Decisions- This story takes place
during the infamous breakup between
Usagi and Mamoru. This is based on the
anime version because I've only been
able to read the first manga up to
when Jupiter arrives so I don't really
know exactly how they act around each
other in the manga. I'm using the
Japanese names, I like the English
names too, but I might need nicknames
in later chapters and if I was Mamoru,
I would be embarrassed if someone
called me Muffin in public, but that's
just me. One more thing Motoki and
Chibi-Usa know about everyone's
identities. One more thing, Motoki, and
the others might have their own little
P.O.V. places in Usagi's and Mamoru's
stories. Unless I decide to write a
whole part for them, which I'm not sure
I'll do because it might be make the
story very long. This has both the
Prologue (Mamoru) and Prologue
(Usagi) in it. Oh yeah I don't own
Sailor Moon, the characters, blah, blah
blah. Anyway, enough of my rambling and
on w/the story.
Decisions Prologue- Mamoru
It was just like every other day
since he had broken up with her. He
would be woken up by his alarm clock,
which saved him from the dream. The
dream that destroyed his life. But that
was only if he was able to sleep the
whole night. Some nights, the dream was
just too much for him and he would just
spend the rest of the night thinking
about what was and what could have
been.
Sometimes he would remember them
spending time together in his apartment
or in the park or just around the city.
In fact everything reminded him of
Usagi. And how she made something so
little into something big. Other times
he would think about how his life would
have been if they were still together.
Their wedding, her being pregnant once,
maybe twice or three times, he always
wanted a big family, sometimes it would
be of them raising a family together.
It all showed him what had had and
lost.
Whether he was woken up by the
alarm clock or not, he would always go
to look at the picture of Usagi and
himself. The one of them sitting in the
grass in the park. Then he would go
jogging, while thinking of Usagi,
sometimes he would also think about why
the Black Moon would be after Chibi-
Usa. After jogging, he would go take a
shower then get dressed and go to his
classes. He used to bump into her on
his way, but now he rarely saw her in
the morning he figured that she was
avoiding him. Then after classes he
would rush to the arcade and sit and
wait for her to come. He'd used to have
to wait for over an hour because she
had detention, but now, she rarely did.
When she would walk in she would always
walk up to the counter to say hi to
Motoki, and sometimes she would say hi
to him. He wondered how after what he
had done to her, she could still even
bother to talk to him. He'd thought
that by now that she'd hate him. But
she didn't. When she did say hello, she
would call her that dreaded
name…..Chiba-san. When she did call him
Chiba-san, sometimes he would answer
coldly and other times, he'd just
ignore her. He never hated when other
people called him Chiba-san, but it
bothered him when she did. She called
him Mamoru-baka, Mamo-chan, and a
couple of other names that he didn't
dare repeat. But in all the time that
they knew each other, she had never
called him Chiba-san. Not till after he
broke up with her. It sounded so Un-
Usagi-like. She could at least call him
Mamoru-san, that would hurt less. But
who was he to ask for favors. It was
like they never meant anything to each
other. Of course that was they way he
was supposed to be acting, like the
time he spent with Usagi, his Usako,
meant nothing to him. They were never
really friends, not the way she was
friends with Motoki anyway. He used to
be jealous with they way she talked so
freely to Motoki, his best friend,
especially since he knew that she had
had a crush on Motoki. Especially since
that he had been in love with her since
before they met.
He had seen her one-day in the
arcade. He heard her talk to her
friends and instantly bring laughter
and sunshine around them. He wanted her
to be that way with him. It wasn't like
he wanted to be cold and distant, it's
just that he had blocked his feelings
from the rest of the world, so he would
never have to feel hurt again. But deep
down inside, he wanted to be like her
or the next best thing…..to be with
her. He knew that if they were together
then she would break all his walls
down. That scared him a little, but it
also made him a bit curious. He even
went as far as to ask Motoki her name.
All he had to do was make a good first
impression. All he had to do was turn
on the Chiba charm. The one that made
all the ladies swoon. Then she wouldn't
have been able to resist him. Okay,
sure maybe he was just a tad too
confident. But then it happened. She
threw a piece of paper on his head. Now
any ordinary person in love with a
stranger would have said something nice
to her, to get her to like him. If she
were an ordinary girl, he would have
said something suave. But she wasn't an
ordinary girl. In fact, she was the
only girl who Chiba Mamoru had no
control over what he said in front of
her. So that instead of complimenting
her, he made fun of her and called her
Odango Atama. He didn't know why he
said it, he just did. He wanted to hit
himself on the head for ruining his
chance with her.
She was almost the complete
opposite of him, and he loved that. He
was sure that they would have some
things in common, but their obvious
characteristics were opposite. Like the
fact that she hated to study, while he
loved it. She would be able to get him
to have some fun, while he would be
able to get her to be a little more
serious….sometimes. He didn't want to
change her, he loved her just the way
she was. In his eyes she was in one
word. Perfect. The things that other
people thought were faults, the ones
that he told her were her faults, they
only added to her charm. He'd never
thought he would ever fall head over
heels in love with a girl, especially
before he even met her, but it had
happened. He even thought that their
hair even showed that they were almost
opposites. His was dark and opaque,
never letting light through. Her's was
bright, shiny, and had the light he'd
always wanted. Now he knew that this
sounded a little weird, but she
affected him so that he couldn't think
right.
He had a lot more people who hated
him now. The senshi always gave him
cold looks. They also told him not to
come around her because it hurt her.
Because he hurt her. He couldn't blame
them for trying to protect her from
someone who would hurt her, like him,
but he couldn't do that. But when he
was openly around her, they were always
around, He could only be around her
when he would use his Tuxedo Kamen
powers and would follow her, or watch
her sleeping. Motoki was also mad at
him. When he had first heard that he
had broken up with Usagi, he went
ballistic. Motoki was extremely
protective of Usagi. He thought that
she would be a good influence on him.
Yes, her the good influence on him.
Motoki tried to convince him to go back
to her. After he'd found out about
their secret identities, Mamoru had
told him about the dreams. It felt good
to talk to someone about the way he was
feeling. Motoki still tried to get him
to go back to her, but not as hard
because he understood a little. Some of
the things Motoki said Mamoru had to
admit made him think about his
decision. Motoki had said that the
dreams could have been sent by the
enemy, or maybe they were just regular
dreams that didn't mean anything at
all. But Mamoru didn't want to take the
chance. So Motoki said that to at least
go to the girls and tell them, he said
to stop being so stubborn and ask for
their help. But Mamoru still wouldn't.
But then Motoki asked him two questions
that really got through to him. The
first one he said, "Mamoru, life is
dangerous. Anyone could be killed at
any moment. Okay your life and the
senshi's lives are more dangerous than
normal, but she's out there risking her
life all the time. I hate to say this,
but she could die at any moment. If you
were in her place, would you rather die
not knowing that your one true love
didn't love you back, or that he did?"
Motoki stopped there as he watched
Mamoru think about what he had just
said. But Mamoru replied " I won't let
her die I want her to live a full live,
whether or not it's with me." Then
Motoki said "Are you sure you'd be
really happy if you actually saw Usagi
with another man, and saw her get
married. You say that you will, but
what will you do when you actually see
it happen?" He'd thought about that. He
didn't know what he would do. He always
told himself that he would be happy
because she was happy. But he only
believed that because Usagi showed no
signs of being over him. He sort of
liked the fact that she kept coming
back to him, because it meant that she
wasn't with another guy. He knew it was
selfish, but he couldn't help feeling
that way. But he was sure that if he
ever saw it happen, it would do one
thing. It would break his heart. But
one day it did……
Decisions Prologue-Usagi
I woke up this morning feeling,
well different. For the first time
since Mamo er.. Chiba-san broke up with
me, I decided that I was going to try
move on. I could never really forget
him, I mean how do you forget your love
of over a thousand years? I couldn't
stop loving him either. I wouldn't want
him to be with me only because of the
past. I want him to be with me because
of who I am, now. Just Tsukino Usagi.
But I guess he couldn't do that, and I
don't blame him.
For the first time since we met,
Luna didn't have to wake me up, which
surprised her to no end. She checked my
temperature at least four times. One of
the reasons I started waking up earlier
is that I wouldn't run into Mamo
er….Chiba-san. It's gonna be hard to
stop calling him Mamo-chan. Another
reason is, well I just wanted to be
able to show everyone that I could get
to school early. It's just that
choosing between losing sleep and
getting to school early, well sleep
usually won. But not anymore.
Today went pretty well with the
exception that even though I woke up
early and decided to get to school
early, I still ran into him. It was
hard, but I was able to avoid eye
contact. It was hard not to look into
those dreamy, midnight blue eyes. Wait,
what am I saying?! I'm supposed to be
getting over him, not finding reasons
to still go after him! I managed an
"Arigato Chiba-san" and ran off for
school. It still feels weird calling
him that. I've called him Mamo-chan,
Mamoru-baka, jerk, and a couple of
other things that I'd rather not
mention. It wasn't my fault! Back then,
he just made me so mad!!
Well anyway, for once, I actually
enjoyed school. I paid attention, did
the work, answered a few questions,
correctly I might add! I had everyone
surprised! Haruna-sensei sent me to the
nurse's office….twice! At lunch Ami did
a computer scan on me. Talk about
paranoid! We went in the arcade where
we met up with Rei and Minako. While we
were sitting there I could have sworn
that I saw Chiba-san looking at me!,
but maybe that's just wishful thinking.
Then out nowhere Motoki hands me these
flowers. Minako, Mako-chan were about
to kill me and Rei-chan wanted to know
why Motoki was giving me flowers. After
Motoki was able to say that they
weren't from him, and that the delivery
guy just brought them, Minako and Mako-
chan calmed down, but not for long.
Then they joined Rei-chan in asking me
who was I dating. I was finally able to
tell them that I wasn't dating anyone
and that I didn't know who the flowers
were from. I looked at the card and it
said:
Dear Usagi,
Your hair is golden like the sun,
Your baby blue eyes match the sea,
Your smiles make my heart weak,
Hopefully one day they will be for me.
Signed your secret admirer.
(AN: corny, I know but give me a
break!)
I looked up after reading it to my
friends. I thought to myself, "Who
could have sent it?" I also thought
that she saw Chiba-san looking at her
with hurt in his eyes, but I must have
been seeing things.
Okay, now I need feedback whether you
hated it or liked it. I'm not too sure
if Decisions is a good name for this
story. If you've got a better name,
please send it to me. You can e-mail me
at Midnight963@yahoo.com .Please send
tons of e-mail!
during the infamous breakup between
Usagi and Mamoru. This is based on the
anime version because I've only been
able to read the first manga up to
when Jupiter arrives so I don't really
know exactly how they act around each
other in the manga. I'm using the
Japanese names, I like the English
names too, but I might need nicknames
in later chapters and if I was Mamoru,
I would be embarrassed if someone
called me Muffin in public, but that's
just me. One more thing Motoki and
Chibi-Usa know about everyone's
identities. One more thing, Motoki, and
the others might have their own little
P.O.V. places in Usagi's and Mamoru's
stories. Unless I decide to write a
whole part for them, which I'm not sure
I'll do because it might be make the
story very long. This has both the
Prologue (Mamoru) and Prologue
(Usagi) in it. Oh yeah I don't own
Sailor Moon, the characters, blah, blah
blah. Anyway, enough of my rambling and
on w/the story.
Decisions Prologue- Mamoru
It was just like every other day
since he had broken up with her. He
would be woken up by his alarm clock,
which saved him from the dream. The
dream that destroyed his life. But that
was only if he was able to sleep the
whole night. Some nights, the dream was
just too much for him and he would just
spend the rest of the night thinking
about what was and what could have
been.
Sometimes he would remember them
spending time together in his apartment
or in the park or just around the city.
In fact everything reminded him of
Usagi. And how she made something so
little into something big. Other times
he would think about how his life would
have been if they were still together.
Their wedding, her being pregnant once,
maybe twice or three times, he always
wanted a big family, sometimes it would
be of them raising a family together.
It all showed him what had had and
lost.
Whether he was woken up by the
alarm clock or not, he would always go
to look at the picture of Usagi and
himself. The one of them sitting in the
grass in the park. Then he would go
jogging, while thinking of Usagi,
sometimes he would also think about why
the Black Moon would be after Chibi-
Usa. After jogging, he would go take a
shower then get dressed and go to his
classes. He used to bump into her on
his way, but now he rarely saw her in
the morning he figured that she was
avoiding him. Then after classes he
would rush to the arcade and sit and
wait for her to come. He'd used to have
to wait for over an hour because she
had detention, but now, she rarely did.
When she would walk in she would always
walk up to the counter to say hi to
Motoki, and sometimes she would say hi
to him. He wondered how after what he
had done to her, she could still even
bother to talk to him. He'd thought
that by now that she'd hate him. But
she didn't. When she did say hello, she
would call her that dreaded
name…..Chiba-san. When she did call him
Chiba-san, sometimes he would answer
coldly and other times, he'd just
ignore her. He never hated when other
people called him Chiba-san, but it
bothered him when she did. She called
him Mamoru-baka, Mamo-chan, and a
couple of other names that he didn't
dare repeat. But in all the time that
they knew each other, she had never
called him Chiba-san. Not till after he
broke up with her. It sounded so Un-
Usagi-like. She could at least call him
Mamoru-san, that would hurt less. But
who was he to ask for favors. It was
like they never meant anything to each
other. Of course that was they way he
was supposed to be acting, like the
time he spent with Usagi, his Usako,
meant nothing to him. They were never
really friends, not the way she was
friends with Motoki anyway. He used to
be jealous with they way she talked so
freely to Motoki, his best friend,
especially since he knew that she had
had a crush on Motoki. Especially since
that he had been in love with her since
before they met.
He had seen her one-day in the
arcade. He heard her talk to her
friends and instantly bring laughter
and sunshine around them. He wanted her
to be that way with him. It wasn't like
he wanted to be cold and distant, it's
just that he had blocked his feelings
from the rest of the world, so he would
never have to feel hurt again. But deep
down inside, he wanted to be like her
or the next best thing…..to be with
her. He knew that if they were together
then she would break all his walls
down. That scared him a little, but it
also made him a bit curious. He even
went as far as to ask Motoki her name.
All he had to do was make a good first
impression. All he had to do was turn
on the Chiba charm. The one that made
all the ladies swoon. Then she wouldn't
have been able to resist him. Okay,
sure maybe he was just a tad too
confident. But then it happened. She
threw a piece of paper on his head. Now
any ordinary person in love with a
stranger would have said something nice
to her, to get her to like him. If she
were an ordinary girl, he would have
said something suave. But she wasn't an
ordinary girl. In fact, she was the
only girl who Chiba Mamoru had no
control over what he said in front of
her. So that instead of complimenting
her, he made fun of her and called her
Odango Atama. He didn't know why he
said it, he just did. He wanted to hit
himself on the head for ruining his
chance with her.
She was almost the complete
opposite of him, and he loved that. He
was sure that they would have some
things in common, but their obvious
characteristics were opposite. Like the
fact that she hated to study, while he
loved it. She would be able to get him
to have some fun, while he would be
able to get her to be a little more
serious….sometimes. He didn't want to
change her, he loved her just the way
she was. In his eyes she was in one
word. Perfect. The things that other
people thought were faults, the ones
that he told her were her faults, they
only added to her charm. He'd never
thought he would ever fall head over
heels in love with a girl, especially
before he even met her, but it had
happened. He even thought that their
hair even showed that they were almost
opposites. His was dark and opaque,
never letting light through. Her's was
bright, shiny, and had the light he'd
always wanted. Now he knew that this
sounded a little weird, but she
affected him so that he couldn't think
right.
He had a lot more people who hated
him now. The senshi always gave him
cold looks. They also told him not to
come around her because it hurt her.
Because he hurt her. He couldn't blame
them for trying to protect her from
someone who would hurt her, like him,
but he couldn't do that. But when he
was openly around her, they were always
around, He could only be around her
when he would use his Tuxedo Kamen
powers and would follow her, or watch
her sleeping. Motoki was also mad at
him. When he had first heard that he
had broken up with Usagi, he went
ballistic. Motoki was extremely
protective of Usagi. He thought that
she would be a good influence on him.
Yes, her the good influence on him.
Motoki tried to convince him to go back
to her. After he'd found out about
their secret identities, Mamoru had
told him about the dreams. It felt good
to talk to someone about the way he was
feeling. Motoki still tried to get him
to go back to her, but not as hard
because he understood a little. Some of
the things Motoki said Mamoru had to
admit made him think about his
decision. Motoki had said that the
dreams could have been sent by the
enemy, or maybe they were just regular
dreams that didn't mean anything at
all. But Mamoru didn't want to take the
chance. So Motoki said that to at least
go to the girls and tell them, he said
to stop being so stubborn and ask for
their help. But Mamoru still wouldn't.
But then Motoki asked him two questions
that really got through to him. The
first one he said, "Mamoru, life is
dangerous. Anyone could be killed at
any moment. Okay your life and the
senshi's lives are more dangerous than
normal, but she's out there risking her
life all the time. I hate to say this,
but she could die at any moment. If you
were in her place, would you rather die
not knowing that your one true love
didn't love you back, or that he did?"
Motoki stopped there as he watched
Mamoru think about what he had just
said. But Mamoru replied " I won't let
her die I want her to live a full live,
whether or not it's with me." Then
Motoki said "Are you sure you'd be
really happy if you actually saw Usagi
with another man, and saw her get
married. You say that you will, but
what will you do when you actually see
it happen?" He'd thought about that. He
didn't know what he would do. He always
told himself that he would be happy
because she was happy. But he only
believed that because Usagi showed no
signs of being over him. He sort of
liked the fact that she kept coming
back to him, because it meant that she
wasn't with another guy. He knew it was
selfish, but he couldn't help feeling
that way. But he was sure that if he
ever saw it happen, it would do one
thing. It would break his heart. But
one day it did……
Decisions Prologue-Usagi
I woke up this morning feeling,
well different. For the first time
since Mamo er.. Chiba-san broke up with
me, I decided that I was going to try
move on. I could never really forget
him, I mean how do you forget your love
of over a thousand years? I couldn't
stop loving him either. I wouldn't want
him to be with me only because of the
past. I want him to be with me because
of who I am, now. Just Tsukino Usagi.
But I guess he couldn't do that, and I
don't blame him.
For the first time since we met,
Luna didn't have to wake me up, which
surprised her to no end. She checked my
temperature at least four times. One of
the reasons I started waking up earlier
is that I wouldn't run into Mamo
er….Chiba-san. It's gonna be hard to
stop calling him Mamo-chan. Another
reason is, well I just wanted to be
able to show everyone that I could get
to school early. It's just that
choosing between losing sleep and
getting to school early, well sleep
usually won. But not anymore.
Today went pretty well with the
exception that even though I woke up
early and decided to get to school
early, I still ran into him. It was
hard, but I was able to avoid eye
contact. It was hard not to look into
those dreamy, midnight blue eyes. Wait,
what am I saying?! I'm supposed to be
getting over him, not finding reasons
to still go after him! I managed an
"Arigato Chiba-san" and ran off for
school. It still feels weird calling
him that. I've called him Mamo-chan,
Mamoru-baka, jerk, and a couple of
other things that I'd rather not
mention. It wasn't my fault! Back then,
he just made me so mad!!
Well anyway, for once, I actually
enjoyed school. I paid attention, did
the work, answered a few questions,
correctly I might add! I had everyone
surprised! Haruna-sensei sent me to the
nurse's office….twice! At lunch Ami did
a computer scan on me. Talk about
paranoid! We went in the arcade where
we met up with Rei and Minako. While we
were sitting there I could have sworn
that I saw Chiba-san looking at me!,
but maybe that's just wishful thinking.
Then out nowhere Motoki hands me these
flowers. Minako, Mako-chan were about
to kill me and Rei-chan wanted to know
why Motoki was giving me flowers. After
Motoki was able to say that they
weren't from him, and that the delivery
guy just brought them, Minako and Mako-
chan calmed down, but not for long.
Then they joined Rei-chan in asking me
who was I dating. I was finally able to
tell them that I wasn't dating anyone
and that I didn't know who the flowers
were from. I looked at the card and it
said:
Dear Usagi,
Your hair is golden like the sun,
Your baby blue eyes match the sea,
Your smiles make my heart weak,
Hopefully one day they will be for me.
Signed your secret admirer.
(AN: corny, I know but give me a
break!)
I looked up after reading it to my
friends. I thought to myself, "Who
could have sent it?" I also thought
that she saw Chiba-san looking at her
with hurt in his eyes, but I must have
been seeing things.
Okay, now I need feedback whether you
hated it or liked it. I'm not too sure
if Decisions is a good name for this
story. If you've got a better name,
please send it to me. You can e-mail me
at Midnight963@yahoo.com .Please send
tons of e-mail!