There is no agony like bearing an untold story inside of you.
Maya Angelou - American poet
If you're gonna tell a story, you have to grow into the head of the
rapist as well as the raped." - Tori, Chicago Sun Times, July 17, 1998
these tears i've cried
i've cried 1000 oceans
and if it seems i'm. floating.
in the darkness
*ring*
*ring*
*ring*
"What??"
"Good morning Jing Mei"
"Shit" Deb muttered,struggling to sit up
"nice to talk to you,too"
"Sorry" Deb groaned,"Good morning Mummy"
"Will you be there for dinner tonight?"
She sighed loudly
"Jing Mei?"
"I'll try" Deb answered
well, i can't believe that i would kep.
keep you from flying
and i would cry 1000 more if that's
what it takes to sail you home
sail you home sail you home
**at the hospital**
"MALIKKKKKK" Carter's muffled yelling barely escaped the exam room
doorway
Dave snickered
"If it's so funny, go give Dr Carter a hand Dr Malucci" Kerry called
over her shoulder
"Do I have to?"
"MALUCCI!"
"Going" Dave groaned
************************
"What happened?" Deb dumped her stuff on the couch and crouched down
to her knees
Carter shook his head and removed the ice from the side of his
face."This crazy patient..."
"Let me see" Deb touched his face lightly,"Come on"
He groaned,"Deb...."
"No fracture" Deb smirked
"I know that" Carter laughed
i'm aware what the rules are
but you know that i will run
you know that i will follow you
over silbury hill through the solar field
you know that i wil follow you
"She's in restraints"Kerry looked at the clock,"Where are you people?"
"Psych?"
Carter nodded
"I've got to run" Deb smiled
"Lucky you" Carter teased
Deb nodded," Doesn't get better than dinner with the Chens"
"Dinner with the Carters"
and if i find you. will you. still remember
playing at trains
or does this little blue ball
just fade away
"Call me when you get there" Carter tied the scarf around his neck
Deb nodded,buttoning her jacket,"Why?"
"Humor me"
Shelaughed,."I shall humor you and spend the rest of the night
fighing off rumors"
"They haven't given up?" Carter pulled his hat farther over his ears
"Given up on my Prince Charming being Chinese.At this point" Deb
jingled the keys in her hand,"Any rich man would do"
"Oh" Carter blushed
"Yeah" Deb chuckled akwardly."I'll see you"
"Bye"
Deb slipped into her car and drove away
**************************************************
"Dammnit" Deb kicked the tire,"Stupid stupid car" she plopped down on
the curb and held her head in her hands,watching the cars drive by.
over silbury hill through the solar field
you know that i will follow you.
i'm aware what the rules are
but you know that i will run
you know that i will follow you
She walked briskly through the dark streets,her heart racing.Deb ran
over medical terms, diseases, treatments,anything to keep her mind
off the growing anxiety.
"Get down bitch. Get down and shut up" a rough voice hissed behnd
her.
Deb took a deep breath and kept walking
"Get down!"
Quivering,Deb sunk down on her knees.
"Not here"a sharp object made Deb spring back up.
*Mummy's eyeing the clock,telling everyone to go ahead and eat,that
I'll be there soon" her eyes started to water.
"YOu want this.You wouldn't have been here if you didn't want it" he
wrestled with his pants, Deb's knees shaking from the cold
He held the knife to her throat with one hand,his other hand covering
her eyes.Deb bit her lip so hard she tasted blood on her tongue.A
whimper escaped .
"I could kill you.But you're just too beautiful.Death would only make
you more beautiful" he rambled
these tears i've cried
i've cried 1000 oceans
and if i'm. floating.
in the darkness
Deb looked around the room, the faces stained with tears."So I ran"
Deb bit her bottom lip and caught Carter's eye.He nodded.
"I ran to his door step." Deb said sadly,tears running down her
cheeks."At first he wanted to hug me,Carter that is.but you
know..,after that happens, any sort of touch from a man..I screamed"
He looked away,tears collecting in his eyes.
"And I put it away.In the back of my head" Deb sank into the
chair,"because I'm a doctor,because I came from a rich family,because
I'm an asian woman..because I'm the one who didn't scream."
well, i can't believe that i would kep.
keep you from flying
and i will cry 1000 more if that's
what it takes to sail you home
sail you home sail you home
"Keeping it to myself was the hardest thing I ever did.But sharing it
with you, you've all been there,helps alittle.And I was supposed to
help you" Deb smiled shakily
Maya Angelou - American poet
If you're gonna tell a story, you have to grow into the head of the
rapist as well as the raped." - Tori, Chicago Sun Times, July 17, 1998
these tears i've cried
i've cried 1000 oceans
and if it seems i'm. floating.
in the darkness
*ring*
*ring*
*ring*
"What??"
"Good morning Jing Mei"
"Shit" Deb muttered,struggling to sit up
"nice to talk to you,too"
"Sorry" Deb groaned,"Good morning Mummy"
"Will you be there for dinner tonight?"
She sighed loudly
"Jing Mei?"
"I'll try" Deb answered
well, i can't believe that i would kep.
keep you from flying
and i would cry 1000 more if that's
what it takes to sail you home
sail you home sail you home
**at the hospital**
"MALIKKKKKK" Carter's muffled yelling barely escaped the exam room
doorway
Dave snickered
"If it's so funny, go give Dr Carter a hand Dr Malucci" Kerry called
over her shoulder
"Do I have to?"
"MALUCCI!"
"Going" Dave groaned
************************
"What happened?" Deb dumped her stuff on the couch and crouched down
to her knees
Carter shook his head and removed the ice from the side of his
face."This crazy patient..."
"Let me see" Deb touched his face lightly,"Come on"
He groaned,"Deb...."
"No fracture" Deb smirked
"I know that" Carter laughed
i'm aware what the rules are
but you know that i will run
you know that i will follow you
over silbury hill through the solar field
you know that i wil follow you
"She's in restraints"Kerry looked at the clock,"Where are you people?"
"Psych?"
Carter nodded
"I've got to run" Deb smiled
"Lucky you" Carter teased
Deb nodded," Doesn't get better than dinner with the Chens"
"Dinner with the Carters"
and if i find you. will you. still remember
playing at trains
or does this little blue ball
just fade away
"Call me when you get there" Carter tied the scarf around his neck
Deb nodded,buttoning her jacket,"Why?"
"Humor me"
Shelaughed,."I shall humor you and spend the rest of the night
fighing off rumors"
"They haven't given up?" Carter pulled his hat farther over his ears
"Given up on my Prince Charming being Chinese.At this point" Deb
jingled the keys in her hand,"Any rich man would do"
"Oh" Carter blushed
"Yeah" Deb chuckled akwardly."I'll see you"
"Bye"
Deb slipped into her car and drove away
**************************************************
"Dammnit" Deb kicked the tire,"Stupid stupid car" she plopped down on
the curb and held her head in her hands,watching the cars drive by.
over silbury hill through the solar field
you know that i will follow you.
i'm aware what the rules are
but you know that i will run
you know that i will follow you
She walked briskly through the dark streets,her heart racing.Deb ran
over medical terms, diseases, treatments,anything to keep her mind
off the growing anxiety.
"Get down bitch. Get down and shut up" a rough voice hissed behnd
her.
Deb took a deep breath and kept walking
"Get down!"
Quivering,Deb sunk down on her knees.
"Not here"a sharp object made Deb spring back up.
*Mummy's eyeing the clock,telling everyone to go ahead and eat,that
I'll be there soon" her eyes started to water.
"YOu want this.You wouldn't have been here if you didn't want it" he
wrestled with his pants, Deb's knees shaking from the cold
He held the knife to her throat with one hand,his other hand covering
her eyes.Deb bit her lip so hard she tasted blood on her tongue.A
whimper escaped .
"I could kill you.But you're just too beautiful.Death would only make
you more beautiful" he rambled
these tears i've cried
i've cried 1000 oceans
and if i'm. floating.
in the darkness
Deb looked around the room, the faces stained with tears."So I ran"
Deb bit her bottom lip and caught Carter's eye.He nodded.
"I ran to his door step." Deb said sadly,tears running down her
cheeks."At first he wanted to hug me,Carter that is.but you
know..,after that happens, any sort of touch from a man..I screamed"
He looked away,tears collecting in his eyes.
"And I put it away.In the back of my head" Deb sank into the
chair,"because I'm a doctor,because I came from a rich family,because
I'm an asian woman..because I'm the one who didn't scream."
well, i can't believe that i would kep.
keep you from flying
and i will cry 1000 more if that's
what it takes to sail you home
sail you home sail you home
"Keeping it to myself was the hardest thing I ever did.But sharing it
with you, you've all been there,helps alittle.And I was supposed to
help you" Deb smiled shakily