(Not the owner of Animorphs. Just write fan fics on them"
I saw Rachel morphing back to her human self. No Rach, I thought don't morph back. I could feel my body tense and I knew something was going to happen. That is when I began my human morph. I wanted her to know that me, the human me was there for her. That I was there. I had finished my morph, and that is when I saw it. The polo bear was going to make its kill. It would be Rachel. Why Rachel my mind screamed! I didn't say anything to the others. They knew she would die as well as I did. My eyes where fixed on Rachel and I tried to see what she was thinking. She looked at me and that is when I felt them. Tears. I hadn't felt them in so long. Tears where a human thing…not a hawk. I looked at her eyes. Her beautiful blue eyes. I felt warm tears running down my cheek. I knew she saw me. I hope she saw because that way she knew that I loved her. I tried to look deeper in her eyes, but I knew what she was thinking. Of me. I knew that she didn't want to dye. That all she wanted was to live. And God…how much I wanted her to live. That's when I saw a tear fall down her face as she looked at me one last time, and said, "I love you." I hope she knew that I heard her. I hope she knew. I saw the polo bear tack his massive paw, and kill in a single blow.
I saw her heard turn, and then he body fell. It laid still, not moving. No life was there. I caught my breath. I couldn't breath. The view screen went black, and that is all I could stare at. In that room for along time there was a silence, I couldn't bare it. I couldn't bare the thought of her died. Not Rachel, not my beautiful Rachel. I wanted to cry more, but I couldn't move. I couldn't speak. That is when the door open and Toby walked in, and said something I couldn't hear.
Then Cassie said, "We lost Rachel."
There was such a gasp in her breath. The words she said turned me inside out. I saw Jake look at me. How dare he look at me after Rachel…It was his fault. His! Then slowly he looked at Toby and said something to her. I knew the war was still going on but I didn't care. I didn't care for anything at that moment. That is when for some strange reason I start my hawk morph again. I didn't want to be human anymore. I wanted to be a hawk where I couldn't cry, and for a wail be alone. I wanted to be what I should have been all along. A hawk. What made me think for once things would go right for me. What? I just thought that Rachel and I… I knew right then if I were human, I would have cried. Later that day we won the war. I didn't care even then. I would have given anything just to have Rachel back. I let go of my dreams of Rachel and I. I had nothing left now. Just all the memories of her. Would that keep me alive? No. That is when I couldn't think anymore. For a wail, I just let the pain sink in, and eat me alive. But then something inside of me made me swear to never forget any of my memories with her. This was the only way I could ever live with out her, and even then it was the hardest thing I had every done. I just knew it would kill me if I ever let go of Rachel.
I wanted to write this to find out what Tobias was thinking. I just keep asking myself how. So I am sorry if this is a bad fic of Tobias. I really don't know if I got in his head.