Chapter 71

An hour later, Melyssa was sure she wouldn't be able to survive actual sex with Ash because he kept pleasuring her with just his tongue, lips and even his teeth, along with his fingers. She was sensitive down there, to the point where she was burning up from the inside out. Ash was driving her to the brink of insanity and the wetness of her skin wasn't from the shower earlier – it was sweat from being worked up and climaxing repeatedly. When Ash slid two fingers inside of her again, she didn't buck as badly or hiss, her walls still tightening around them.

"A-Ash…" She choked out, trying to sit up to pull him on top of her, begging and pleading with him to end their torment and end the burning. "If you don't get up here and make love to me, I'll go find someone else who will! You're driving me crazy, I can't take it anymore! Please!"

Ash was chuckling wickedly as he slowly, and he was excruciatingly slow about it, kissed his way up Melyssa's heaving body. "You can go find anyone you like, beautiful…" He drawled once he had reached her parted lips, kissing her and let her taste herself on his tongue for a brief moment. "But he'll never compare to me." He was guaranteeing it.

This would always be her first memory of sex, he was pretty sure anyway, and it would be very hard topping what he had done to her for as long as he had. Ash kept his fingers inside of her, being lazy and crooking them every so often, once she wasn't clenching and spasming so much, just to set her off again as his eyes studied her face intently.

"What was that about making love to you?" He murmured, feathering his lips against hers.

There was that arrogance he was infamous for and it didn't annoy or anger her. It turned her on. She whimpered against his lips, completely at his mercy and her body trembled while he continued thrusting those fingers in and out of her slowly, methodically.

"Ash, p-please…please, I'm…oh Goddess…" His fingers felt incredible, so she couldn't imagine how HE would feel, when they finally arrived at that moment. "I'm burning up, you're making me…burn…" In the best way possible or the worst, she wasn't sure yet.

Melyssa cupped his face in her hands to bring his lips further to hers, passionately kissing him as he hovered over her. During that kiss, Ash had swiftly replaced his fingers with his cock and she gasped in his mouth, not expecting the GIRTH of this man. He was a lot bigger than she thought and her hands clutched his shoulders while he buried his face in her neck, his mouth right by her ear, urging her to relax.

How in Aidios' name could she RELAX with this…THING inside of her?!

So, that had been beyond sneaky of him, but she would have tensed BEFORE he was in and he knew a lot of women clenched and made it damn near impossible to slide in as it were. Tension made it tight and kind of sealed things off, especially given his size. "Just breathe, beautiful," He whispered, rubbing her hips gently with his palms, trying to calm her down, help her relax. "Breathe, Melyssa…" Before she passed out, but the heavy breathing and the racing heart… was making things constrict rapidly around his already straining cock and he mentally coached himself to relax as well, not get overeager.

Breathing was easier said than done.

A LOT easier said than done, especially when Ash was FILLING her completely and then some. Holy Aidios, how was he fitting inside of her? He didn't stop either and kept slowly sliding inside, coaching her through it and once he arrived at her barrier, he locked eyes with her. Melyssa could get lost in those magenta orbs for hours, days, months, years…all of the above. He ordered her to count to three and she'd barely reached two when his hips snapped forward in a smooth, fluid thrust, shattering her barrier and finally claiming her innocence.

"Ash!" She cried out in surprise, the pain not as bad as she thought it'd be. Melyssa had been through much worse in her life, so this was nothing, but it was a great deal of burning. He was fully sheathed inside of her and she clung to him, breathing in through the nose and out the mouth, while he kissed along her neck and throat, holding her close to him.

Goddess, I wanted this for so long…I thought about him so many times, not just Rean and Crow. Tears formed in her eyes from the intense emotion suddenly flooding over her. I missed him so much, my best friend and now he's here with me, like he always was. A lot of my thoughts were consumed with Ash…I think, no…I KNOW I love him. Please don't let that be the darkness talking. Please Goddess, please let what I feel for him be completely real and all me. "T-That wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be…pain wise. Come here." He was holding back and she could feel it, sense it, and the fact he didn't want to hurt her or wasn't greedy made her heart explode with even more love for him. It had to be love, this wasn't just lust. "I'm ready when you are, Carbide…"

"You sure?" Ash's voice was coming out low and raspy, his teeth gritting together because he was holding himself back.

His arms trembled from both desire and holding himself off of her as much as he could, knowing just how easily he could crush her tiny little body. She was so damn small, it was amazing because Ash knew just how dangerous this woman could be. Looks were definitely deceiving when it came to Melyssa Brackett. Two years ago when they had first met, if someone would have told him about everything they would go through, he would have laughed them to Gehenna and back. When she nodded again, he kissed the corner of her mouth before beginning to move, not pounding her into oblivion but taking his time, making love to her.

The burning sensation slowly tapered off and all that was left was the incredible feeling of his cock sliding in and out of her at a slow, rhythmic pace, her soft moans resonating around them. This man nearly died because of her and Melyssa had never forgotten it, remembering vividly how she'd found him in the woods. Even with the burnt skin and injuries, he was still the most handsome man in Erebonia. She had stayed by his side, mostly, during his recovery, visiting whenever she could. It had only been a day and thanks to Emma's magic, he was back to himself with not a scratch on him. Throughout the past two years, Ash had really changed physically. He was more built, chiseled, far more than Rean and Crow and she could feel his strength as well. They had both changed, but Ash had always remained in her mind and her heart, never forgotten.

"Goddess! Oh Goddess, Ash!" Instinctively, she lifted her legs, only for Ash to grab the back of one of them to bend it up, driving deeper and harder inside of her. She was already sensitive from all the foreplay and could already feel an orgasm building, doing her very best to fight it off, to push it away, not wanting this to end anytime soon. "You feel so good inside of me…" Melyssa spoke against his lips during another heated kiss, her nails digging into his huge, broad shoulders.

"Let go, beautiful, just let go and give it all to me…" Ash urged her, sweat beading on his forehead as he stared down into her face. He wanted this image, this moment, all the sights and smells, her sounds, burned into his mind forever. If this was their one and only time together, he NEVER wanted to forget it. "Trust me." He whispered when she shook her head no, smiling slightly.

She could climax more than once, unlike men, and he would definitely enjoy giving her orgasm after orgasm, knowing how sensitive her body would get after each one. How that fine line between pleasure and pain would build and eventually peak. THEN he would cum too. Whether she wanted to or not, Melyssa climaxed minutes later and milked his cock for all it was worth, crying out his name louder. It wasn't a shriek, but it was damn close. Ash growled approvingly, riding through that first orgasm and finally picked up the pace, wrapping his hands around her wrists to yank her up flush against his body. His cock was still settled deep inside of her and her arms encircled his neck, his hands moving from her wrists to her hips.

He was on his haunches with her thighs draped over his and Ash began moving her up and down his length, making her bounce. He was showing her what to do, what he wanted her to do, and Melyssa couldn't deny him. This position felt even better, if that was possible and she tossed her head back, her body moving on pure instinct as her breasts bounced up and down, along with the rest of her body.

"L-Like this, baby? D-Does this feel good for you?" She panted, wanting to make sure she was doing it correctly, so he received pleasure as well.

Truth be told there wasn't much she could do any better.

Even if she had lay there like a dead fish, Ash probably would have enjoyed it. Maybe. A large part of this was the connection between them, he had never felt this way about a woman in his life until Melyssa came along. She was so different from any woman he had met before and he knew, deep down, he wanted her to be only his. But they couldn't make promises right now because there was no guarantee they could keep them.

"Mmm, just like that, beautiful…"

If she had it her way, it WOULD be only him from here on out. Melyssa didn't know if Ash was a one woman man, though. That was a tough call. He had a very lewd sense of humor and he was very flirtatious with anything with boobs. Maybe he had changed since Thors. Melyssa didn't want this to be a onetime thing between them, but if it was, she would accept it and they could go back to being friends…hopefully. No, deep down, she knew they had crossed the line and there was no going back to just being friends after she gave him her virginity. She watched his face contort and could tell his end was coming soon, her nails gliding down his chest while bouncing on and off of him faster, driving his cock deeper and harder inside of her.

"I-I'm close…I'm close again…" Oh it was there, right on the very edge and she pressed her forehead to his, lacing her fingers around his neck. "Cum with me, Ash, I want us to cum together…"

Nodding, Ash began letting go of himself, releasing himself from the self-imposed restraint, which felt like heaven. He had been trying to ignore the telltale signs of his impending climax. The tingling and tightening in his balls, the way his stomach had tightened, along with every muscle in him. As if gearing up for a Charlie Horse or something, and just let go, exactly like he had told her to a while ago.

"Almost there, Melyssa," He whispered hoarsely, tightening his hold on her as his movements became less focused, less controlled, working now on meeting both their ends instead of worrying about making her cum gallons for him. "Fuck, fuck, I'm there!"

Her name escaped him in a roar as he unloaded his seed deep in her receptive body, feeling Melyssa climax yet again, right along with him. Letting out a string of curses, Ash felt her inner walls constricting and spasming around his cock almost violently. The eruption was mind-boggling and explosive, and even those words didn't do it justice. She shrieked his name out this time, feeling him fill her to the absolute brink with his hot seed. Ash grabbed her, leading her down on the bed with a soft thud, landing on the side of her with his arm still around her waist. She was on her back, staring up at the ceiling and trying to learn how to breathe again.

"Goddess…" She managed to roll on her side to face him and scooted closer, draping her leg over his with their chests almost touching and her hand on his face, caressing his cheek lovingly. "Ash…" What she wanted to say died on her lips and all Melyssa could do was kiss him, slow and sensual, tasting him and herself all over again.

She had no idea what he wanted from this, if anything, so she wouldn't put herself out there first. That was smart, with everything looming ahead of them, knowing they still had to contend with Rean, Ash wasn't sure what he would say, do or even think, if Melyssa had sprung those three little words or some variation of them. He was forcing down his own words, knowing saying anything coming right after incredible sex was a bad idea because people were usually riding high on the chemicals created during the act. He knew he cared deeply about Melyssa, but what if she didn't feel the same? No, better to keep that all to himself and just ride this out, see where they stood when all was said and done with Rean, Ouroboros… the world.

"Mmm…" He pressed his forehead against hers, smiling against her lips. "Are you okay?" Her first time and he was not a small man, he imagined she was going to feel it soon enough. Gazing into his eyes full of concern for her, just like they always were, Melyssa held him close to relish the feeling of him against her.

She did NOT expect to say the next words that flew out of her mouth. "I love you. I love you, Ash." Melyssa blurted out, not meaning to do it and covered her mouth with her hand, teal eyes wide. Oh shit, his eyes were wide as well and she could feel that rejection looming its ugly head over them. "I-I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said it, but…I love you and…Goddess, I didn't think this would EVER happen…" She covered the side of her face with her hand, tears stinging her eyes as her body slightly trembled. What in Aidios' name was she thinking blurting THIS out?! "I'm sorry, please don't look at me…" Her voice cracked and she blinked, tears sliding down her cheeks from both embarrassment, fear and uncertainty.

Wow, she was making it even more awkward and worst, if that were possible, given she was trying to curl into a tiny little ball. Ash didn't know what to say as he ignored her 'don't look at me' and continued staring down at her. Had she said that to Rean, or to Crow? He was unsure how to proceed, she was young and new to all of this; he had seen the blood on her inner thighs. Ash realized HE was making this worse and rolled onto his side, pulling her into him and wrapped his arms around her trembling body, resting his head on hers.

"Calm down, beautiful." He whispered softly.

No, she'd never said those words to Rean and Crow, not outside of her dreams anyway. Dreams didn't count. Real life did. The soreness and slight pain was starting to set in and Melyssa buried her face in his chest as Ash held her close. She slowly opened her eyes after a little while, feeling his hands rubbing her back soothingly and took a deep, shaky breath.

"I thought about you a lot while I was gone. And I missed you so much. I thought about you the most, Ash. You've always been here for me, through everything. You never blamed me for what happened, not even Jurai or the train attack." Both were because of her, but he refused to blame her for them. "You're the one who kept me going while I was with Ouroboros, trapped, alone, isolated, for the past two years. It's not because you just made love to me either. I've felt this way for a while, whether you believe it or not. And I truly believe this is me and not the darkness talking. I know I shared a couple moments with Rean and Crow, but…there's a reason things didn't work out with them. There's a reason I'm here, tonight, with you and not them. And I only want to save Rean because he is a friend of ours and he needs our help. There's no romantic feelings for him anymore."