Hello again! Here's Chapter 3 of
"Decisions"! I want to say thanks to my
editor, Sailor Coruscant (Catherine),
to Tina Lawson and to anyone else who
has sent me feedback.
Disclaimer: You should know that Sailor
Moon does not belong to me! I wish it
did, but we can all dream!
Kekko desu- I'm fine
Oyasuminasai- good night
Chapter 3- The Kiss
Usagi's P.O.V.
All I wanted to do was be alone. I
couldn't take it anymore. I love my
friends, and I know they love me, but
right now, I didn't want to be around
them. I didn't want to be around
anyone. I wonder though, did I really
hurt Mamo-chan? Iie, I'm not supposed
to think about him. Besides, he was the
one who said he didn't want to be tied
down by the past. He'd wanted me to
leave him alone since the day he broke
up with me, so shouldn't he be happy
about Keiichi? Unless, he's mad because
he still loves me. Could he? Demo, why
would he have broken up with me, and
have been so cold and mean? Could it
really be possible, or am I just
setting myself up for a big
disappointment? Iie, I told myself that
I would try to get over Mamo..Chiba-
san, even though it would be very hard.
Kuso...
I looked straight ahead and saw
*our* bench. I hadn't even realized
that I was in the park. Demo here I
was. Kami, what kind of torture is
this? Is it some kind of sign that I
shouldn't give up on Mamo-chan and me?
I don't know. I need to stop thinking
for a while.
I sat down on the grass, under the
shade of a tree that faced *our* bench.
I couldn't sit on *our* bench, that
would be too much. I'm just going to
sit here and relax..
"Usagi-chan?"
I looked up to see a pair of hazel
looking down at me.
"Keiichi-chan, It's good to see
you." I told him even though he was
interrupting my solitude.
"You too, how did you find this
part of the park? It's so secluded." He
asked as he looked out to the river.
"I used to come here a lot." I
answered as I turned my head towards
the water.
"Used to?" Keiichi inquired as he
looked down at me once again.
I took my gaze off the water and
replied, "It's a long story. Besides,
how did you find this place?"
Keiichi looked surprised by my
question. It was a moment before he
replied "I found it by pure luck. I
just happened to be walking in the
park, and I came across this part."
"Really? I always thought it was
hard for someone to find this part of
the park if they didn't know what they
were looking for." I questioned.
"It doesn't matter, does it? What
matters is that I found it, and now we
have someplace in common." He smiled.
"I guess your right." I whispered.
This place still meant a lot to me. It
was *our* place to share, Mamo-chan and
me. I know that I'm supposed to be
trying to get over him, but I wasn't
ready to give this place up. I didn't
know why, but I wasn't too sure I
wanted to share this place with Keiichi
anyway.
"Usagi-chan?"
I turned toward Keiichi and
realized that he had said something.
"Gomen ne, what did you say?" I
asked him.
"I asked why don't we just sit on
the bench? It's closer to the water."
I shook my head. I couldn't sit
there with another guy than Mamo-chan.
It wouldn't feel right.
"OK this spot is great too." He
agreed as he sat down next to me.
I turned to look at Keiichi. He
looked nothing like Mamo-chan. Keiichi
was about 5'9 with brown hair and hazel
eyes. Different than Mamo-chan's 6'4
stature, black hair and piercing
midnight eyes. Keiichi just had a
whole shyness about him, and seemed
like just your normal teenager, unlike
me. He was no Mamo-chan, but he was
here now and I guess that should be
good enough, shouldn't it? I smiled.
Keiichi smiled back and closed his
eyes. When he started to move forward,
I knew he wanted to kiss me. Demo,
could I kiss another guy? Would that be
betraying Mamo-chan? Maybe this is
exactly what I needed to get over Mamo-
chan. It was a romantic setting,
perfect for a perfect kiss. I made my
decision, and closed my eyes. I kept
moving forward until I felt his lips
touch mine......
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Mamoru's P.O.V.
I guess I've finally driven her
away...and straight into the arms of
another guy. Demo, I never thought she
would bring him *here* I felt tears
fall down the side of my face. I had to
get far away from here.
I walked out of the archway of the
secret Rose Garden that led to the main
section of the park. I didn't look left
or right, just straight-ahead. I didn't
want to see any of the "happy" couples.
I just wanted to go home and remember
*her* in my own way, before the dreams-
when we were still together. It's
better than remembering *her* with
*him*. I stopped walking.
`Why him?' I asked myself. Out of
all the guys in the world, why did she
have to choose him? I didn't trust him.
For all we know, he could be part of
the Dark Moon and here just to kill
her. Hmm...that would explain why I
didn't see him arrive on the docks that
night.
Just then I was pushed, and
interrupted from my thoughts from
behind. A tall, redheaded man turned to
me and said "Gomen ne, my fault. I
wasn't watching where I was going."
"It's alright." I replied, and
then the man hurried off. I guess he
didn't want to be surrounded by all the
"happy" couples either.
I resumed my walking until I was
completely out of the park. I looked up
at the sign hanging above the entrance.
This place used to be a place of
solitude for me. Then it changed. It
became a place for Usa and me to share.
After I broke up with her, I wanted it
to be a place where I could remember
the way things were between us, before
the dreams. After today, the park as
the place where I saw her kiss another
guy. Now I didn't know what the park
meant to me. What I did know was that I
just wanted to be far from here.
I turned to my right in the
direction of my building. I had barely
taken two steps when I bumped into
someone else. Kami, today just wasn't
my day. I looked down to see whom I had
hit.
"Saori?" She looked up.
"Mamoru-san? Well, it's funny
bumping into you like this."
"Hai, by the way, sorry about
that." I apologized.
"It was my fault as much as it was
yours. Where are you going now? You
seemed to be in a rush from here."
"I am, actually, I was on my way
home."
"Me too, my home I mean. Do you
want to take a walk with me instead?"
Iie, I didn't, demo, I didn't want to
tell her that though.
"Hai, I'd love to." I agreed.
"Why don't we walk in the park?"
The park? "Iie, could we just walk
around the city or something?"
"Okay, fine with me."
We started walking down the block.
When we got to the corner, Saori
stopped and asked, "So what have you
been up to lately?"
"Nothing really. Same old, same
old."
"What about your girlfriend?" I
turned to her with shock on my face.
How did she know about Usa?
"My girlfriend?" I asked.
"Hai." She blushed. "I heard that
you have one, which according to Motoki
is an amazing feat."
I chuckled. It used to be that
way. I could never be interested in a
girl for more than five minutes. Demo,
that was before I met Usako. She
changed that.
"Well?" Saori questioned. She
never was one to give up when she
wanted an answer.
"Hai, I did have a girlfriend." I
answered.
"And...." urged Saori.
I chuckled. "Why does this mean so
much to you?"
She blushed again. "You're my
friend, and I haven't spoken to you in
a while. I'm just trying to catch up on
what I've missed."
"So what about you, have a
boyfriend?" I inquired.
"Iie, I do not, demo stop changing
the subject!" lectured Saori.
"Okay, okay. Like I said, I did
have a girlfriend, demo we broke up.
That's all there is."
"Oh, well that wasn't so hard, now
was it?"
I laughed. "Now tell me more about
you, and what's going on in your life."
"Same as you. The same old stuff."
"Nothing new at all."
"Nope."
"Why do I find that hard to
believe. You always had something going
on. Always doing something to help you
reach your goal of being a police
chief..." I stopped as Saori reached up
and brushed a piece of my hair from my
eyes. Just like my Usa used to do.
"Gomen ne." Saori apologized as
she pulled her hand back. "It was
bothering me."
I looked away. "It's okay," I
turned back to her and asked, "So do
you have any place in particular that
you want to go to?"
"Iie, why don't we just stick to
our original plan and just walk
around?"
I smiled. "Fine with me."
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Usagi's P.O.V.
I pulled my lips back from
Keiichi. He smiled. There was one
problem though. I didn't, and Keiichi
noticed that immediately.
"Gomen ne, did you not want me to
kiss you?"
"Iie." I looked down.
"Then what's wrong?" He asked.
"There's nothing wro..." I
suddenly stopped. I had felt something.
I only felt this when *he* was around.
I quickly looked around. I didn't see
Mamo-chan anywhere. He didn't see me
kissing Keiichi, did he? If he did, did
he care? Kami, this was so confusing!
"Usagi-chan?" I looked toward
Keiichi. "Daijabou?" He asked.
"Hai, I'm fine, demo, I think I
should be getting home now." I stood up
from the grass. "It was nice seeing you
again Keiichi." I said before I turned
and starting walking towards the exit.
"Matte, Usagi!" He called from
behind me. "Can I at least walk you
home?"
I didn't really want him to, demo
he had a hopeful look on his face and I
would have felt guilty, especially
since I had said no yesterday.
"Sure." I agreed.
He smiled. "Good."
As soon as we were out of the park, I
heard a familiar voice. I turned
towards it, and saw something I didn't
expect to see.
"Hey, Usagi-chan, isn't that your
cousin's friend? Mamo-something right?"
Keiichi asked.
"Mamoru, and hai, that is him."
"Who's that girl with him?"
"I don't know. I guess a friend of
his or something."
"I guess they're more than
friends." Keiichi replied as we both
watched as the girl brushed some of
Mamo-chan's hair from his eyes,
something that I used to do all the
time. I guess if he did see Keiichi and
I kissing, it probably didn't bother
him a bit.
"Why don't we just go." I
suggested.
"You don't want to say hi?"
"Something tells me that they
don't want to be bothered."
"If you want to go, then let's
go."
The whole way home it was mainly
Keiichi asking me questions. I didn't
really pay attention. I know that's
mean, demo I didn't mean to be. All I
could think about was Mamo-chan and
that girl.
"So?"
I looked up. He'd asked me a
question, and I hadn't a clue what to
answer.
"Gomen ne, say that again."
"When can I meet your parents?"
"Nani!" I screeched. "You want to
meet my parents?"
"Yeah, I just thought it would be
a good idea since we're dating. I could
get to know everything about you."
Dating? "Why would you want to
know everything about me?"
"No reason in particular. I just
think that it's a good idea to know all
that you can about the person you are
dating."
"Oh." I answered. "Well here's my
house."
"Okay then, can I see you
tomorrow?"
"Actually tomorrow I'm supposed to
go to a study session at my friend's
temple."
"Oh." I felt bad again for
disappointing him. Demo this time, I
had to do it.
"So I'll see you another day
then."
"Sure." He agreed as he leaned
over and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
He turned around and called back to me,
"Good night, Usagi-chan!"
"Good night." I called back before
I ran into the house. As soon as I
closed the door, I heard my mother
call, "Usagi, is that you dear?"
"Hai, it's me."
She walked to the front door,
where I was standing. "Well how was
your day?"
"Fine, it was fine."
"Where have you been? Chibi-Usa's
been home for almost an hour. I thought
you two were coming home together."
"We were supposed to, demo I
decided to take a walk first."
"You had a phone call, actually
four."
"Four?"
"Hai, First Ami, then Minako, then
Rei, then Makoto."
"Oh."
"You missed dinner, do you want
anything to eat?"
"Kekko desu."
"Usagi-chan, is there something
wrong?"
"Iie, I'm fine. I'm going to go to
my room now." I said as I started to
walk up the front stairs.
"Usagi?"
I stopped and turned. "Hai?"
"Just know that I'm here if you
want to talk about anything."
I smiled at her. "Hai, arigato."
Then I continued to walk up the stairs
to my room. I looked around. I didn't
see Chibi-Usa anywhere. She must be in
the attic. Good. I needed to be alone.
I closed the door and leaned on it. As
I started to cry, I slid to the floor.
"Kami, why is this so confusing."
I asked to no one in particular. "I
tried to be the best girlfriend, and
Mamo-chan still dumped me. I tried to
keep hoping that he would come back to
me. I tried not giving up, and what did
that get me? Nothing. I tried moving
on. I even kissed Keiichi, and what did
I feel? I felt like I betrayed Mamo-
chan. I just don't know what to do!" I
put my head on my knees and I sobbed.
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Chibi-Usa's P.O.V.
As soon as I heard Usagi come
home, I debated whether or not to go
talk to her. Would she want to talk to
me? I didn't mean to blame everything
on her. I wasn't thinking at the time.
I just said what came out of my mouth,
and what had come out, had hurt her.
About five minutes after I heard
her come home, I decided to go
downstairs and talk to her. I wouldn't
know how mad she is if I didn't at
least try to talk to her. I was about
to knock on her door when I heard
whispering.
"Kami, why is this so confusing?"
Who was she talking to? She kept
going.
"I tried to be the best girlfriend,
and Mamo-chan still dumped me. I tried
to keep hoping that he would come back
to me. I tried not giving up, and what
did that get me? Nothing. I tried
moving on. I even kissed Keiichi, and
what did I feel? I felt like I betrayed
Mamo-chan. I just don't know what to
do!"
The next thing I heard was
sobbing. I turned and walked back to my
room. Now I felt even guiltier than
before.
As I sat down on my bed and laid
my head on my pillow I thought, `How
can I fix everything between Usagi-chan
and me? Will I still be able to get her
and Mamo-chan together even though she
kissed Keiichi?
I gasped and sat up. Wait a
minute. Usagi never said that she
regretted kissing Keiichi. She just
said that she felt as though she had
betrayed Mamo-chan.
Did that mean that she was over
Mamo-chan? Just because she felt like
she betrayed him, didn't mean that she
didn't like kissing Keiichi.
This is my fault! She probably
wouldn't have even seen Keiichi today
if I hadn't yelled at her. In fact, she
probably wouldn't have even met him if
it weren't for me. I was jealous of
Usagi, and I wanted Mamo-chan for
myself. I also didn't think that Usagi
was good enough for him so I purposely
tried to break them up. When they did,
I felt guilty about it. It reminded me
of a conversation I had with my mother.
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Flashback
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"Mommy, you know everything,
right?"
She laughed from her position at
the edge of my bed. "What makes you
think that?" She asked.
"Because you're queen, and you're
powerful, and...."
"Small Lady, that doesn't mean
that I know everything."
"Demo, everyone loves you! And
they come to you with their problems,
and you fix them."
"I help them. So does your
father."
"Hai, demo you always know what to
say. You always know the right answer
to give them, so I thought you could
answer to my question."
"And what question is that?" She
smiled.
"What's love?"
She smiled even more. She moved
closer to me on the bed, and put her
arm around me. "I think that love is
different for each person. It's a
feeling that you get for that special
person, and you just know that you love
them. You can't help who you fall in
love with."
"You just know?"
"Hai."
"What if you do get that feeling,
demo you don't realize that it's love?"
"Sooner or later, you'll realize
it."
"Was that the way it was with you
and Daddy?"
This time she laughed. She looked
up and said. "Hai. It took both your
father and myself to realize what we
felt for each other. Our feelings
didn't come out until something big had
happened."
"And what was that?"
She looked down and again smiled
at me. "You'll just have to wait till
another day to find out. It's past your
bedtime."
"Demo...."
"Gomen ne, Small Lady, demo, you
have to go to sleep."
"Okay, demo you will tell me,
right?"
"Hai, I will."
She tucked me in and as she gave
me a kiss on my head, I asked her,
"Just one more question, onegai?"
"Okay, one more." She agreed.
"When you're in love, does
everyone understand the way you feel?"
I asked.
"When you're in love, you see
something in that person that other
people may not be able to see. Although
other people may not understand why you
love that person, you do. Some may even
feel that that person isn't good enough
for you, demo in your mind, sometimes
you feel like *you're* not good enough.
I used to feel that way."
"You did?"
"Hai, I used to wonder why your
father was with me. I didn't think I
was good enough for him. When we
started dating, I was only in junior
high. He was in college.
"Really?"
"Hai, really."
"What made you change your mind?"
"Your father. He told me that he
felt he wasn't good enough for me. When
we told each other our insecurities, we
became a lot closer."
"I can't wait to fall in love."
"It'll happen, Small Lady, trust
me. Now it's really time for bed.
Oyasuminasai and sweet dreams."
I lay back down in my pink bed, as
my mother flicked off the switch near
the door to turn off the light. She
left the door slightly ajar.
Outside of my door, I heard my
mother say, "You're back!"
Then I heard my father's voice
reply "Hai." Then there was silence for
a while. They were probably kissing.
They do that a lot.
Then my father asked, "She's just
now going to sleep? Isn't it a little
late?"
"We had a nice conversation just
before she went to sleep. It took us a
while."
"And may I ask what this
conversation was about?" My father
inquired.
My mother giggled. "Love. We
didn't get to finish though."
"Love?"
"Hai, I can't wait until she gets
her first crush." My mother sighed.
"She's only five! She's too young
to be thinking about crushes!"
"You're never too young. I'll see
you back in our room." Then I heard my
mother walk away. I heard my door open,
and immediately closed my eyes. I
didn't want my father to know that I
had been awake all this time!
He walked over to my bed. Then he
whispered, "Before I know it, you'll be
all grown up, won't you? Could you do
me one favor though? Don't date until
I'm dead." I almost smiled when I heard
that. I heard him chuckle, then he
kissed me on my forehead. He walked
back to my door, and before he closed
the door he said, "Good night, my
small, little lady."
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End of flashback
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I felt a tear drop from my eye
when I thought about my parents. I miss
them. If they knew what I had done,
they'd probably be disappointed in me.
I had messed up the lives of everyone
in the thirtieth century, now I'm
messing up the lives of people in the
twentieth. If I had been more like my
mom, I probably wouldn't be in this
mess. Demo, then again, when I tried to
be like my mom, I messed up the future.
Usagi-chan was wrong. It wasn't
her who ruins everything..... it was
me.
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Mamoru's P.O.V.
"Good night, Saori."
"Good night, Mamoru." Saori said
before she shut the door.
I turned to start my walk home,
but before I got far, I heard a voice
from behind me.
"Mamoru-san?"
I turned. "Hai, Saori?"
"Um...." If it wasn't so dark
outside, I could have sworn she was
blushing.
"Is there something wrong?" I
asked.
"Iie, I just wanted to know if you
were busy tomorrow?"
"Not really. Doshite?"
"I wanted to know if you wanted to
go out and have some coffee, maybe even
dinner, so that we could catch up some
more. That's if you want to."
"Um...." I took a moment to think
about it. "Yeah, sure. What time?"
"Is 6:00 okay? I could walk over
to your apartment, and we could find
someplace to eat together."
"Okay. So I'll see you tomorrow
then."
"Hai, sayonara."
"Sayonara." I said before I walked
away.
When I got home I had a quick
dinner and then I got ready for bed. As
I was doing that, I thought about some
of the things that Motoki had said to
me earlier....
"From my point of view Mamoru, the
only thing that can happen is you
gaining something that you let go."
"How do you not know that the Dark
Moon is sending the dreams?"
"Her life is always in danger! In
case you haven't noticed, she's not
normal, she doesn't lead a normal life.
She puts her life on the line everyday.
If the Dark Moon were sending the
dreams, it wouldn't make a difference,
because either way, she's in danger. I
would of thought that by now, you would
of notice that she is able to take care
of herself. She's not a child."
"You gave up! You gave up on your
relationship. In all the time that I've
known you, you've never given up on
anything. It's surprising that the
first thing you give up on is something
that you want and need the most. If you
love Usagi-chan as much as, you say you
do, then you would do everything in
your power to find out exactly what
these dreams mean. You wouldn't be
sitting in the arcade, guessing where
they are from, and what they mean. You
would be out there making sure that
they stop! At least that's what I would
do if I were in your position."
I sat down on my bed, and picked
up the picture of Usa and me that was
sitting on my nightstand.
I looked at her in the picture and
asked, "Did I really give up on us
Usa?" Have I really lost you? If I
came back to you now, would you take me
back? Demo, what if it's not the Dark
Moon sending me these dreams? Demo what
if they are, and this is just some
trick? I could be losing you for no
reason at all!" At this point, I felt
tears come down my face. I curled up in
my bed, and held the picture close to
me. I don't know when I fell asleep,
demo I do know that I did something
that I hadn't done since I was six. I
cried myself to sleep.
Well, that's all for now. But there are
so many questions! Did Usagi fall for
Keiichi? Will Mamoru tell Usagi about
his suspicions about Keiichi and the
Dark Moon? Or will he just go back to
her and forget about the dreams? What
about Saori? Well can't answer those
questions now, till next time! One more
thing, if you're wondering what the
"big thing" that had happened between
Usagi and Mamoru, she's referring to
the episode when she was revealed as
the Moon Princess. Send any questions
or comments to Midnight963@yahoo.com.
"Decisions"! I want to say thanks to my
editor, Sailor Coruscant (Catherine),
to Tina Lawson and to anyone else who
has sent me feedback.
Disclaimer: You should know that Sailor
Moon does not belong to me! I wish it
did, but we can all dream!
Kekko desu- I'm fine
Oyasuminasai- good night
Chapter 3- The Kiss
Usagi's P.O.V.
All I wanted to do was be alone. I
couldn't take it anymore. I love my
friends, and I know they love me, but
right now, I didn't want to be around
them. I didn't want to be around
anyone. I wonder though, did I really
hurt Mamo-chan? Iie, I'm not supposed
to think about him. Besides, he was the
one who said he didn't want to be tied
down by the past. He'd wanted me to
leave him alone since the day he broke
up with me, so shouldn't he be happy
about Keiichi? Unless, he's mad because
he still loves me. Could he? Demo, why
would he have broken up with me, and
have been so cold and mean? Could it
really be possible, or am I just
setting myself up for a big
disappointment? Iie, I told myself that
I would try to get over Mamo..Chiba-
san, even though it would be very hard.
Kuso...
I looked straight ahead and saw
*our* bench. I hadn't even realized
that I was in the park. Demo here I
was. Kami, what kind of torture is
this? Is it some kind of sign that I
shouldn't give up on Mamo-chan and me?
I don't know. I need to stop thinking
for a while.
I sat down on the grass, under the
shade of a tree that faced *our* bench.
I couldn't sit on *our* bench, that
would be too much. I'm just going to
sit here and relax..
"Usagi-chan?"
I looked up to see a pair of hazel
looking down at me.
"Keiichi-chan, It's good to see
you." I told him even though he was
interrupting my solitude.
"You too, how did you find this
part of the park? It's so secluded." He
asked as he looked out to the river.
"I used to come here a lot." I
answered as I turned my head towards
the water.
"Used to?" Keiichi inquired as he
looked down at me once again.
I took my gaze off the water and
replied, "It's a long story. Besides,
how did you find this place?"
Keiichi looked surprised by my
question. It was a moment before he
replied "I found it by pure luck. I
just happened to be walking in the
park, and I came across this part."
"Really? I always thought it was
hard for someone to find this part of
the park if they didn't know what they
were looking for." I questioned.
"It doesn't matter, does it? What
matters is that I found it, and now we
have someplace in common." He smiled.
"I guess your right." I whispered.
This place still meant a lot to me. It
was *our* place to share, Mamo-chan and
me. I know that I'm supposed to be
trying to get over him, but I wasn't
ready to give this place up. I didn't
know why, but I wasn't too sure I
wanted to share this place with Keiichi
anyway.
"Usagi-chan?"
I turned toward Keiichi and
realized that he had said something.
"Gomen ne, what did you say?" I
asked him.
"I asked why don't we just sit on
the bench? It's closer to the water."
I shook my head. I couldn't sit
there with another guy than Mamo-chan.
It wouldn't feel right.
"OK this spot is great too." He
agreed as he sat down next to me.
I turned to look at Keiichi. He
looked nothing like Mamo-chan. Keiichi
was about 5'9 with brown hair and hazel
eyes. Different than Mamo-chan's 6'4
stature, black hair and piercing
midnight eyes. Keiichi just had a
whole shyness about him, and seemed
like just your normal teenager, unlike
me. He was no Mamo-chan, but he was
here now and I guess that should be
good enough, shouldn't it? I smiled.
Keiichi smiled back and closed his
eyes. When he started to move forward,
I knew he wanted to kiss me. Demo,
could I kiss another guy? Would that be
betraying Mamo-chan? Maybe this is
exactly what I needed to get over Mamo-
chan. It was a romantic setting,
perfect for a perfect kiss. I made my
decision, and closed my eyes. I kept
moving forward until I felt his lips
touch mine......
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Mamoru's P.O.V.
I guess I've finally driven her
away...and straight into the arms of
another guy. Demo, I never thought she
would bring him *here* I felt tears
fall down the side of my face. I had to
get far away from here.
I walked out of the archway of the
secret Rose Garden that led to the main
section of the park. I didn't look left
or right, just straight-ahead. I didn't
want to see any of the "happy" couples.
I just wanted to go home and remember
*her* in my own way, before the dreams-
when we were still together. It's
better than remembering *her* with
*him*. I stopped walking.
`Why him?' I asked myself. Out of
all the guys in the world, why did she
have to choose him? I didn't trust him.
For all we know, he could be part of
the Dark Moon and here just to kill
her. Hmm...that would explain why I
didn't see him arrive on the docks that
night.
Just then I was pushed, and
interrupted from my thoughts from
behind. A tall, redheaded man turned to
me and said "Gomen ne, my fault. I
wasn't watching where I was going."
"It's alright." I replied, and
then the man hurried off. I guess he
didn't want to be surrounded by all the
"happy" couples either.
I resumed my walking until I was
completely out of the park. I looked up
at the sign hanging above the entrance.
This place used to be a place of
solitude for me. Then it changed. It
became a place for Usa and me to share.
After I broke up with her, I wanted it
to be a place where I could remember
the way things were between us, before
the dreams. After today, the park as
the place where I saw her kiss another
guy. Now I didn't know what the park
meant to me. What I did know was that I
just wanted to be far from here.
I turned to my right in the
direction of my building. I had barely
taken two steps when I bumped into
someone else. Kami, today just wasn't
my day. I looked down to see whom I had
hit.
"Saori?" She looked up.
"Mamoru-san? Well, it's funny
bumping into you like this."
"Hai, by the way, sorry about
that." I apologized.
"It was my fault as much as it was
yours. Where are you going now? You
seemed to be in a rush from here."
"I am, actually, I was on my way
home."
"Me too, my home I mean. Do you
want to take a walk with me instead?"
Iie, I didn't, demo, I didn't want to
tell her that though.
"Hai, I'd love to." I agreed.
"Why don't we walk in the park?"
The park? "Iie, could we just walk
around the city or something?"
"Okay, fine with me."
We started walking down the block.
When we got to the corner, Saori
stopped and asked, "So what have you
been up to lately?"
"Nothing really. Same old, same
old."
"What about your girlfriend?" I
turned to her with shock on my face.
How did she know about Usa?
"My girlfriend?" I asked.
"Hai." She blushed. "I heard that
you have one, which according to Motoki
is an amazing feat."
I chuckled. It used to be that
way. I could never be interested in a
girl for more than five minutes. Demo,
that was before I met Usako. She
changed that.
"Well?" Saori questioned. She
never was one to give up when she
wanted an answer.
"Hai, I did have a girlfriend." I
answered.
"And...." urged Saori.
I chuckled. "Why does this mean so
much to you?"
She blushed again. "You're my
friend, and I haven't spoken to you in
a while. I'm just trying to catch up on
what I've missed."
"So what about you, have a
boyfriend?" I inquired.
"Iie, I do not, demo stop changing
the subject!" lectured Saori.
"Okay, okay. Like I said, I did
have a girlfriend, demo we broke up.
That's all there is."
"Oh, well that wasn't so hard, now
was it?"
I laughed. "Now tell me more about
you, and what's going on in your life."
"Same as you. The same old stuff."
"Nothing new at all."
"Nope."
"Why do I find that hard to
believe. You always had something going
on. Always doing something to help you
reach your goal of being a police
chief..." I stopped as Saori reached up
and brushed a piece of my hair from my
eyes. Just like my Usa used to do.
"Gomen ne." Saori apologized as
she pulled her hand back. "It was
bothering me."
I looked away. "It's okay," I
turned back to her and asked, "So do
you have any place in particular that
you want to go to?"
"Iie, why don't we just stick to
our original plan and just walk
around?"
I smiled. "Fine with me."
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Usagi's P.O.V.
I pulled my lips back from
Keiichi. He smiled. There was one
problem though. I didn't, and Keiichi
noticed that immediately.
"Gomen ne, did you not want me to
kiss you?"
"Iie." I looked down.
"Then what's wrong?" He asked.
"There's nothing wro..." I
suddenly stopped. I had felt something.
I only felt this when *he* was around.
I quickly looked around. I didn't see
Mamo-chan anywhere. He didn't see me
kissing Keiichi, did he? If he did, did
he care? Kami, this was so confusing!
"Usagi-chan?" I looked toward
Keiichi. "Daijabou?" He asked.
"Hai, I'm fine, demo, I think I
should be getting home now." I stood up
from the grass. "It was nice seeing you
again Keiichi." I said before I turned
and starting walking towards the exit.
"Matte, Usagi!" He called from
behind me. "Can I at least walk you
home?"
I didn't really want him to, demo
he had a hopeful look on his face and I
would have felt guilty, especially
since I had said no yesterday.
"Sure." I agreed.
He smiled. "Good."
As soon as we were out of the park, I
heard a familiar voice. I turned
towards it, and saw something I didn't
expect to see.
"Hey, Usagi-chan, isn't that your
cousin's friend? Mamo-something right?"
Keiichi asked.
"Mamoru, and hai, that is him."
"Who's that girl with him?"
"I don't know. I guess a friend of
his or something."
"I guess they're more than
friends." Keiichi replied as we both
watched as the girl brushed some of
Mamo-chan's hair from his eyes,
something that I used to do all the
time. I guess if he did see Keiichi and
I kissing, it probably didn't bother
him a bit.
"Why don't we just go." I
suggested.
"You don't want to say hi?"
"Something tells me that they
don't want to be bothered."
"If you want to go, then let's
go."
The whole way home it was mainly
Keiichi asking me questions. I didn't
really pay attention. I know that's
mean, demo I didn't mean to be. All I
could think about was Mamo-chan and
that girl.
"So?"
I looked up. He'd asked me a
question, and I hadn't a clue what to
answer.
"Gomen ne, say that again."
"When can I meet your parents?"
"Nani!" I screeched. "You want to
meet my parents?"
"Yeah, I just thought it would be
a good idea since we're dating. I could
get to know everything about you."
Dating? "Why would you want to
know everything about me?"
"No reason in particular. I just
think that it's a good idea to know all
that you can about the person you are
dating."
"Oh." I answered. "Well here's my
house."
"Okay then, can I see you
tomorrow?"
"Actually tomorrow I'm supposed to
go to a study session at my friend's
temple."
"Oh." I felt bad again for
disappointing him. Demo this time, I
had to do it.
"So I'll see you another day
then."
"Sure." He agreed as he leaned
over and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
He turned around and called back to me,
"Good night, Usagi-chan!"
"Good night." I called back before
I ran into the house. As soon as I
closed the door, I heard my mother
call, "Usagi, is that you dear?"
"Hai, it's me."
She walked to the front door,
where I was standing. "Well how was
your day?"
"Fine, it was fine."
"Where have you been? Chibi-Usa's
been home for almost an hour. I thought
you two were coming home together."
"We were supposed to, demo I
decided to take a walk first."
"You had a phone call, actually
four."
"Four?"
"Hai, First Ami, then Minako, then
Rei, then Makoto."
"Oh."
"You missed dinner, do you want
anything to eat?"
"Kekko desu."
"Usagi-chan, is there something
wrong?"
"Iie, I'm fine. I'm going to go to
my room now." I said as I started to
walk up the front stairs.
"Usagi?"
I stopped and turned. "Hai?"
"Just know that I'm here if you
want to talk about anything."
I smiled at her. "Hai, arigato."
Then I continued to walk up the stairs
to my room. I looked around. I didn't
see Chibi-Usa anywhere. She must be in
the attic. Good. I needed to be alone.
I closed the door and leaned on it. As
I started to cry, I slid to the floor.
"Kami, why is this so confusing."
I asked to no one in particular. "I
tried to be the best girlfriend, and
Mamo-chan still dumped me. I tried to
keep hoping that he would come back to
me. I tried not giving up, and what did
that get me? Nothing. I tried moving
on. I even kissed Keiichi, and what did
I feel? I felt like I betrayed Mamo-
chan. I just don't know what to do!" I
put my head on my knees and I sobbed.
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Chibi-Usa's P.O.V.
As soon as I heard Usagi come
home, I debated whether or not to go
talk to her. Would she want to talk to
me? I didn't mean to blame everything
on her. I wasn't thinking at the time.
I just said what came out of my mouth,
and what had come out, had hurt her.
About five minutes after I heard
her come home, I decided to go
downstairs and talk to her. I wouldn't
know how mad she is if I didn't at
least try to talk to her. I was about
to knock on her door when I heard
whispering.
"Kami, why is this so confusing?"
Who was she talking to? She kept
going.
"I tried to be the best girlfriend,
and Mamo-chan still dumped me. I tried
to keep hoping that he would come back
to me. I tried not giving up, and what
did that get me? Nothing. I tried
moving on. I even kissed Keiichi, and
what did I feel? I felt like I betrayed
Mamo-chan. I just don't know what to
do!"
The next thing I heard was
sobbing. I turned and walked back to my
room. Now I felt even guiltier than
before.
As I sat down on my bed and laid
my head on my pillow I thought, `How
can I fix everything between Usagi-chan
and me? Will I still be able to get her
and Mamo-chan together even though she
kissed Keiichi?
I gasped and sat up. Wait a
minute. Usagi never said that she
regretted kissing Keiichi. She just
said that she felt as though she had
betrayed Mamo-chan.
Did that mean that she was over
Mamo-chan? Just because she felt like
she betrayed him, didn't mean that she
didn't like kissing Keiichi.
This is my fault! She probably
wouldn't have even seen Keiichi today
if I hadn't yelled at her. In fact, she
probably wouldn't have even met him if
it weren't for me. I was jealous of
Usagi, and I wanted Mamo-chan for
myself. I also didn't think that Usagi
was good enough for him so I purposely
tried to break them up. When they did,
I felt guilty about it. It reminded me
of a conversation I had with my mother.
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Flashback
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"Mommy, you know everything,
right?"
She laughed from her position at
the edge of my bed. "What makes you
think that?" She asked.
"Because you're queen, and you're
powerful, and...."
"Small Lady, that doesn't mean
that I know everything."
"Demo, everyone loves you! And
they come to you with their problems,
and you fix them."
"I help them. So does your
father."
"Hai, demo you always know what to
say. You always know the right answer
to give them, so I thought you could
answer to my question."
"And what question is that?" She
smiled.
"What's love?"
She smiled even more. She moved
closer to me on the bed, and put her
arm around me. "I think that love is
different for each person. It's a
feeling that you get for that special
person, and you just know that you love
them. You can't help who you fall in
love with."
"You just know?"
"Hai."
"What if you do get that feeling,
demo you don't realize that it's love?"
"Sooner or later, you'll realize
it."
"Was that the way it was with you
and Daddy?"
This time she laughed. She looked
up and said. "Hai. It took both your
father and myself to realize what we
felt for each other. Our feelings
didn't come out until something big had
happened."
"And what was that?"
She looked down and again smiled
at me. "You'll just have to wait till
another day to find out. It's past your
bedtime."
"Demo...."
"Gomen ne, Small Lady, demo, you
have to go to sleep."
"Okay, demo you will tell me,
right?"
"Hai, I will."
She tucked me in and as she gave
me a kiss on my head, I asked her,
"Just one more question, onegai?"
"Okay, one more." She agreed.
"When you're in love, does
everyone understand the way you feel?"
I asked.
"When you're in love, you see
something in that person that other
people may not be able to see. Although
other people may not understand why you
love that person, you do. Some may even
feel that that person isn't good enough
for you, demo in your mind, sometimes
you feel like *you're* not good enough.
I used to feel that way."
"You did?"
"Hai, I used to wonder why your
father was with me. I didn't think I
was good enough for him. When we
started dating, I was only in junior
high. He was in college.
"Really?"
"Hai, really."
"What made you change your mind?"
"Your father. He told me that he
felt he wasn't good enough for me. When
we told each other our insecurities, we
became a lot closer."
"I can't wait to fall in love."
"It'll happen, Small Lady, trust
me. Now it's really time for bed.
Oyasuminasai and sweet dreams."
I lay back down in my pink bed, as
my mother flicked off the switch near
the door to turn off the light. She
left the door slightly ajar.
Outside of my door, I heard my
mother say, "You're back!"
Then I heard my father's voice
reply "Hai." Then there was silence for
a while. They were probably kissing.
They do that a lot.
Then my father asked, "She's just
now going to sleep? Isn't it a little
late?"
"We had a nice conversation just
before she went to sleep. It took us a
while."
"And may I ask what this
conversation was about?" My father
inquired.
My mother giggled. "Love. We
didn't get to finish though."
"Love?"
"Hai, I can't wait until she gets
her first crush." My mother sighed.
"She's only five! She's too young
to be thinking about crushes!"
"You're never too young. I'll see
you back in our room." Then I heard my
mother walk away. I heard my door open,
and immediately closed my eyes. I
didn't want my father to know that I
had been awake all this time!
He walked over to my bed. Then he
whispered, "Before I know it, you'll be
all grown up, won't you? Could you do
me one favor though? Don't date until
I'm dead." I almost smiled when I heard
that. I heard him chuckle, then he
kissed me on my forehead. He walked
back to my door, and before he closed
the door he said, "Good night, my
small, little lady."
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End of flashback
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I felt a tear drop from my eye
when I thought about my parents. I miss
them. If they knew what I had done,
they'd probably be disappointed in me.
I had messed up the lives of everyone
in the thirtieth century, now I'm
messing up the lives of people in the
twentieth. If I had been more like my
mom, I probably wouldn't be in this
mess. Demo, then again, when I tried to
be like my mom, I messed up the future.
Usagi-chan was wrong. It wasn't
her who ruins everything..... it was
me.
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Mamoru's P.O.V.
"Good night, Saori."
"Good night, Mamoru." Saori said
before she shut the door.
I turned to start my walk home,
but before I got far, I heard a voice
from behind me.
"Mamoru-san?"
I turned. "Hai, Saori?"
"Um...." If it wasn't so dark
outside, I could have sworn she was
blushing.
"Is there something wrong?" I
asked.
"Iie, I just wanted to know if you
were busy tomorrow?"
"Not really. Doshite?"
"I wanted to know if you wanted to
go out and have some coffee, maybe even
dinner, so that we could catch up some
more. That's if you want to."
"Um...." I took a moment to think
about it. "Yeah, sure. What time?"
"Is 6:00 okay? I could walk over
to your apartment, and we could find
someplace to eat together."
"Okay. So I'll see you tomorrow
then."
"Hai, sayonara."
"Sayonara." I said before I walked
away.
When I got home I had a quick
dinner and then I got ready for bed. As
I was doing that, I thought about some
of the things that Motoki had said to
me earlier....
"From my point of view Mamoru, the
only thing that can happen is you
gaining something that you let go."
"How do you not know that the Dark
Moon is sending the dreams?"
"Her life is always in danger! In
case you haven't noticed, she's not
normal, she doesn't lead a normal life.
She puts her life on the line everyday.
If the Dark Moon were sending the
dreams, it wouldn't make a difference,
because either way, she's in danger. I
would of thought that by now, you would
of notice that she is able to take care
of herself. She's not a child."
"You gave up! You gave up on your
relationship. In all the time that I've
known you, you've never given up on
anything. It's surprising that the
first thing you give up on is something
that you want and need the most. If you
love Usagi-chan as much as, you say you
do, then you would do everything in
your power to find out exactly what
these dreams mean. You wouldn't be
sitting in the arcade, guessing where
they are from, and what they mean. You
would be out there making sure that
they stop! At least that's what I would
do if I were in your position."
I sat down on my bed, and picked
up the picture of Usa and me that was
sitting on my nightstand.
I looked at her in the picture and
asked, "Did I really give up on us
Usa?" Have I really lost you? If I
came back to you now, would you take me
back? Demo, what if it's not the Dark
Moon sending me these dreams? Demo what
if they are, and this is just some
trick? I could be losing you for no
reason at all!" At this point, I felt
tears come down my face. I curled up in
my bed, and held the picture close to
me. I don't know when I fell asleep,
demo I do know that I did something
that I hadn't done since I was six. I
cried myself to sleep.
Well, that's all for now. But there are
so many questions! Did Usagi fall for
Keiichi? Will Mamoru tell Usagi about
his suspicions about Keiichi and the
Dark Moon? Or will he just go back to
her and forget about the dreams? What
about Saori? Well can't answer those
questions now, till next time! One more
thing, if you're wondering what the
"big thing" that had happened between
Usagi and Mamoru, she's referring to
the episode when she was revealed as
the Moon Princess. Send any questions
or comments to Midnight963@yahoo.com.