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just felt like writing this, so I did…anyways, review!^-^
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Dearest,
As I am
writing this letter, I feel time drifting away. I sit here and wonder, what has happen to us, how the time flew
by so painfully. I've watched you as
you worked, practically marrying your job.
I stood by and did nothing. I
made myself believe that you work to make sure that we have more than enough
money to spend. But in my heart, I know
it to be false. We own the richest
company in the world! Still, I lied to
myself, and now I know it was to ease the pain of your neglect. I watched as you treated your employees and
clients so much better than you treat me, your own wife. I watched as you would just barely glance my
way. I stood by and did nothing as you
don't acknowledge how I dressed up nice, just for you, yet suffocate your
clients' daughters/wife/associates with compliments and flatteries, while I,
your wife, stand alone, hoping to catch a glimpse of approval on your
face. To catch a smile on your
lips. To catch a look of appreciation
in your eyes.
Your
face…how I remember how you use to look at me so well. I remember feeling my heart soar as you
would grin and acknowledge every little thing.
You would take notice of a nice outfit, a new hairstyle, new perfume, or
even the change of jewelries. You would
grin that sweet grin of yours, your eyes twinkling with love, and compliment
me, flatter me. Make me feel as if I
was the only thing, the only one that mattered. I remember how your face would take a look of determination, of
protectiveness, when I was hurt. Your
eyes shone with love when you looked at me, and I know, my eyes reflected to
same love. Now, your face is stone. The times you do take the time to notice me,
your face is…devoid. Your eyes don't
twinkle with happiness, shine with love.
I hope and search for even a trace of a smile, but I see not. Your face…seems to show that you are not
happy with me. You never bothered to
even give me a chance…even as I continuously tried everything to please; you
showed nothing to acknowledge me.
You never
seemed to notice, as my face would light up even when you just entered the
room. My heart would beat faster and
faster. My eyes would shine with love
and a smile would grace my face. I
would, as fast as I can, apply make-up, put on a change of nicer clothes, redo
my hairstyle, and add a hint of perfume, in high hopes of catching your
attention. My hopes would crash shortly
afterwards, as you would barely acknowledge my presence. Even though the same results greeted me time
after time, I still held faith. Faith
that you let me know that you still cared.
It hurt. It hurt every time you smiled at another, whereas you couldn't
even spare a glance my way. It killed
to see your eyes shine with happiness while you were with friends or clients,
whereas your eyes were dull and lifeless around me. My heart shattered when I realized you were happier with others,
than you were with your own wife. It
shattered more so, every time you smiled and laughed with another woman. You would ignore me, standing by.
What was
left of the shattered pieces of my heart shattered and crumbled into dust that
night. That night I decided to visit
you in your office. You had been under
so much stress that week. It shattered
when I walked into your empty office.
You had lied to me. You had told
me that you were at work late into the nights.
But you lied. I walked around,
and by luck I found you. You were out
with your friends, laughing. Truly
laughing! And I realized the painful
truth then. You don't love me
anymore. And then I came to a
conclusion. Another had stolen your
heart. And it hurt love, it hurt more
than anything I had ever felt. Not even
getting my heart crystal stolen could compare to this pain. Having my heart crystal stolen felt like
paradise compared to this pain. This
aching in me.
I remember
before we were married. Then,
everything seemed to come from a fairytale.
You were my prince in white armor, my savior. When others hurt me, you saved me. When my friends and I argued, you consoled me. You protected me, consoled me, loved
me. Never a day would pass, when you
wouldn't let me know you loved me.
Never a minute would pass that I couldn't depend on you. You would drop everything at a second notice
for me. I did the same for you. And I remember how sweet you were. How
protective. Everyday, at my doorstep,
would await a dozen roses in full bloom.
Even in winter. Every date began
with me receiving dozens of flowers, and ended with a long kiss goodnight. With you holding me, refusing to let me go. You would say that the pain in your heart
was too great for even you to bear when we were apart. And I would melt in your arms then and
there. I remember how your eyes would
flash with jealousy when another guy would look my way. How your eyes would hold regret when I
turned down a boy, for a dance, for a movie, for anything. Your eyes would hold regret that I turned
down a boy for you. You would tell me
how I was too good for you, and I would have to reassure you that it was false.
And I remember how nervous you
were, before you proposed to me. I
remember that night so clearly. We had
gone out on a boat ride, you took me to a beautiful garden. Then afterwards, we had a romantic dinner by
the pier, watching the sun set and the stars appear. You brought me to walk by moonlight at the beach. You continuously told me you loved me, and I
told you I loved you. When we left the
beach, we just walked around, enjoying each other's presence. Somehow, you made it so we arrived at the
park. Once again, we took a boat ride,
however, this time by moonlight. You
went through so much trouble. The boat
was decorated with flowers. In the
middled of the lake, directly under the moonlight, you proposed. I was speechless, and you feared
rejection. When I was able to speak, I
answered yes. You seemed to burst with
joy and as we kissed, you slipped the ring onto my finger.
Our wedding
day was a glorious day. I remember how
nervous you looked, at the head of the alter.
And I remember as you vowed to love me forever. To cherish me, to never let me go. I remember as you kissed me so passionately
when finally, we were pronounced man and wife.
I remember bursting with joy that glorious day. But love, it wasn't the wedding that made me
burst with joy. It wasn't the fact that
we were finally married. No love, it
was you. It was your smile, your
eyes. Your eyes shone with more
happiness and love than ever. And love,
that was what kept me going all these years.
I remember
your sweet kisses, your gentle caresses.
I remember your loving voice, caressing me, surrounding me with its
sweet words. Forever, I could gaze into
your deep endless eyes. I remember the
security you made me feel. Most of all
love, I remember how you made me feel complete.
But now
those days are gone. What
happened? Our honeymoon was paradise,
but slowly our marriage crumbled. Your
sweet words diminished with your love.
Your gentle caresses vanished with your kisses. The love in your eyes was replaced by a
void. The warmth of your body beside me
in bed at night was replaced by the coldness of your missing body. The attention you gaved me decreased till
you barely acknowledged me.
Love, on
our wedding day, you vowed to love me forever, to cherish me, to never let me
go. You lost your love for me. You stopped cherishing me the day our
honeymoon ended. And you let me go, the
day you love for me began to fade. I
guess I knew it wouldn't last. It was
too good to be true. Do me one last
favor love, you may no longer love me and have lost me, but love, don't do the
same to our daughter! The daughter that
pines for your love. She breaks my
heart when she asks me why her father hates her so! It pains me so, how you didn't even know that she was born! It was as if adding salt to a wound when I
would hear her cry that it was her fault her father didn't love her. Everytime you missed a birthday, a party, an
important occasion, she blamed herself.
And I knew it wasn't her fault.
It was mine. Perhaps if I had
loved you more, if I had derserved your love, you wouldn't ignore her. Do you truly hate me so much that you cannot
bear to look at your daughter because she is a part of me? Love, please, cherish our daughter! Don't let her leave! Don't loose her!
I don't
know what I did wrong. Love, I'm
sorry. I'm sorry that I couldn't be the
woman you love. I'm sorry that I
couldn't pretend that I didn't care.
I'm sorry that I didn't love you enough. I'm sorry love, I truly am.
I'm sorry that I wasn't worth your time, much less your love. I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you
ignore me so. Most of all love, I'm
sorry that I failed you as a wife. And
I'm sorry that you couldn't find the
woman most worthy of your love because of me. I'm sorry love, from the bottom of my heart,
I am so very truly sorry.
Please let
Rini know that I am sorry that I cannot be there for her. Please let Rini know that I love her more
than life itself. And love, please let
Rini know, that no matter what, I know that her father loves her. Please, promise that you will love and
cherish Rini, for she is more precious than life itself.
Much
love,
Serena
Tsukino
Trunks read the letter, then reread it. She had thought herself a failure? And because of him? She had thought he didn't love her? And even then, she loved him. He had ignored her. Shunned her. Why? Because of
fear. And now, as the tears ran down
his cheeks, he realized he feared the great responsibility. He feared that he might fail as a husband,
and later, as a father. Yet, he would
had succeeded at both, if only he had not allowed himself to think through his
fear. Hai, he had told her that he was
working late in the office, and he had.
But Goten and some of his friends had shown up and persued him to go out
to eat with them. Gods, he loved his
wife more than anything in the world.
He was a fool. He didn't let her
know. He had thought she would have known.
He took her for granted. He didn't even let her know that he knew of her
presence! And now..she was gone. He sunk to his knees, and the tears flowed out
full force. He let out a moan of great agony…a
moan of a lost love.
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Serena glanced sadly around her one last time. She would have signed the letter Serena Briefs,
but seeing as Trunks felt no love for her, she felt it more suiting to sign it her
maiden name. She felt so guily leaving Rini
behind, but Rini needed Trunks more than he would ever know. She knew the love of a mother, and now, it was
time she knew the love of a father. Serena
glanced at the place she had called home since she married Trunks, at the age of
18. It had been her home for the last nine
years. Today, was their ninth wedding anniversary.
Rini was only eight years old. She hated to leave Rini behind like this, but
it was for the best. And with that, Serena
spreaded out her wings, and flew to her original home. The moon.
'Perhaps you can truly be happy now, love….'
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In her bedroom, Rini cried. Her mother had left. She didn't
know how she knew, but she had felt it. Her mother left. The only person
who loved her left. She cried her heart
out as it sunk in that her mother left. Why? She didn't know. Though her mother often seemed sad, she put on a happy front for her
daughter. She didn't know what had upset
her mother so much…but she knew it would be hard to forgive the reason.
Looking at the moon, she could have sworn that she saw an angel
flying towards the moon and giving her a gentle smile.
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Ok…I don't know if I should do a sequal and have a happy ending
or not….and please review…please? If you
want a sequal, it would be smart to review!^-^
