Message 1

To: Wormmom@digitalworld

From: "Ichijyouji Ken" ichijyouji_k@destiny.jp

Subject: I can't go to the Digital World

Dear Wormmon,

I can't go to the Digital World anymore. I suppose that's the first thing to say. I can't go tot he Digital World anymore. I can't run away. There's no portal. It doesn't come when I call. I guess there's no need for me anymore. I'm shut out. The D3 holds no meaning. Its just ... a memory.

I thought it would never end, Wormmon. Never! The end, its over. Gone in an instant, leaving me to wonder. I'm just sitting here. Sitting here atop my own bed staring across the room at a blank computer screen, hoping desperately that it will change its bit/byte mind.

But it won't, and I'm lonely. So lonely I could die.

Where are you, Wormmon? What are you doing? Do you know how much I miss you-need you?

Indubitably. You had faith in me when I didn't have faith in myself. Now I'm 16 years old and you're gone, like everything else precious to me. Its like it was all a dream, some fantasy I concocted to keep myself sane. But you aren't a dream. No, not the Digital World, and not you Wormmon, and I won't stop believing. At at least owe you that, for your belief in me.

At most ... At most I owe you my life.

What's that? Tears? It seems I cry an awful lot now. This world I live in has changed. Maybe its because I don't have you here anymore. Not even Davis or Yolei understands. They've found some way to go on with their lives. I-I just can't.

It's like an apocalypse around here now. Things are so dark. People-well, they just don't care! Every man's a kaiser. Every man's a Digimon Emperor.

And everyone but me hasn't learned the price of power. Oh, and did I learn. You showed me. I wish you could help me show them. They don't know-Don't know about those black collars, control spires- even the whips they wield. They don't know who all that they hurt.

It never was a game, Wormmon. It's not now. If you could se what people are doing you would cry. Cry like you did for me. I'm-I'm not the only man who strayed the path ... And other people can do much worse things ... You died for me. So many more are still suffering because of people like me. Forgive me. I still feel blood-stained. I feel like I'm on this band wagon, coasting down to Hades at 500 Kilometers an hour without escape. But its okay, because I'm not evil anymore. But it hurts me to see the others ... The others like me.

I know I've apologized for myself, but now I'd like to apologize for the human race. I'm sorry that we are not all as good as the Digidestined. I'm sorry you had to see that through me.

Tell the Digital World that I'm sorry. Tell them that I'm finally going to make amends. Tell them ... Tell them I'm going to believe in humanity like you believed in me. No more kaisers ... No more Digimon Emperors.

I'll do it for you.

Because you are my Digimon.

And I love you.

Always Yours,

Ken