A/N: Hey everyone! This is my first shot at a Hey Arnold fic, but I wrote alot of other good fanfics in my time. So I'm pretty experienced. But don't let me tell you.......see for ya'self! ( heehee, jokes, jokes, I'm no bragger ) Anyways, enjoy ya'll!

Disclaimer: I do not own Hey Arnold, Nickelodeon does.

WHITE ROSES

Chapter 1: Helga remembers

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!!!!BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP!!!!

A hand slapped the loud beeping alarm clock across the room. " Ugh.......it's a Sunday mornin'....." she pushed a lock of golden hair out of her piercing blue eyes. She looked at the clock across the room and shook her head. She got out of bed and picked up the alarm clock. " 8:00?! What the.....why the hell did I set it off this early? " she thought for a minutes then slapped her forehead. " Oh geez! I forgot about the staff meeting at 9:00 today! " She put the alarm clock back on her night-table, and ran to her closet. She quickly threw off her nightgown to reveal gorgeously long legs. In her underwear and bra, she quickly picked out her clothes and laid them neatly on the bed. She ran in the washroom, and quickly turned on a hot shower. " Jesus, I only have an hour to shower, get dressed and get a bite to eat. " she panicked to herself. She stepped in to the shower. While she showered she turned up the radio. One of her favourite songs was playing. It's the hardest thing-98 degrees. " It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do, to look you in the eye, and tell you I don't love you...................." her beautiful voice drifted off. She remembered the first time she heard this song, and was lost in her memories.

*~ FLASHBACK ~*

A slow song came on in the gym. This was their last year together, before going off to college. From across the room, Helga spotted Arnold talking to Lila. Then he took her hand and led her to the dance floor. Helga's heart snapped in half. ' It's no use Helga old gal, ' she said to herself. ' Lila could drop a handkerchief and Arnold would come crawling to her. I could drop a tonne of bricks, and Arnold wouldn't even wince. ' She looked at them. So perfect together. ' HELGA! ' she mentally screamed at herself. ' You don't need to see this. It's your last day, maybe you could go just this one last night without breaking your heart over that football - headed freak. ' She looked back out at them. ' I don't need you arnold........ get out of my life!!!! ' she kicked herself mentally. ' This is the last night you'll ever be a burden to him. '

Helga was hugging Phoebe, and vice-versa. " I'm going to miss you so much Pheebs! " she was on the verge of tears. " Phoebe was already crying. " OH HELGA! "

she bawled. " I'll never be the same without you behind me! " Helga looked at Phoebe.

" Listen Pheebs, we will always be in contact with each other and remember each other! "

she looked sincere. Phoebe sniffed. " P-promise??? " " Of course..... " they said their final goodbyes and made promises, and Phoebe walked off into the night. Helga turned to walk home, when a voice stopped her. " Hey Helga...... " it was him. She would know that voice anywhere. It was Arnold. Hegla turned back around, a look of hurt pride in her blue eyes. " You have something to say.....SAY IT! " her voice was harsher than usual. she could hear a song in the back round.......

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do, to look you in the eye, and tell you I don't love you.............

Arnold looked at her shocked. " Helga did I do something wrong?..... what's the matter? " Helga looked astonished. She couldn't believe he just asked that. " What's wrong?.............." she repeated to her self, quietly, the looked up at him. " WHAT'S WRONG?! " she said strictly. The song continued.

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie, to show no emotion when you start to cry..............can't let you see what you mean to me, when my hands are tied, and my hearts not free......when I'm meant to be..........

" I'll tell you what's wrong! " Helga said in a dangerous tone. Arnold stepped back a little. Helga then looked hurt. " Never mind football head. " she said quietly, waving him off. " I have nothing to say to you Arnold. " she looked down and turned around. Then, looking over her shoulder " except,....goodbye and good riddance. " the last thing she remembered, before walking out of his life, was the hurt in his eyes.

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do...............to turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you................

*~ END OF FLASHBACK ~*

Helga found herself crying while in the shower. Her tears blended in with the water in the tub and went down the drain. She turned off the radio. She couldn't take this. This song brought back to many memories. None of them good.

' Why did I do that? ' she asked herself, drying her hair. 'why did I hurt him like that?'

she wondered over and over. ' look at me........it's eight years later! Helga! Get a grip! you don't need him.... ' she looked in the mirror. A now fully developed Helga Patacki stood in front of her. She had beautiful golden hair, past her shoulders, and a light complexion. With her unibrows gone, she had an breathtakingly beautiful face. Her full lips curved into a smile. She studied her body with her mysterious blue eyes. She had all the right curves, in all the right places, and her legs stretched on forever. ' Why would someone like me, Helga G. Patacki, Secretary of State, be crying over a foot-ball headed geek like that one that I left four years ago......?' Helga was now, amazingly enough, secretary of State. She was the presidents secretary, and played a major role in the world. She looked at the picture of Arnold sitting on her bedpost, and sighed........' cuz I still love him thats why. ' she looked at her watch. ' Oh my GOD! ' she yelled. ' Pheebs is gonna kill me! ' ( Did I mention that Phoebe was now president of the United States? ) Helga turned back angry to the picture of Arnold. ' From now on..........' she picked up the picture and looked at it. ' You will cease to exist Arnold baby. ' she snickered as she tossed his picture into the garbage, and continued to get ready.

*~ END OF CHAPTER ONE ~*

A/N: Hey ya'll! Didja like it? I hope you did! See ya next chapter...........................

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