A/N: Hello imaginary peoples who dun like 2 r/r. I'm sorry if I've been a bit edgy the past few parts. You can probably tell by the way most of these have ended up. Itz probably b/c of my English teacher that's been pissin me off. Anyways, none of you need to hear about my problems tho. Just read and review, it'll make me feel a little bit better. Enjoy!
The Guy's Love Lives Pt:# 5- Cedric
by: me; Sunburn
Cedric's POV
I can't take this anymore
And I'm almost pretty sure
I've been here before
Where am I? Ah, yes, Pergutory. Dear old entrance for the dead. I get to stay here until I get enough prayers from my family and friends to allow me to enter Heaven.
I can't take this any longer
I won't heal until I'm stronger
Strong enough to not be afraid
Of what anybody thinks
Of what anybody says
About the way
About the way I am
I reminisce about the good old days when I was alive and healthy with my dear love. You were the only one that truly loved me for me and not for anything else. Right now, I'm just waiting for that special prayer that'll send me through. But the only defect is that..........I'm afraid.
So I'll wait until the day
When those feelings fade away
Then I'll make my break
What if they don't accept me into Heaven? Then, I'll go down deep into the shadowy depths of Hell. And I've heard it isn't pleasant down there. But until then, I'm just hoping and wishing that everything will be fine.
I can't take this anymore
And I'm almost pretty sure
I've been here before
I don't want to be responsible for me. I don't want to be responsible for anything. I just want to be free with the girl that I love. But I can't do that. Not anymore.
I can't take this any longer
I won't heal until I'm stronger
Strong enough to not be afraid
So I leave it up to you
Yeah I leave it in your hands
Respect your wishes and your demands
I leave it up to you. You're my only hope that can save me. It's your choice. It used to be to kiss me or not to kiss me. Now it's to send me to Heaven. Or send me to Hell.
But if it was up to me
Honey we'd already be back at home
And living out our dreams
Living out
If it was my choice, I wouldn't be here in Pergutory. I'd be down there with you in our home with our children, holding you and assuring my love for you every moment.
Everybody and everything I've known
Never taught me how to stand up on my own
Had to learn it from the one who let me go
Now I walk alone, yeah I walk alone, yeah
Living blissfully
I never knew the price I had to pay when I died. I lost my body, my capability but most of all, I lost you. You taught me the most important lesson of all. The Pain of Love. If I can survive watching you marry and love another, then, I believe I can do anything.
I guess you had to step away
To make me want to be
A bigger man, a bigger man than that
You've changed me for the better. Now I'm wiser, more shrewd. I know that everything happens for a reason and that you do not belong with me, but that I belong with you.
I need you by my side
As I take it all in stride
I put away; I put away my pride
Even though, I could be selfish and keep you to myself forever and ever till we meet again in Heaven, but I know that would just hurt you more than I have. So, I know what I have to do.
Oh I leave it up to you
Yeah I leave it in your hands
Respect your wishes and your demands
But if it was up to me
Honey we'd already be back at home
And living out.
I'm letting you go and setting you free. It's for the best. I know you need it. Because I know that it's not possible any more for me to be there with you in our home, with our children. I can only give you my love and blessing.
Everybody and everything I've known
Never taught me how to stand up on my own
Had to learn it from the one who let me go
Now I walk alone
Yeah I walk alone, yeah
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk, oh yeah
Well, I've got to go now. The Gatekeeper just announced that he recieved sufficient prayers for my arrival in Heaven. Thanks, love. I'll be waiting, forever till your arrival.
Disclaimer: Characters belong to J.K. Rowling. Song belongs to Oleander. The whole Pergutory thing I read in the book Tunes for Bears to Dance to by Robert Cormier.