Two Steps Behind by Kai
Disclaimer : I don't own them, no...
thanks Sunrise, and for the song 'Two Steps Behind' from Def Lapperd, I
think it's the OST but I can't figure out which one (very oldddd, Local
Hero? or Last Action Hero? ne?) don't sue me coz I have nothing you want,
just my oldie computer and my sick brain..
Pairing : 1+2
Warning : Yaoi, songfic, Angst
Explanation : lyrics is in //--//,
thinking in '--', conversation in "--", flashback ##--##
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-Two Steps
Behind-
By Kai
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- A guest bedroom in Quatre's mansion
-
1 A.M. read the glowing digital clock
on the nightstand. The dark figure shook his head restlessly and sighed.
Someone would have heard Heero Yuy if they had been in the room with him.
'I want to sleep... Damn it! I need
to sleep'
He tried to keep his mind blank,
as he pressed his head into the pillow. Minutes passed... but still sleep
evaded him as he curled his body into a ball around the blanket. He sat
up in the messy bed, and clumsily walked to the bathroom. In the darkness
he stumbled on something on the floor. It was his jacket that Duo borrowed
from him last night when Duo had gone dancing.
'That baka! Why doesn't somebody
tell him not to mess with others peoples belongings!'
Heero threw it to the corner of the
room where the basket for used clothes was. He turned on the light in the
bathroom, and looked at his face in the mirror and cursed himself.
"Damn it, why can't I just sleep?"
He walked to the sink and splashed
cool water over his face, and stood there for a moment. He sighed and retreated
back to the bedroom. He knew deep down what exactly was disturbing him,
and he would never get any sleep if he didn't make sure Duo was alright...
So he made up his mind to get dressed
and go look for him. When he reached downstairs he found Rashid, who still
hadn't gone to bed yet.
"Mr. Yuy, are you planning on going
somewhere?" Rashid asked because Heero wasn't wearing his usual green tank
top and spandex. Instead he wore a pair of jeans, and a loose unbuttoned
blue shirt.
"Somewhere around here, and you can
just call me 'Heero'".
Rashid nodded, and asked if Heero
needed a driver. Heero gently refuse while buttoned his shirt. He said
he could go by himself, and would be back before dawn. When he reached
his black Harley and ignited it, he still wasn't sure what he should do
if he met Duo at his usual club. He shouldn't go there without reason,
but he couldn't bring himself to tell him. His reason would break their
relationship into pieces...
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Duo was having a good time at the
club with Hilde. Sometime after the end of the War he and Hilde had became
lovers, they tried to end each other's loneliness and retrieve the life
they once had again. Hilde felt though that Duo had lost something during
the war, maybe his true self.
## Duo's flashback##
-Gundam hunger in Chieng Mai at THA
point-
"Heero I have a bad feeling about
this mission, I really don't think you should go alone" Duo paused to watch
Heero's statement. Then continued "I'll go with you"
"That's not necessary, you should
stay here just encase more information comes in from the professors" Heero
replied with his usual steady voice, looking away from Duo.
"Look Heero, I know you can accomplish
any damn task they give you, but you shouldn't do this alone!"
"The less numbers there are, the
greater the chance of not being spotted"
"Damn you Heero, you can not complete
a mission if you're a dead man, UNDERSTAND!" Duo was overwhelmed by his
anger, he knew Heero didn't like him talking about the possibility of failure
before a mission, but this was important to him.
"But if you stay here, you will be
alive. You'll be able to finish it for me, won't you?" Heero raised his
head to look at the braided pilot. His cobalt blue eyes looked right through
him. Duo wasn't sure what he saw behind those eyes. Anger? tenderness?
sorrow? or... he couldn't tell, but one thing he was sure of, he would
never forget that look.
//Walk away, if you want to
It's okay, if you need to
Well, you can run but you can never
hide
from the shadow that creeping up
beside you//
##End flashback##
"Duo, what are you thinking about?"
Hilde lifted her head from his shoulder, when she noticed that Duo had
stopped paying attention to her.
"Nothing. Why do you always ask that
question" Duo frowned and shoved her aside "I really hate it" he said simply.
Hilde had annoyed him for disturbing his deep reverie of his partner.
"Why did you say that?" she paused,
and then continued flippantly "I was just asking". Unknown to Duo and Hilde,
their argument was attracting a considerable amount of attention. Until
one man yelled at them to shut up, Duo didn't care what other people thought.
He really didn't know what had gotten into him tonight, so he shouted back
at the man.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Heero parked his Harley and went
to go inside the club, but as soon as he reached the door and opened it,
he was confronted with a loud noise of people screaming and cheering. It
seemed to Heero that all the customer's in the club had gathered around
the central stage. There appeared to be a fight going on between one man
who was approximately 6 foot 5, bald and covered with muscles called Kurt,
and a skinny braided boy...
'Skinny braided boy! What the hell
has he gotten himself into?' Heero thought. Heero listened to the deadly
encouragement from the crowd, and noticed that Duo was drunk. Luckily though
not enough that he couldn't handle this guy, he was after all a well-trained
Gundam pilot.
Kurt tried to punch Duo in the face,
but Duo was very good at evading. He used his smaller and more agile body
to his advantage. After a few minutes of chasing, one of Kurt's friends
who stood at the ringside caught Duo wrists and held him still. Kurt rushed
to Duo aiming his fist at him, but just as Duo was knocked out Heero struck
a bottle of whiskey over Kurt's head. He fell to the floor, and silence
made it's way through the room as Heero gave everyone his usual death glare.
//There's a magic running through
your soul but you can't have it all//
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Heero carried Duo back to Quatre's
mansion. Duo remained unconscious all the way due to his inebriated state,
and Heero was thankful that he did, as Duo might be more of a problem to
him.
4 A.M.: Heero laid Duo on his bed,
because Duo's room was locked and he failed to find the key. He took of
Duo's boots and pulled his shirt loose, adjust other things for his comfort.
When he finished he stepped back to admire the little body in his bed,
and he realized that he forgot to unbraid his hair. Reaching out his hand
he suddenly found his wrist caught by
the sleeping Duo. He had almost
fallen on top of Duo, but he fast enough to use the other hand to keep
his balance. Now his face was inches apart from Duo, and their lips are
even closer. Heero kept still, watching the pale beauty in the moonlight.
Why was his heart beating so fast?
What reason could there be? But he knew why, and he knew who did it. He
let out a small sigh, and smiled when the wind from his sigh made Duo purr.
Heero shifted aside, and freed his wrist from the captor, moving to sit
in the faraway chair.
//Whatever you do, I'll be two steps
behind
Wherever you go, and I'll be there
to remind you
There is only takes a minutes of
your precious time,
to turn around, I'll be two steps
behind//
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
7 A.M., 3 hours passed, but the perfect
soldier still sat at the same position, watching how the rays from the
rising sun reflected upon Duo's face. 'Soon he's going to wake up' so Heero
went down to the kitchen, and met Quatre and Trowa having their breakfast.
"Good morning, Heero" Quatre said
to him, and trowa nodded in participation.
"Morning, where can I find the painkillers?"
He asked.
"In the cabinet. Wait a sec, I'll
get it for you" and Quatre left the table to go look for them.
"I guess you're not the one who needs
the painkillers" Trowa remarked, but Heero just kept silent and waited
for the Arabian pilot, "Breakfast?" Trowa offered, Heero responded by shaking
his head. When Quatre got back and handed him the bottle of painkillers,
Heero left without saying a word.
"He's gonna be okay, don't worry"
said Trowa when he saw the worry in Quatre's eyes.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Heero opened the door to his room
and found Duo was still asleep. He placed the bottle and glass of water
on the nightstand. He walked to the bathroom, and filled the bathtub with
the warm water. Testing it over and over again to make sure that it wasn't
too hot. He washed his face and looked at his reflection in the mirror
above the sink, trying to curve his lips into a smile, but it turned out
bitterly. He shrugged and dried his face before entering the bedroom once
again, taking one last glance at Duo, he didn't realized that he smiled
before he left.
//Takes your time, to think about
it
Just walk a line, you know that
you can fight it
Take a look around, you'll see what
you can find
like a fire that burning up inside
you//
It was 7.30 A.M. when Duo woke up.
His head felt like a hammer was being pounded against it. He shifted his
head and found the painkillers and water on the nightstand. He took them
and tried to sit up. Looking around, he realized that he was in Heero's
room.
'Heero? Why am I here?' he thought,
and he could still smell the alcohol from his breath. Deciding not to sleep
in Heero's bed any longer he thought, 'When did I take over his room? Did
I wake him last night? But how did I get here?' he walked to the bathroom
and found a already filled tub, Heero wasn't here anyway?
After he finished his bath he went
downstairs, Wufei was cooking his breakfast in the kitchen.
"G'morning Wufei, where is everyone?"
Duo asked in a sleepy voice.
"Mission! you baka, actually you
were assigned to this but Yuy said he'll go instead. Winner and Barton
are on the sub team, this is very serious!" Wufei said, but he still kept
chopping the ingredients.
"Heero didn't mention anything to
me?" asked Duo.
"No, but Winner said Yuy didn't get
enough sleep over the past few days, and his body wasn't ready for this.
He's kinda worried"
"What! So why did you all let him
go? Why didn't you go instead?"
"Don't take that tone with me, Maxwell",
now Wufei pointed his knife angrily at Duo's throat, "Remember that last
mission that I went on with you? Because of your reckless action, Nataku
was shot and heavily damaged. Now it's still in the hanger, and I'm FIXING
IT!" Wufei stepped back a little to calm himself down, lowering the knife
"And for this mission, do you really think that the enemy would wait until
you wake and sober up!"
Duo thoroughly felt guilty, he knew
that over the past months he didn't perform well in both missions and relationships
involving his comrades. If Heero didn't come back safe, it would be his
fault, just like that time at THA point. Heero wouldn't let him go because
it was too dangerous, he said Duo were completely useless. Duo knew though
that Heero just said that to keep him out of trouble, Heero always protected
him...
'God, Heero...be safe...'
//There's a magic running through
your soul but you can't have it all//
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The days and nights passed, and Duo
could only sit in front of the communicator waiting for someone to contact
him. Unfortunately this mission had taken them to Siberia, and it was known
that this time of the year brought 'The White Hurricane' (*). It wouldn't
surprise him if they didn't send any contact back.
"Maxwell it has been almost 3 days,
you should get some sleep." Wufei said while passing a hot mug of
milk to him.
"I don't think I can Wufei" Duo moved
to sit on the white oak floor, and rested his head against the sofa, "Jeez.
What's wrong with this damn radio!!"
Wufei had watched Duo's temper rise
and fall over the past 3 days, and he knew that it was useless to say 'It's
gonna be alright' because it wasn't alright.
Beep Beep, 'that has to be a signal
contact from them', Duo thought. He grabbed the headset in no time, and
asked.
"Everything alright?"
"..Zzz..ZZ.Z..Du...Zzz..I'm...ZZ..Trowa..safe..ZZzzz..Heero..missing..Zzz?"
and the communication went dead. Duo's heart felt like it was breaking.
'Heero was missing'. He tried to re-establish contact, but it didn't work.
His hands starting trembling, and he brought them to his face. Sobbing
violently into them before his world turned black, falling into Wufei's
arms.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
2 days later, Duo awoke in Heero's
bed. A smile of delight washed over his face as he thought that Heero must
have carried him here. He heard the door being knocked.
"You're awake at last!" said Wufei
peaking his head round the door, and then retreating again to go find the
others. A few moments later, Quatre and Trowa followed by Wufei came in.
"Oh Duo I'm so relieved. You've been
asleep for over 2 days" Quatre said while watching Trowa help Duo to sit
up.
"What about Heero?" his head couldn't
think straight anymore.
"Uh, umm, we're trying to find him!"
replied Quatre.
"What do you mean, he still hasn't
come back?" Quatre broke eye contact with Duo, as he wasn't sure how Duo
felt about this.
"Heero was having problems piloting
Wing. He must have pushed himself over the limit, because I saw that he
got shot when he could have avoided it. He wasn't as fast as he should
have be!" said Trowa calmly.
"That might be my fault. I think
I disturbed him the night before the mission" he hung his head guiltily.
"It's not your fault Maxwell, Yuy
didn't sleep well for days before the mission. I used to see him taking
sleeping pills, and the night before the mission Rashid said Yuy went out.
He might have found you along the way back, I guess?"
"But why did he go out?" Quatre asked
Wufei.
"Don't know, he didn't tell Rashid
that"
"Anyway are you feeling better? wanna
get up?" Trowa asked, because Duo's statement still looked bad.
"Nay, I need a little more sleep
please." and Duo shifted to his side, the three of them looked at each
other and left.
'Heero? Heero where are you, I ...
I miss you... Heero... I love you...'
//Whatever you do, I'll be two steps
behind
Wherever you go, and I'll be there
to remind you
There is only takes a minutes of
your precious time,
to turn around, I'll be two steps
behind//
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A few hours later?
Duo was having a nightmare. He dreamt
of his orphanage at Maxwell church. Dreaming about the day that everyone
was burnt alive inside the holy chapel, and he was the only one who escaped.
He watched as they were screaming, and crying for help. He had let them
die, he let everyone he loved die, and Heero, Heero...
"Heero? Heero..." he was talking
in his sleep. His head and hands were tossing mindlessly. A pair of strong
hands reached out and held him tightly. One of those hands started to soothe
his hair lightly as he inhaled the scent of his hair, and whispered softly.
"You're safe now Duo, I always protect
you"
//Whatever you do, I'll be two steps
behind
Wherever you go, and I'll be there
to remind you
There is only takes a minutes of
your precious time,
to turn around, I'll be two steps
behind//
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Next morning, Duo woke to find himself
still in Heero's room. He held Heero's pillow tight as he felt the tears
well up inside him. He shook his head, trying to repress the tears back.
'I shouldn't let them worry about
me too much' and he got up and headed to bathroom. Opening the door lazily,
he found that the tub was already filled. Hesitatingly he lowered himself
in the warm bath, hearing the bedroom door was knocked and opened.
'Must be Wufei' he thought "Hey!
What's for breakfast Wu?" but no reply came. When he finished his bath,
he went into the bedroom. Wrapping a damp bathrobe loosely around himself,
he looked around the room, and found?
'Heero'
He was holding a big bunch of white
roses and smiling at him 'Heero's smiling'... Duo was speechless, and he
just stood there, not knowing whether this was reality or just another
fantasy.
"Quatre said you liked white roses,
so I just went out and brought you some. I hope you like them?" Heero asked,
but the braided boy didn't answer him. Duo ran to Heero, brushing away
the roses. He kissed Heero fiercely, drawing his body close to his, leaving
no space left untouched. Until they both parted feeling breathless? Duo
said.
"Damn it. I'm going to kill Quatre
for this. Fuck the roses, I didn't need them, only you Heero? just you.
I don't need anything else" Duo's hands clutched at Heero's shirt, afraid
ofletting go.
Heero smiled again, and hugged him.
//I'll be two steps behind...//
fin~
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Kai: I didn't write 1x2 much, eventhough
I like it too, is it ok? ^^'
feedbacks are most welcome (*^_^*)
(*)it's nothing, I've invented it
myself ^^'
Edited by: 'Miriya' ::big hugs::
