Thank you all for the review. Dear I-love-Trunk-1 thanks for your loyalty to this story.
I won't apologize for the lemon or the coming up smuts.
I will though warn you for the depressing chapter.
If you have any depression history, are depressed or tend to get depressed quickly, don't read this chapter. I will sum up everything later.
He must leave today. He cursed as he felt her chakra and heard her coming closer to his room. He doesn't want to see her. He hates her. What she has done to him is unforgivable. She used him. She laughed at him. Then she has the guts to show her face to him again.
After Sakura arrived to pick up Sarada, she took Boruto to Hanabi for a sleep over. Naruto won't come home tonight. He is on a mission, he'll return tomorrow.
"Sasuke-Kun... Please don't leave." she stood at the doorframe of his room.
"Why?" His back to her. His upper body naked, he was about to take a shower.
"Because... Because..." she couldn't say it.
"What... The cat ate your tongue" he had such a dark aura. He was filled with anger and disgust.
He never talked to her like that before "What do you want?" He looked her in the eyes, coming closer.
"I want you to stay" she glimpsed at him, a little afraid.
He pushed her shoulder against the wall
"Why should I stay Hinata, what do I have here" face inch away from hers.
"ehm... Y.. You.. Your daughter"
"She has her mother... Plus why are you concerned?"
He moved closer to her face. "Say you want me to stay to toy with me" his eyes, looking deep into hers.
"NO.. Please don't say that" her eyes wide.
"Then what do you call what you're doing to me?" he narrowed his eyes.
"I... I... would never do that" her eyes started to water.
He whispered getting closer to her "You cook me delicious food... You give me gifts... You never leave me... You say soft words...you come closer... You touch me... Eh Hinata... What do you call it?" he whispered moving closer to her cheeks, her ear, her hair, her neck. Not touching, one hair close. His breath sends goosebumps with every word.
"Say it Hinata... What are you doing to me?"
his voice so low, so deep, soo sexy. She felt it's getting harder to breathe. She gasped softly every time he said her name.
"What do you want from me? ... Say it" his muscular lean naked body came closer to hers. Barely touching.
She felt her face heats up and her womanhood aches.
He looked so sexy, with broad shoulders, flat chest and shaped abdomen. She never saw him topless before. He looked admirable like a well carved sculpture. She couldn't hold her hands from touching him.
"Sasuke... Eh," she whispered so low, she didn't think she could speak.
She lifts her head back, wishing he may touch her on her longing neck. He didn't, but his breath did send chills on her body.
"Sasuke what? What do you need, tell me... Hi.. Na.. Ta?" he said in his slow voice, his head moved lower to her collarbone, never touching.
"Touch me… Sasu..kee!" she whispered, eyes closed, only her other senses are very active, very alert and very sensitive.
His smell is intoxicating, his voice is putting her on fire, his barely touching body is making her burning with want and desire.
He moved a leg between her thighs, barely touching her core. She lifted a knee up for him to have more access between her thighs. He pressed lightly. It was all he needed to do to set her on blaze.
"I wanted you Hinata, with all of my being, I wanted you with all of you. Then I burned for touching you, having you in every way possible. I wanted to touch you, to feel you, to smell you, to taste you... all over" she gasped and her hands moved up his chest.
"I wanted to be with you everyday, I dreamt of you, I longed for you for months maybe years" he whispered in her ear. She clutched his neck pulling him closer to her neck.
"I wanted to make love to you so much that it hurts. I wanted to feel your soft thighs around me" he brushed lightly her sensitive neck with his nose smelling her.
"I wanted to have you, to take you, to fulfil your dreams" she gasped loud and threw her head back more and her nails dug deeper into his hair.
"Oh... Sasuke" he killed her with his words, it's all she wants to hear, all she wants him to do.
"More... say more" she couldn't get enough, she wanted more, more of him... in her.
"I wanted to make love to you… every minute of the day"
"ah... what else" she was breathing heavily, clutching on to him with both hands like he would escape.
"All I ever wanted is impossible. You were impossible. You are his. You don't want to leave him. You played me all this time." he removed her hands and stepped back.
She opened her eyes in surprise. "Sasukee" she looked sad at him.
"You see this, this feeling, this torment, this agony, this burning, this longing, that unfinished unanswered desire, that neglected lust… that is exactly what you are doing to me." and he turned to leave.
She hugged him from behind. "Please don't go... It will kill me if you do. I can't live without you."
"Then leave him! " He was screaming now. He never screamed at her before.
She started to sob hard and shaking all over.
"You know I can't, I made a promise. "
"What do you want me to do? Wait on you forever? Do you want to have an affair? I won't mind but you can't handle it. Naruto would eventually find out. And your aristocratic family? What about your kids? What will they think of their mother? Can you live like that forever?"
She released him "no" and lowered her gaze.
He turned to her.
"Then let me go, I told Kakashi, Sakura and Naruto that only I can deal with the new problems we are facing. Kaguya has lairs with white zutsu still active. I have to travel dimensions to check on her old hideouts. That is half of the truth. The other half is, I can't do this anymore, your proximity is making my life hard, I have to go as far as I can from you. Go back to your life with your kids and your husband. Forget me. You have to make your marriage work. "
"Sasuke-Kun, what about me?" her life will collapse, nothing can replace him. No one. He is her everything more than she thinks.
"Hinata you are the one putting us in this situation."
"But... but... please I can't imagine coming here and not find you"
"you'll get used to it" he looked uninterested.
"No never, you know when Sakura was here, I couldn't come. I couldn't see another woman in my place. I dreamed of you."
He was silent, he knows that. He saw it all.
"You were in my mind day and night. You never left me. Your image was always with me. I dreamed of you making love to me, I longed for you so much, I couldn't wait till I saw you again. It was the hardest time and thing I did in my life." she confessed.
He lifts her up in his arm. Put her gently against the wall again. Pulled her leg around his waist. She lifted the other and clutched his waist with her legs for support, wrapping her arms around his shoulders. He kissed her sweet lips in a passionate soft kiss. Licking the nectar of her lips. Kissed her jaw and licked her sensitive spot under her ear and sucked on her neck.
"I know, I was there, I couldn't not see you" he whispered so softly.
He licked her collarbone and exposed her shoulder and kissed it.
"I saw you scream my name; I saw you arch for me; I saw you come for me; you drove me crazy" he lifted her lightly up.
She felt his hard cock, it was right between her clothed womanhood lips. It felt so delicious, almost where she needed it to be. She couldn't help it but rub on it searching for relief of the burning ache there. He could feel her damp core, her lust pit, it was clutching around him even behind fabrics. Damn fabrics. He groaned deep in his throat. And pressed more into her, grinding up and down trying to feel more of her.
"I felt you... you can mask... your chakraaah.. But.. You can't... Mask your scent... Ah... Not from me" she whispered out of breath, gasping every time he brushes her sweet spot.
He kissed her again, his hand under her trousers, holding her small waist.
"I wanted to make your dreams a reality, I wanted to touch you, to dive into you" he stroked more wanting to break through the fabric in vain.
He lifted her butt more rubbing her body viciously against his. She felt so wet. He cursed. He can't hold it anymore.
"I want you; I want you so much, I want you to be mine, mine alone."
"sasukee... ah I'm... ah umm... Sasukee... Yes... I'm comm..."she moaned out of breath.
"Come Hinata... Come for me" he groaned loudly.
She throws her head back holding her breath as she climaxes, holding his shoulders harder to her and wrapping him forcefully with her legs in place. He stroked a few more times and came in his -already damp with her fluid- pants.
She smiled at him finally after more than a year of longing for him, she felt relieved. It wasn't complete but it was with him. He will stay now.
He bends and rests his head on her collarbone. Still in that position, panting, barely believing what just happened.
Did they make love? Did they just had sex? Did they both cheat on Naruto? The blond doesn't deserve what they are doing to him. He is too nice to be treated this way. He suffered enough through his life.
Sasuke frowned and put her down slowly. He went to the bathroom ignoring her again. She felt his aura change like before. He stopped.
"In that time, I had promised you I would make your dreams a reality. Not sure if I will ever come back to Konoha or if I'll survive my mission. With this, my promise is fulfilled." he went to take a shower.
He stayed longer inside than should be. She went to the shower and found no one.
There was a big panda teddy and a note.
"For your new-born"
He left.
She woke up, the room was dark. It was already night. What happened? Her head hurts. She must have pumped it. She remembered what happened and where she was. She must have fainted again.
He left; he left her... FOREVER. She never thought he would really do it. Now that he was gone the reality hit her more.
Her brain is foggy, she can't think anymore. She felt her heart ache so bad.
She couldn't stand up. She curled in that place on the floor by the bathroom door. She couldn't even cry. Everything hurts so much.
She felt like an empty hole. She stayed like that until morning. Her mind is repeating her years with the Uchiha on the loop. Their talks, their memories, their touches. His face, his voice, the way he says her name, his smell oh his smell.
What will happen to her now, how can she live without him? He is gone forever. She will never see him again or hear him or touch him.
The sun rose and she was in the same place for hours. She collected her torn body. Took the panda teddy and went home. She cuddled with it and continued dazing in her bed.
Hanabi visited with Boruto a few hours later. She found her in her bed. Hinata didn't answer her. She looked in shock. The hyūga heiress sends word to Naruto. He was there an hour later.
"Sorry I couldn't come earlier, we had an important meeting. What happened to Hinata?"
"She doesn't answer. Look at her. She doesn't see us or hear us?" Hanabi was so worried about her sister.
"What should we do? Should I call Baa-chan? She'll know what to do, right?"
Tsunade and Shizune were there later that day. They checked all her vitals, there is nothing abnormal. They checked on the baby, everything is fine. They couldn't put their hand on what was wrong with her physically. It must be something emotional.
They tried to remove the teddy from her hold, but she wouldn't allow it and clutched harder to it. Tsunade recommended she rest for now and follow up on her condition with Shizune.
She didn't eat, didn't drink, didn't even move from her position, eyes wide open staring into space.
She stayed like that for days, Shizune would visit daily and check on her. Naruto didn't go to work and stayed home for three days before returning. Hanabi never left her side, she cared for Bolt too.
She washed her, brushed her long hair, changed her clothes, and talked to her about random stuff.
She never thought she'll see her -always shiny, strong, happy- sister in this condition. She looked like a dead body. No reaction at all. It pained her to see her like that.
And her poor son needed her. Hanabi and Naruto can never replace his mother. He looked so confused and didn't understand what was happening to her.
She tried not to let him see her. Not in this condition. She left him at the Hyuga residence most of the time. Hiashi visited his daughter a few times. Looked at her with concerned eyes then left.
No one understood why she was clutching that teddy for dear life or what was happening to her.
His mission starts at midnight. It was still late afternoon. Sasuke went to the Hokage tower to get his scroll, but he didn't find Kakashi 'he just left,' Shikamaru told him. The Sixth left the mission scroll for the Nara to handle.
"Are you sure you're going to leave your daughter for an unlimited time? This mission could take forever," said Shikamaru, concerned.
"I know what I'm doing, Nara." Sasuke heard this too many times.
"I will miss our Shogi plays."
"hm," he means, me too.
"Does this have a little to do with Hinata?" he looked at the Uchiha with narrow eyes. He was too observant.
"Maybe" Sasuke answered uninterested.
"I appreciate your sacrifice to save Naruto's marriage. I hope he does the same." Shikamaru was thankful.
"She didn't want to leave him" The truth was out and he had nothing to lose.
The Nara was shocked. He wanted to destroy his friend's marriage but Hinata stopped it.
"How far did you get involved with her? Did you have an affair?" He thought there was just an attachment. She won't leave her husband for just infatuation. There is more to it than he knew.
"It's none of your business Nara. Anyways, everything is over." Sasuke left.
"What a drag!" he was relieved. It was all over.
He still had time left, he wanted to see his daughter again. Sakura must be home by now. Actually, it was late, he hoped Sarada was still awake. Before he knocks on the door, he hears loud moans and noises.
He waited a minute to be sure. It was Sakura and Kakashi.. he could hear from the flesh slaps and noises they are having sex. She was screaming his name and he was panting and groaning.
He had heard enough. She was free to do what she wanted. But she must not forget, she is the Uchiha matriarch. She was supposed to be his wife. He hoped no one would ever hear them.
He was actually disgusted in a way. He left through the main gate of Konoha in the hope of never coming back to the damn village ever again.
After a few days, Temari told Shikamaru that Hinata is very ill and she never leaves her bed. No one knows why.
Shikamaru knows why and he planned on talking to Hinata. He visited the Uzumaki mansion, Naruto was at work.
"Can I talk to Hinata alone?" he requested from Hanabi.
"of course, but she doesn't answer so..."
"I understand, I just want to tell her something important"
"ok"
She left and closed the door.
Shikamaru sat on a chair next to the bed.
"I know it hurts that Sasuke left. Left you!. But you can't stay in bed forever grieving for him. Your son needs you and your baby needs you, to be strong, to go on with your life. Whatever was between you and Sasuke is over. You can't do anything about it. And staying like that won't bring him back. Naruto deserves a second chance now Sasuke is out of the picture. Maybe you can revive your love for each other. Forget Sasuke and start a new life with Naruto and your kids." he said, looked at her with soft eyes for a moment, then stood up and turned to leave.
He saw her eyes move following him. Tears started to flow from them. As he closed the door, she started to sob and scream so loud. He could hear her from downstairs.
"What a drag!" and he went back to work, while Hanabi hurried to her sister.
This is the first reaction from Hinata. She sobbed non-stop until she was drained and fell asleep for the first time in days. She slept for a long time. Shizune checked on her every day and made sure she was ok. Many people visited her. Temari, Kiba, Shino, Kurenai, and Mirai.
Others sent her flowers and hoped for her recovery soon.
At night she woke up crying his name, she was shaking and every part of her body hurt. She sat in her bed. "Sasuke, where are you? How could you leave me?" she sobbed realizing he is probably out of Fire country by now. She woke up from her bed and went to the kitchen and started making tea.
Naruto heard her in the kitchen and he couldn't believe it. No one dares to break into the village hero's home. She was awake. She left her bed. He followed her. She was making tea.
"Hinata you're up, I can't believe it, how are you feeling?"
"I'm better Naruto-Kun thanks for worrying about me. Do you want tea?"
"Sure, I'm so happy, we worried so much about you, Bolt, Hanabi and me. All your friends and family visited you. They sent you flowers and wished for your recovery. Even Sasuke told me to take care of you before he left." Naruto is Naruto.
"S...S... Sa...Sasuke" she whispered so low he didn't hear her. And her tea cup fell from her hand and broke to pieces on the kitchen floor.
Naruto was shocked and jumped to her. "Are you ok? Don't worry about it, I'll clean that. Come rest in your bed, I'll bring you tea. Do you want something to eat? You must be hungry. I'll make you instant ramen."
She was shaking again and sobbing. He brought her to her bed. She curled, clutched the panda teddy and covered her head.
She sobbed again until she fainted in sleep.
Naruto was so confused. She was ok just a moment ago. Is it something he said?
Sasuke sat under a tree. He walked for days without rest. He wanted to go as far from her as he could. Until his body gave up on him. He must eat and rest. He can't live on soldier pills forever. He was going to the land of waves Nami No Kuni like his first real mission with team 7.
He saw the Great Naruto Bridge for the second time and his heart ached at the memories of his deceived friend. How could he do that to Naruto for a woman that didn't deserve any of them?
He stayed in the village for days trying to collect information. Then he moved on to the next village.
At night he could feel her, her body, her scent, her hair between his fingers. She is moaning and arching in enjoyment and pleasure. Her panting and his name coming out of her sweet lips" ah... Sasukeee" he woke up panting, sweating, finding himself alone in his dark inn room. His groin aching and twitching.
He frowned and laid back in his futon. His hand on his forehead. For how long will this torture haunt him? For how long will this memory rotate in his mind? Can't he sleep without her rubbing on him, seducing him, caressing his neck, and clutching his waist with her thighs?
Even in the daytime, he sees her in every girl with long dark tresses. In every mother with a child. In every flower, in every pie, in every katsu, in every cinnamon roll, in every chicken and in every fucking tea cup.
With or without a reason, she would appear and then disappear leaving him overwhelmed and furious.
He hates to admit that he cried many nights for the loss of the love of his life. He hates her for bringing those feelings of frustration and despair in him.
He wore her cloak all the time. He just couldn't remove it; it meant a lot to him. It reminded him of the good moments they shared, the softness and warmth she brought to his cold heart, the love he had… for some time.
His life went on like that in sweet and bitter torment, like he must be hunted with some depriving memory.
He reports to the hidden village of the leaves every time he finds out new information with his famous hawk.
She woke up after days of unconscious, went to check on Boruto. He was asleep. She felt so sorry for him. For neglecting him and leaving him alone. She made breakfast and ate half of it, slowly. Then she woke him up, fed him, and tried to sweet talk to him. Then they went outside for a walk. She didn't want to go outside but her son needed it, with her.
Her feet brought her unconsciously to the Uchiha residence. Her tears started to run. She knows she can't find him. But she has the feeling, maybe, possibly he'll be there, waiting for her as he always does.
She grabbed Bolt in her arms and walked to Sasuke's room. He wasn't there. She curled in his futon with her son and started to sob silently.
She fell asleep with Bolt. They took a nape in the most comfortable place, the most fragrant futon. Sasuke's smell soothed them both. Boruto was so happy to be in the Uchiha house. He was always happy here. But his dear "Papa" as he calls him wasn't her. He calls him papa as he heard Sarada call him like that. He doesn't even know what that means. He thought that was his name. Sasuke loved to hear it from him. He was really like a son to him. He hoped Sarada would call him 'otou-san' but her mother was too modern for that.
They stayed most of the day there, Hinata lost in memories. Just dazed away. Boruto playing on the training ground.
She has no appetite but Boruto got very hungry. They went home and cooked dinner.
The next day they did the same. Except this time, she brought food and snacks for Boruto to stay longer. That was their routine for days.
The best part of the day is when she naps in Sasuke's fragrant futon.
She sees him everywhere in that house in the garden, on the porch, in the training ground in the tearoom. Cooking for her, hugging her in the kitchen, kissing her fingertips, licking her neck, pushing her against the wall and making love to her.
He told her he wanted her, wanted to be with her, to have her, he told her he wanted to take her. He made her lose control of herself and gave herself to him. He made her forget herself. He made her, forget that she was a married woman. That she was Naruto's wife. He took her to other places she never knew. Other worlds of pleasure and lust. She can never resist him, no matter how hard she tried, she was like a moth attracted to fire. Though it was burning, dangerous and it would kill her she couldn't stop herself.
Then he left her, just like that. Burned to dust, nothing except aches, worthless and lifeless.
evilqueen095 calm down I don't want you to end up in the hospital. Naruto is fiction dear! He is a drawing, he can't feel or read my story. Don't get all worked up like that.
Garaa had forgiven Sasuke and fought Urashiki Otsutsuki together. And they (Suna) attacked Konoha first. I don't understand why Temari would be angry with Sasuke after the war! She is Hinata's best friend not Sasuke's and she wants her to be happy (upcoming chapters). That is what friends do! Naruto didn't save Garaa for Temari. He saved him because he is like him. Because he feels for him, always alone like him. Temari was afraid to stay with Garaa 5 days in the forest at the Chunnin exam. Why would she be thankfull? Chiyo-baa-sama gave her life to Garaa!!! Besides Naruto wants to do all the work himself, I'm coming to that in the last chapter.
I don't like your disrespectful tone. If you want to discuss something I'm all ears. But on a civilized manner and with respect. Because I'm writing fiction you don't like, doesn't give you the right to be such an as...le.
Everybody else sorry for the long comment.
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