A fanfic for Wannon… you requested it, canary ^_^ Just y'know…
The scenes are not all directly following each other… big gaps of time maybe between each scene… and not all the gaps are equal… ^_^
This is angsty, but mainly SAPPY, with a capital S – A – P – P – Y
She looked at the daisy.
"Do you love Cloud?"
Tifa looked sad.
"He isn't real?"
Tifa looked at her in surprise, she'd thought the other girl
only just met Cloud.
"He's… Cloud, but not.
Aeris nodded.
"I love him, too," Tifa said quickly.
She loves me not
~ ♥ ~
She looked at the flower, struggling between the pavement
cracks.
"Did you ever…" She paused, unwilling to go on.
"What?" Tifa smiled encouragingly, linking her arm through
Aeris'.
She smiled, there was no way she could say it now, with Tifa so close.
"I was… just wondering what Cloud was like as a child," she said instead.
Tifa's face fell.
She didn't want to continue, so Aeris rubbed her arm comfortingly and ignored the nervous feeling in her stomach.
~ ♥ ~
The flower was white, perhaps pink would have been more suited? But no… Aeris may wear pink, but her soul, her innocence was white.
They became friends, despite all the odds.
Sometimes she wished… what did she wish?
She loved Cloud, in a way, but she could tell he didn't love
her.
She didn't know if Cloud loved her friend, but how could he
not?
Aeris stirred slightly in her sleep.
Tifa lay awake, acutely aware of Aeris
~ ♥ ~
She was used to beautiful flowers, but this one was
different, because it represented something more.
"Tifa?"
"Yes?"
"Nothing…"
Why couldn't she say what she wanted to?
They were such good friends, how could she jeopardise
that?
"Just…" She trailed off again, she wanted to tell her so
much…
Tifa grabbed her arm and spun her around.
"It's just… how do you feel about… um…"
"Spit it out!"
"I-it doesn't matter…"
Tifa threw her hands up in exasperation, resigned to not knowing whatever it was Aeris couldn't tell her.
/How can I face death, monsters and Hojo, but I can't tell Tifa that I think… that I might… be in love with her…? /
~ ♥ ~
Like a dandelion puff in the wind she was gone.
Tifa lay under the stars, completely impervious to their
twinkling glory.
She felt selfish for regretting the second more than the
first.
/What if I die without ever telling her how I feel… without knowing how she feels…/
She didn't even let herself think about the other option… the other possibility.
She could hear Nanaki snoring softly across from her, Barret mumbling under his breath… even Yuffie's soft breaths and Cid's deep even sighs…but she couldn't hear Cloud; his SOLDIER trained and Mako-enhanced sleep was too silent… and Aeris… she couldn't hear Aeris… because Aeris wasn't there…
All of a sudden the air seemed heavier.
/How could you leave
me… us?
~ ♥ ~
Her beautiful face was all she could see when she closed her
The end was nigh.
/I don't regret it…/
She tried to convince herself that, and for the most part it was true.
She hated her cowardice, she could face death with a smile, but she couldn't tell a girl – her friend – that she loved her.
"It's better this way… I can go to the Lifestream with the love of a friend."
Maybe it was true, but it didn't stop the empty ache of regret.
~ ♥ ~
A flower – crushed and broken, its perfect beauty still
evident, but marred, twisted, destroyed…
She was trying to be brave, to keep going, but she was dead
inside.
It hurt.
She wasn't jealous that Cloud loved her; how could she be when she suffered the same?
/I'm sorry, that I never told you… I'll never know what you would have said… I'm glad that you died happy… but I wish I could have gone in your place…/
There was no question that they'd keep fighting, they owed
it to her memory.
She wanted to leave something concrete in memory, evidence that she existed, that she was mourned.
She bent to pick a flower, and paused, the Planet has already had its brightest blossom plucked too soon… then knelt and kissed the flower instead.
"I love you."
Perhaps it was her imagination, but she caught a faint breath of flowers, and she could almost hear a voice answering her.
It must be a dream and an echo, but the air felt lighter.
/I love you…/
~ ♥ ~
A thing of beauty is a joy forever…
Aeris looked at the glistening tears running down the face
of the woman she loved.
Existence was so much more intense in the Lifestream, she
could feel all existence through her veins.
She could meet again with her loved ones: her parents, her friends… Zack.
Meeting him was hard, because she had loved him with all the
intensity of a girlish crush cut short.
She loved Tifa, and she would wait for her.
/Goodbye, Tifa, I hope you and Cloud are very happy… I will wait for you, and I will be happy for you…/
"I love you…"
~ The End ~
Hope ya liked it… ^_^;;
Pwease review, this is my first shoujo ai fic, and I'd love feedback.
~ Dedicated to
dressing gowns ~