as I tugged her hand. But she
didn't budge.
"No.." she mumbled. She looked at the ground. Her face
as dark as the earth.
I just stood there in front of her with a puzzled look on my face.
"Mimi, you're a wreck!" I yelled at her, then realizing what I had
just done, I quickly shrugged it off with a "Let's go" then pulled her.
She shook her hand free.
"Leave me alone! I want you to leave me alone!!" She said as
tears started to burst out of her eyes streaming down her cheeks.
"Mimi what's wrong with you?!", I said as I grabbed her shoulders,
shaking
her. "Don't you realize how worried we were about you?!"
After I had realized what I had done, I quickly let go of her shoulders,
and she didn't move. She just stood there, but this time, she had
her eyes on me.
"Tell me the truth Matt.." she said, her voice shaking, which made
my heart shake 10 thousand times more. "Why do you want me to go
back?.."
"Mimi, you're not making any sense.." I quickly turned away so she
coudn't see how frustarted I am as I covered my face with my hands and
ran my fingers through the roots of my hair.
"It's a simple question. Why can't you answer me?.."
"Mimi! You are a part of the team! Gennai said that we
need to stick together in order to save the Digiworld!!" I yelled
frustratingly. Then I paused, partly becaused I have just realized
what I've done. She just stands there, looking at her shoes.
"Ok.." I sighed. I wanted so much to tell her how I felt, but...
I can't. "Let's go..."
I took her hand and this time she didn't struggle to pull it away.
I know she was crying. Even though she didn't make a sound.
I know she is. Her hand shook in mine. I kept on holding her
hand. I sighed as I stop. She didn't say a word.
"Well we can't go when we don't know which way we're heading..." I
said.
Still, she didn't say a word. I could hear the leaves in the
trees rustling because of the wind.
"Well, the least you could do is say something" I kept on talking as
I sat down against a tree.
"What am I supposed to say?..." She said so quietly I could hardly
hear her.
"I dunno... Complain... Tell me how much of a jerk I am..."
She hugged herself in the darkness. A slight pause was between
us as the wind blew stronger..
"I'm cold..." her shaking voice said breaking the silence.
I felt my heart shatter into millions of pieces as she said that.
Five years ago. She said those exact words five bloody years ago!
And five bloody years ago I said 'So?! deal with it!!'. What the
hell was I thinking?...
"Me too," I coldly reply. I had a sudden urge to wrap my arms
around her and hope that she'll at least appreciate it. But, what
the hell am I thinking? She looked up at me for a second as she rested
her head . "Let's just get some rest ok?"
She nodded as she closed her eyes.
I also closed my eyes.