I was settling in nicely in this world, its only been 2 weeks since I appeared on the other side of the well, but its being the happiest I've been in 3 years. I have been training with Kaede and even Jinenji who was helping me with herbs. I was only days a way from marrying Inuyasha.
" Hey Kagome." Sango said kneeling down to me, Inuyasha and Miroku had left again on another trip, leaving us alone.
"Hey Sango." I said smiling at her while I gathered the rest of my herbs placing them in the basket.
" Did you want to have tea with me today?" She asked. I nodded in agreement, I enjoyed tea with Sango and the kids. After I was finished we made our way back to her hut, I looked at the sky that was just starting to turn an orangeish pink with the setting sun. I chewed on my lip, feeling a sense of anxiety with wondering if Inuyasha was coming home soon. Inuyasha and Miroku left yesterday for a village just north of here, again to face another demon. I didn't know much about what they did while I was away but I've come to learn they were doing something of a sort of demon slaying. I didn't go along with him, I had obligations to the village now with my training, plus Sango looked like she needed an extra hand. I walked in the hut with her sitting down and taking the now sleeping baby.
"When do you think they are due home?" I asked as I gently rocked him.
"Hmm, soon if not early in the morning, I know Inuyasha doesn't like being away from you." She giggled while boiling some water. I blushed slightly at the thought. Although we are engaged to be wed, Inuyasha still wont sleep in the bed next to me, he prefers the door to the hut, keeping watch over the night. I put the baby down once the tea was finished accepting it.
" So Kagome, do you have any regrets?" Sango asked, she was the first person to ask me outright if I had any regrets about coming back.
"No, I always knew I was meant to be here, I wish I could see my family again but I know they are happy for me." I said taking a sip.
" So are you and Miroku done?" I giggled referring to the three beautiful kids.
" I think so, my pregnancy with my boy was tough, and I dont know if I can go through it again." She admitted. I thought about kids with Inuyasha but it wasn't something I brought up too him yet. I took another sip and kept thinking to myself, wondering about what our future would look like. From what I knew Inuyasha was an outcast for being who he was, and I know that effected his way of thinking. I also knew we were strong, an unbeatable couple and nothing would ever harm our family.
"What about you, have you thought about kids?" It's almost like she could read my thoughts.
"I want them, but I'm not so sure what Inuyasha would think." I said, Sango nodded understanding she knew what growing up for him was like. I put my cup down and felt anxious again.
"Dont worry Kagome, Inuyasha is fine." She said tapping my knee lightly. I smiled at her, Sango must understand having her husband leave so often. Inuyasha wasn't my husband yet, but in my mind we were connected in a way that was deeper then love or marriage. I mean our love and souls connected 500 years across time. I was a soul born again to meet him, to stand by him, to live our life right again. Nobody was meant to be more together then us. Shortly we would be wed, we would be ready to really settle down and thats all there ever was too it.
"Im going to go for a short walk." I said standing up, feeling the sudden urge to be alone. I grabbed my bow and arrows I kept here and made my way to the well sitting on the edge, it seemed like a good place to reminisce.
I mean, I came threw this very well over 3 years ago, my fate was sealed the day I crossed it. Meeting Inuyasha was no mistake, I was meant to free him from the bind Kikyo placed on him. After all I was her soul reborn, I think that and the shikon jewel in my body was proof enough I was always meant to find him. No matter what I was born too, my duty and obligation was always going to be in the feudal era.
I couldn't hesitate, if I did then I wouldn't have made it this far, no I was sure that my choices where always correct.
When Sango asked if I had regret, and I said no, I lied. I had some regrets like not spending more time with my family, not telling them truly everything I felt, not holding onto them as tight as I could.
Wasting to much time being jealous of Kikyo, instead of learning from her, asking her how to be.
I regret being afraid, afraid of what I didn't know.
Regret in not believing in myself.
But as I seen the flash of red come towards me, bouncing like a light in a dark hall. As I felt my heart speed up and my cheeks flush at the thought of him coming close. As I finally caught the golden eyes of my beloved.
I knew all the regrets
all the past mistakes
All the ups, downs, and turns.
Everything that felt wrong.
Was right.
As I stood to embrace him
I felt all regret fade, all wounds heal.
This is where I was meant to belong
All along, across time, eras and across unimaginable circumstances.
This.
This was my fate.
