Begging for Forgiveness
Note: Rushed first part
I heard echoes in the night. Horrible, long, eerie echoes. Echoes which reminded me of how horribly stupid I am. Echoes of the birds. No, I may never understand the birds and the bees talk, or WHY they named it that certain phrase... But I will always have a terrible feeling inside of me, that's absolutely for sure.
I am Tai, yes, I am in high school. I now get some of the most awesome grades to be found, and one of the fastest (if not) runners in the whole of school. Never will I get a haircut (even if I can afford one.. unless it is to look like myself, like now). I'm in the Soccer team, most valuble player. Me? Wearing that thin, jacket with the yellow line. The blue one. Davis gave me back my googles, as he claims he has no more need for it. It's beside me on my desktop, followed by my picture .... of her.
Her. Sora, the only one I love. But no,... You see, this is the horrible feeling inside of me. The guilt that I'll never be with her again. I've grown used to it, but it still hurts. Long ago, Sora and I had a huge fight. We didn't forgive each other. And I only tried once, couple months ago. Failed. I asked her out, but she prefered Matt's concert. DANG! This world sometimes is not enough. I always wondered how James Bond movies get their titles.
I lay in bed, yep, 5:00 am. I usually get up this time on Tuesday's. Uh-huh. Tuesday is when all the girls try to bombard me and ask me to go out. I always say no... why bother? Oh well, girls, I'll never get them anyways.
"Hey Tai, I'm hungry, what's for breakfast?". Sigh, the cheery voice of Agumon who never seemed tired anymore. I sat up in bed, rubbed my eyes and looked down at my buddy in orange.... er, who IS orange I mean.
"I dunno, at 5 in the morning?... oh, that's right, my parents both went to work early, gotta catch a bus today. Well, go wake up Kari and Gatomon. *Sigh*... wait, Kari's at T.K's for his birthday party sleepover, never mind. Hey, cool, guess the house is to me, you, and Meeko (the cat). Well, go to the kitchen and grab some bread and ham from the fridge. I gotta make breakfast seeing as mini-me is too lazy to go cook anything for himself." I laughed and got out of bed to my drawer. Agumon followed me, I couldn't see him, but I heard his humph noise. Probably crossed his arms, darn rex.
"Well Mr.Tai Kamiya, I just happen to be shorter than the stove itself, now if I did digivolve anyways, I would crack the ceiling with my head and I'd be seeing a lady about 5 floors up. So I think you should cook. Oh, and don't burn anything, it really smells and tastes really awkward." Boss me around huh? Geez, he's right though about his heights. I dressed up and went into the kitchen and grabbed the bread and ham (seeing as a certain SOMEBODY was being a lazy snot again.). I grabbed my lunch money for today and stuffed it in my jeans while at it.
"Hey Tai... um... this may seem like a horribly bad time to ask.. but I've noticed something. Remember how I've said you've grown up before?" No, kidding, really Sherlock?
"Yes, what about it?" Oh no, I knew where THIS was coming to...
"Um, do you love Sora still? Even after what she has done?". AH! Almost dropped a slcie of ham onto the ground.. no wait, I did. I bent over to pick it up, while looking at Agumon straight in the nose.
"Yes, now will you get off my back about it?" Geez, he ALWAYS bugs me like that, and now I gave an answer, will he leave me al-
"But Tai, WHY? W-h-y... Why do you still like her after this.. this.. unforgiveness? She forgave you, she moved on, but why do you still like her? She's gone to Matt! Why don't you go with your other good pal, Jennifer? Huh?"
"Look Agumon, love is a weird thing you mon's don't appear to get. You see, I still love Sora, despite all the facts that's surrounded me the last past years siince that big fight. I can't go back in time and redo it. Look, it's done between me and her... but I'm not done. She's done. You see, I will always like her. Jennifer is a mere friend compared to Sora." Agumon grinned.
"That's not how it seems to me though Tai. Jennifer means ALOT to you, even if you-"
"Look, sorry to say, but PLEASE shut up? I'm busy preparing your early morning breakfast. Now if you will be kind as to so let me finish my ham sandwiches.... HEY! No eating scraps on the floor or it's particles." Agumon humphed and marched reluctently to a dining chair and slumped into it. He argued more often, life...
Agumon walked behind me as we went into Family Video for my part time job as a young person on Saturday's and Sunday's and occasional holidays. Agumon tended behind the corner as a midget handing me things. A cool afternoon. Busy as usual with five other people working there. Sarah and Louis in the back, Tanya and Alisha putting stuff back on the shelves, and Barton at the counter with me. And his midget "Chumon.". Barton was a Digidestined once around the world in Russia or somewhere, I forgot.
DING! The sound of the door ringing. I was on the other side of the cunter to notice anyone's face coming in. Barton spoke in his most friendliest voice. Which meant a hot girl was here... hey, Barton knew a girl if he knew, and if he saw one, he'd speak pretty high pitched. Once I thought he was a five year old.
"Hey Jen, lookin for Tai?" Uh-oh, Jen? Not now.. I don't want to talk to her now. Especially after the morning topic of Jen with Agu this morning! ARGH! Notice how everything happens too fast, at the wrong place, wrong date, wrong time? I notice it does!
Jen walked up to the counter and purposely spilt her purse onto the counter with a grin. She expected me to pick it up, so why not? I bent down to pick it up.
"Hi Tai... what's up?" I stood up with her belongings and gave it to her as she stuffed and jammed it with some luck back into her purple, fuzzy purse.
"Nothin much, same old, same old. Say, renting a movie? I suggest The Matrix or Twin Dragons or Who am I? or X-Men, or-" I stopped. Too much talk would confuzzle me.
"Hmm... Is Charlie's Angel's a good movie? My friend said it's horrible, but whatever you say Tai makes a difference, I guess I just have the same movie tastes." I swear I felt a chill go up my back. Jennifer acted really strange, was Agumon right? Hope not.. She was acting as if she was my... my girlfriend? No.. but then, Sora isn't.. I consider her though.. I shrugged and saw her look shimmer to a big, BIG grin.
"Um, you BUSY tonight?" AH!!!! Why ask this? You KNOW I don't bother to go... but she's my good friend, I can't reject..
"Yes, I'm busy".. Dang, good ol' brain memory cells. "Sorry.. but Jennifer, I-.." I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I was still Tai, wasn't I? Hee, that's funny. Oh, yeah, back to reality. Dang, okay, just wait... uh.... excuse, excuse.
"Oh, I see, don't like me you stupid pig!" she stormed out....
"Oh boy, Tai blew her up to da roof yet again!" Barton said. I shrugged as a customer came up to the counter, I was too busy to notice who it was. I looked at Barton and smiled.
"Well, geez, ya know. Jen expects me to be her boyfriend or something, I mean, she's only my good pal... It's not like I LIKE LIKE her." I said. Agumon gave me the video games and movies for the customer, I set them into the boxes and told the customers to meet me on the other side. Barton laughed as he elbowed me.
"Oh, yeah right Tai, you lova bug. Your the most hottest boy at your school! That Yamoto-"
"Matt" I corrected him.
"Yeah, well, Matt, whatever. He's second. It really outta be me, besides, I have BIG HONKIN MUSCLES THE SIZE OF RUSSIA!" Barton has real lame things he talks about. I felt the customer pay for their games and movies and left in a bustle. I looked back and only saw a purple bunny hugged person run. The customer.
"Well, I like her as a friend, okay? Can we finally lay off Tai Kamiya? ME? I like someone else." Barton smirked and spat.
"Yeah. Ha, that'd be funny, it's Yamato's gal buddy. WHOO HOO! That'd be an awesome laugh dude! Oh! Uh, Hi miss.". I walked back to my place and saw another customer walk in. Sigh, same old, same old.
Next week, I was back at Family Video, though half the workers left on vaction, so only Louis, Alisha, and I were left... oh, and Agu buddy. I sighed and sat in a nice new black chair that Louis bought for us. He decided to see if this had a hard butt seat so he could decide wether to buy it for home or not.
I leaned back and starred upwards. My life was fine... besides minor facts, fine. But what if you could be perfect? A perfect couple, a perfect nobody, a perfect love... the old times. Now? No couple, it's gone! I'm a perfect girl magnet. I don't have a perfect love no more.. Why did Sora have to not forgive me? Tell me sooner? Wait, why didn't I say it? OH, I like blaming things on others I guess... I suck at this junk.
I turned around and sat backwards in the chair, starring at the fuzzy green carpet. I guess that was pretty strange, but love's a fickle thing you can't shrug off as easily as losing a Stanley cup game. Boy, I'd trade that cup anyday for my gal. Oh... it is weird. I love someone who doesn't like me back because of a horrid fight and is now hanging out and dating my ex-best friend. You could say I have a different group of friends now. I don't hang out with the Digidestined as much as I used to. Izzy though hangs out with me, one of my good friends. He plays lots of sports too.
But why did Sora have to do that? It just shatters my inner being to think of it. Oh, if I had the chance to say I'm sorry, to clear it up so we could be a couple again, I'd do it, I'd absolutely would. That old Crest of Courage may not be with me no more, but I'll always have courage inside of me... and that's for sure, all the way.
"Hi." A low voice, I could've looked if I wanted to, but I didn't want to just yet. Okay, maybe the carpet was getting all too fuzzy. Agumon sat in a corner reading a novel?!?!?!? Okay, bizzare. I looked up and saw in the New Movie Rentals corner... them. It made me feel twisty, sick, and all weird inside. It was them. Matt and Sora. The now 'perfect couple'. Oh... beside each other, Sora snuggling onto Matt's shoulder in that great coat, ARMS IN ARMS! I couldn't bear it, but I couldn't become a fired member because I went over there and beat up a guy stealing my girlfriend. Nope, not just yet.
I stood up and sat back in the chair, the proper way and kicked Agumon back to reality. A surprised yelp caught the attention of Alisha and the few customers... especially Matt and Sora. I didn't really turn my head that way.. okay, I did. Call me a liar. But I turned away instantly back to the ground, looking at the fuzzy flooring. Agumon kicked me back in anger.
"You made me lose my page! You know how awesome Ender's Game is?" he said enraged. I smiled. This was awfully funny for a digimon to be defending a book. But an awesome book.
"Sorry, and yes, it's and awesome book. Can't wait for the next part, if the author decides to make anymore. But you better shut ya mouth,.. your attracting attention." Agumon nodded and resumed reading his book. I jumped from the tap tap on the counter. I turned to see Matt and Sora, Sora cuddled in Matt's arm glowing with happiness. It made me feel like puking.
"Oh.. uh, hi guys." I looked down at their rentals, looking away from the smiles of certainly happy people, not me. YUCK! Who watches this stuff? Come on, watch the Matrix or X-men, geez...... hey, maybe watching the Sixth Sense would be good.... oh, I remember... Sora never watched the Matrix. I promised myself one day we'd watch it in my living room, with the digimon, and the pet cat. She'd snuggle up and I'd comfort her.... you know, not sickly.. but just let her rest on me... Dang you Matt.
"Um... how's your... d-d-day?" I felt weary around those two.. why can't I talk to her? ALONE? Should I ask... wait, what am I talking about? Oh yes.. I wanted to ask her about that thing. Whether we can go to the movies.. without Matt for once... As I prepared the videos, and about to hand them back, Sora dropped her purse. Deja Vu. Matt was about to bend down and pick up, but stopped him and told him to go to the car, he smiled.
"Thanks pal." he went out. Some pal I said to myself as I bent down. I looked at her, she seemed happy, couldn't be more cheery. I sighed and looked down at the objects to pick up. I guess Sora noticed me and stopped picking up stuff.
"Um, Tai? Is something wrong?" I stopped and looked at her. Maybe it was because my face looked like a real depressed idiot? I dunno. I shrugged.
"Um, no, nothing really." YES! Perfect moment.. time to ask.. oh gosh, how nervous I was. I opened my mouth, nothing.. TRY AGAIN! So I did...
"Um, Sora... d-d-d-do you want to go to the movies with me on Sunday? Er, tomorrow? I can get a day off..." she seemed surprised. I see why, current boyfriend sees girlfriend with other boy, bashes guts out of 'stealer'. Hmm, nope, nothin to worry bout.
"Well, can Matt come? I was thinking of spending the day with Matt tomorrow." Drats.
"Um... well, does Matt have to come... I just wanted to talk to you about.. uh... Beethoven!" Hey, I couldn't think. I'm talking to a girl here... ARGH! Girls don't understand boy things. Sora shrugged.
"Sure..... but Matt... well, I guess you and I haven't been talking alot."
I did a quick smile, but it faded too soon. I barely did any smiling anymore... not as big and bright as I used to. I stood up and watched as she faded outside, rushing to her "boyfriend". I stood up.
"Oh Sora... if ONLY you knew...." I said, I shook my head in dismay and walked to the counter.
Sunday. A day of dread for me. I HAD to ask her important questions before I could really mess up our "friendship". I mean, I am never going to admit I love her if ... if the questions have those answers.... Oh man. It was only 7:30 am too. What a day. I leaned to my side and reached my hand onto the end table's drawer. I pulled it open and did a rare smile. My discman and my "Spirutal Machines" cd by "Our Lady Peace.". I bought it because, not only was Our Lady Peace a kick butt group with awesome songs... but also because one song stuck out. Er, two. One of them was my favorite song by Our Lady Peace "In Repair." Another one just stuck out to him... And wait, THIS is my favorite Our Lady Peace song. I quickly shut the drawer and sat back in my bed. Carefully placing the headphones to my ears, I put in the cd and left the cd case on my drawer top. Changing the song to my favorite song. Ah, started playing.
How many times have you been pushed around?
Is anybody there, does anybody Ca-a-are?
And how many times have your friends let you down?
Is anybody there, does anybody sta-a-are?
And how many times have your friends let you down?
Too many, I thought. Just too many times. Sora gone for Matt, Matt gone for Sora, I wish to have gone for Sora, but no.... I continued laying in bed, and decided to turn on my cellphone and waste batteries so I could use the newly charged cellphone to phone up people. I layed back and listened some more, staring at the little stuff in the ceiling.
Just open up your heart
Just open up your mi-i-ind
I don't know about that. I sighed and turned off my discman. I picked up my cellphone and made a request to the music station to play Life by Our Lady Peace for me. I just said "Please play Life by Our Lady Peace.. Thanks, from Tai". I flipped on the tv and left my cellphone to waste batteries so I could charge it up again.
And there we have it, my speech and my video. Starting out with Raine and that symbol on his head... Life. Yep. He sang, the exact phrases I heard. Then it got to the part right after when I turned off my discman.
And how many times has your faith slipped away?
IS Anbody safe, does anybody pra-a-ay?
Certainly. My faith slipped a dozen times after listening to the time Sora rejected my giving in. Of course, though I always pray that she'd be by my side again one day. I mean, one can really never stop what they started, eh?
Oh dang! I slapped my head. So stupid! I was supposed to cook breakfast in bed for mom and dad's anniversery! Oh, gosh! I looked at the screen and thanked myself for leaving a blank tape inside. Too good luck there. I searched for the remote and told it to tape. Thanks to high technology, I told it to stop taping in a couple minutes.
Whew!
I waited at the front of the theatre. This theatre was inside a mall. Why? So I could escape in time if Sora said the wrong stuff. But I leaned againest the wall, near the entrance. I wore my sport jacket and my jeans. Agumon stayed at home with Kari to watch a all day a thon with T.K and Patamon (cute kids.).
I heard people, lots of teens my age with their friends going to watch a movie. Oops. Forgot. I was so washedup with the Sora business, what movie were we going to watch? Well, I'll get some popcorn and drinks while watching too, but what movie?
Dang, dunno. K, quick survey from bypassers. If not, I'll ask Sora. First guy was a little midget. I tapped his shoulder. He looked at me.
"Yo! WAZZUP! Whoa! Your not Chris! Hey! Whad ya think ya doin then? Planting a bug on me? Look, me a midget, but me a strong wrestlin pro! Don't mess with me kid!". I peered behind me to the movie selections and turned to the midget. He stripped off his motorcycle jacket and had a green tank top on. He also had a cigar in his mouth and both fists up.
"Um, which movie do you suggest?"
"Huh? That all kid? Outta those four over there, I'd say Evolution. Who wants to see 102 Dalmations, Unbreaable, or East faces Me? Or whatever the heck. GOTTA GO!" he picked up his jacket and left. I sighed and laughed.
Next person turned out to be Izzy. He said either Evolution or Unbreakable (big Bruce Willis fan). The other people said Evolution. So I think Evolution was up. By the time Sora got here, was only a minute after the last survey person.
"Hey Tai, what movie did you want to see?" she was happy. I knew why. I only shrugged. Guess she mistook a cold shoulder. But I responded back. You see, most people misunderstand other people ALOT.
"Um, wanna see Evolution?" Sora shrugged, but gave a smaller smile. I didn't smile back, okay, a hlaf-smile, but it faded soon. We walked by each other towards the ticket booth, I bought the two tickets, while Sora ventured to the food. I kinda found it funny.
Well, we got into our seats 10 minutes early. Near the back. Sora sat on the inside, I sat on the edge of the row of back seats. About 5 rows from the back. Trust me, huge place. I didn't want any snacks. My stomach ached for the truth. I was too scared to let it out and ask. BUT I HAD TO! It was killing me, it was itching me, did she.... did he... oh gosh Tai, let it out. Just ask- wait, if you break down and cry in the middle of the movie, I'll be one embarassed person at school.
"Um, Hey S-Sora.. I, uh, I have some, uh, questions to ask you.. guh, uh... well two of them." She looked at me. I think she thinks I'm a psycho. But she still answered me back with a "yes, go on.." face. I took in a deep breath and took out a lot of courage.
"Well... sigh... d-d-d-do... doyoulikeMatt? Um, sorry, I mean, um... do you .. like as in.. like like like... Matt?" I just couldn't bring out the l word. THE l word. Too stressful. Sora shrugged and smiled, looking back at the blank screen as it started to fade to the shadow black colour. The movie was going to start, whoopee. People won't see me then.
"Yes... he's so cute. His hair, his eyes, he's the best all star rockster around!" she sounded.. so.. so proud, filled with pride syaing that very phrase. I was just broken then, but I knew I had to ask my next question, even though I knew the answer.
"Um, does he like.. like... you back?" It was too sad sounding. Like I was giving in to something. But I wasn't really, well, actually... maybe I was. No. I just wanted to see Sora happy. And she was happy. But it just didn't seem right. I wasnted her to be happy, of course... but with me... but that's fine. Matt will take... Ma- I can't SAY HIS STUPID NAME!
"Well, yes Tai... Tai, are you okay? What's wrong? Are you crying?" I was, I admit. My eyes were probably red. I stood up, hearing complaints from the back. So I slipped into the walkway and looked back at Sora, well, not really. My head was bent down, too scared to face her, too embarassed to.
She was on the edge of her seat, staring at me. Looking like a poor, stupid, big, baby in the asile. I turned to the door, but before walking away, I said, sniveling....
"S-sora.... I gotta go somewhere... um, I forgot.. s-s-sorry to leave early..." and with that, I walked away. Sora just stayed there, in shock.
Outside, I saw Agumon waiting for me. He got off his hind from the all day a thon to accompany me... to where I was going to. I looked at him, he looked at me. We nodded, and walked away into the park.....
Well, I'll make it a two parter. I haven't been writing for a while because of my laziness, and I was reading other stories. I still find it sick of how Taito is probably the most popular stories here, besides Takari which is okay. I DEMAND TAIORA!
Ice Wolf17
Note: Rushed first part
I heard echoes in the night. Horrible, long, eerie echoes. Echoes which reminded me of how horribly stupid I am. Echoes of the birds. No, I may never understand the birds and the bees talk, or WHY they named it that certain phrase... But I will always have a terrible feeling inside of me, that's absolutely for sure.
I am Tai, yes, I am in high school. I now get some of the most awesome grades to be found, and one of the fastest (if not) runners in the whole of school. Never will I get a haircut (even if I can afford one.. unless it is to look like myself, like now). I'm in the Soccer team, most valuble player. Me? Wearing that thin, jacket with the yellow line. The blue one. Davis gave me back my googles, as he claims he has no more need for it. It's beside me on my desktop, followed by my picture .... of her.
Her. Sora, the only one I love. But no,... You see, this is the horrible feeling inside of me. The guilt that I'll never be with her again. I've grown used to it, but it still hurts. Long ago, Sora and I had a huge fight. We didn't forgive each other. And I only tried once, couple months ago. Failed. I asked her out, but she prefered Matt's concert. DANG! This world sometimes is not enough. I always wondered how James Bond movies get their titles.
I lay in bed, yep, 5:00 am. I usually get up this time on Tuesday's. Uh-huh. Tuesday is when all the girls try to bombard me and ask me to go out. I always say no... why bother? Oh well, girls, I'll never get them anyways.
"Hey Tai, I'm hungry, what's for breakfast?". Sigh, the cheery voice of Agumon who never seemed tired anymore. I sat up in bed, rubbed my eyes and looked down at my buddy in orange.... er, who IS orange I mean.
"I dunno, at 5 in the morning?... oh, that's right, my parents both went to work early, gotta catch a bus today. Well, go wake up Kari and Gatomon. *Sigh*... wait, Kari's at T.K's for his birthday party sleepover, never mind. Hey, cool, guess the house is to me, you, and Meeko (the cat). Well, go to the kitchen and grab some bread and ham from the fridge. I gotta make breakfast seeing as mini-me is too lazy to go cook anything for himself." I laughed and got out of bed to my drawer. Agumon followed me, I couldn't see him, but I heard his humph noise. Probably crossed his arms, darn rex.
"Well Mr.Tai Kamiya, I just happen to be shorter than the stove itself, now if I did digivolve anyways, I would crack the ceiling with my head and I'd be seeing a lady about 5 floors up. So I think you should cook. Oh, and don't burn anything, it really smells and tastes really awkward." Boss me around huh? Geez, he's right though about his heights. I dressed up and went into the kitchen and grabbed the bread and ham (seeing as a certain SOMEBODY was being a lazy snot again.). I grabbed my lunch money for today and stuffed it in my jeans while at it.
"Hey Tai... um... this may seem like a horribly bad time to ask.. but I've noticed something. Remember how I've said you've grown up before?" No, kidding, really Sherlock?
"Yes, what about it?" Oh no, I knew where THIS was coming to...
"Um, do you love Sora still? Even after what she has done?". AH! Almost dropped a slcie of ham onto the ground.. no wait, I did. I bent over to pick it up, while looking at Agumon straight in the nose.
"Yes, now will you get off my back about it?" Geez, he ALWAYS bugs me like that, and now I gave an answer, will he leave me al-
"But Tai, WHY? W-h-y... Why do you still like her after this.. this.. unforgiveness? She forgave you, she moved on, but why do you still like her? She's gone to Matt! Why don't you go with your other good pal, Jennifer? Huh?"
"Look Agumon, love is a weird thing you mon's don't appear to get. You see, I still love Sora, despite all the facts that's surrounded me the last past years siince that big fight. I can't go back in time and redo it. Look, it's done between me and her... but I'm not done. She's done. You see, I will always like her. Jennifer is a mere friend compared to Sora." Agumon grinned.
"That's not how it seems to me though Tai. Jennifer means ALOT to you, even if you-"
"Look, sorry to say, but PLEASE shut up? I'm busy preparing your early morning breakfast. Now if you will be kind as to so let me finish my ham sandwiches.... HEY! No eating scraps on the floor or it's particles." Agumon humphed and marched reluctently to a dining chair and slumped into it. He argued more often, life...
Agumon walked behind me as we went into Family Video for my part time job as a young person on Saturday's and Sunday's and occasional holidays. Agumon tended behind the corner as a midget handing me things. A cool afternoon. Busy as usual with five other people working there. Sarah and Louis in the back, Tanya and Alisha putting stuff back on the shelves, and Barton at the counter with me. And his midget "Chumon.". Barton was a Digidestined once around the world in Russia or somewhere, I forgot.
DING! The sound of the door ringing. I was on the other side of the cunter to notice anyone's face coming in. Barton spoke in his most friendliest voice. Which meant a hot girl was here... hey, Barton knew a girl if he knew, and if he saw one, he'd speak pretty high pitched. Once I thought he was a five year old.
"Hey Jen, lookin for Tai?" Uh-oh, Jen? Not now.. I don't want to talk to her now. Especially after the morning topic of Jen with Agu this morning! ARGH! Notice how everything happens too fast, at the wrong place, wrong date, wrong time? I notice it does!
Jen walked up to the counter and purposely spilt her purse onto the counter with a grin. She expected me to pick it up, so why not? I bent down to pick it up.
"Hi Tai... what's up?" I stood up with her belongings and gave it to her as she stuffed and jammed it with some luck back into her purple, fuzzy purse.
"Nothin much, same old, same old. Say, renting a movie? I suggest The Matrix or Twin Dragons or Who am I? or X-Men, or-" I stopped. Too much talk would confuzzle me.
"Hmm... Is Charlie's Angel's a good movie? My friend said it's horrible, but whatever you say Tai makes a difference, I guess I just have the same movie tastes." I swear I felt a chill go up my back. Jennifer acted really strange, was Agumon right? Hope not.. She was acting as if she was my... my girlfriend? No.. but then, Sora isn't.. I consider her though.. I shrugged and saw her look shimmer to a big, BIG grin.
"Um, you BUSY tonight?" AH!!!! Why ask this? You KNOW I don't bother to go... but she's my good friend, I can't reject..
"Yes, I'm busy".. Dang, good ol' brain memory cells. "Sorry.. but Jennifer, I-.." I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I was still Tai, wasn't I? Hee, that's funny. Oh, yeah, back to reality. Dang, okay, just wait... uh.... excuse, excuse.
"Oh, I see, don't like me you stupid pig!" she stormed out....
"Oh boy, Tai blew her up to da roof yet again!" Barton said. I shrugged as a customer came up to the counter, I was too busy to notice who it was. I looked at Barton and smiled.
"Well, geez, ya know. Jen expects me to be her boyfriend or something, I mean, she's only my good pal... It's not like I LIKE LIKE her." I said. Agumon gave me the video games and movies for the customer, I set them into the boxes and told the customers to meet me on the other side. Barton laughed as he elbowed me.
"Oh, yeah right Tai, you lova bug. Your the most hottest boy at your school! That Yamoto-"
"Matt" I corrected him.
"Yeah, well, Matt, whatever. He's second. It really outta be me, besides, I have BIG HONKIN MUSCLES THE SIZE OF RUSSIA!" Barton has real lame things he talks about. I felt the customer pay for their games and movies and left in a bustle. I looked back and only saw a purple bunny hugged person run. The customer.
"Well, I like her as a friend, okay? Can we finally lay off Tai Kamiya? ME? I like someone else." Barton smirked and spat.
"Yeah. Ha, that'd be funny, it's Yamato's gal buddy. WHOO HOO! That'd be an awesome laugh dude! Oh! Uh, Hi miss.". I walked back to my place and saw another customer walk in. Sigh, same old, same old.
Next week, I was back at Family Video, though half the workers left on vaction, so only Louis, Alisha, and I were left... oh, and Agu buddy. I sighed and sat in a nice new black chair that Louis bought for us. He decided to see if this had a hard butt seat so he could decide wether to buy it for home or not.
I leaned back and starred upwards. My life was fine... besides minor facts, fine. But what if you could be perfect? A perfect couple, a perfect nobody, a perfect love... the old times. Now? No couple, it's gone! I'm a perfect girl magnet. I don't have a perfect love no more.. Why did Sora have to not forgive me? Tell me sooner? Wait, why didn't I say it? OH, I like blaming things on others I guess... I suck at this junk.
I turned around and sat backwards in the chair, starring at the fuzzy green carpet. I guess that was pretty strange, but love's a fickle thing you can't shrug off as easily as losing a Stanley cup game. Boy, I'd trade that cup anyday for my gal. Oh... it is weird. I love someone who doesn't like me back because of a horrid fight and is now hanging out and dating my ex-best friend. You could say I have a different group of friends now. I don't hang out with the Digidestined as much as I used to. Izzy though hangs out with me, one of my good friends. He plays lots of sports too.
But why did Sora have to do that? It just shatters my inner being to think of it. Oh, if I had the chance to say I'm sorry, to clear it up so we could be a couple again, I'd do it, I'd absolutely would. That old Crest of Courage may not be with me no more, but I'll always have courage inside of me... and that's for sure, all the way.
"Hi." A low voice, I could've looked if I wanted to, but I didn't want to just yet. Okay, maybe the carpet was getting all too fuzzy. Agumon sat in a corner reading a novel?!?!?!? Okay, bizzare. I looked up and saw in the New Movie Rentals corner... them. It made me feel twisty, sick, and all weird inside. It was them. Matt and Sora. The now 'perfect couple'. Oh... beside each other, Sora snuggling onto Matt's shoulder in that great coat, ARMS IN ARMS! I couldn't bear it, but I couldn't become a fired member because I went over there and beat up a guy stealing my girlfriend. Nope, not just yet.
I stood up and sat back in the chair, the proper way and kicked Agumon back to reality. A surprised yelp caught the attention of Alisha and the few customers... especially Matt and Sora. I didn't really turn my head that way.. okay, I did. Call me a liar. But I turned away instantly back to the ground, looking at the fuzzy flooring. Agumon kicked me back in anger.
"You made me lose my page! You know how awesome Ender's Game is?" he said enraged. I smiled. This was awfully funny for a digimon to be defending a book. But an awesome book.
"Sorry, and yes, it's and awesome book. Can't wait for the next part, if the author decides to make anymore. But you better shut ya mouth,.. your attracting attention." Agumon nodded and resumed reading his book. I jumped from the tap tap on the counter. I turned to see Matt and Sora, Sora cuddled in Matt's arm glowing with happiness. It made me feel like puking.
"Oh.. uh, hi guys." I looked down at their rentals, looking away from the smiles of certainly happy people, not me. YUCK! Who watches this stuff? Come on, watch the Matrix or X-men, geez...... hey, maybe watching the Sixth Sense would be good.... oh, I remember... Sora never watched the Matrix. I promised myself one day we'd watch it in my living room, with the digimon, and the pet cat. She'd snuggle up and I'd comfort her.... you know, not sickly.. but just let her rest on me... Dang you Matt.
"Um... how's your... d-d-day?" I felt weary around those two.. why can't I talk to her? ALONE? Should I ask... wait, what am I talking about? Oh yes.. I wanted to ask her about that thing. Whether we can go to the movies.. without Matt for once... As I prepared the videos, and about to hand them back, Sora dropped her purse. Deja Vu. Matt was about to bend down and pick up, but stopped him and told him to go to the car, he smiled.
"Thanks pal." he went out. Some pal I said to myself as I bent down. I looked at her, she seemed happy, couldn't be more cheery. I sighed and looked down at the objects to pick up. I guess Sora noticed me and stopped picking up stuff.
"Um, Tai? Is something wrong?" I stopped and looked at her. Maybe it was because my face looked like a real depressed idiot? I dunno. I shrugged.
"Um, no, nothing really." YES! Perfect moment.. time to ask.. oh gosh, how nervous I was. I opened my mouth, nothing.. TRY AGAIN! So I did...
"Um, Sora... d-d-d-do you want to go to the movies with me on Sunday? Er, tomorrow? I can get a day off..." she seemed surprised. I see why, current boyfriend sees girlfriend with other boy, bashes guts out of 'stealer'. Hmm, nope, nothin to worry bout.
"Well, can Matt come? I was thinking of spending the day with Matt tomorrow." Drats.
"Um... well, does Matt have to come... I just wanted to talk to you about.. uh... Beethoven!" Hey, I couldn't think. I'm talking to a girl here... ARGH! Girls don't understand boy things. Sora shrugged.
"Sure..... but Matt... well, I guess you and I haven't been talking alot."
I did a quick smile, but it faded too soon. I barely did any smiling anymore... not as big and bright as I used to. I stood up and watched as she faded outside, rushing to her "boyfriend". I stood up.
"Oh Sora... if ONLY you knew...." I said, I shook my head in dismay and walked to the counter.
Sunday. A day of dread for me. I HAD to ask her important questions before I could really mess up our "friendship". I mean, I am never going to admit I love her if ... if the questions have those answers.... Oh man. It was only 7:30 am too. What a day. I leaned to my side and reached my hand onto the end table's drawer. I pulled it open and did a rare smile. My discman and my "Spirutal Machines" cd by "Our Lady Peace.". I bought it because, not only was Our Lady Peace a kick butt group with awesome songs... but also because one song stuck out. Er, two. One of them was my favorite song by Our Lady Peace "In Repair." Another one just stuck out to him... And wait, THIS is my favorite Our Lady Peace song. I quickly shut the drawer and sat back in my bed. Carefully placing the headphones to my ears, I put in the cd and left the cd case on my drawer top. Changing the song to my favorite song. Ah, started playing.
How many times have you been pushed around?
Is anybody there, does anybody Ca-a-are?
And how many times have your friends let you down?
Is anybody there, does anybody sta-a-are?
And how many times have your friends let you down?
Too many, I thought. Just too many times. Sora gone for Matt, Matt gone for Sora, I wish to have gone for Sora, but no.... I continued laying in bed, and decided to turn on my cellphone and waste batteries so I could use the newly charged cellphone to phone up people. I layed back and listened some more, staring at the little stuff in the ceiling.
Just open up your heart
Just open up your mi-i-ind
I don't know about that. I sighed and turned off my discman. I picked up my cellphone and made a request to the music station to play Life by Our Lady Peace for me. I just said "Please play Life by Our Lady Peace.. Thanks, from Tai". I flipped on the tv and left my cellphone to waste batteries so I could charge it up again.
And there we have it, my speech and my video. Starting out with Raine and that symbol on his head... Life. Yep. He sang, the exact phrases I heard. Then it got to the part right after when I turned off my discman.
And how many times has your faith slipped away?
IS Anbody safe, does anybody pra-a-ay?
Certainly. My faith slipped a dozen times after listening to the time Sora rejected my giving in. Of course, though I always pray that she'd be by my side again one day. I mean, one can really never stop what they started, eh?
Oh dang! I slapped my head. So stupid! I was supposed to cook breakfast in bed for mom and dad's anniversery! Oh, gosh! I looked at the screen and thanked myself for leaving a blank tape inside. Too good luck there. I searched for the remote and told it to tape. Thanks to high technology, I told it to stop taping in a couple minutes.
Whew!
I waited at the front of the theatre. This theatre was inside a mall. Why? So I could escape in time if Sora said the wrong stuff. But I leaned againest the wall, near the entrance. I wore my sport jacket and my jeans. Agumon stayed at home with Kari to watch a all day a thon with T.K and Patamon (cute kids.).
I heard people, lots of teens my age with their friends going to watch a movie. Oops. Forgot. I was so washedup with the Sora business, what movie were we going to watch? Well, I'll get some popcorn and drinks while watching too, but what movie?
Dang, dunno. K, quick survey from bypassers. If not, I'll ask Sora. First guy was a little midget. I tapped his shoulder. He looked at me.
"Yo! WAZZUP! Whoa! Your not Chris! Hey! Whad ya think ya doin then? Planting a bug on me? Look, me a midget, but me a strong wrestlin pro! Don't mess with me kid!". I peered behind me to the movie selections and turned to the midget. He stripped off his motorcycle jacket and had a green tank top on. He also had a cigar in his mouth and both fists up.
"Um, which movie do you suggest?"
"Huh? That all kid? Outta those four over there, I'd say Evolution. Who wants to see 102 Dalmations, Unbreaable, or East faces Me? Or whatever the heck. GOTTA GO!" he picked up his jacket and left. I sighed and laughed.
Next person turned out to be Izzy. He said either Evolution or Unbreakable (big Bruce Willis fan). The other people said Evolution. So I think Evolution was up. By the time Sora got here, was only a minute after the last survey person.
"Hey Tai, what movie did you want to see?" she was happy. I knew why. I only shrugged. Guess she mistook a cold shoulder. But I responded back. You see, most people misunderstand other people ALOT.
"Um, wanna see Evolution?" Sora shrugged, but gave a smaller smile. I didn't smile back, okay, a hlaf-smile, but it faded soon. We walked by each other towards the ticket booth, I bought the two tickets, while Sora ventured to the food. I kinda found it funny.
Well, we got into our seats 10 minutes early. Near the back. Sora sat on the inside, I sat on the edge of the row of back seats. About 5 rows from the back. Trust me, huge place. I didn't want any snacks. My stomach ached for the truth. I was too scared to let it out and ask. BUT I HAD TO! It was killing me, it was itching me, did she.... did he... oh gosh Tai, let it out. Just ask- wait, if you break down and cry in the middle of the movie, I'll be one embarassed person at school.
"Um, Hey S-Sora.. I, uh, I have some, uh, questions to ask you.. guh, uh... well two of them." She looked at me. I think she thinks I'm a psycho. But she still answered me back with a "yes, go on.." face. I took in a deep breath and took out a lot of courage.
"Well... sigh... d-d-d-do... doyoulikeMatt? Um, sorry, I mean, um... do you .. like as in.. like like like... Matt?" I just couldn't bring out the l word. THE l word. Too stressful. Sora shrugged and smiled, looking back at the blank screen as it started to fade to the shadow black colour. The movie was going to start, whoopee. People won't see me then.
"Yes... he's so cute. His hair, his eyes, he's the best all star rockster around!" she sounded.. so.. so proud, filled with pride syaing that very phrase. I was just broken then, but I knew I had to ask my next question, even though I knew the answer.
"Um, does he like.. like... you back?" It was too sad sounding. Like I was giving in to something. But I wasn't really, well, actually... maybe I was. No. I just wanted to see Sora happy. And she was happy. But it just didn't seem right. I wasnted her to be happy, of course... but with me... but that's fine. Matt will take... Ma- I can't SAY HIS STUPID NAME!
"Well, yes Tai... Tai, are you okay? What's wrong? Are you crying?" I was, I admit. My eyes were probably red. I stood up, hearing complaints from the back. So I slipped into the walkway and looked back at Sora, well, not really. My head was bent down, too scared to face her, too embarassed to.
She was on the edge of her seat, staring at me. Looking like a poor, stupid, big, baby in the asile. I turned to the door, but before walking away, I said, sniveling....
"S-sora.... I gotta go somewhere... um, I forgot.. s-s-sorry to leave early..." and with that, I walked away. Sora just stayed there, in shock.
Outside, I saw Agumon waiting for me. He got off his hind from the all day a thon to accompany me... to where I was going to. I looked at him, he looked at me. We nodded, and walked away into the park.....
Well, I'll make it a two parter. I haven't been writing for a while because of my laziness, and I was reading other stories. I still find it sick of how Taito is probably the most popular stories here, besides Takari which is okay. I DEMAND TAIORA!
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